Ryan's Love (21 page)

She threw her arms around my
neck.

“
I
know I might not fully agree with what is going on right now, but I
want you to always know that I love you; and I will always be here
for you whenever you need me,
”
she said sniffling.

“
Good. I need you to carry this darn bin to my car. Its
heavy,
”
I say laughing and squeezing her tight, kicking the bin
with my right foot.

She
sat back on her heels and let out a nervous laugh. But she did have
a smile on her face as she bent down and picked up the bin,
carrying it out the apartment door. I wanted to collapse into my
couch, but I knew I couldn
’
t. If I took just a
second to relax, I knew that someone might make their way to my
house to try and stop me. So I pushed on and gather up two other
bins and began to put all the other clothes and keepsakes that I
needed to take with me. When I finished Charlie was back up into
the apartment and carried the two other bins down to the car; and
plopping down on the couch next to me.

“
You
better be glad that I love you. Those darn bins were so
heavy,
”
she panted.

“
Charlie, why aren
’
t you married yet.
You are such a beautiful loving woman. I know men have to be
crawling all over you,
”
I ask?

“
Oh
no. After seeing what went on here, I don
’
t think I will
ever get the courage up to give myself fully to a
man,
”
she said.

But she quickly felt bad saying it,
when she saw the pained look on my face.

“
Oh
I
’
m so sorry for saying that. I should be more sensitive
to your situation.
”

“
You
were only being honest. I
’
ll be
fine,
”
I tell her putting on a strong face.

But I knew deep inside I was only
being held together by a weak thread.

“
Do
you need to use the bathroom or anything, because I think
I
’
m going to head over to the hotel now. I need a nice
long sleep; and I
’
m not going to get
any sleep here,
”
I
say.

She thought to herself for a second,
looked at her watch then looked back up at me.

“
Well
my plane comes in about two hours. So I
’
m going to catch
a cab to the airport and get me something to eat and well a stiff
drink, before I take off back home.
”

“
Are
you sure? I mean you can come to the hotel with me for a bit before
your plane comes,
”
I say.

She
smiles and replies,
“
No I think I better go, because if my head hits
anything remotely soft there I will be out like a
light.
”

She
seemed like she was trying to hurry out of here. Its was weird. But
then again, I really can
’
t blame her. Its been
a crazy crazy day; and I want to get out of here just as much as
she does. So I really don
’
t think too much else
about it and call her a cab, take one last look at my apartment.
Then I lock up and we both go downstairs and wait for the cab out
by my car.

“
Crazy day,
Huh,
”
Charlie says as we lean on the hood of the car, waiting for
her cab to come.

“
Yeah, I guess it has been. But at least I got to see my
best girl,
”
I say
grinning.

“
It
has been good to see you again. I hope that we can keep these
visits a lot closer together now,
”
she said and leaned over to hug me,
when the cab pulled up they beeped their horn; like we
weren
’
t standing right there.

“
I
guess thats me,
”
she says smiling then quickly hugging me, walking over
to the cab.

I follow behind her and watch her
get in cab.

“
Call
me when you get wherever your going,
”
she said as the cab
pulled off.

I waved and cried. I am totally
alone now.

I
wallowed in my own pity as I slowly walk to my car and get in. I
take one last look at my apartment, then I was off to the hotel for
the night. All the time knowing that when I wake up in the morning,
I will be off to some foreign place that wasn
’
t my
beautiful Boston. I cried knowing my life would never be the
same.

Chapter 12 (Ryan)

“
Ryan, what have you done,
”
my mom cried as she collapsed on the
floor of the foyer.

She cried and rocked back and
forth.

After
my father scoop my mother up and carried her off the their room and
getting her settled, he made he way back into the living room and
took a full bottle of brandy out of the bar and sat down hard on
the couch. The four of us just eyed him. I know him and I know he
is upset, and I didn
’
t want to say
anything to upset him anymore than he already was. So I quietly
walked over to where he was and sat down on the couch opposite to
him. He opened the bottle of brandy and took a massive drink
straight from the bottle. After two more deep gulps, he sat the
bottle down on the table in front of him and leaned back into the
couch.

With
his eyes closed he says,
“
This is going to be a
one time conversation. So I want you guys to think long and hard
before you answer any questions that I have for you. Because I will
not be lied to, and I wont be listening to this filth
again.
”

“
Yes,
sir,
”
we all say in unison.

“
Good. First I want to see this video everyone is raving
about,
”
he orders.

“
Dad.
I don
’
t think thats a good idea,
”
I say.

His head snaps up and he looked
something like the devil as he glared at me. He sat up on the couch
and looked straight at me.

“
Ryan,
I
’
m not going to ask you again.
”

“
Dad,
I
’
m not a baby anymore. You can
’
t scare me into
doing something,
”
I stupidly say.

I swear I could see steam coming out
of his ears. But he quickly masked that and grabbed the bottle back
off the table and took a couple more long drinks. Then quietly got
up off of the couch and made his way back to his room.

Damn, he is really
pissed.

“
Dad,
wait,
”
I call out to him.

He stops and turns and looks back at
me.

“
Patrick, go get the phone out of the bathroom for
dad,
”
I
say.

Patrick reluctantly gets up and
heads back to retrieve the phone. Dad walks back over to the couch
and sits back down.

Patrick walks back into the living room with the cellphone
and a pair of earphones. I assume so he wouldn
’
t have to
hear while Dad watched it. He hands them to Dad and stands as far
away from him as he could. I can
’
t say that I blame
him either. I wanted to be anywhere else but here
also.

“
You
guys might as well stop looming over me and have a seat somewhere.
I
’
m going to watch this whole video before we finally
talk,
”
he said as he put the earphones in his ears and sat back
into the couch and pressed play on the video.

We all
cringed as his eyes went wide as the video played. I see disgust
play all over his features as he watched the video.
I
’
m sure he never thought that he
’
d have to see
his own son
’
s doing something
like that, no matter what the reason. It took about 10 minutes for
the whole video to play. While he seemed a bit relieved as he watch
the last most important minute of the video. When he took the
earphones out of his ears and gently sat the phone down on the
table, I could still see he looked very troubled.

The
four of us didn
’
t dare say a word
until he did. I needed any help he could give in order to fix this.
We all wanted to know what he thought we should do. I need my
Sunshine and the baby back, and I know James wants his baby sister
back. All of us want mom to not be so sad. We want her to look at
us with love again, and not sadness.

“
Well
after watching the whole disgusting video, I have to say I maybe
can see why things happened why they did.
”

“
Thank you Dad.
I
’
ve been trying to say that all day,
”
I say, a little
relieved.

“
Shut
up. I
’
m not done talking,
”
he booms.

I shrink back and let him finish
what he needed to say.

“
As I
was saying. I am thoroughly embarrassed, disgusted, and
disappointed at the whole thing. What were you guys thinking? Why
did you get so drunk that you let the wretched woman trick you like
that,
”
he asked looking at the four of us.

“
Well
Dad. You see what she said to us to get us to do it. She had four
other men there with her. She had pictures of Sunshine and mom all
thru out their day. She even had pictures of the two of them asleep
in their beds.; and one of a man holding a gun pointed at
Sunshine
’
s stomach. We had to do it or she said that she
would make a call and have the people she had in the house shoot
mom and Sunshine. I couldn
’
t let that
happened,
”
I
cried.

I
didn
’
t care that I was this big 6 foot 3 man sitting on the
floor in front of man dad, brothers, and James crying like a baby.
I just needed him to understand why we did what we did, and help us
fix things.

“
Why
didn
’
t any of you guys try and contact someone? How did you
get in the situation in the first place,
”
he
asked?

Patrick spoke up this time,
thankfully.

“
Well
dad we were all at the hotel having a good time drinking and
laughing, teasing Ryan about having to change tons of poopie
diapers; when someone knocked on the door. We
didn
’
t think anything of it when Killian went to get the
door because we had ordered a ton of pizzas and wings. But when he
did, the door was kicked out of his hands, and he was knocked back
on his butt as Rachel and four other men with guns stormed into the
room. It was utter chaos after that. The men had the guns shoved
into our guts as she spouted off her demands. We objected with
everything she demanded until she showed us the pictures of mom and
Sunshine. Dad, we
’
re all so sorry and
disgusted with ourselves. Please forgive us,
”
Killian cried as he
rushed the whole story out.

“
Again why didn
’
t you contact
someone,
”
dad asked.

“
Those guys rushed in and had their guns in our stomachs
before we could do anything,
”
James said.

He was
only only of the four of us that wasn
’
t crying. But I know
its probably because this wasn
’
t his dad, and the
one person that mattered to him most wasn
’
t here right
now. He or I may never see her again.

“
I
see,
”
my dad said and took another long drink from his bottle of
brandy.

“
Dad,
what do we do,
”
I
ask?