Ryan's Love (30 page)

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“
Mr.
Callahan,
”
I short man said as he stood in front of me and the rest of
my family.

“
Yes,
”
I say standing up.

“
We
wanted to let you know how Mrs. Callahan was doing. When she was
brought in she was bleeding quite a bit. We were hard pressed to
get the bleeding under control.
”

“
What
are you saying,
”
I yelled grabbing onto his sleeve.

Please
don
’
t say that something happened to Sunshine or the
baby.

Mom grabbed ahold of me and
whispered to listen, that he was just doing his job.

“
I
’
m sorry Sir. I
’
m just anxious to
know what is going on. I need for them to be ok,
”
I say almost
pleading.

“
It
’
s ok,
”
he says them he continues on.

“
The
doctor
’
s found out she had placenta previa and there was so
much bleeding. We had to do an emergency c-section and remove the
babies from her before we could get the bleeding under control. As
soon as we did that she seemed to be ok. But soon after the surgery
was over she fell into a coma.
”

“
A
coma,
”
I cried out.

I
didn
’
t care who was there to see. I collapsed to my knees
and began to cry.

“
Please tell she she will be ok. I can
’
t live
without her,
”
I cried to the man.

“
There is no way of knowing when or even if she will come
out of it. All we can do now is wait and see.
”

“
Oh
no,
”
I
say.

My Mom
speaks up and asks,
“
Can we see her?
”

The
guy turns to her and says,
“
She
’
s up in the ICU now.
You all can go visit her whenever you would
like.
”

He gave us a sad look, then turned
and left. Leaving us in the family waiting room.

“
Mom
, what am I going to
do?
I need
her,
”
I cry into my Mom
’
s
shoulder.

She bent down and helped me to stand
up and lean on her for support. She smoothed her hands down my
back.

“
Son
the only thing we can do is be there for her, giving her all the
love and support we can; and pray for her to come to us
soon.
”

“
I
know your right Mom, it so hard thinking she might not comeback.
That I may never see her sweet smile again,
”
I mutter.

“
She
’
s going to be just fine. She is a strong woman.
She got my sweet baby boy to be good, so I know she is a strong
woman that will pull thru just fine,
”
My Mom assured
me.

“
She
is a pretty strong woman,
”
I laugh.

“
Hey
is it just me, or did anyone else catch that guy saying the
babies,
”
Sunshine
’
s brother James
said.

“
No
he didn
’
t, did he,
”
I ask looking around in
everyone
’
s thoughtful faces.

When
my eyes stopped on Mom, she was smiling big and said,
“
Well you are
a triplet. Maybe she had twins.
”

“
It
’
s not possible. I was there when she got an
ultrasound. There was only one heartbeat.
”

“
Sometimes they make mistakes,
”
Dad chimed
in.

“
Lets
all go up to the nursery to see,
”
Mom said.

“
I
don
’
t know. I want to go see Sunshine,
”
I said, trying to come
to terms with the turmoil I was feeling about who to go see
first.

Mom grabbed hold of my hand and
squeezed it.

“
Honey, I know you are plenty afraid for her right now, but
you have to go see the babies first. Then you can sit with her all
you want. Do want to not be able to answer her, when she wakes up
and asks you about the babies. I think she
’
d want you to go
see them, touch them, kiss them first.
”

“
Mom,
”
I
say.

She begin guiding my to the
elevator.

“
Everything is going to be fine, I
promise,
”
my mom says as we all squeezed onto the
elevator.

I
wanted to believe her, I wanted to believe that my Sunshine would
again shine her bright smile on me soon. I just
can
’
t help but be discouraged, because of what was going
on.

When the elevator dinged and opened
to the maternity floor, my Mom all but pushed me out the way trying
to hurry off to the nursery. I walked slowly behind her so I could
gather myself.

As
soon as I walked up to the nursery window a nurse was at my
side.
“
What
’
s your
name,
”
she asks?

“
I
’
m Ryan Callahan. My wife is in the ICU, earlier she
gave birth before she went into a coma,
”
I
answered.

I look of pity and sorrow crossed
her face; then understanding.

“
If
you come right this way I have a few papers for you to fill
out,
”
she says and walked to the nurse
’
s
station.

She then placed in front of me a
small stack of forms. I quickly filled them out the best I could.
She asked to see my I.D., then she gave me a band so I will be able
to go to the nursery whenever I wanted. When everything was taken
care of she walked me back over to the nursery window.

“
So
are you ready to see your babies,
”
she asked smiling.

“
So
she did have more than one,
”
I asked?

“
Yes,
”
the nurse said smiling.

Then she opened the nursery door and
lead me in. There were a few rows of pink and blue blankets wrapped
around sleeping and a few crying babies. I looked around to see if
I could tell which ones were mine. At the far end of the room there
were two sleeping babies. One had a pink blanket and one was
wrapped in a blue blanket.

“
A
boy and a girl,
”
I proclaim.

“
Yes,
they are very beautiful and well behaved babies. Would you like to
hold them,
”
she asks?

I just nodded and sat down in the
chair that she waved me to.

When I
sat down I could only be nervous. I don
’
t know how to
hold them. Will I drop them? Will they know me?

Two nurses walk over holding one of
the babies each. The first nurse placed the baby girl in my left
arm, then the nurse that brought me in here placed the baby boy in
my right arm. I immediately looked up at them.

“
If
afraid that I will drop them.
”

“
Most
man think the same thing. But I think you
’
ll do just
fine,
”
she said smiling them walking off, leaving me to have some
alone time with my babies.

They are so small and amazing. Their
skin is so smooth and soft. Their faces have such a peaceful look
on them. I could feel myself begin to tear up at how lucky and
proud I feel right now. I have two amazing babies.

I look up at the window when I hear
a noise, like someone tapped it. I see my whole family standing
there smiling. Mom was crying as she gazed at us. Dad was smiling,
with his hand on Moms back rubbing it. Killian was grinning
snapping pictures. Charlie had tears streaming down her face, with
Patrick leaning down whispering something in her ear. My family.
Its amazing that my whole family is here to share this moment with
me. I just wish that my baby Sunshine was here too.

“
Nurse, can I come back later to see
them,
”
I
ask?

“
Sure, you can come anytime of the night or
day.
”

“
Great. I
’
m going to go sit
with my wife. So I don
’
t know when I will be
able to get back down here,
”
I say.

She takes my son from my arms and
places him in his basket. Then comes and take my baby girl from my
arms. I want to stay longer, but I needed to go see my Sunshine. I
just hate for the babies to not have someone there with them all
the time.

As she ushered me out of the nursery
an idea came to mind.

“
Is
there any way that my Mom could get to see the babies when I
can
’
t be here,
”
I ask?

She
smiles and says,
“
You give one more person a band to go see the babies.
Just send her over to the nurse
’
s station whenever
you can and we will get her set up.
”

Great. I leave out of the nursery
and my family surrounds me.

“
Oh
Ryan, they are so beautiful. I
’
m so proud of
you,
”
my Mom says hugging me tightly.

“
Thank you,
Mom.
”

The
rest of my family and Charlie and James congratulated me on the
beautiful babies. I really felt nice to have my family here with me
to support me, but all I wanted was to be with my Sunshine. I
struggled thru the hugs and pats on the back before I finally
excused myself. But not before telling Mom that she and only she
was allowed to get a wristband from the nurse
’
s station
so that she could go in and be with the babies whenever she wanted.
I also told her that I needed for her to be with them as much as
she could while I was by Sunshine
’
s side. She was
nothing less than elated about being able to help take care of the
babies. After a hug, a kiss and goodbye
’
s from everyone
else, I made my way to my Love
’
s side and sat with
her praying that she would come to. I am willing to take care of
her as long as I need to. I love her.

Chapter 17
(Sunshine)

I feel
extremely tired but I
’
m not really sleepy.
I feel like my body is as heavy as a ton of bricks; and no matter
how hard I try I can
’
t open my eyes.
Sometimes I think I hear a man
’
s voice that sounds
far away, but then I quickly disappears. The last thing I remember
was bleeding on the bathroom floor of the hotel room, then I was
rushed to the hospital and into the operating room so the
doctor
’
s could see if they could stop the bleeding; and now
I
’
m here. Laying here wanting to get up but feeling like
a mack truck is sitting on my chest, holding me
down.

“
Sunshine, I love you. Please Honey could back to
me,
”
I faintly hear someone say.

I know its Ryan. I know it is
because I can feel him.

“
Ryan,
”
I screamed, but for some reason I don
’
t think he
heard me because I drifted back off into darkness only hearing him
tell me to keep fighting.

“
Ryan, Honey please go home and take a
shower.
”