Sacrament (17 page)

i

Rosa waited on the rock, listening, listening. They would be upon her soon, her pursuers. She could hear every
creak of their snowcaked boots as they followed her trail up the hillside to where she sat. One of them - there
were four - was smoking as he climbed (she could see the pin-prick of his cigarette, brightening whenever he
drew on it); one of them was young, his breathing easier than that of his companions; one took out a flask of
brandy every now and then, and when he offered it around, had a distinct slur in his voice. The fourth was
quieter than the others, but sometimes, if she listened very carefully, she thought she heard him murmuring
something to himself. It was too indistinct for her to understand, but she suspected it was a prayer.

Her exchanges with Jacob had been quite straightforward. She'd freely admitted to what she'd done in the
Courthouse, and told him he'd better get out of harm's way before the mob was upon them. He'd told her he
would not be leaving the vicinity just yet; he had work to do in the village. When she asked him what manner of
work, he told her he wasn't about to share secrets with a woman who'd probably be under interrogation before
dawn.

'Is that a dare, Mr Steep?' she said.

'You might take it that way, I suppose,' he'd replied.

'Would you have their deaths on my conscience?' she'd said, to which he'd replied:

'What conscience?'

His response had amused her mightily, and for a few moments, standing there on the hillside with Jacob, it had
almost seemed like old times.

'Well,' she said, 'Now you've been warned.'

'Is that all you're going to do?' Jacob had replied. 'Warn me, then walk away?'

'What else do you suggest?' she said with a little smile.

'I want you to make sure they don't come after me.'

'So say it,' she'd whispered. 'Say: Kill them far me, Rosa.' She'd leaned closer to him; his heartbeat had
quickened. She'd heard it, loud and clear. 'If you want them dead, Jacob, then all you have to do is ask.' Her lips
were so close to his ear, they were almost touching. 'Nobody's going to know but us.'

He'd said nothing for a few seconds, and then, in that resigned voice of his, he'd murmured the words she'd
wanted to hear, 'Kill them for me.' Then he'd gone on his way with the boy.

Now she waited, feeling altogether happier. Though he'd been willing to kill her just a few hours before, she
more and more thought it would be better for them both if they'd made peace. She'd exacted her revenge for his
attempt on her life, so she was willing to put the incident behind her, if things could be permanently healed
between them. And they could, she was certain; with a little work, a little patience. Maybe their relationship
could never be quite what it had been before - there'd be no further attempts at children - she was resigned to
that - but a healthy marriage wasn't carved in stone. It changed; deepened and matured. That was how it could
be between Jacob and herself, by and by. They would learn a fresh respect for one another; find fresh ways to
express their devotion.

Which brought her back to the purpose of this vigil on the rock. What more perfect way of demonstrating her
love than this: to commit murder for him?

She held her breath, and listened intently. The man with the slurred voice was complaining about the climb;
he couldn't go any further, he was saying. He'd have to leave them to go on without him.

'No, no...' she said to herself softly. She was ready to take four lives, and four lives she would take. No
excuses.

While the men debated, she made her own decision: no more waiting. If they were going to prevaricate, then
she would take control of events and go to them. Drawing a deep breath, she rose from her squatting place,
clambered down off the rock, and almost girlish with anticipation, began to retrace her tracks to where her
victims stood.

ii

Will looked terrible. Grey face, clothes torn and sodden, his gait a shambling limp. He looked the way Frannie
imagined somebody dead would look. Dead, but come back in the middle of the night to say goodbye.
She put that stupidity out of her head. Will needed help: that was all that mattered right now. Though she was
barefoot, she stepped off the threshold and started towards him, her legs plunged shin-deep in snow. 'Come on
into the warm,' she said to him.
He shook his head. 'There's no time,' he said. He sounded as sick as he looked. 'I just came to get the book
back.'
'You told him?'

'Yes ... I had to...' Will said. 'It's his book, Frannie, and he wants back.'

She stopped advancing, suddenly realizing her naYvete. Will wasn't here unaccompanied. Jacob Steep was with
him. Out of sight, somewhere in the darkness beyond the lamplight, but close at hand. Was that why Will
looked so ill, she wondered? Had Steep hurt him somehow? Keeping her head directed at Will, she looked for a
sign of motion in the shadows behind him. Somehow she had to get Will off the street and back into the safety
of the house, without arousing Steep's suspicion.

'The book's upstairs,' she said, as casually as she could. 'Just come in while I fetch it for you.'

Will shook his head, but there was sufficient hesitation before he did so for her to think he might be tempted to
step into the warmth if she pressed a little harder.

'Come on,' she said. 'It won't take me more than a minute or two. There's tea. And buttered toast-' (they were,
she knew, just simple domesticities, set against whatever claim Steep had upon him; pitiful, probably, in the
scheme of things. But they were all she had).

'I don't ... want to come in,' he said.

She shrugged. 'Okay,' she said lightly. 'I'll go and get the book.' She turned back towards the house, wondering
already what she was going to do once she got inside. Did she leave the door open, hoping to coax Will over the
threshold, or did she close it, protecting the house and her family from the man watching in the shadows?

She compromised: leaving the door an inch ajar in case Will changed his mind. Then, teeth chattering, she
started upstairs. From the kitchen, her father said, 'Did you get the milk?'

'I'll be down in a minute, Dad,' she called, and hurried to her room. She knew exactly where she'd hidden the
book, of course: she had it in her hands in seconds, and was halfway back to the hallway when she heard
Sherwood say, 'What are you doing?'

She glanced up to the landing, attempting to keep the book out of his bleary sight. But she wasn't quick enough.

'Where are you taking that?' he said, moving to the top of the stairs to pursue her.

'Stay up there!' she ordered him, imitating her mother's severest tone. 'I mean it, Sherwood.'

Her instruction didn't slow him a jot. Worse, it brought her father out of the kitchen, hushing her. 'You'll wake
your Mum, Frannie-' His gaze went from the staircase to the door, which the wind had blown wide. 'No wonder
there's such a draught!' he said, striding to close it.

Panicking now, she raced down the stairs to intercept him. 'I'll close itl It's okay!' But she was too late. Her
father was there ahead of her, staring out into the snow. He had seen Will.

'What the hell's going on?' he said, glancing back at Frannie, who was by now just a yard behind him. 'Did you
know he was here?'

'Yes, Dad-'

'God Almighty!' he said, raising his voice. 'Have you kids no sense? William? Come on in here right now.
You hear me!'

Frannie could see Will over her father's shoulder, and remotely hoped he might obey. But instead he retreated
a few steps.

'Come back here!' George demanded, stepping out of the house to lend weight to his order.
'Dad, don't-' Frannie began.

'Shut up!' her father snapped.

'He's not on his own, Dad,' Frannie said.

That was enough to slow her father. 'What are you talking about?'

Frannie had reached the front doorstep. 'Please, leave him alone.'

Her father's strained temper broke. 'Go inside!' he yelled. 'You hear me, Frances?' She was certain the whole
neighbourhood heard him. It would only be a matter of time before everyone was out in the street, asking
questions. The best thing for everyone was for her to get the book into Will's hands and let him deliver it to
Steep. It was Steep's property, when all was said and done. Everyone would be better off if it was back where it
belonged.

But before she could defy her father's edict and step outside, Sherwood grabbed hold of her.

'Who's out there?' he said. His morning breath was foul, his grip clammy.

'It's just Will,' she lied.

'You're fibbing, Frannie,' he said. 'It's them, isn't it?' He was looking past her now, out into the darkness.
'Rosa?' he said softly. Then, saying, 'I'll take the book!' he tried to snatch it out of Frannie's grip. She refused to
relinquish it. Using all her strength, she shoved her brother hard in the middle of the chest, pushing him back
down the hallway. Mrs Cunningham was descending the stairs now, demanding to know what was going on, but
Frannie ignored her and stepped back out into the snow, just in time to see her father closing on Will, who
seemed to have no strength left to retreat. His ashen face was slack, his body swaying.

'Don't...' Frannie heard him say, as her father reached out for him. Then, as Mr Cunningham's hand was laid
upon him, he collapsed, his eyes rolling up beneath his fluttering lids.

Frannie didn't linger to see what state he was in. She strode on past her father, who was having too much
difficulty keeping Will's dead weight from carrying them both to the ground to stop her, and out into the middle
of the street. She raised the journal as she did so, high above her head, where Steep could see it.

'This is what you want,' she said, almost under her breath. 'Come and get it.'

She turned three hundred and sixty degrees, waiting for him to show himself. There was her mother at the front
doorstep, demanding that she come back inside this second. There was their next door neighbour, Mrs Davies,
standing at her front gate with her terrier Benny yapping away. There was the milkman, Arthur Rathbone,
stepping out of his van, with a puzzled look on his face.

And then, as she began her second turn, there was Steep. He was approaching her with a steady stride, his
gloved hand already outstretched to claim his prize. She wanted to keep the largest distance possible between
the enemy and the front door of her house, so she didn't wait until he came to her but went to meet him on the
opposite side of the street. Curiously, she felt only the tiniest twinge of fear. This street was her world - nagging
mother, yapping dog, milkman and all. He had little authority here, even in the dark.

They were within a couple of yards of each other now, and she could see better the look on his face. He was
happy, his eyes glued to the book in her hand.

'Good girl,' he murmured to her, and had it out of her hand before she was even aware that it was gone.

'He didn't mean to take it,' she called after him, just in case he bore Sherwood some ill will. 'He didn't know it
was important.' Steep nodded. 'It is important, isn't it?' she said, hoping against hope he'd leave her with a clue,
however vague, as to the nature of the book's contents. But if he understood her intention, he wasn't about to
give anything away. Instead, he said:

'Tell Will to watch out for Lord Fox, will you?'

'Lord Fox?'

'He'll understand,' Steep said. 'He's part of the madness now.'

With that, he turned his back on her and was gone, off down the street: past her father's yard, past Arthur
Rathbone, who wisely stepped out of his way, past the postbox at the corner, and out of sight.

She kept watching the corner for several seconds after he'd gone, deaf to the sobs and yells and yappings. She
felt suddenly bereft. A mystery had gone from her hands, and now she'd never solve it. All she had to vex her
were her memories of those pages and their tiny hieroglyphics, laid out like a wall built to keep her from
understanding what lay on the other side.

'Frannie?'

Her mother's voice.

'Will you come back in here?'

Even, now, though Steep was long gone, it was hard for Frannie to look away.

'Now, Frannie!'
At last, she reluctantly turned her gaze back towards the house. Her father had managed to half-carry,
half-haul Will to the doorstep, where her mother stood hugging Sherwood.
There would be hell to pay now, Frannie thought. Questions and more questions, and no chance of concealing
anything. Not that it mattered after tonight. Will was back, his adventures over before they'd begun: she didn't
need to protect him with lies. All that remained was to tell the truth, however strange that was, and take the
consequences. Heavyhearted and empty-handed, she trudged back towards the threshold, where Sherwood was
sobbing against her mother's bosom; sobbing as though he'd never stop.

Three hours later, with the gloomy day dawned, and a second blizzard moving in, Jacob and Rosa found each
other on the Skipton road, a few miles north of the valley. They'd not made an explicit arrangement to meet, yet
they came to the place (from different directions: Jacob from the valley itself, Rosa from her rock in the hills)
within five minutes of each other, as though the rendezvous had been planned.

Rosa was in a bit of a haze as to what she'd actually done to her pursuers, but it had turned into quite a chase,
she knew.

'One of them ran and ran,' she said. 'And I was so mad when I caught up with him, I ... I ...' she stopped,
frowning '... I knew it was terrible, because he was like a baby, you know? The way they get.' She laughed.
'Men,' she said, 'they're all babies. Well, not all. Not you, Jacob.'

A gust of snow-flecked wind carried the sound of sirens in their direction.

'We should be on our way,' Jacob said, looking up the road and down. 'Which way do you want to go?'

'Whichever you're taking,' she replied.

'You want to go together?'

'Don't you?'

Jacob wiped his nose, which was running, with the back of his glove. 'I suppose so,' he said. 'Until they've given
up looking for us, at least.'

'Oh, let them come,' Rosa said, with a sour smile. 'I'd like to tear out their throats, every one of them.'

'You can't kill them all,' Jacob said.

Her smile sweetened. 'Can't we?' she said, for all the world like a child wheedling for some indulgence. It
amused Jacob, despite himself. She always had some little performance to entertain him: Rosa the schoolgirl,
Rosa the fishwife, Rosa the poetess. Now Rosa the slaughterer, so busy with her murders she couldn't remember
what she'd done to whom. If he wasn't to travel alone, then who better to go with than this woman who knew
him so well?

It was not until the next day, reading The Daily Telegraph in a cafe in Aberdeen, that they got some sense of
what Rosa had actually done, and

even then the newspaper uncharacteristically chose discretion as to the details. Two of the four bodies found on
the hill had been dismembered and some portions of one remained unaccounted for. Jacob didn't enquire as to
whether she had eaten them, buried them, or scattered them along her route of retreat, for the delectation of
local wildlife. He simply read the account, then passed it over to Rosa.

'They've got good descriptions of us both,' he remarked.

'From the kids,' she said.

'Yes.'

'I should go back and kill them,' Rosa drawled. Then, with a spurt of venom, 'In their beds.'

'We brought it on ourselves,' Jacob said. 'It's not the end of the world.' He grinned into his Guinness. 'Or maybe
it is.'

'I vote we head south.'

'I've no objection.'

'Sicily.'

'Any particular reason?'

She shrugged. 'Widows. Dust. I don't know. It just struck me as a place to lie low, if that's what you want to do.'

'It won't be for long,' Jacob said, setting down his empty glass.

'You've got a feeling?'

'I've got a feeling.'

She laughed. 'I love it when you have feelings,' she said, lightly cupping his hand in hers. 'I know we've said
some hard things to one another in the last little while-'

'Rosa

'No, no, hear me out. We've said some hard things and we meant them, let's be honest, we meant them. But ... I
do love you.'

'I know.'

'I wonder if you know how much I love you?' she said, leaning a little closer to him. 'Because I don't.' He looked
puzzled. 'What I feel for you is so deep in me -it goes so far down into my soul, Jacob - into the very heart of
who I am. There's no seeing the end of it.' She was gazing deep in his eyes and he returning her gaze,
unblinking. 'Do you understand what I'm telling you?'

'It's true for me-'

'Don't say it if it's not.'

'I swear it's true,' Jacob replied. 'I don't understand it any more than you do, but we belong together; I concede
it.' He leaned a little further and kissed her unpainted lips. She tasted of gin; but beyond the alcohol was that
other taste, the like of which no mouth but this, his Rosa's mouth, had in it. If any man had told him at that
moment she was less than perfection, he would have killed the bastard on the spot. She was a wonderment,
when he saw her like this, with unclouded eyes. And he

the luckiest man alive to be walking the earth with her. So what if it took another century to complete his work?
He had Rosa at his side, an ever-present sign of what lay at the end of his endeavour.

He kissed her harder, and she replied with kisses of her own; deep, deep kisses, which inspired him to return
them in kind, until they were so wrapped about each other that nobody in the place dared so much as glance
their way, for fear of blushing.

Later, they adjourned to a piece of wasteground adjacent to a railway track. There, with dusk upon the isle, and
another snow, they finished the lovemaking they'd left off in the Courthouse. There was no paucity of passion
this time: they were so elaborately intertwined that a passenger in one of the many trains that flew by while they
coupled, glimpsing them there in the dirt, might have thought they were seeing not two beings but one: a single
nameless animal, squatting beside the tracks, waiting to cross to the other side.