Authors: Neal Shusterman
S
HE WAS AWARE.
She was aware, but only barely.
She could hear several people asking questions, voicing exclamations, but her mind had not congealed enough to attach any meaning to the words. The voices were ones she recognized; their timbre and rhythm familiar enough to set her at ease. She tried to open her eyes, but a grit of sand beneath her eyelids made opening her eyes painful, so she kept them closed. She felt hands brushing dust from her and she laughed at their touch, a bit intoxicated by the unexpected tactile sensation. She did not even attempt to dredge up how she came to be here. For once, if only this once, she was content to be in the inebriating now.
She tried to open her eyes again, and this time found it a bit easier, although her vision was still clouded. Someone had slipped a robe around her, and now she was being carried through a lush field.
Michael was the first face she locked on to and identified. “Hey,” he said gently, when he saw her gazing at him. “How've ya' been, Tory?” His voice sounded tired, strained, as if the simple phrase took great effort to push out. She opened her mouth to speak, but found her throat clogged. She coughed, spouting a flurry of flower petals. How odd.
Her legs and arms were still exposed to the cold day, and she could feel her fingertips and toes chill. It wasn't an unpleasant feeling. She wiggled her toes, to find a fine grit between them; indeed, the fine sand covered her body, as if she had been rolled in the white sands of a gulf beach. But it wasn't just
on
her, the grit was
in
herâdeep in her, but migrating outward, expelled in a powdery smoke with her breath, exuded through her pores.
Up ahead was a red car. An SUV. She was pushed in, and by the time everyone else had piled in and the doors had
closed, her level of awareness had tuned itself enough to start formulating the fundamental questions of where, how, and how long.
She knew all the faces around her. Michael to her left, Winston to her right. Drew and Dillon in the front seat, and behind herâ
Okoya!
She flinched, throwing Michael a panicked glance. “No! We have to tell the others! Warn them about Okoya.”
“Easy,” Michael said. “Okoya's not the problem now.”
“Okoya's not the problem now,” she repeated, trying to make the absurd suggestion stick. “Then what
is
the problem?”
Dillon spoke up next. “Ask again later,” he said flatly, as if she had hit the null response of a Magic 8-Ball.
She accepted his advice, not really caring to know what could be worse than Okoya. “I'm hungry,” she told them.
Winston chuckled. “Death must be like sex,” he said. “Makes you hungry.”
“How would you know?” teased Michael. Winston burned him a glare, and Tory grinned. Just like old times. But the times weren't old, were they? And did someone say death?
Drew started the car and the heater came on. In a few moments it was pouring warm air over her. The SUV rocked uneasily over the dirt, then climbed a slight embankment up to the road. As Tory's lucidity continued to grow, she did remember the collapse of the dam, and the way she and Michael had tumbled through the sky.
She turned once more to glance at Okoya, who offered her a nod, and the faintest of smiles. Her downy sense of contentment almost completely gone now, she found the questions mounting faster than she could process them.
“Where's Lourdes?” she asked. “Why isn't she here, too? Is she dead?”
“Might as well be,” grumbled Winston.
Drew pulled from the narrow shoulder, and onto the two-lane highway, accelerating to sixty-five. He took his eyes from the road for a moment to scan through local stations.
No stations are programmed
, Tory thought.
Does that mean we're far from home? When did Drew get a Durango?
Michael put his arm around her, and she found herself sliding deeper into his grasp, wanting to be up against him. She looked at him, and he only smiled.
Were we in love?
she thought. No, but perhaps they should have been. Tory closed her eyes, and forced the questions away, allowing herself to enjoy her growing sense of well-being.
D
ILLON EXPECTED THEIR POWERS
would surge again with the addition of Tory. What he didn't expect was what Okoya called “syntaxis.” It began as a subtle thing; none of them really noticed the visceral pull toward one another at first. There were too many things to think about as they drove from Tory's birthing place. Drew, for instance, who suffered to sustain himself within their spiked fields of power, his hands shaking as he gripped the wheel. “I should be wearing lead underwear,” he quipped, “or maybe a radiation suit altogether.”
“Yeah,” said Winston. “That won't draw any attention to us.”
It wasn't that Drew was looking ill. After all, in their presenceâand with Tory thereâhe couldn't be. His eyes appeared sharp, indeed, his senses must have been piqued. But too much of any good thing was never good. When one's entire being was sharpened to a rapier edge, it was hard to handle; bound to leave unexpected incisions.
“It burns like holy hell,” he told them, finding no other way to describe the sensation. Yet he dutifully skewered his attention to driving, until the moment they parked, then he bolted from the driver's seat, just to gain a few feet of distance.
They were at a clutch of roadside motels, and, exhausted from the ordeal of prospecting the winds for Tory, Dillon chose to take a room, if only to have a few short hours to close their eyes. It irritated Okoya to no end, as he was constantly berating the human body for its never-ending need for rest. “Lourdes has sailed out of range,” he insisted. “She's probably crossed into the Mediterranean by now, and you're just going to sit here?”
But Okoya was not in chargeâand Dillon made sure he was reminded of that. “If this battle we're facing is what you say it is, this may be the last chance we have to recuperate.”
Okoya grumbled acquiescence, and went off to sit on a fencepost, facing stalwartly toward the horizon, like an Easter Island statue.
“Did you say battle?” asked Tory, who was still in the dark about all of it. “Haven't we had enough of those? Can't we just lie out on some beach for a while?”
“Haven't you heard?” said Michael. “Lying on a beach these days can be lethal. Ask the people in Daytona.”
Drew lingered in the parking lot, checking international flight schedules on his cell phone, happy to leave the shards to themselves. They retired to a cheap motel room, and the moment the door closedâthe moment they relaxed, and allowed themselves a moment of downtimeâthe gravity began to take hold. The four of them began in separate corners of the room: Dillon in the desk chair, Winston sitting up in the solitary bed, and Tory and Michael on the floor, leaning back against the wallâDillon had a disquieting sense of the
distance between them; he felt he could measure it down to the millimeter, and wondered why such a thing should cloud his thoughts. “We need to bring Tory up to speed,” he said, then scooted his chair a bit closer to Michael and Tory.
“I was dead, wasn't I?” Tory said. “I've figured out that much. And most of the license plates I've seen are from Texas, so I take it we're a long way from Hoover Dam.”
“You weren't just dead,” Winston told her. “You got yourself cremated. You were harder to put together than Humpty Dumpty. It was a real bitch.”
Tory grinned. “I'm a bitch, even postmortem.”
By now Michael had come up behind her, and began massaging her neck. “That's not the worst of it. You did a little sky-diving, and got dumped out over half of Texas.”
“So what are you saying? You pulled me back out of thin air?”
Michael pulled her closer, wrapping his arm around her. “Hey, we're Houdini, babe.”
By now Winston had migrated across the bed, closer to where Tory and Michael sat on the floor, and Dillon once more found himself pulling his chair toward the three of them, closing the distance between them.
Together they tried to deliver for Tory, in as small a capsule as possible, all that had transpired, and what they were called upon to do. By the time they were done, Dillon noticed that Michael and Tory were all over each other, taking turns massaging each other's necks, or backs; a hand on a thigh, an arm over a shoulder, touching in as many ways as they could.
Dillon found himself leaning forward on his chair toward them, almost to the point of losing his balance, as if the floor itself were tilted. “If Okoya is telling the truth, and we provide the only immunity against this . . . this invasion, infection,
whatever you want to call it, then we have no margin for error. Everything we do from this moment on is crucial. Like strategy in a war.”
“
If
Okoya is telling the truth,” said Tory. “That's a big âif.'Â ”
“It feels true,” said Winston, who now lay across the bed, letting his hand dangle down, gently touching Tory's shoulder.
“What if it's only because we
want
to feel that it's true?” Tory suggested. “Because we're so desperate to know why we got spat out into this world with these powers. What it Okoya knows how desperate we are for an answer, and is using us again?”
“What if what if what if,” said Michael. “I never wanted to know âwhy,' so that theory doesn't hold with me; I just wanted to surviveâlive my life in spite of the power. I don't want this responsibility,” he said, “but I'm with Winston; it
feels
true.”
Winston slipped off the bed, and sat on the floor beside Tory, leaning against her. Without realizing what he was doing, Dillon had shifted from his chair, to the ground as well, even closer to the others.
“What troubles me,” said Dillon, “is that to fight a disease, antibodies have to die.”
Only now did Dillon realize that something was happening. That they were pulling toward one another with an unconscious magnetism as irresistible as gravity itself. Winston clasped Tory's hand, Michael had his arm over Winston's shoulder, and Dillon ached to close the distance between himself and them.
“Let's not talk about dying now,” Tory said. “Not when I've just been brought back.”
Dillon found he couldn't resist the pull. He reached out and touched the closest bit of exposed flesh he could. His hand wrapped around Michael's ankle, and in an instant he felt himself pulled in. Tory lifted a hand to receive his, Winston
reached out to grab him as well, pulling him into this awkward four-way hug. Dillon found himself, as he always did, as the center; the linchpin that kept them connected.
The sensation of the four of them in physical contact was overwhelming, but it was more than mere contactâit was an irresistible yearning to meld with each other's spirits and to be as they had once been: a single soul in the heart of a brilliant star. The powerful yearning defeated any concept of personal space. When they were touching, they were one.
“Do you remember when we held each other like this?” Tory asked Dillon. “In that field in Iowaâin that open corn silo, looking up at the stars?”
“He wasn't there,” Winston reminded her. “It was the three of us and Lourdes.”
“I never knew . . .” was all Dillon could bring himself to say. It was, for Dillon like nothing he had ever experienced before.
No, that wasn't true. There was one time he had felt this.
One fraction of a second more than two years ago. All six of them were falling through a portal in space. Holding one another. Touching. Connected. Complete. They had never once come into physical contact since thenâcertainly not during their tenure at Hearst Castle, or in the Nevada desertâOkoya had made sure to keep them divided against one another.
Although Dillon was losing a sense of his boundary between himself and the others, he forced himself to pull away.
“Not yet.”
“Stay here.”
“Stay together,” the others pleaded, still clinging to him. But now Dillon was sure there was something off about this; something he couldn't quite place.
“No,” Dillon told them, and tried to put his feeling into
words. “There's a . . . a
perfect
joining,” he said. “A perfect patternâthat we haven't found. . . .” He stood, pulling free from them, feeling their fields fall slightly out of alignment as they individuated once more. He turned to them as they stood from the floor, and regarded them, trying to see beyond sight. He was the great seer of patterns, and he could sense that their pattern was more than just a random intertwining. They fit like a crystalâlike a molecule. There had to be a physical form to match the pattern by which their spirits connected.
He held up his right hand, thought for a moment, then put it down again. Then he held up his left hand and stretched it toward each of them. He felt the greatest gravity toward Michael.
“Michael,” he said. “Hold up your left hand.” Michael did, and it seemed that his hand pulled Michael forward almost against his will. Their hands touched, their fingers intertwined, their knuckles became white with the strength of the grip.
“Where do you feel Tory?” Dillon asked Michael.
Now that he understood what Dillon was after, he didn't even have to think to know the answer. “I feel her pressed against me, my right arm wrapped around her.”
Tory stepped forward, and folded into his grasp, then she looked at her own right arm, and at Dillon, then smiled. “Have I ever told you, Dillon, that I've often had a strange urge to spread my fingers across your chest?”
“Do it.”
She reached forward, her hand connecting with Dillon's chest at arm's length.
“Winston?” Dillon asked.
“I . . . I don't connect directly with Michael,” he said.
Michael laughed. “That's nothing new.”