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© 2003 by Tracie Peterson

Published by Bethany House Publishers

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ISBN 978-1-4412-7073-3

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To all those who serve

and have served to keep our country free.

And to those who wait behind at home

for their loves ones to return.

Thank you for your sacrifice.

ONE

N
OVEMBER
1944

Snow fell in gentle swirls on the streets of Haven, Pennsylvania, as the laughter of children at play echoed on the breeze. Christmas would arrive in a few weeks—weeks of expectation and school programs, weeks of blistering cold and winter pageantry. Anticipation mounted with each passing day, each snowflake.

For the moment—this one small moment—Andy Gilbert found he could forget about his troubles, forget about the war that raged across the world. The chilling bite of the air invigorated him, and the scent of woodsmoke and pine awakened happy memories of his childhood days.

He longed to preserve moments like these in time like a perfect apple picked and canned at just the exact second its sweetest flavor could be had. Gazing about, Andy could think of no other place he’d rather live. His mother had often said Haven was God’s kiss upon Pennsylvania. She’d lived there since her birth, had raised her only child and buried her husband there. She’d wanted nothing more out of life than what Haven had to offer.

Andy had felt much the same. He understood his mother’s love of the town, for in the midst of thousands of people, the quiet community reached out to one another like a large extended family. Mrs. Butler shared baby clothes with Mrs. Lambert, and Mrs. Davis traded pickle recipes with Mrs. Masters. The men who frequented Davis’s Barbershop said there was no better group of folks in the whole world than those who lived right there in Haven.

Andy agreed. But times had changed, and the people of Haven had changed with it. At least, they had when it came to him.

“Margaret, come here at once and help me carry these packages,” a woman’s shrill voice sounded. Andy looked up and saw Mrs. Parrish and her daughter Margaret. The woman caught sight of Andy and quickly looked away. Taking hold of her daughter’s arm, she appeared to bolster herself as Andy walked by. Neither woman would acknowledge him.

Saying nothing, just as he knew she would prefer, Andy limped along the snowy sidewalk. He hunkered into the warmth of his father’s hand-me-down coat. It was hard to believe Pop had been dead for three years now. The same car accident that had left Andy’s left foot lame had taken the life of his father. Andy tried hard to not think about it, just as he used to try hard not to limp. Especially around his mother.

His mother had off-handedly told him once that his limp was like a constant reminder of the accident and her loss. To Andy, the limp didn’t conjure up memories of his loss. Those memories were with him daily . . . nightly . . . always. A dull ache haunted his every waking moment. He even dreamed of the pain, only to awaken to the reality of it.

He walked a little slower, nearly dragging his foot now. The end of the day was always the worst, and cold weather made the pain even more pronounced. The doctor had once said to him, “Andy, you’ll never walk without pain, but at least you’re alive. That’s something to be glad about.”

At first Andy had agreed and seen the blessing of it. At first.

Then his mother had sat him down to explain that with his father dead, there was no income—no hope of paying the mortgage or the coal bill. So Andy quit school at age fifteen in order to go to work at the only job he could find. The telegraph company was run by his father’s best friend, John Ross. John too had suffered a terrible loss at the death of Andy’s father. When he heard that Andy was looking for work, John made the decision to take a chance on the crippled boy.

“I owe it to your father to give you a chance,”
John Ross had told him.
“Don’t let either one of us down.”

Andy, ever eager to please, had quickly proven that he had the energy and spirit to get the job done. He’d been at work only two months, however, when the Japanese bombed Pearl Harbor and the world turned upside down.

The 28th Infantry Division, a National Guard Unit from Pennsylvania, had been called into service the previous February for one year of active duty. Now those men, many of whom Andy knew personally, were caught up in a world war, answering the call for citizen soldiers. Day after day, month after month, and year after year, Andy had watched the government telegrams come in. They came in following the ebb and flow of battles across the Pacific and European Theaters. He’d seen the names of people who were dear friends, knowing the news would be heartbreaking.

Now, three years later, Andy wished he’d never agreed to deliver telegrams—never walked through John Ross’s door. The money might have kept them from losing the house, but the price of this job had cost him his heart—his soul.

The wind picked up and blew hard against him. Ahead on the snowy walk, Andy spotted Mr. and Mrs. Harrison from over on Fourth Street. They’d lost two boys to the war. Joseph, who was a year older than Andy, had been aboard the
Arizona
when the Japanese had sent it to the bottom of Pearl Harbor. Matthew, two years Joseph’s senior, had disappeared somewhere over France when the bomber on which he held the tail-gunner position had been blown up by enemy fire. There was no body to confirm the death, but there was also no hope of survivors.

Andy watched the Harrisons as they caught sight of him. They moved quickly and quietly to the opposite side of the street. There was no holiday wave or friendly greeting. They walked on, heads down, holding on to each other as if Andy had some power to pull them apart—or to steal their next son in line, Bobby, who served with the 28th.

Unshed tears welled in Andy’s eyes and crusted as ice on his lashes. Every day it was the same. Every day people looked
the other way when Andy came into their midst. War news was never good news. Even in victorious battles for the Americans and their allies there was always a long list of wounded and dead. Telegrams were sent out daily to inform people of the death of their sons and husbands and fathers. Andy was the bearer of bad tidings—the Grim Reaper of Haven, Pennsylvania. No one could bear to talk to him or even look at him for more than a passing glance. To offer more might well invite his attention, and that in turn might bring the news of death.

To people who only years earlier had called him friend, he was dreaded as surely as sickness and war. He was the unspeakable fear that walked the streets of their town. They wished him obliterated as surely as they wished an end to the war.

Andy struggled to force the negative thoughts from his mind, but nothing in his life could inspire him to take on the spirit of the coming holidays. Thanksgiving would soon be celebrated, but Andy felt no thanks.

He fingered the hole in his pocket, the tattered edges catching against his torn gloves. He wondered how a person might go about sewing such a thing. His mother could have done the job, but she was gone now—

passed on to glory,” as the pastor had told him at her grave. She’d gone and left Andy completely alone without the knowledge of how to do a great many things. Important things. Necessary things.

Cooking was a complete mystery to him. Andy still couldn’t do much more than open a can of beans and heat them on the stove. He would often look at the little collection of spices his mother had owned and contemplate what she must have done with such things. The same was true of flour and soda, vinegar and cornstarch. How were such things put together to create edible concoctions?

Andy crossed Main Street at Ninth and made his way another two blocks to the house on Chester Street that he called home. He’d made the last payment on the house two
weeks before his mother’s death. The place belonged to him now, free and clear. Yet somehow it didn’t offer him near the comfort he’d thought it would.

Darkness greeted him as Andy opened the back door. A rush of stale air only marginally warmer than the air outside hit him as he walked into the house. Shivering, he turned on the lights and immediately went downstairs to the coal bin. There wasn’t much left. He’d have to remember to order his coal rations. He picked up the scuttle and quickly scraped up the last of the coal. Taking it upstairs, Andy thought of how his mother would have had supper waiting for him, the house toasty warm. She would have asked him how his day went and commiserated with him on the sorrow he’d had to deliver.

Pausing for a moment to look at the empty chair where she would have sat to share supper with him, Andy mourned her loss all over again. The doctor said it was a cancer—probably something she’d carried around inside her for a long, long time. She’d faded away, right before his very eyes, until suddenly she was no longer there at all.

“These things can’t be helped,”
the doctor told Andy.
“We just don’t know much about sickness like this. We don’t know how to treat it—to cure it. All we can do is make her comfortable.”

But they hadn’t even accomplished that. Andy’s mother had died in pain, praying for an end so that she could go home to be with her husband.

Shaking off the memory, Andy fed the stove and worked to get a fire going. If he did it just right, the fire would last well into the night and keep him warm until morning. The secret was to use just the right amount of coal—not too much at a time, but not too little either. He’d learned quickly that there was a real knack for such things.

It wasn’t until an hour later that Andy finally took off his coat and changed out of his uniform. He inspected the outfit for stains, gave it a quick sniff, and decided it was good
enough to wear at least another day. He hung the shirt up and draped the trousers across the ladder-back chair in his bedroom before pulling on his flannel shirt and a pair of old wool trousers that had belonged to his father. Stepping from his room, the last thing he did was to take up a well-worn sweater from the back of the door. The house would never be so warm that he wouldn’t need that added layer.

Andy put water on to boil and put an egg in the pan. He remembered seeing his mother do this on more than one occasion, but he never knew exactly how long to keep the egg in the water. He was too ashamed to ask his mother’s good friend Harriet, so he generally let the egg boil for at least half an hour. It always seemed to be done by then—a little rubbery, but nevertheless edible. He’d thought about cutting back on the time, but fear of the unknown kept him fixed at the thirty-minute mark.

While the egg boiled, he sliced the last of the bread. Arranging it in a pan, he toasted it atop the stove. His stomach rumbled loudly as the aroma touched his senses. Leaving the slices browning, he poured himself a glass of milk and drank half of it before heading back to turn the toast. It was the last of the milk, the last of the bread. Pretty much the last of everything.

He was resolved not to feel sorry for himself, but his willpower was also running in short supply. With his meal finally ready to eat, Andy sat down to the kitchen table and switched on the radio. A soft, velvetlike melody spilled into the room, offering a soothing background for his meal. Andy thought about praying but decided otherwise, just as he had every other night since his mother’s death. Why bother? God wasn’t listening.

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