Authors: Leila Meacham
S
ilas gaped at Carson, dumbfounded. “You're asking me to do
what
?”
“That's right. You heard me,” Carson said. “I want you to marry Jessica and take her with you to Texas.”
“But I'm engaged!”
“I know. You must figure out how to circumvent that commitment.”
“Circumvent it?”
“Silas⦔ Wyndham drew up his barrel chest, the starched cravat lifting with it. “I'm offering you the chance of a lifetimeâan opportunity that will never come to you again. Take it, and you're free to live the life you've always dreamed. Reject it, and you're doomed to live a life you hate, become the man you hate. You'd be doing Miss Sedgewick a favor by setting her free to marry someone whose obsession does not come before his love for her.”
Appalled, Silas declared, “You presume, sir, and you are forgetting Miss Sedgewick's love for me.”
“A heartache that the years will dull because of the hate she will feel when you choose my offer over her. How important is love over a decision that will determine the rest of your life and the life of your heirs? Think about it.”
“I couldn't possibly do what you're asking, and I am sure your daughter shares my aversion to your proposal.”
“Jessica has absolutely no say in the matter. She forfeited that right when she betrayed me and her family.”
A glimmer of light was beginning to shine on the mystery of the cancellation of festivities at Willowshire. Jessicaâthat little firebrandâmust be at its root. Silas regarded his visitor with distaste. “What did she do, if I may ask?”
Carson related the details of Jessica's crime.
“Good God!” Silas said.
“Exactly,” Carson said, closing his eyes wearily for a brief second. “My daughter is not winsome, Silas, I grant you that, and you'd have a tiger by the tail if you marry her, but some men would find her particular temperamentâ¦alluring.”
“Jeremy apparently does,” Silas said, his tone wry. “Why don't you propose
he
marry her?”
“That had crossed my mind, but⦔
Silas's mouth twisted. “He cannot be bought, is that it?”
“He is not a man in your circumstances.”
Silas did not know which inference was the greater insultâor the truth. “What will happen to Jessica if you don'tâ¦marry her off?” he asked curiously.
Carson glanced away, his mouth hard. “I will get her out of South Carolina, one way or the other, before her abolitionist fidelities become well known. I will not have a traitor in my house. Believe me, the
other way
will be less to her liking than the one I've proposed to you.” He looked at Silas, his eyes that of a father whose child is pronounced dead. “Please, Silas. Marry my daughter. You will do right by her, I know it. You might even grow to love her, and she you.”
“I doubt it,” Silas said. “I love Lettie. She has my heart.”
“And you will have my money. Think about it, and get back with me in a fortnight. Otherwise, the deal is off. I will have put into effect another way to deal with my wayward daughter.”
Jeremy had come out into the hall when Carson, followed by a grim-faced Silas, stepped from the drawing room. Lazarus hurried to hand their visitor his riding crop and hat. Positioning the brim tightly, Carson said, “Good morning, Jeremy,” but not before Silas had read in his expression the wistful wish that it could have been Jeremy to whom he'd made the proposal. Jeremy was indeed a fine specimen of a man, more easygoing and jocular than the man he'd come to purchase. Silas recognized that his own sense of humor had been pinched by recent events andâ¦his obsession, so Carson had called his weakness.
“Happy Christmas to you and your families, gentlemen,” Carson said, with a last glance at Silas before Lazarus saw him to the door.
Jeremy had not missed its meaningful glint. “What was that all about?” he asked after Carson had gone.
Silas raked a hand through his hair. From the dining room came Lettie's clear soprano voice, the sound that was like music to his ears. “Jeremy,” he said, “there are times I wish I'd never been born.”
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Jessica had been confined to her room for four days. Apparently, even her mother had been forbidden to see her. She had seen no one but Lulu, the maid who brought her meals and carried tales. Jessica had given her no tales to carry. She did not inquire about her aunt, whom she'd seen only during the tense, silent carriage ride back to Willowshire from the pier in Charleston. She did not ask about Tippy or Willie May or question Lulu for a temperature reading of her father's and mother's moods. The maid would put her own sly interpretation on her words and state of mind in relaying them to her parents, and in her lonely exile with only her thoughts for company, Jessica did not think she could endure the torture of knowing what form of retribution her father had taken against Tippy and Willie May. She knew only that the house was eerily quiet these days before Christmas, when ordinarily it would have been boisterous and lively with the arrivals of callers, preparations for parties, the hurrying and scurrying of household help, conversation and laughter and music.
But of course Jessica worried. Had her father sent Tippy to the fields? Had he punished Willie May as well? Would her mother ever speak to her again? What kind of punishment would her father concoct for his daughter, because punishment was bound to come. For what? For showing decency to another human being? The outline of Michael's vicious grip on her lower arm when he'd marched her through the house to her father's study had only now faded, but Jessica could mentally still see her bewildered aunt looking on in concern and her mother with her hand pressed to her mouth and her anguished gaze asking:
What in the world have you done now, child?
While Jessica had stood with head held high, her chin jutted, Michael had related the tale of how he and the Riders had caught “a no-good, slave-loving abolitionist” red-handed at his subversive business and asked his father to guess who the bastard was signaling.
Her father had listened to the whole harangue without the bat of an eye, but his jaw hardened to stone and his dark brown gaze on Jessica turned nearly black. Finally, he'd asked, “Did Miss Conklin get on her ship?”
“Yes, Papa,” Michael said. “I saw to that. I told her worse would happen if we ever saw her face around here again.”
“And the runaway? Where is he?”
“In the barn until you tell us what to do with him. He's just a boy, ignorant as they come. He says he doesn't know who owns him or the name of his plantation. I figure that he never got out of the fields of wherever he's from. His name is Jasper. We got that out of him when he saw what we did to Sarah Conklin. He told us he hid in the wagon when Scooter drove into town to pick up a wheel.”
“Then no one from Willowshire helped him?”
“He said not. I'm inclined to believe him.”
“How did he know to go to Miss Conklin?”
“He said somebody came into the fieldsâthe agent,
probably
âââwhere he was working and spread the word that the woman who lived in the house by the cemetery in Willow Grove helped runaways. He was making for that destination.”
“Is the agent anybody we know?”
“Not really. He's a northerner who hired on as a clerk at the feed store in Willow Grove last year. We turned him over to the sheriff.”
“And thisâ¦feed-store clerk and Miss Conklin conspired to spirit the boy away?”
“Yes sir.”
“And you were their accomplice?” Carson turned his questioning to Jessica and got up from his desk to stand eyeball-to-eyeball with her.
“I was,” Jessica said, returning his stare proudly but inwardly terrified. She saw not a spark of love in the cold, dark wells of her father's gaze.
“I am not going to ask you what you have to say for yourself. I don't want to hear it. I want you out of my sight. Go to your room and stay there until I send for you. If you so much as poke your head out, I will deal with you severely, is that understood, Jessica Ann?”
He never called her Jessica Ann. A shocking awareness, cold as frozen steel, made its way down to the pit of Jessica's stomach. She remembered Sarah's moan when she'd boasted that her father's bark was worse than his bite when it came to his daughter. Sarah had reacted not from the pain of her lashes, but from her friend's ignorance of Carson Wyndham. Jessica's horrified thoughts flew to Tippy. Her father would punish her maid for her transgression. He did not care if his daughter forgave him or if her love turned to hate.
She clasped her hands beseechingly. “Papa, I beg you. Please, please do not punish Tippy for what I did.”
“Michael, take your sister to her room.”
“Please, Papa⦔
“Go!”
An audience of her mother, aunt, Willie May, and some of the other servants had watched, round-eyed and frightened, as Michael had herded her up the staircase like a soldier directing her to the guillotine. Before leaving, her brother's last words to her, perhaps forever, were, “To think I adored you once.”
A hard knock on Jessica's bedroom door, the one she'd been dreading and waiting for, jerked her back to the present. She opened it to find Lulu smirking at her. “The master wishes to see you, Miss Jessica,” she said.
S
ilas could not sleep or eat. He went for hard rides at dawn, long walks at midnight. In the still, frosty hours, while Plantation Alley slept, he pondered, worried, prayed about what he should do. He was four days into the two-week period he'd been granted to make a decision, and he was as far away from reaching it as he was the moment when Carson Wyndham had proposed the solution to both their problems.
His mother fretted over him. “Cassandra made your favorite pie, Silas. Why aren't you eating it?”
His fiancée had grown pale from worry. “I know when something is deeply disturbing you, my love. What is it? Please tell me.”
Jeremy, who knew him better than a brother, said, “Something's taking a bite out of your soul, my friend. I'm listening, if you want to talk about it.”
And his brotherâobtuse, leaden, impercipientâobserved, “Silas, whatever is amiss with you started the minute Carson Wyndham walked out of the drawing room. What did he doâoffer his daughter's hand in marriage?”
Morris had laughed at his joke, but Silas, unsmiling, had turned away lest his brother read the truth in his eyes.
The Conestogas were still for sale on the field next to the barn, their number now increased by two. His prospective renters had also withdrawn from the wagon train, a development that had caused Jeremy to send a note saying he believed he'd determined the source of the problem gnawing at him and would like to meet with him to discuss it. His friend was waiting in the drawing room at Queenscrown when Silas, finished with his managerial duties, joined him before the fire. It was two days before Christmas, and the house was redolent with the savory aromas of cooking and the smell of evergreens. At this point, hoping for a miracle, Silas had not told Jeremy he might have to pull out from the wagon train himself.
“I believe I understand what's been troubling you, Silas,” Jeremy said. “It's money, isn't it? You're out of funds for the trip.”
Frustrated, Silas ran a hand through the thicket of his black hair. “I'm afraid so, Jeremy,” he admitted. “I haven't told you because I believed I could secure a loan, and with the money from the rent and sale of the Conestogas, I'd have enough to get us to Texas and provide a start, but neither has come through. I can't take Lettie to Texas with empty pockets.”
Looking distressed, Jeremy leaned forward. “I don't even want to think of going to Texas without you, Silas. This is a dream we've been hatching for
years
. Our plans are under way. Put your pride aside and let my family loan you the money.”
“No, Jeremy.” Silas shook his head emphatically. “Thank you for your offer, but I absolutely refuse it. Being in debt to one's best friend is no way to start out an enterprise together. You know that as well as I do. If our situations were reversed, would you allow me to help you?”
Jeremy averted his gaze to the fire. “No, I suppose not. You'd let me give my life for you, as you would for me, but heaven forbid we owe each other money. Thisâ¦tacit agreement between the Warwicks and Tolivers started way back in England at the end of the War of the Roses, you know, when the Lancasters and Yorks decided to share the key to the kingdom as long as it didn't open the other's coffers.”
“It is our legacy, Jeremy. Neither a lender or borrower be.”
Jeremy glanced at him worriedly. “So what are you going to do? Is there any hope at all? I assume Carson Wyndham turned you down, and that's what his visit was all about a few weeks agoâwhy you looked as if you'd been given a death sentence.”
“I may as well have been,” Silas said, getting up to stroll to one of the tall windows of the drawing room. He could not sit long these days, neither could he stand, or lie down. His nerves would not permit it. Did he dare tell Jeremy of Carson Wyndham's offer? What would Jeremy think of his best friend for even considering it? They each had the highest respect for the other's character and integrity. Though they sometimes differed in their view of things, no dispute had ever come between them, even when they embarked on joint ventures ripe for disagreement. As boys, together they'd built canoes, rafts, and tree houses; concocted schemes to earn spending money; planned hiking, hunting, and fishing trips. As men, they'd invested an equal share of money, care, and training in a racehorse, shared the affections of the same girls, and made a committee of two in deciding everything from how best to remove a tree from the road to building a bridge serving their neighboring plantations.
Let Silas and Jeremy decide how to handle it, was the directive from both fathers of the men and now Morris, when a project concerning the juxtaposed estates was involved, deferring to “the boys.”
But if Silas accepted Carson's proposal, would Jeremy even
want
him to accompany him to Texas? Would he want a leader of the wagon train by his side who had betrayed the one he loved to fulfill the dream they shared?
If
he agreed to Carson's terms, would Jeremy understand that, given the man Silas knew himself to be, he had done what he believed was right for all?
“Then there's no hope at all?” Jeremy repeated, the question soft with sadness and regret. “You've tried every avenue?”
Silas stared out the window. The flames from the fireplace leaped around his reflection in the glass, aptly showing a man in hell. He turned abruptly to the drinks table. “There is one avenue open to me,” he said, lifting the top of a whiskey decanter. It was only four o'clock in the afternoon. Jeremy's brow raised slightly.
“And that is?” his friend asked, shaking his head no to Silas's offer of a drink.
Silas poured himself a glass and sat down before the fire. “You were right about Sarah Conklin,” he said. “There was more to her than appeared. Michael Wyndham discovered her to be a conductor in the Underground Railroad. She's been sent packing and will not be returning to her teaching post in Willow Grove. I have yet to tell Lettie.”
“Good heavens!” Jeremy exclaimed. “How did Michael find out?”
Silas explained what he knew. He had an idea Carson had left out certain unsavory details of the story.
“The poor girl,” Jeremy said. “I hope Michael and his men did not get rough with her.”
“Carson didn't say.”
“Does Jessica know?”
Silas lifted his glass to his lips. “She knows. She was part of the deception.”
Jeremy sat straighter.
“What?”
Silas finished the story of Jessica's involvement. “Her father is very angry with her,” he said in conclusion. “So angry, in fact, that he wants to get her out of his sight. That's what he came to see me about the other day. He wants my help.”
“You? How can you help?”
“He wants me to marry his daughter and take her to Texas.”
Jeremy's paralytic look reminded Silas of the time, long ago, when they'd been fishing on opposite sides of the lake. Across the water, Jeremy had regarded him with the same stupefied stare, and Silas shortly discovered what had caught his attention on his side of the lake. A bear had arrived to fish upstream, so intense on his task that it failed to notice Silas. Jeremy's harrowed gaze reflected his two choices. Should he climb a cypress where he'd be safe but captive or chance life and limb by making a dash for freedom? Silas had taken the risk and escaped into the trees beyond the bear's reach. He felt himself in a similar position now. Should he stay were he was, secure but bound, or seek liberation at the risk of great loss? At the lake that day, Jeremy had not abandoned him. Would he stick by Silas now if he should decide to take Carson's offer?
“I'm shocked,” his friend said simply.
“So I see. Care for that whiskey now?”
As Silas poured his drink, Jeremy asked, “What did you tell him?”
Silas noted gratefully that his friend did not say, as anyone else would:
You told him
no,
of course
.
“I told him I'd think about it,” Silas said. “I'm telling you now, Jeremy, for whatever you might think of me after today, that I
am
thinking about it. Carson Wyndham offered me that avenue you asked about.”