Stay With Me
Authors: Carolyn Astfalk
Praise for “Stay With Me”
“This is a warning: the book you
hold in your hand is compelling and well-written and you may find it, as I did,
impossible to put down. It’s a romance that’s not trashy in any way, one that
illustrates what a novel of this sort should inspire in its reader. You’ll also
be sharing this book with every woman you know!”
Sarah
Reinhard
,
author and blogger at SnoringScholar.com
“A romance of rare quality. It takes you to the heart of passion, through
various trials of a real life relationship, and into the power of sincere love.
And it’s hilariously funny!”
A.K. Frailey, author,
The
Deliverance Trilogy
“…
a beautiful Christian love story
that will put a song in your heart. It will make you hungry for Rebecca’s
bakery but also hungry for true love that can best be understood in light of
John Paul II’s Theology of the Body.”
Theresa Linden, author
The
Liberty Trilogy
“
… a poignant and
believable love story about two young adults from very different backgrounds. The
characters are richly depicted and memorable, including the secondary
characters. The story is sprinkled with humor and contains the perfect balance
of reality and sweetness and her writing entertains while radiating substance
and depth.
Stay With Me is a journey of discovery, forgiveness, and redemption—a
beautiful journey of two hearts that long to beat as one.”
Therese Heckenkamp, award-winning
author,
Frozen
Footprints
“A tale packed with desire and
determination, pain and longing, healing and hope, not to mention
peopled with flesh-and-blood characters who sweep the reader away into a world
we all know with struggles so much like our own, Stay With
Me delivers the very best of the inspirational romance genre. Highly
recommended!”
Erin
McCole Cupp, author,
Don’t You Forget About Me
Stay With Me
A Novel
by
Carolyn Astfalk
FQ Publishing
Pakenham Ontario
This book is a work of
fiction. Characters and incidents are products of the author’s imagination.
Real events and characters are used fictitiously.
Stay With Me
Kindle Edition
copyright 2015 Carolyn
Astfalk
Published by Full
Quiver Publishing
PO Box
244
Pakenham
, Ontario K0A 2X0
www.fullquiverpublishing.com
ISBN Number of Print
Edition:
978-0-9879153-9-9
Cover design: James Hrkach,
Carolyn Astfalk
Image courtesy
Shenandoah National Park/Neal Lewis
Couple on motorcycle:
Rossella Apostoli (123rf.com)
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Carolyn Astfalk
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A Division of Innate
Productions
To my husband,
Michael
Table of Contents
Chapter 1 – Where Are You Going?
Chapter
8 – Dreams of Our Fathers
Chapter 17 – The Space Between
Chapter 19 – What Will Become of Me?
Chapter 20 – Hunger for the Great Light
Chapter 21 – Build You a House
Chapter 25 – Lying in the Hands of God
“Therefore a man leaves his father
and his mother and clings to his wife, and they become one flesh.”
Genesis 2:24
“Do not think that I have come to
bring peace to the earth. I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I
have come to set a man against his father, and a daughter against her mother,
and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law; and one’s foes will be members
of one’s own household.”
Matthew 10:34-36
Where Are You Going?
The directional sign suspended from the ceiling
read Aisle 13, but Rebecca couldn’t have been more lost if it were written in
ancient Greek. She may as well have worn a sandwich board proclaiming her unfit
to care for small children. Her leaden feet rooted themselves to the floor, and
she shrunk in shame as her niece’s frilly green skirt upended, showing the
world her soggy, store-brand diaper. Emma’s back shimmied on the tile, probably
giving it the best polish it had ever had, and her orange Dora the Explorer
Crocs thudded against the floor one after the other as she let out an
ear-piercing screech punctuated by sobbing gasps.
Abby would know what to do.
She silently pleaded for help from her
five-year-old nephew, Ricky. He shrugged his shoulders and meandered over to
the yogurt multipacks.
Her chest tightened. Had she discovered yet another
area where she didn’t measure up? If she couldn’t handle two children on her
own for a day or two, what kind of mother would she make? The knot in her chest
loosened, leaving in its place a familiar, sad ache. She had a better shot at
becoming the next
American Idol
than at marriage and motherhood. She’d
be lucky if she snagged the interest of any decent guy, let alone one that
passed muster with her domineering dad.
At least she’d done something right. Putting forty
miles — the distance from Gettysburg to Harrisburg — between her and her dad
was proving to be the best decision she’d ever made.
Momentarily paralyzed by the stares of the other
shoppers, Rebecca took a deep breath and scooped Emma up off the floor,
cradling her against her chest. To her amazement, Emma calmed. She continued to
sob and hiccup as Rebecca stroked her silky, golden hair, but the thrashing and
screeching subsided, ending as suddenly as it started. Who knew the little girl
would get so upset about being denied the Mickey Mouse DVD on the end of the
aisle?
She placed Emma on her feet, held her hand, and
headed toward the dairy case where she spotted Ricky. The boy’s thin frame
looked even lankier as he stood on tiptoe to scan the selections.
“Emma, honey, it looks like there’s only one
Chocolate Underground left.” The moment the words left her mouth she wanted to
take them back. What was she thinking? She was all but begging the child to
have another tantrum.
Emma’s face fell. You’d think her favorite Disney
princess had died. Rebecca braced for a second outburst.
“Chocolate Underground?” said a masculine voice to
her right.
She turned to see a young store clerk.
“I’ll see if I’ve got some more here,” he said,
squatting to peruse the boxes on his dolly.
Did he get some kind of dairy commission? Never had
she come across someone so helpful in the supermarket.
After a few moments he added, “It’s not looking
good.”
He shifted boxes of yogurt cups from a cart filled
with a variety of cartons, apparently having overheard Emma’s favorite flavor.
Had he witnessed the tantrum at the other end of the aisle? Probably. When he
stood and gave her a look of bittersweet disappointment, heat rose in her
cheeks.
He was young. And good looking. Very good looking.
Short dark, almost black hair, blue eyes, and a beautiful, dimpled smile that
radiated joy.
“Thanks for checking. It’s a major staple of her
diet.” She turned to Emma, whose little hands clutched the last of her beloved
chocolaty yogurts.
“You could try the pudding.” He pointed to the
tapioca cartons on the top shelf.
“Thanks, but I like to hold onto the illusion that
because it’s yogurt, I’m buying her health food. You know, all that good
bacteria and stuff. And it’s organic.”
He gave her a bright smile that lit his whole face.
How long could she draw out a conversation about yogurt?
A gangly teenager emerged from the swinging double
doors at the end of the aisle carrying a carton of what looked to be cream
cheese. “Hey, Chris.”
Rebecca’s ears perked at the use of his name —
Chris. As in Christian or Christopher? She smiled at Chris one last time.
“We’ll get out of your way now.” She grabbed a box of organic yogurt tubes with
one hand and held onto Emma with the other.
“No problem.”
She didn’t know what she expected him to say then.
Something along the lines of, “In that case, I’d like to take you away from
here and spend the rest of my life meeting your milk-related needs.” Instead,
he went back to work.
She gathered the kids and headed down the aisle.
Two near-tantrums and two frozen food aisles later,
Rebecca struggled to find the shortest line at the check-out. While the kids
twirled around alongside the cart, Rebecca couldn’t help overhearing the fracas
in the next lane.
A cranky toddler whined and pulled at the
drawstrings of a thirty-something guy's hoodie from where she sat in the
shopping cart. The man grumbled and cursed. A slew of children’s cough and cold
medicines lined the belt of the self-checkout. The young man working the
registers approached and asked him if there was a problem.
“My credit card hasn’t been activated, and I forgot
my cell phone. Watch my little girl here for a minute—I have cash in the car.”
He extricated the child’s hands from his hoodie, kissed her forehead, and
jogged through the sliding doors. Faced with a fussy baby, who had now dropped
her pacifier beneath the cart and broken out into a howl, the cashier looked
like a deer caught in the headlights.
Rebecca longed to help, but she couldn’t leave Emma
and Ricky unattended.
Chris approached the self-checkouts and handed a
yogurt multipack to the flustered cashier, who said something to him before
gesturing toward the little girl in the shopping cart. Chris nudged the cashier
aside. “I got this.”
Smiling at the little girl, he said, “Hey sweetie,
where are your toes?” At first she offered only a scowl, but then as Chris gave
the underside of her knees a little tickle, she giggled. “Where is your nose?”
This time she placed a finger near her nose. After cycling through the main
body parts twice, he started a game of peek-a-boo. That’s when she pushed him
away and let out a wail.
Rebecca couldn’t suppress a smile.
Chris must have felt her staring at him because he
stepped back from the cart and looked at her with a smile and a shrug that made
her cheeks heat.
She glanced away, but when she turned back a couple
of seconds later, Chris’s gaze and his smile remained fixed on her until the
little girl’s daddy jogged back, money clip in hand, and broke the spell.
Rebecca’s attention turned back to her own lane as
she finally moved forward. She checked to make sure Ricky and Emma were still
in tow and discovered Ricky examining the cover of
Cosmopolitan. Great. Bounteous
cleavage at his eye level
. She thanked God he couldn’t read yet and lifted
the magazine up and turned it around in its rack. “Help me with the groceries,
Ricky,” she said as she placed her items on the belt.
A candy and magazine rack obstructed her view.
Where
had Chris gone
?
***
Chris watched the pretty brunette stop in front of
the sliding glass doors. She zipped the little girl’s jacket and pulled up the
boy’s hood.
Trey, the cashier with no kid skills, stood
watching with him. “Cute.”
Chris’s gaze didn’t stray from her as she pushed
the cart through the exit. She couldn’t be more than five foot four, and her
wavy brown hair hung well past her shoulders over a short fleece jacket. She
wore a long loose skirt that flowed to her ankles, revealing flat white
sneakers. “Very cute. Nice, too.”
He stood rooted to the floor for a few seconds and
then realized Trey might have been referring to the children as cute, not
Rebecca. He turned and noticed Trey’s gaze fixed on her behind. Nope, not
referring to the children. “I think I'm supposed to go after her."
“You're supposed to? Why? Did she lift something?”
Not only was he bad with kids, Trey was not the sharpest cheddar in the dairy
case. “Hey, where are you going?”
“I have to ask her for a date.” Chris jogged
through the exit and rushed through the doors. It took a couple of seconds for
him to spot her. Halfway up the second row of cars, the little boy dragged a
couple of bags and tried to hoist them into the trunk of a silver minivan.
He started toward the van, realizing too late that
it had rained, and he sloshed through a giant puddle. Cold rainwater splashed
his shin, making his pants adhere to his leg.
She emerged from the side of the van where she must
have been buckling the little girl. She relieved the boy of his burden, placed
it in the trunk, and shooed him into his side of the van. By the time she
secured his belt, Chris reached her.
“Can I help you with the rest of these?”
Her eyes widened, but her lips turned up in a trace
of a smile. Good, maybe she liked him. He certainly hoped so, considering what
he was about to ask.
“Thanks. I don't know how my sister does it."
Her sister? So, the kids
weren’t
hers.
“I guess it takes practice.” He reached into her
cart, pulled out a fistful of bags, and laid them in the trunk. Bottles and
cans clattered together noisily, so he checked to make sure nothing broke.
Smooth
move, idiot
.
“Then there’s hope for me yet,” she said and placed
a gallon of milk in the trunk. She slammed it shut and moved to take hold of
the cart.
“I’ll take care of that for you.”
She thanked him, and an awkward silence followed.
“My name’s Chris.” He held out his right hand for
her to shake. “Chris Reynolds.”
“Oh, nice to meet you, Chris. I’m Rebecca Rhodes.”
She grasped his outstretched hand.
Her hand was warm compared to his cold fingertips.
Stupid refrigerated section.
“You’re babysitting?”
“Yes. My sister is in labor. My niece and nephew
are with me until their baby brother or sister is born.”
“Well, maybe I’ll see you here again. Do you live
nearby?”
“Not anymore.”
“If you’re in the area again, could I meet you for
coffee, a beer, a milkshake—whatever you like to drink?" She paused too
long for his liking, and he feared the next words out of her mouth would start
with, “I’m sorry, but…”
Instead she smiled, and her brown eyes lit up. “I’d
like that.”
He let go of the breath he held and smiled, too.
***
Chris couldn’t remember the last time he’d been so
nervous. He sat at a square table for two in the rear of the coffee shop, his
hands tensing every time the bells over the entryway announced the arrival or
departure of another customer. He glanced at his watch. Two minutes past seven.
She wasn’t late yet. Not really. But what if she were? How long should he wait?
What if she didn’t show? She
had
to show. He felt such an urgency to ask
her out. He later wondered if it was some sort of God thing. But what did he
know? He hadn’t been a Christian long. Why would God prompt him to pursue this
girl and then have her not show up?
His rambling thoughts must have distracted him from
her approach because when he looked up again, she stood in front of him. Her
cheeks were red from the cold air, her brown eyes sparkled, and she rubbed her
bare hands together in an apparent effort to warm them up.
“Chris,” she said, and he thought he heard a trace
of anxiousness in her voice. “Sorry I’m late.”
He stood and helped her remove her coat. “No,
you’re fine. I got here a little early.”
“Thank you,” she said as he hung her coat on the
rack behind the table.
He turned to pull out her chair, but she had
already pulled it out and sat down. He took his seat across from her, and tried
to get his brain in gear. She looked even cuter than when he had first met her.
She obviously had spent more time on her hair and makeup than she did in
advance of her trip to the grocery store with her niece and nephew.
“I’m nervous,” she admitted before he could think
of anything to say. “I thought I’d throw that out there so you don’t think I’m
a total moron when I spill my drink or say something nonsensical.”
“I’m a little nervous, too. First dates are always
kind of nerve-wracking.”
She picked up the straw wrapper lying on the table
and twisted it. “This is my
first
, first date.”
Uh-oh. This could be trouble, jailbait even. He had
assumed her age ran close to his, but maybe she just appeared older. “How old
are you?”
She laughed, a full, but feminine sound. “Don’t
worry. I’m twenty-three. How old are you?”
“Twenty-four.”
“So, how long have you—”
“Wait a second. I’m trying to wrap my mind around
the fact that this is your first date. Ever. How is that possible? Surely a
pretty girl like you…”