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Authors: Niccolo Ammaniti

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Simple.

Life or death.

White or black.

Neck or nothing.

Like a kamikaze.

Pietro didn’t consider the various shades of grey that lay between the two extremes: paralysis, coma, suffering, wheelchairs, endless pain and regrets (always assuming that he was still capable of regretting) for the rest of his life.

He was too busy being scared to think about the consequences. Not even when he was only a few dozen metres from the crossing and he saw that big sign with the flashing yellow light saying slow, dangerous crossing did it occur to him to squeeze the brakes, stop pedalling, look right and left. He just sailed across the Aurelia as if it wasn’t there.

And Fabio Pasquali, codenamed Rambo 26, the poor trucker who saw him materialise in front of him like a nightmare, pressed his horn and slammed on his brakes and realised in a flash that from that moment on his life was going to change for the worse and that in years to come he would have to struggle against the feelings of guilt (the speedometer showed a hundred and ten and on that part of the road the limit was ninety), against the law and the lawyers and his wife who had been going on at him for ages to give up that exhausting job and he thought wistfully of the job in a pastry-shop that his son-in-law had offered him and heaved a sigh of relief when that little boy on the bike disappeared just as he had appeared, with no sounds of crushed bones and metal, and realised that he’d been lucky and hadn’t killed him and whooped with joy and anger combined.

Pietro, having eluded the truck, found himself on the centre partition and in the other direction there was a red Rover hurtling towards him, horn blaring. If he’d braked it would have hit him, and if he’d accelerated it would have hit him, but the Rover swerved sharply and passed behind him, two centimetres away, and the slipstream pulled him first right and then left and when he reached the other side, on the exit to Ischiano Scalo, he was completely off balance, he braked on the gravel but the front wheel lost its purchase and Pietro skidded along, scraping his leg and hand.

He was alive.

112

Graziano emerged from Flora Palmieri’s house, walked a few steps across the yard and then stopped, entranced by the beauty of the day.

The sky was the palest of blues and the air so clear that beyond the roadside cypresses and the hills you could even see the jagged peaks of the Apenines.

He closed his eyes and like an old iguana turned his face towards the warm sun. He breathed in deeply, and his olfactory terminals were assailed by the smell of the horse droppings scattered on the road.

‘Now that’s what I call perfume,’ he murmured contentedly. An aroma that took him back in time. To when, at the age of sixteen, he had worked in Persichetti’s riding school.

‘That’s what I must do …’

Why hadn’t he thought of it before?

He would buy himself a horse. A beautiful bay horse. So that, when he finally settled down in Ischiano (
soon, very soon
), on fine days like this he could go out riding. Take long rides through the Acquasparta woods. With his horse he would be able to go boar-hunting. Not with a gun, though. He didn’t like firearms, they weren’t sporting. He’d use a crossbow. A crossbow made of carbon fibre and titanium alloy, the kind they use in Canada for hunting grizzlies. How much would a weapon like that cost? A lot, but it was a necessary expense.

He did three knee bends and a couple of neck twists to loosen up. The involuntary rafting through the rapids, the cracking of his head against the rocks and the sleep on the sofa had shattered him. He felt as if someone had removed his vertebrae one by one, shaken them up in a box and put them back in random order.

But if his body was in bad shape, the same could not be said of his mood. His mood was as radiant as that sun.

And all thanks to Flora Palmieri. To this wonderful woman he had met and who had erased Erica from his heart.

Flora had saved his life. After all, if it hadn’t been for her he
would certainly have been swept over the waterfall and dashed onto the rocks and it would have been curtains.

He would be indebted to her for the rest of his life. And as the Chinese monks say, if someone saves your life they will have to look after you for the rest of their days. Now the two of them were linked together for all time.

It was true, he’d been an incredible fool to try to bugger her. What the hell had got into him? Why such sexual voracity?

(
Mind you, with a bum like that you can hardly help it
…)

Shut up. A girl tells you she’s a virgin and asks you to be gentle
and before five minutes are up you’re trying to sodomise her.
Shame on you
.

He felt the feelings of guilt paralyse his diaphragm.

113

Pierini was waiting for the road to clear when Flame caught up with him. ‘Where are you going?’ his friend asked him, out of breath from the long run.

‘Get on, quick. He’s on the other side. He’s fallen off.’

Flame didn’t need to be told twice. He jumped onto the saddle.

Pierini waited till there was a lull in the traffic and crossed.

Dickhead was sitting at the side of the road rubbing his thigh. The fork of his bike was twisted.

Pierini rode over and leaned his elbows on the handlebars of the Ciao. ‘You’ve just come within a hair’s breadth of killing yourself and causing a fatal accident. Now your bike’s broken and you’re about to get the crap beaten out of you. Just not your day, is it, my friend?’

114

Graziano, in his Uno Turbo, was driving along the Aurelia thinking hard.

He absolutely must apologise to Flora. Prove to her that he wasn’t a sex maniac, just a guy with no inhibitions who was crazy about her.

‘What I must do is give her a present. Something really special that will knock her sideways.’ He often talked to himself in the car. ‘But what? A ring? No. Too early. A Hermann Hesse novel? No. Too small. What if … what if I gave her a horse? Yes, why not … ?’

It was a great idea. A present that was original, not at all predictable, yet important at the same time. It would be a way of showing her that that night hadn’t just been any old night, a matter of going through the motions, but that he was serious.

‘Yes. A beautiful thoroughbred colt,’ he concluded, thumping his fist on the dashboard.

I think I’m in love with her
.

It was premature to say it. But if a guy feels something in his heart, how can he help it?

Flora had everything. She was beautiful, intelligent, refined. With a wide range of interests. She could paint. She liked reading. A grown woman, who could appreciate a ride on horseback, a gipsy flamenco or a quiet evening by the fireside reading a good book.

What a contrast to that air-headed bimbo Erica Trettel. If Erica was a self-centred, capricious, vain little girl, Flora was a sensitive, generous, discreet woman.

There was no doubt about it, all things considered Miss Palmieri was the ideal companion for the new Graziano Biglia.

Maybe she can even cook

With a woman like that at his side he would be able to carry out all his plans. Open the jeans shop and a bookshop too and find a farmhouse near the woods to convert into a ranch with stables and she would care for him with a smile on her lips and they would …

(
Why not?
)

… have children.

He felt ready for kids. A girl (
she’ll be as pretty as a picture!
), then a boy. A perfect family.

How on earth could he have thought a girl like Erica Trettel, a hysterical, spoiled bitch, the last of the showgirls, could accompany him through the years of his old age? Flora Palmieri was the soul mate he needed.

The only thing he didn’t understand was why such a beautiful woman had remained a virgin for so long. What was it that had kept her away from males? She must have some problems with sex. He would have to find out what sort of problems they were, make some discreet inquiries. But actually even this idea was something he didn’t at all dislike. He would be her instructor, teaching her everything there was to know. She had talent. He would make her the best of lovers.

He felt that his seven chakras had finally balanced out, redressing the equilibrium of his aura and putting him at peace with the universal soul. His anxieties and fears had flown away and he felt as light as a balloon and eager to do a whole lot of things.

Isn’t it amazing what that strange feeling called love can do to a sensitive soul?

I must go and see Mama at once
.

He must break it to her that he’d split up with Erica and then tell her about his new love. Then at least she’d put an end to this farce of the vow, though he felt a tinge of regret about that. This non-talking version of her wasn’t at all bad.

Then he would go and look for a stud farm, and while he was about it he could drop in at a hunting and fishing shop and find out how much a crossbow would cost.

‘And tonight a romantic tête-à-tête at the teacher’s flat,’ he concluded happily, and switched on the stereo.

Ottmart Liebart and the Black Moons struck up with a gipsy version of Umberto Tozzi’s
Gloria
.

Graziano flicked the indicator and turned onto the exit for Ischiano Scalo. ‘What the… ?’

At the side of the road two boys, one about fourteen, the other older and bigger and with an oafish face, were beating up a little boy. And they were not kidding. The small boy was on the ground, curled up in a ball, and the other two were kicking him.

On another occasion Graziano Biglia probably wouldn’t have taken any notice, he would simply have looked away and driven straight on, obeying the law, always mind your own damn business. But that morning, as has already been mentioned, he felt as light as a balloon and eager to do a whole lot of things, which included defending the weak against the strong, so he braked, pulled over, lowered the window and shouted, ‘Hey! You two! You two!’

The two boys turned and looked at him in bemusement.

What did this jerk want?

‘Leave him alone!’

The bigger one glanced at his companion and then replied, ‘Fuck off!’

Graziano gaped for a moment and then reacted angrily: ‘What do you mean, fuck off?’

How dare that stupid great lout insult him? ‘Listen, scumbag, you don’t say fuck off to me, okay?’ he barked, thrusting his hand out of the window, fingers spread.

The other, a thin, mean-faced kid with a white streak in his fringe, smirked derisively and, cool as a cucumber, retorted: ‘Well, if he can’t say it, I will: Fuck off!’

Graziano shook his head sadly.

They didn’t understand.

They didn’t understand what life was all about.

They didn’t understand who they were dealing with.

They didn’t understand that Graziano Biglia had for three years been the best friend of Tony the Snake Ceccherini, the Italian champion of capoiera, the Brazilian martial art. And the Snake had taught him a couple of killer moves.

And if they didn’t stop laying into that poor kid and humbly apologise at once, they were going to feel the full effect of those moves on their frail little bodies. ‘Apologise, both of you, right now!’

‘Get lost,’ the thin one retorted, then turned round and, to make his meaning clearer, gave the little boy curled up on the ground another kick.

‘Right, we’ll see about this.’ He opened the door and got out.

War had been declared and Graziano Biglia could not but feel happy, because the day he couldn’t put two little ruffians like these in their place it would be time to have himself carried off to an old people’s home.

‘Let’s see about this, then.’

He swaggered over to them in his best orang-utan style and shoved Pierini, who fell on his backside. Then he smoothed back his hair. ‘Apologise, you little git.’

Pierini got to his feet fuming with rage and gave him a scowl so full of bile and scorn that Graziano was momentarily taken aback.

‘A right couple of heroes you are. Two of you agains…’ Our paladin didn’t manage to finish his sentence because he heard an ‘Aaaaah!’ behind him, and before he could turn round the oaf had grabbed him round the throat and was trying to throttle him. He squeezed tighter than a boa constrictor. Graziano tried to tear that alien off him, but couldn’t. He was strong. The thin one stood in front of him and without more ado punched him hard in the stomach.

Graziano blew out all the air he had in his lungs and started coughing and spluttering. An explosion of colours blurred his vision and he had to tense his legs to stop himself falling on the ground like a marionette whose strings have been cut.

What the hell was going on?

Children

Once, about seven years before this story, Graziano was in Rio de Janeiro on tour with the Radio Bengals, a world-music group he had been playing with for a few months. All five of them were in a van crammed with instruments, amplifiers and loudspeakers. It was nine o’clock in the evening and at ten they were due to play in a jazz club north of the city, but had got lost.

That cursed metropolis was bigger than Los Angeles and dirtier than Calcutta.

They struggled with the map but couldn’t figure it out. Where the hell were they?

They had driven off the bypass and entered an apparently uninhabited favela. Corrugated iron huts. Putrid smelly streams running down the middle of the churned-up road. Piles of burnt rubbish.

The classic shithole.

Boliwar Ram, the Indian flute-player, was quarrelling with Hassan Chemirani, the Iranian drummer, when a score of children emerged from the shacks. The youngest might have been nine years old, the oldest thirteen. They were half-naked and barefoot. Graziano had lowered the window to ask them how to get out of that place, but had immediately wound it up again.

They looked like a bunch of zombies.

Expressionless eyes staring into nothingness, gaunt faces, hollow cheeks, blue cracked lips as if they were eighty years old. Each had a rusty knife in one hand and in the other a half orange impregnated with some solvent or other. They kept holding them under their noses and sniffing. And all of them, in the same way, would close their eyes, seem on the point of falling on the ground, then recover and resume their slow advance.

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