Stone Destiny (Stone Passion #3) (35 page)

Slowly, she sat up and looked at the dragon in disbelief with a huge dose of anticipation and a
n itty-bitty dash of dread. “You’ll let me see?”

“
Because it is a probably future you will just be an observer this time,” he warned, standing and stretching his wings out. At her eager nod, he smiled sadly, “I must warn you: if you accept his gift on Katrina's behalf, this will be my last act, my last gift, as your dragon.”

“What? No!” Ferris shrieked, reaching for her beloved Fray but she was already hurtling through space, a million miles away. Her body felt like it was being pressed flat by the speed with which she travelled. It was as if she was two dimensional and if someone were to view her from the side there would be nothing there.

Holding her hand up in front of her face, her movement slow and deliberate, she twisted her arm to the side to see if she was, in fact, two dimensional. Her brain felt like it was a blob of gelatin and so her thoughts were sluggish, telling her that if she were 2D then she wouldn’t be able to distinguish a third dimension.

She was a 2D girl living in a 3D world.

Her odd thoughts combined with the horror of losing Fray made her giggle, the sound tinny in the vortex of her strange journey. It hadn’t been like this when she went back in time. Why was going forward in time so much… weirder? Abruptly, she slammed into a wall, her 2D body clinging to the curves and the corners of a three dimensional form, a patina of Ferris over a frozen statue.

No, not a statue… a gargoyle; a shy and timid rabbit or possibly a hamster.

At first the feelings were so faint that she hadn’t even been aware of them. Gradually, the sense of disillusionment and resentment started to creep deeper into her psyche until all she felt was the overwhelming weight of a sorrow too heavy to carry anymore. Desperately, she searched for the source of the bitterness, afraid that if she didn’t find it soon the owner of such despair would do something foolish. Suddenly, she realized that the hopelessness was coming from the gargoyle she was plastered against, a gargoyle that had never been comfortable stuck in stone
during the day.

She could only pray that it wasn’t Armand.

But, no, of course it wasn’t Armand. He was a strong and powerful griffin, not a tiny rabbit. It took another heartbeat or two to realize that the gargoyle was Katrina and the girl was miserable with the choice Ferris had made for her. The love she had harbored in her heart for Armand had turned to frigid apathy. There just wasn’t enough energy to hate him any longer. Katrina didn’t blame him… well, not too much anyway. It wasn’t his fault she couldn’t live up to the impossible expectations he had of her.

As soon as the sun set, Katrina shifted into her human form, no longer uncomfortable with being naked in front of the
Nostuntres brothers, a little saddened that that should be. Vaughn and Rhys looked at her with pity as they left her alone on the roof with Armand, with the man who gave her immortality but not his heart.

“I want out,” she said without preamble, unable to look directly at the beautiful man. Out of the corner of his eye she watched as he gazed out across the city.

“I know,” he said on a sigh, not surprised by the words she had been holding in for almost four hundred years. For the first fifty or sixty years it had been exciting and wonderful and new and if she had any misgivings or saw Armand look at her as if she weren’t the girl he offered his nights to she ignored them. They were living in new and uncharted land, watching the world change before their eyes and there was no time to regret her choice.

But then her family’s letters stopped coming because her siblings had all passed on until she was the only one left. She hadn’t expected the difficulties and guilt she experienced after her last sister died. It seemed that all at once she was slapped in the face with reality and it was harsh and cold and she wanted to take it back; she no longer wanted to be a gargoyle.

She desperately wanted Armand to comfort her, to tell her that everything would be all right, and he tried – God, how he tried – but his heart was never in it. At some point a shadow had fallen over him and he no longer looked at her hoping to see something that wasn’t there. She almost wished he did because then he might still care for her, even a little bit.

For a while she had hated him for not loving her but after a hundred years she found it was too exhausting to hate someone who felt little more than regret. She tried to incite his jealousy, taking lovers and making damned sure he was aware of her actions. But he simply smiled at her and kissed her on the forehead like some unwanted child, telling her to be careful. Of course, Saint Armand never broke his vow to her, sharing her bed when she asked and never sleeping with any other woman.
Eventually, the meaningless sex made her feel even more hollow inside.

And then the twentieth century hit and she was completely out of her element, a sixteenth century woman who could only watch in astonishment as women embraced their independence.
Had she been like the modern women would Armand have loved her? She saw the way he looked at them sometimes, the yearning in his green eyes as a girl threw her head back and laughed in abandon, as another spoke boldly and freely, a devilish glint in her eyes.

He lived vicariously through his brothers as they gorged themselves on the willing flesh of the twentieth century. The three of them spent their nights at the bars and the clubs, the wildly popular places where supernatural creatures who liked to prey upon unwary humans liked to hang out. While the three gargoyles protected the stupid fools they also attracted a lot of female attention, the feminine stench clinging to Vaughn and Rhys when they returned in the morning.

Armand would always ask if she would care to join them but it was no longer her world and she wanted no part of it. She just couldn’t do this anymore. She didn’t want to be a gargoyle and she certainly didn’t want to be bound to Armand. With tears in her eyes, she finally looked at him, his beauty mocking her for everything she never had. With a sniff, she said in a shaky voice, “I just want to go home.”

His eyes filled with pity and understanding as he crossed the distance between them and took her into his arms. It was a struggle to remain motionless when she wanted to scratch his eyes out for touching her, even if it was only to offer comfort. “I know, Katrina. We’ll break the bond.”

She stepped back and looked at him with liquid brown eyes, “Really?”

He pressed his lips together in a grim l
ine but he nodded his head nonetheless. “Yes. But I have to warn you, it is going to hurt.”

“I don’t care,” she said, her lips curling into a tremulous smile. A seed of hope exploded in her chest at his words
and she didn’t care how much pain she had to go through to be free just so long as she was finally free by the end of it. Letting out a giddy giggle, she stepped back and grinned up at him, “When can it be done?”

“The next new moon,” he said. Looking out over the city, he let out a long sigh, “At least that is what father told me.”

She gasped, horrified that the gorgeous Apollo knew anything about their relationship, or what was left of it. “You told him?”

“I knew you were miserable,” he said by way of explanation. “I asked him to see what could be done to help and he finally told me.”

Her eyes narrowed in suspicion at his words, “How long ago did you talk to him about it?”

Slowly, he turned his head and looked at her and she suddenly didn’t want to hear the
answer. Stepping out of the reach of his arms, she stared at him in horror, “You asked him as soon as you realized I wasn’t the girl you thought I was.” Letting out a hysterical laugh, tears coursing down her cheeks at the inexplicable pain, she continued, “How long did you wait? A day? A week?”

Letting out a tired sigh, he said, “I gave it twenty years. I’m so sorry, Katrina.”

Pain exploded over every inch of Ferris’s skin and it felt as if she were being skinned alive. A piercing scream echoed throughout her head and she didn’t know if she was screaming or if it was someone else.

“Just hold on, Katrina,” Armand’s voice murmured, soothing over Ferris’s skin, offering comfort she desperately needed. Only, it was Katrina being torn apart and the silly girl didn’t want Armand’s comfort.

Katrina squeezed her eyes open and saw the green of Armand’s eyes boring into her soul. Sweat beaded on his forehead and she knew that he was experiencing the same ripping and tearing sensation that she was going through but he looked a hell of a lot better going through it. Not only were they breaking the bond but the gargoyle was separating itself from her soul, leaving her human once more. “Go. Away.”

Ferris blinked and suddenly she was looking at the world from several inches higher than her usual height. Joy, lightness, and a little residue of guilt filled her and she almost smiled. She walked with a confident swagger, as if there was a heavy weight between her legs that needed….

Oh, shit, she was Armand. Holy shit! She was Armand! She was inside of Armand and it wasn’t nearly as creepy as it sounded since he wasn’t even aware of her presence. He was different than the Armand she had fallen in love with a million lifetimes ago. He was also different than he had been when she had fallen in love with him as Katrina. He wasn’t dark and brooding or light and teasing. Instead he was subdued but intense with a healthy amount of swagger.

He was enjoying his new life as a single man even though the final bond had only barely just been broken. There was a world of beautiful women willing and eager to share his bed. Yet, in spite of the lack of partners he had had, he was still a discerning lover, preferring intelligence to empty beauty. Even after all of this time there was that elusive ideal that stayed just out of his reach, a dream he once had of a girl with blue-
ish eyes, dark brown hair, and a smile that reached into his very guts and pulled out his soul.

“How does it feel to be free?” his brother Etienne asked, his blond hair gleaming in the low lights of the smoky nightclub, his yellow eyes glowing. The jaguar was
a kindred spirit and one of Armand’s favorite brothers outside of his pod. Etienne’s pod brothers were there as well, Francois and Jean Baptiste, but they were already tracking their prey for that night's bed sport.

“It feels good,” Armand grinned, ignoring the little fingers of guilt that like
d to stroke along his spine when he talked about poor Katrina, who was happily living in an alternate reality where it was the early sixteen hundreds. “This past year was hell for the both of us and I’m glad she has finally found some peace.”

Etienne shook his head in sympathy, “Father was a bastard for keeping the details of the separation spell to
himself until after you started.”

“No,” Armand disagreed with a slight smile. “Apollo knew it wouldn’t have made any difference. I would have willingly walked over broken glass to free her from me so feeling everything that she went through was a small price to pay. I never should have given her my….”

His words trailed off as he spotted a luscious beauty across the intimate space, a face he had dreamed about for five hundred years. Softly, his breath barely passing his lips, he rasped, “It’s the girl I thought I fell in love with.”