else he had previously thought important. The
desire to know the answer to this question was so imperative,
the cautious, careful, and controlled Hammond
Cross was ranting like a lunatic. "Were you
ever Lute Pettijohn's lover?"
"No!" Then her voice dropped from a shout to a
hoarse whisper. "I swear it."
"Did you kill him?" He pressed her shoulders between
his hands and lowered his face to within inches
of hers. "Tell me the truth about this, and I'll forgive
all the other lies. Did you kill Lute Pettijohn?"
She shook her head. "No. I did not."
He struck the wall behind her with his fists, then
left them planted there. Dropping his head forward,
he aligned his cheek with hers. His breathing was
harsh and loud even above the rain that continued to
lash at the windows.
"I want to believe you."
"You can believe that." Turning her head, she
spoke to his profile. "Don't ask me anything more,
because I can't tell you anything more."
"Why? Tell me why."
"Because the answers are too painful for me."
"Painful, how?"
"Don't put me through this, please. If you do it
will break my heart."
"You're breaking mine with your lies."
"I beg you, if you have any regard for me at all,
spare me having to disillusion you. I would rather
never see you again than for you to know ..."
"What? Tell me."
She shook her head hard, and he realized it was
useless to press her further. As long as her private torment
had nothing to do with the Pettijohn case, he
must respect her wish for privacy.
"That's not all," she continued. "We're going to be
on opposite sides of a brewing crisis."
"So all this does relate to the case," he said dejectedly.
"I knew our being together was going to result in
a mess, but I still made it happen. I wanted it to happen.
Even at the gas station, I could have said no to
you. I didn't."
He raised his head and tilted it back to better see
her face. "Knowing what you know now, if you had
it to do over again . .."
"That's unfair."
"Would you do it again?"
Her answer was to steadily hold his gaze for a very
long time as a tear slid down her cheek.
Hammond groaned. "God help me, so would I."
A heartbeat later his arms were around her and his
mouth was grinding against hers. Water dripped from
her hair onto his shirt. Her lips were warm, her
tongue soft, her mouth sweet.
When they finally pulled apart, they spoke each
other's name for the first time, laughed at themselves,
then kissed again, if possible with more passion than
before. He untied the belt at her waist, slipped his
hands inside the robe, and touched her, stroking the
smooth skin of her belly, eliciting soft moans from
her when his fingertips feathered across her mound.
Hammond's blood pounded against his eardrums
as hard as the rain pounded the roof. It drowned out
everything else. The cautious murmurings of his
common sense and conscience didn't stand a chance
against such a racket.
He lifted her against him and carried her to the
bed. Then, in a frenzy of impatience, he removed his
clothes. When he stretched out on top of her he
sighed with a mix of desire and despair. Her thighs
parted and in the next breath he was enveloped in her
warmth.
Sinking deeper, he swore softly, his voice cracking
with emotion.
"I didn't sleep with you because I needed an alibi,
Hammond."
Planting his hands on either side of her head, he
looked down into her face and began to move. "Then
why?"
She arched her back up to meet his thrusts. "For
this."
He buried his face in her neck. The sensations were
incredible. They shimmied up through his penis into
his belly, spread through his chest and outward to his
extremities, making them tingle. He allowed everything
else to drift out of his consciousness so he could
savor being inside her. But a climax was rushing upon
him too quickly, so he stopped moving and whispered
urgently, "I don't want to come yet. Not without you."
"Touch me."
She guided his hand between their bodies and
placed it where they were joined. He moved his fingers
lightly, stroking her simultaneously inside and
out. She cupped her breast and pressed it up against
his lips. He flicked the nipple with his tongue. The
sound she made was almost a sob. They climaxed together.
They got beneath the covers. He drew her up
against him, nestling her bottom against his lap.
That's when he realized that he hadn't worn any protection.
But, somehow, he didn't care overly much.
What good would it do to fret? There was no help for
it now. He just wanted to hold her. Smell her. Be near
her and share her body heat.
He was content to gaze at her face where it lay in
the crook of his elbow. He thought she was asleep because
her eyes were closed, but he noticed her lips
curving into a smile. He kissed her eyelid. "Penny for
them."
She laughed softly and looked up at him. Lightly
she traced the shape of his mouth with her fingernail.
"I was thinking what it would be like to dress up and
go out on a date with you. To dinner. A movie. Out in
public and for all the world to see."
"Maybe. Someday."
"Maybe," she whispered, sounding no more optimistic
than he.
"I'd love escorting you around Charleston, showing
you off to all my friends."
"Truly?"
"You sound surprised."
"I am, a little. For a back-alley affair--"
"That's not what this is, Alex."
"Isn't it?"
"No."
"I'm a relative newcomer, but I've learned how
things work here."
"What things?"
"Social circles."
"I don't care about that crap."
"But most Charlestonians do. I have no pedigree.
Your family practically invented the concept."
"In the words of a famous Charlestonian, albeit a
fictitious one, 'Frankly, my dear, I don't give a
damn.' But even if I did, I would still choose you over
any other woman in this city. I have chosen you over
any other."
"Over Steffi Mundell." His expression caused her
to laugh. "You should see your face."
"How did you know?"
"Women's intuition. I disliked her on sight. The
feeling was mutual, and it had nothing to do with my
being a suspect and her being a prosecutor. It was
more elemental than that. Today, when she caught us
in the elevator together, I knew. You were lovers,
weren't you?"
"'Were' being the operative and important word
here. It lasted almost a year."
"How long since you broke up?"
"Two days."
Then it was her turn to register dismay. "Sunday?"
He nodded. "Because of Saturday?"
"No. For me it had been over a long time. But after
being with you, I knew with absolute certainty that,
as a couple, Steffi and I were a lost cause." He
threaded his fingers through her hair. "In spite of your
bent for lying, you are the most desirable woman I've
ever met. In every way. It goes beyond the physical."
Pleased, she smiled. "For instance?"
"You're smart."
"Kind to animals and the elderly."
"You're funny."
"Even-tempered. Most of the time."
"You're thrifty, brave, clean, and reverent."
"Somehow I knew you were a Boy Scout."
"An Eagle Scout. Where was I? Oh, your tits are
perfect."
"What happened to going beyond the physical?"
Dispensing with the frivolity, he kissed her meaningfully.
When at last he pulled away, her troubled
expression alarmed him. "What?"
"Be careful, Hammond."
"No one will know I was here."
She shook her head. "Not that."
"Then what?"
"You may have to put me on trial for my life.
Please be careful that you don't make me fall in love
with you first."
WEDNESDAY
CHAPTER
22
Thank you for seeing me."
Solicitor Monroe Mason offered Steffi a chair in
his office. "I only have a minute. What's on your
mind?"
"The Pettijohn case."
"I guessed as much. Anything specific?"
Steffi's hesitation had been planned and rehearsed.
As though uneasy, she said, "I hate to bother you with
what will seem like petty office politics."
"Is it Hammond and Detective Smilow? Are they
behaving like rival bullies instead of professionals?"
"There have been a few verbal skirmishes, with
some snide volleys being fired from both sides. I can
handle that. It's something else."
He glanced at his desk clock. "You'll have to forgive
me, Steffi. I have a meeting in ten minutes."
"It's Hammond's general attitude," she blurted
out.
Mason frowned. "His attitude? Toward what?"
"He seems ... I don't know ..." She hem-hawed
as though searching for the right word and finally
coming up with, "Indifferent."
Mason leaned back in his chair and studied her
over his steepled fingers. "I find that hard to believe.
This case is right up Hammond's alley."
"That's what I thought, too," she exclaimed. "Ordinarily
he would be chomping at the bit. He would
be hounding Smilow to gather enough evidence to
take to the grand jury. He would be anxious to start
preparing for trial. This case has got all the ingredients
that usually make him salivate.
"That's why I'm at a total loss," she continued.
"He seems not to care if the mystery is solved. I've
been briefing him on everything I get from Smilow.
I've kept him apprised of what leads are hot and
which have turned cold. Hammond reacts to every
scrap of information with the same degree of disinterest."
Mason thoughtfully scratched his cheek. "What do
you make of it?"
"I don't know what to make of it," she said with
just the right mix of exasperation and puzzlement.
"That's why I came to you. For guidance. I'm in the
second seat on this case and don't want to overstep
my bounds. Please tell me how to handle this."
Monroe Mason was approaching his seventieth
birthday. He had grown tired of the grind of holding
public office. For the last couple of years, he had delegated
a lot of responsibility to the young and eager
assistant solicitors, advising them when necessary,
but for the most part giving them their heads to operate
as they saw fit. He looked forward to retirement
so he could golf and fish to his heart's content and not
have to deal even with the political aspects of the job.
But it wasn't by accident that he had served as
county solicitor for the past twenty-four years. He
had been a shrewd operator when he assumed the office,
and he had lost none of that edge. His instincts
were as keen as ever. He could still sense when someone
was being less than entirely up-front with him.
Steffi had counted on her boss's intuitiveness
when she planned this meeting.
"Are you sure you don't know what's bothering
him?" he asked her, lowering his booming voice to a
dull roar.
With feigned anxiety, Steffi pulled her lower lip
through her teeth. "I've painted myself into a corner,
haven't I?"
"You don't want to speak badly of a colleague."
"Something like that."
"I appreciate the awkwardness of your situation. I
admire your loyalty to Hammond. But this case is too
important for sensitivities. If he is shirking his duties
--"
"Oh, I didn't mean to imply that," she said hastily.
"He would never drop the ball. It's just that I don't
think he's running full out with it. His heart isn't in
it."
"Do you know why?"
"Every time I've broached the subject, he reacts as
though I've smashed a sore toe. He's touchy and
cranky." She paused as though mulling it over. "But
if you asked me to speculate on what's bothering
him..."
"I have."
She pretended to think it over carefully before finally
saying, "At this point, our suspect is a woman.
Alex Ladd is an intelligent, successful woman. She's
refined and articulate, and some might think attractive."
Mason actually laughed. "You think Hammond's
got a crush on her?"
Steffi laughed with him. "Of course not."
"But you're saying that her gender is influencing
his approach to the case."
"I'm saying it's a possibility. But it makes a weird
sort of sense. You know Hammond better than I do.
You've known him all his life. You know how he was
brought up."
"In a home with very traditional values."
"And clearly defined roles," she added. "He's a
native Charlestonian, southern to the marrow. He was
weaned on mint juleps and chivalry."
Mason contemplated that for a moment. "You're
afraid he might go soft if it came down to asking for