“
Løsne på
,” Gunnar said, giving his mother a cheeky grin. Tekla shook her
head but grinned back.
“What does that mean?” Damon asked.
“Relax,” Euan said. “Except Tekla doesn’t really know how to do that.”
“
Pussig
? No…”
Gunnar bit back a laugh, but couldn’t fully because of Damon’s flabber-
gasted face. “Did your mother just say pus—?”
“She says my father isn’t funny,” Gunnar explained quickly, slapping an
understanding hand to Damon’s back and laughing a little more.
“I actually take great offense,” Euan said with a frown, crossing his arms
across his broad chest.
“It doesn’t change the fact you aren’t!” Tekla exclaimed, not the least bit
apologetic, but she did kiss her husband’s pouting lips.
“Lawd…and I thought
my
family was a trip!” Damon muttered.
Gunnar and Damon took their posts by the grill. Damon’s family had en-
tered a few minutes after Gunnar’s had, so Mrs. Wilkes and Tekla, true to her
husband’s claim, helped set up the rest of the food that wouldn’t be barbecued
and Mr. Wilkes and Euan bonded over the current baseball season. Gunnar
and Damon had exchanged few words outside of the meat. Gunnar had
prepped and seasoned it last night, too antsy to sleep even though he’d spent
the majority of the day on flights from Trondheim to Oslo to London to
Raleigh. He was nervous to come home, nervous to see
her
. Tyler. Three weeks
of not speaking to her had been horrible, but every time he thought to pick up
the phone, he didn’t think he’d be able to do anything but weep.
He hadn’t been enough to prevent Aurora from inadvertently killing her-
self, and to see Tyler in a similar state had made him feel like a failure again. To
know he’d potentially fallen short to someone who completely and totally
owned him petrified Gunnar. He didn’t go to Norway immediately after Tyler’s
accident, but when Damon had left a message on his voicemail telling him
Tyler had come to and her prognosis was excellent, Gunnar had bought the
first plane ticket to Trondheim to see his parents.
The Beauty Within
At first, Tekla and Euan had given their son space, knowing something
really awful had to have happened to bring him to Norway for an indefinitely
long vacation. However, Tekla wasn’t the type of mother to let her son mope
too long. She’d done that once after Aurora’s demise, and she would never
indulge him like that again.
“All right,” Tekla had said, coming into her son’s room right at dawn and
sitting on the edge of his bed. “Tell us about Tyler, and don’t leave anything
out.”
Gunnar had been too sleepy to ask how his mother knew who Tyler was,
but upon hindsight, he figured his sister had said something before he could.
He hadn’t answered right away, either. His eyes had stared to the ceiling
without seeing it, the vision of Tyler lying lifeless on the floor at the fore of his
mind.
“
En gang til
,
mor
,” Gunnar whispered, and when his mother put a comforting
hand to his foot and squeezed, it brought forth the tears that had been just
under the surface for days. “
En gang til
…”
Gunnar had recounted everything—from the moment Tyler had walked
into his life to the moment he’d walked out her shop days earlier. At some
point during the story, his father had entered the bedroom, and his parents had
sat side by side on the bed watching their son cry harder than they’d ever seen.
Tekla had moved from the end of the bed and crawled next to him, bringing
him into her arms. Gunnar hadn’t cared he was a thirty-five-year-old man; that
embrace had done much to soothe him.
“I thought I was able to help her,” Gunnar had muttered, wiping his eyes,
too sad and heartbroken to be ashamed of his blubbering. “I love her so much,
mor
, why can’t she love herself as much as I do?”
“It is not an immediate process,
snuppe
,” Tekla had said, “but you demoniz-
ing yourself over your inability to help her really
doesn’t
help her. You have to
believe strongly in your love.”
“I do!” Gunnar had insisted, glaring at his mother mildly. “I loved Aurora
too.”
“But Aurora didn’t love herself, Son,” Euan had said, piping up for the first
time. “And from what it sounds like, Tyler is the same way.”
“No—”
“She loves you more than she loves herself,” Tekla had said, explaining her
husband’s comment. “All of her worth is tied up in you, and that’s not helpful,
either.”
Gunnar had thought back to his conversations with Tyler, and even with
Damon, Wendy, and Quincy. Tyler was a natural giver. Her strength lay in her
generosity, and her desire to please and put people at ease many times put her
in a position to be hurt. She was unused to being the center of someone’s
world, and would do everything in her power to tweak the relationship so the
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other person would be the center of hers. And everyone in her life had allowed
her to do it.
Gunnar had liked it. He’d relished in it. In fact, he could even admit to
himself part of his speech to Quincy had less to do with Tyler and her healing
than him and his need to remain the center of Tyler’s romantic universe. He’d
wanted to be the sole sun to her orbiting planet, and she’d almost killed herself
for it. For Aurora, it had been modeling; for Tyler, it had been him.
“And that’s why you kept your Norwegian butt away all this time?” Damon
asked, grilling steaks on the grill while Gunnar handled hot dogs and ham-
burgers.
Gunnar hadn’t even realized he’d started opening up to Damon. Something
about standing in front of the grill had apparently loosened his tongue.
Nevertheless, he rolled his neck and answered his second-in-command
truthfully. “Yes.”
Damon sucked his teeth. “Man, if my mama wasn’t three feet away, I’d
poke you with this fork right in yo’ ass!”
“And I’d deserve it.”
“Ya damn skippy you would! Tyler’s been mopin’ around here for weeks
thinkin’ you don’t love her! And remember, I told you I’d fuck you up if you
fucked her up.”
“I remember.”
“So give me one good reason why I shouldn’t—after my parents leave, of
course,” Damon said, checking behind him to make sure their mothers didn’t
overhear their conversation.
“I love her,” Gunnar said.
“Sure got a funny way of showing it.”
Gunnar tensed and his eyes narrowed at the burger he’d been flipping. He
tried to fix his face to a neutral expression, but it slipped to annoyance when
he faced the owner of the voice. “Lucas.”
“Daniels,” Quincy replied, looking just as pleased to see him as Gunnar
was. “I brought the liquor,” Quincy said to Damon.
“Cool, the cooler’s by the stereo,” Damon said, pointing with the fork in the
proper direction and turning back to tend to his food. Gunnar and Quincy had
a mini standoff before Quincy walked away. Gunnar clenched his jaw and
scowled at the hot dogs.
“Don’t even go lookin’ like that,” Damon said. “He’s a decent guy.”
“He hurt Tyler.”
“So did you,” Damon reminded him, his voice suddenly icy. “But Q’s been
here helping her through it while you licked your wounds in Norway. Cut the
guy some slack.”
Talk about living in a shattered glass house. Gunnar was no better than
Quincy.
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207
Speaking of, he returned to the grill and stood beside Gunnar, watching
the two men barbecue to perfection.
“Stomach’s grumblin’,” Quincy murmured.
“Hey,” Damon said, his basting brush reaching across Gunnar toward
Quincy. “No droolin’ on mah grill.”
Quincy snorted and rolled his eyes, but presented a can of beer. “Want.”
“Godsend, man,” Damon said, accepting the offering. He popped it open
and took a swig. “Yeah, man, yeah.”
Something cool touched Gunnar’s bicep, and he looked down to see anoth-
er can of beer. He met eyes with Quincy, and saw nothing but sincerity. It
made him relieved and uncomfortable at the same time. “Thanks.”
Quincy nodded but said nothing right away. He opened his own beer can
and took a sip. “Welcome back.”
Immediately Gunnar’s guard went up, but he hid it by opening his beer
and taking a large gulp. “Good to be back.”
Quincy nodded again. “Enjoy your trip?”
Gunnar took his spatula and took the finished burgers and hot dogs off the
grill and onto the aluminum-lined shelf in front of him. “It was necessary.”
“Was it also necessary not to contact Tyler at all?”
Gunnar didn’t appreciate the accusation in his tone, even if it was war-
ranted. He felt Damon’s hand on his forearm and the tension in his body eased
somewhat.
Quincy raised an eyebrow, not the least bit threatened by Gunnar, which
Gunnar thought was a mistake. “You keep claiming you’re better than I am,
and so far you’ve not proven that very well.”
“Q,” Damon said warningly.
Quincy shrugged. “She might not love me anymore, Damon, but I’m not
gonna let no one hurt her,
especially
the man she loves.”
Gunnar immediately backed away from the grill, not wanting to ruin the
meat or ram his fist into Quincy’s face. The worst part was Quincy’s point was
valid, but Gunnar didn’t like being on the receiving end of the “Treat Tyler
Right” talk, and definitely not when he deserved it.
“Oh, my
God
! Is that my baby?!”
Gunnar turned around to see a glowing Wendy walk in carrying a casse-
role dish. Mrs. Wilkes went to her and took the dish out of her hands, giving it
to her husband who had approached and kissed Wendy’s cheek. Damon
passed Gunnar and waited patiently behind his mother so he could hold his
fiancée, while Gunnar waited not quite as patiently to see his woman.
Hopefully, Tyler still considered herself his woman.
Quincy made his way to the glass door, drawing up Gunnar’s guard. He
saw brown arms come around Quincy’s waist, and Gunnar’s heart plummeted
into his stomach.
“What? No hug?”
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Wendy was coming toward him, Damon staring at her with a look of such
devotion. Gunnar gave her a genuine grin and granted her request.
“Hello,” Gunnar said quietly.
“I should hurt you,” Wendy muttered into his chest.
“I do deserve it.”
“But I’ll save those honors for Tyler,” Wendy said, pulling back and scowl-
ing at him. “No phone call?”
“No excuse,” Gunnar admitted, bowing his head.
“At least you know that, some of my regard for you has returned, but only a
little bit, about the size of an ant.”
“Ouch.”
“That’s how Tyler’s been feeling since you dropped off the face of the earth
in Norway!”
Gunnar glanced to the side to see his mother giving a look of agreement to
Wendy’s words.
There was nothing he could say to Wendy, at least in this setting, that was
appropriate, but in the end, he didn’t owe answers to her. He owed them to
Tyler.
But it was hard to say anything when the sight of her hair free about her
head and shoulders wearing a deep red halter and a denim skirt made him
breathless. And when she pinned those eyes on him, all he wanted to do was
get on his knees before her and beg for forgiveness.
How could he have stayed away from her for so long?
Twenty
Did it bother Gunnar that Tyler’s arm tightened around Quincy’s waist
when they finally made eye contact? Absolutely, but he knew he didn’t have
the right to get angry. They’d had a history long before he’d entered her life;
and given the past few weeks, their relationship had clearly reformed.
But into what?
Gunnar saw his mother approaching in his peripheral vision, and he ma-
naged to tear his eyes away from Tyler to greet her.
“Is that she?” Tekla asked, looking right at Tyler. Gunnar nodded. “She is
stunning.”
“Breathtaking,” Gunnar said.
“Introduce me to my future daughter-in-law,” Tekla demanded, hooking
her arm through her son’s and looking at him with a twinkling eye.
Gunnar grinned and kissed her mother’s cheek. “
Jeg er glad i deg
.”
“I know,” Tekla said, and guided her son to Tyler. “Hello, Tyler? I’m Tekla,
Gunnar’s mother.”
Tyler’s eyes widened and she stepped back a little. Gunnar frowned, won-
dering why she appeared so frightened, but when she turned around and held
out her hand, he saw a woman who looked like an older version of Wendy
grasp it.
“Oh,” Gunnar murmured.
“Irony of ironies,” Tyler said with a small smile. “Gunnar, Mrs. Daniels, I’d
like for you to meet
my
mother Carmen Colón Carver.”
“
Hola
,” Mrs. Carver said with a timid smile and she nodded her head. “Hel-
lo.”
“
Hola
,” Tekla returned. “¿
Cómo está usted
?”
“
Estoy muy bien
, ¿
Y usted
?”
“
Estoy perfecta
,
muchas gracias
.”