The Betrayal of the Blood Lily (43 page)

But it wasn’t Freddy’s voice Penelope heard behind her, it was Al ex’s, quietly asking, “What happened?”

“It was a snake.” Even Jasper Pinchingdale’s usual bravado was muted by the presence of death, although his formulaic hush didn’t quite mask an undertone of irritation. It was obvious that he considered it a glaring social solecism for his host to go and die on him in such an abrupt and inconsiderate manner.

“A banded krait,” oozed Fiske’s voice, too close to Penelope’s ear. “His syce found it when he went to wake poor Freddy this morning. It must have crawled into his tent with him while he was sleeping.”

“Surely someone must have heard something.” That was Alex’s voice again, coming from a very long way away, as of someone she had known long ago. “A cry. A gasp. Something.”

It was Fiske again, shedding innuendo like a snake’s scales. “Freddy preferred to set his tent a bit apart.”

Penelope heard her own voice, flat and emotionless. “He had brought his mistress with him, hadn’t he?”

There was a rustling behind her, the sound of embarrassed men shifting from foot to foot. “Lady Frederick—,” Pinchingdale began awkwardly.

“Hadn’t he?” Penelope repeated.

It was Fiske who answered her, his voice arch. Whatever his feelings for Freddy, he was delighting in her discomfort. Fiske was the sort who never forgave a slight and Penelope had slighted him by rejecting his advances in Calcutta. Leaving aside the whole matter of marigolds. “Regardless of who else might have been—ahem—present earlier in the evening, Freddy always made sure his tent was otherwise untenanted by the time he was ready to slumber. But you would know that, wouldn’t you, Lady Frederick?”

She did. Freddy had never seen the point of continuing intimacies after sex. He preferred to remove to his own bed, where the sheets were crisp and pure and pristine.

Freddy. Freddy, Freddy, Freddy. It was all too much like him for doubt, every last, damning detail. No matter how little her eyes believed it, this thing, this thing in front of her, was what had been Freddy. There wasn’t any other Freddy to come striding out of the bushes, casually demanding her attention. Whatever there had been of him that marked him as himself was gone, leaving nothing but flesh in its wake, already dotted with decay.

The gold coins covering his eyes branded molten circles in her eyes. Penelope shut them hard, wincing against golden discs, circle after circle after circle, like a wedding ring, or a brand, burning against the undersides of her eyelids.

Groping out blindly, Penelope braced her hands against the edge of the palanquin, fighting against a sudden wave of dizziness. Against the closed lids of her eyes she could see Freddy. He was smiling at her, as he first had, all those months ago at Girdings House, his hair as glossy as his boots, his cravat a miracle of engineering, his cheeks flushed with cold, port, and that indefinable eau de rake that Penelope found more compelling than any combination of virtues. Like a cat to catnip, Henrietta had once exclaimed, half in jest, half in despair, and so it was.

She had seen him and wanted him. She had wanted him as a child might want a shiny gold coin, not because she had any particular use for it, but because it glittered and it was pretty and other people didn’t want her to have it. It came flooding back to her now, across the ten-month divide, that knee-weakening brew of lust and hurt feelings and pure boredom that had driven her to smile back, a slow, challenging smile, and then, with a slight flick of her head, to draw him out with her into one of the many alcoves with which Girdings House abounded.

It seemed a different world, that frosty winter’s day at Girdings House, where the world was clothed in shades of icy blue and the only snakes were the ones in satin dresses, wielding feathery fans to hide their fangs. She had been smarting still over Henrietta’s marriage, that precipitate union that had thrust her abruptly out into the cold, a perennial third at their table for two. Charlotte’s clumsy attempts to fill the void had been more irritating than soothing. And even Charlotte, second-best though she might be, was drifting away from her. Penelope wasn’t stupid. She could read the writing on the wall in the way that Charlotte looked at the new Duke of Dovedale, all breathless adoration, like a puppy wriggling to be petted.

In the midst of it all, there had been Freddy, as tall and golden as the graven idol of a primitive people. Freddy, who had looked at her with admiration, turning his compliments flesh with his lips and hands. She had known it was nothing more than that, just hands and lips and empty compliments, but at least his lust was real, concrete, hers. She could feel it in the way his breath quickened beneath her touch, the way his eyes followed her as she left the ballroom, in the way she could bring him running with one flick of a finger, to freeze his extremities in a January garden for the sake of nothing more than a kiss and the lure of more.

For that brief period, he had been hers. Hers. She had so desperately wanted something of her own, even if it was only fool’s gold, base metal beneath a shiny veneer.

Selfish, that was what she had been. Selfish, heedless, thoughtless. All the epithets her mother had hurled at her came back to drive stinging craters into her flesh. She had killed him. She had killed him as surely as if she had poisoned him herself. But for her, Freddy would still be safely in London, drinking himself sick at White’s and making unwise purchases of horseflesh at Tattersall’s.

Freddy had never wanted to come back to India. London was his world. Had Penelope left well enough alone, Freddy would have lived to become a jaded old man, the sort who pinched young girls’ cheeks and generally died in ignominy in the arms of a whore and had to be hustled home so it could be pretended he had died in his bed. Freddy would have liked that. Penelope fought a hysterical urge to laugh, pressing her balled fists against her mouth to hold the laughter inside.

Someone caught at her hand and pressed a glass into it. Penelope’s fingers automatically closed around it. Liquid splashed against metal, like water lapping at the banks of the river Hades.

Without looking to see who it was, Penelope said, “I killed him. I did it.”

A strong, brown hand closed around her own. “Drink.”

For a moment, Penelope stared at it, that hand, so familiar and suddenly so unfamiliar. Only hours ago, she had rubbed against it with breathless pleasure as it had stroked the curve of her cheek. Only a day ago, she had leaned into that touch, as though there were nothing more to be wanted from the world. Bile rose in her throat, with sudden and inexplicable revulsion.

Penelope wrenched her hand violently out of his. The contents of the glass spattered down the front of her habit, brandy mingling with the grime to create trails of mud like dirty tears. Dirty. Corrupt. Spoiled.

“Penelope—” His voice was low, concerned.

“Go away,” she said harshly. “I don’t want you here.”

What had they been doing while Freddy was dying? Last night, Fiske had said. She might have been in Alex’s arms while the krait was slithering into Freddy’s tent, sinking her nails into Alex’s back while the snake was sinking its fangs into Freddy’s flesh, crying out her pleasure while her husband contorted with pain. The full magnitude of her betrayal came tottering down on her like a fallen temple. She felt herself swaying beneath the weight of it.

Alex caught her before she could fall, his hands on her elbows, but his touch was an impersonal one. “Let’s get you something to sit down on,” he said, in a voice meant as much for the others as for her.

He was Captain Reid again. That was all right. She could deal with Captain Reid. It hadn’t been Captain Reid with whom she had—no. Not now. She couldn’t think of that now.

Around them, Penelope could hear the sounds of scurrying, as people bustled about trying to make accommodation for the bereaved widow. Had they done the same for Freddy’s mistress? Penelope felt her stomach heave with bile and loss.

“A snake,” she said, to no one in particular, sitting down heavily on the stool provided for her. Someone had hastily tossed a blanket over it, giving it the appearance of a makeshift throne. “A
snake
!”

 

The bastard would have to go and die in a way guaranteed to cause the maximum discomfort and inconvenience to everyone around him.

Looking down at Lord Frederick’s mortal remains, Alex couldn’t find it in him to think any of the proper, pious thoughts attendant upon the passage of mortality. Instead, he was cognizant of a strong sense of irritation. He wanted to take the corpse up by the lapels, shake him, and demand to know just what he was thinking, publicly carting his mistress about with him. Didn’t the man give a damn for the embarrassment it might cause his wife?

A moot point now.

Irritation was good. Irritation kept other emotions at bay: messy, dangerous emotions, like guilt, relief, worry. Easier to vent his irritation on Lord Frederick for those things he had done while still alive. Alex’s mind refused to quite grasp the crux of it all, that Lord Frederick Staines, the bugbear of his twilight imaginings these past months, was well and truly dead. Gone. No more. Leaving his wife, technically, free.

Free for what?

Alex looked down at Penelope where she sat heavily on the stool provided to her, head bent, air escaping through her pursed lips as she breathed determinedly in and out. Her face was an unpleasant waxy color, her eyes unfocused as she tried to get the workings of her body back under her own control. On her bent head, an uneven line of scalp showed where she had parted her hair, twisting back and forth like a snake in burning grass.

“Yes,” echoed Alex slowly, “a snake.”

“A krait,” corrected Fiske, in his odious voice.

Penelope looked blankly up at him. Her face might be wiped clean of expression, but her curiously colored eyes were as agitated as the churning interior of a volcano. Get sucked in there and a man would be burnt to nothing more than bare bone. “It doesn’t much matter which one it was, does it? It did its job.”

Fiske regarded her speculatively. “What an interesting way you have of putting things, Lady Frederick.”

Penelope didn’t answer. Instead, she braced her head on her hands, fingertips pressed hard against her temples, her palms shielding her eyes. Below, Alex could see the rise and fall of her chest, as though she were struggling for breath.

“She’s had a shock,” Alex said shortly. “You shouldn’t have let her see him.”

“She shouldn’t be here.”

For once, they were in agreement.

“She wanted to surprise her husband,” said Alex, between clenched teeth.

“Oh, Freddy would certainly have been surprised,” said Fiske, drawing his handkerchief between his fingers. “I am surprised you agreed to it.”

“What was I supposed to do? Let her go by herself?”

Fiske’s protuberant eyes wandered in seeming idleness from Alex’s angry face to Penelope’s bowed head. “Heaven forbid that Lady Frederick be balked of any of her desires.”

Those desires were the last thing either of them needed to think about, considering that she had—that they had . . . Well, what they had been engaged in, perhaps at the very hour of Lord Frederick’s death. Not that it would have changed anything. No matter what the circumstances, Lord Frederick would still have gone off to Berar; the snake would still have found a way into his tent. He and Penelope had nothing to do with that. Nothing at all.

Alex only hoped Penelope would see it that way.

Bugger bloody Frederick bloody Staines. Bugger himself, while he was at it. One week. If Alex had only managed to keep his hands off her for one blasted week, it might all have been different. No guilt, no tainted associations. There was nothing to be done about it now, of course. Nothing to be done but to get Penelope someplace quiet and let her carry on grieving as best she could.

“Very gallant, Fiske,” said Alex curtly. Turning to Penelope, he added, in a gentler voice, “Do you need to lie down?”

Penelope’s eyes shifted sideways to the palanquin where Freddy lay in perpetual rest.

Her braid swung violently against her back. “No! No.” Pressing her palms against her knees, Penelope addressed herself to Fiske rather than Alex. It made Alex feel like as much of a ghost as the late Lord Frederick Staines. Penelope looked right past him as though he didn’t exist, saying forcefully, “I want Freddy buried from the Residency. In the English cemetery. He deserves that, at least. He deserves better than to be buried by the side of the road like a dog in a ditch.”

If Fiske were taken aback by her vehemence he didn’t show it, save for one startled blink. “Of course,” he said smoothly. “Naturally.”

Standing, Penelope looked from one man to the other, her eyes opaque circles in her pale face. “We’ll have to go quickly, then, won’t we? So he doesn’t—”

“Of course,” repeated Fiske.

Penelope wobbled, but she stood alone, deliberately ignoring the arms both men thrust out towards her. “Then there’s no time to lose, is there?”

Alex made as if to catch her arm. “Shouldn’t you lie down?” he remonstrated.

She jerked away from his touch so abruptly that she nearly overbalanced. “No,” she said harshly, in a voice like sandpaper on stone. “I don’t want to lie down. I don’t. I don’t.”

She wouldn’t look at him, Alex realized in dismay. Wouldn’t touch him.

“You have had a shock,” he began carefully.

Penelope laughed, an ugly laugh, like a burning house crackling as it crumbled at the joints. “Not so great a shock as Freddy had.”

Without waiting for either of the men to respond, she marched off in the direction of her horse.

“You heard the lady,” said Fiske, He touched his handkerchief delicately to the sides of his lips. “The widow demands we ride.”

The widow looked like she was about to snap in two, but loyalty to Penelope prevented Alex from saying so to Fiske.