The Betrayal of Trust (7 page)

Penny would need the time to compose herself. She had not, to Jocelyn’s knowledge, cried since childhood and the
circumstances
that might make her do so were unimaginable, other than in reaction to sheer physical pain.

But when she went back, Penny was still sitting with tears on her cheeks, head bent. Jocelyn put her hand tentatively on her shoulder.

‘I’m sorry.
I couldn’t think of any other way but to – tell you.’

‘Oh, it’s the only way.’

‘Yes.’

She sat down and poured them both more coffee. Waited. A small breeze rustled the bushes.

‘What did Dr Deerbon say? What has to be done?’

‘A scan. I see the neurologist. But Dr Deerbon knew. And I knew the minute she ruled out both arthritis and MS. Then, as soon as I got home, I looked up the symptoms.’

‘Mother …’ A flash of the usual Penny.

‘I know, I know. I’m not a fool.’

‘It’s the worst thing I can imagine. Worse than cancer, worse than – anything. I knew a brief with it when I was a student. He taught us for a couple of terms, constitutional law, he was brilliant. Just a couple of terms.’

‘Drink your coffee.’

‘I’ll move back here of course.’

‘You will do no such thing.’

‘We won’t argue.’

‘We will argue.’

‘Of course I must.’

‘Neither of us could stand it, as you well know. Besides …’

‘Well, you couldn’t stand being in a home.’

‘I could not.’

‘You would hate having a stranger living in here.’

‘Yes.’

‘So …’ Penny waved a dismissive hand. The tears had stopped now. She blew her nose. Drank her coffee. ‘What’s happening to you at the moment?’

Jocelyn smiled. The cross-examination.

‘A few irritating things.’

‘Irritating?’

Jocelyn did not reply. She was trying to compose the next
sentence
which would somehow tell, explain, ask, defend – all in the same few words. But there were none. Penny was looking at her, eyes tearless now, the usual faintly challenging expression back, and for a second, Jocelyn thought that she would neither tell nor ask after all, would find someone
else. Who else? She lacked courage not in the face of her decision but of her daughter’s reaction.

‘The sun’s gone,’ she said. ‘Are you cold?’

‘No. Is that a symptom? Feeling cold?’

‘I don‘t know. I suppose it may be eventually. If one can’t move …’

‘How long does it take to develop? Did the doctor say?’

‘I’ve read –’

‘Not Google. The doctor.’

‘I have to see the neurologist, I told you.’

‘I’ll come with you.’

‘No. You’re in the middle of this case.’

‘Well you won’t get an appointment straight away, will you? The trial will be long over.’

‘It’s this coming Wednesday.’

‘Ah. Then put it off.’

‘I don’t need you to come with me, I’m perfectly able to drive myself.’

‘To Bevham General?’

‘The Manor.’

Penny did not approve of private medicine, private health insurance, private
anything, so far as Jocelyn could see. Where had she got all that socialism from?

‘There is one thing I’d be very grateful for.’

‘Which is?’

‘Please don’t interrupt until I’ve said everything. Please hear me out.’

And Penny would. She was a good listener when she wanted to be. It came with the job.

‘At the moment, this is not bothering me very much. I’m in no pain or discomfort – it’s just
tiresome. But that won’t last. The specialist will probably tell me more but I know what course it will take. I have been independent and I have enjoyed my life
and
what I do. The idea of old age hasn’t troubled me because I’ve assumed I would remain hale and hearty. How foolish. But now I know I won’t, I cannot face that sort of decline – cannot and will not. And while I am still able to decide
and to act, I intend to do so.’

Alarm flickered across Penny’s face but she said nothing.

‘I am planning to go to Switzerland, to a clinic where I can end my own life while I still have the ability and before the worst overtakes me. I have read a lot about it and I need to read more. When I have, I’ll get in touch with them. What I have to ask you –’

Penny said very quietly. ‘I know what it
is.’

‘Let me say it myself. Let me ask. I don’t want there to be any misunderstanding.’

‘There won’t be.’

‘I’m asking if you will come with me. Take me to the clinic.’

‘And help you kill yourself. Help you die.’

‘No. Watch me. You would do nothing but be with me while I take my own life. That’s all.’

‘That’s
all
?’

‘Penny –’

‘A little thing like that? Hardly worth asking, is it?’

Penny
stood up quickly and went out through the open conservatory doors into the garden, to stand at the end by the low stone wall and the raised flower bed, her back to Jocelyn straight and absolutely still. After watching her for a few moments, Jocelyn got up and took the tray of coffee pot and cups into the kitchen.

SERRAILLER CAME OUT
of the station with an armful of paperwork. It was just before six and he had had enough of his office, the file stores and canteen coffee. He was going to drop into the farmhouse and hope for a beer and maybe an early supper before heading home to go through notes on the Lowther case. He would work in the flat tomorrow if he possibly could, to get more done in a shorter
time. There was yet another drug offensive on, with a fancy operation name, dawn raids and a side serving of armed response. He would be glad to keep out of it.

Lights blazed from what seemed like every room in the farmhouse, and although Cat’s car was not in the drive the smell of braising meat reached him as he opened the kitchen door and Wookie the Yorkshire terrier came tearing towards him,
barking and turning round and round in mad circles.

‘This dog is uncivilised.’ He bent down and let the puppy jump into his arms and lick his face. As he did so, Mephisto leapt off the sofa and banged out through the catflap.

‘Please don’t interrupt,’ Sam said, glaring at him. He was sitting at the table with a book open in front of him and Molly opposite, head down. ‘I’m testing her.’

‘Don’t
blame me, blame the untamed beast.’ He put Wookie down.

‘He ghost-watches,’ Sam said. ‘He stands at the glass door onto the terrace at night and stares and stares. He did it for
almost
an hour last night. There’s deffo something out there.’

‘Why don’t you let him go and find it?’

‘We’ve tried. He just races round a bit and comes back inside to go on staring. Right, you ready, Moll? Next. Brachial.’

‘Runs from the shoulder to the elbow and –’

‘Where on the shoulder?’

‘What do you mean, where?’

‘I mean where on the shoulder.’

‘The shoulder’s the shoulder.’

‘No.’

Molly sighed.

‘This isn’t going well,’ Sam said. ‘The anterior of the shoulder. Next – carotid.’

‘Neck.’

‘Which side of the neck?’

‘Both.’

‘Correct.’

‘That’s all twenty.’ Molly jumped up.

‘Mum’s gone to supper with Dr
Finch.’

‘Oh.’ Simon pulled the cap off a bottle of lager.

‘Sorry,’ Molly said, ‘the casserole is for tomorrow and we’ve had egg and chips but I could easily do you some more.’

‘They were only oven chips,’ Sam said.

‘How’s the revision, Molly?’

‘I’d kill a lot of people if they let me qualify now.’

‘She needs to sort out the names of the major arteries. Talking of killing, how are the skeletons?
Dug up any more?’ Sam looked round at him. He had done a growth spurt and his face was changing. He would be fourteen next birthday, a Serrailler in shape, long-legged and -backed. But the small boy lingered. ‘There could be a mass grave of skeletons.’

‘I doubt it.’

‘Are you digging? With bare hands?’

‘I hate to put a dampener on things, Sam, but this isn’t something out of a horror film, these
are the remains of real people. They were probably murdered. Not a joke.’

‘Sorry. Doctors make gory jokes. Molly told me that when they were cutting up a corpse for practice, someone –’

‘Shut up.’ Molly threw a tea towel at him. ‘I told you, if you said anything you could get me into trouble.’

‘Why, it wasn’t you who took out the –’

Simon grabbed his nephew in an armlock. ‘You heard the lady.
Shut it. Now come quietly.’

‘Ha, not even uniform say that any more. Can I have a slug of beer?’

‘No. Where are the others?’

‘Hannah’s at Stupid Samantha’s and Felix is in bed. And I’m in the county hockey second 11 team – can you come to a match next Thursday?’

‘Second 11? I’m impressed, Sambo.’

‘Huh, more than Grandpa is. He just said, “Why not the first 11?” OK, I could do ten more minutes,
Moll, but then I have to do Latin homework.’

Simon felt the momentary chill of not belonging. Sam picked up the book from which he was testing Molly, the beer was finished, the casserole for tomorrow, his sister out. He hesitated, then walked to the door.

‘Tell Mum I’ll call her.’

Sam nodded but did not look up. ‘Right, let’s carry on,’ he said.

Molly sighed.

She was very pretty, Simon thought.
Dark curly hair. Heart-shaped face. Intelligent. Smiley.

‘Femur,’ Sam said.

Simon left.

His mobile rang as he drove through the close, and when he got up to his flat the message light was flashing on the landline.

‘
Simon, Paula Devenish. Can you ring me at home
?’

‘
Simon, Paula, I’m leaving this on both phones. Ring me when you have a moment would you
?’

Ten minutes later he was driving through
the southern outskirts of Bevham. It was getting on for half past seven by the time he reached the house, which was set back from what had once been a quiet country road. There had been a tall Scots pine in the
front
, he remembered, and as he pulled into the drive he saw that it was lying on the garden. Something else uprooted by the storm.

Paula Devenish had been married previously, and had
two grown-up sons; five years ago she had married again, apparently with great success.

Her husband opened the door now, a bearded, broad-shouldered property developer who, Simon knew, had lost his wife and son in a violent attack when a burglary had gone wrong. He himself had suffered severe injuries and lost the sight in an eye. They had only met formally but Serrailler had taken to Malcolm
Innes. He had a solid calm and steadiness about him, and he smiled a lot.

He smiled now, showing the way into the sitting room.

‘I can’t keep her down,’ he said. ‘Any suggestions?’

‘I wouldn’t dare.’

‘I’m going stir-crazy,’ Paula said. She was on a sofa with her feet up and it was clear that the illness had taken some of the stuffing out of her. She looked thinner in the face, and older.

‘Have you eaten, Simon – and if not, will you join us? It’s just family supper.’

‘I’d like that, thank you.’

‘Good. I could do with some police talk.’

‘Which she is not supposed to have.’ Malcolm Innes held up a glass and a bottle of wine. ‘Or a beer?’

‘Beer please. So what am I allowed to chat about? – I can do holidays, politics, weather –’

‘You’ll do police.’

Malcolm went out, laughing.

‘He cooks,’ she said, ‘nothing else, wouldn’t know where the washing machine is or how to fold a shirt, but he cooks.’

Malcolm brought in Simon’s beer. There was a fire burning low in the grate, smelling of damp wood.

‘Sorry about the urgent-sounding messages. Not urgent at all really.’

‘You have withdrawal symptoms.’

‘For about a week I honestly didn’t care if the force fell to bits, but
now I’m afraid it’s all going to slip through my fingers. Am I a control freak?’

‘All chiefs are.’

‘We’re supposed to be brilliant at delegating.’

‘I’m supposed to be that and look at me. We’re alike – we can delegate the boring stuff but when the job gets exciting we want to be in the thick of it.’

He was surprised how easy it was to talk to her as an equal, not because she had been ill but
because a domestic setting and the absence of uniform made the essential difference. She was not the Chief, not his boss, she was a fellow police officer and a friend.

Paula Devenish was a formidable woman, decisive, in control, her finger on every detail of what was going on around her at work, but in spite of what he had said, he knew that she was also better than he was at standing back and
giving other people responsibility. She did not, in fact, find it hard to delegate. She knew it was vital or a force would never survive. Nevertheless, she always wanted to be kept in every loop and Simon could imagine how frustrating an enforced convalescence was for her. They had always got on well, but sitting opposite her in the quiet sitting room, he saw her for the first time as a middle-aged
woman and twice-married mother of adult sons, who might be a neighbour, his sister’s patient, his stepmother’s friend. Not the Chief. Not a police officer at all. Somehow, he needed to start all over again, discover what kind of person this was.

They ate a kitchen supper of fish pie and French beans and a plate of excellent cheeses, bought, Malcolm Innes said, from the Deli in the Lanes.

‘I
love my cheese,’ he said, ‘and I don’t want to see that nice little shop close. I go there a lot.’

‘The shops on the Lanes were hit badly by the storm – most of them flooded out. A friend of my stepmother’s was due to open a new bookshop there and she’s had to postpone it; the clock shop lost a lot of valuable stock. Is that a goat’s cheese?’

Malcolm pointed out each one, describing, recommending.
When they had finished eating he gave Paula his arm back into the sitting room, saying he would clear up and bring coffee through.

‘Harriet Lowther,’ she said.

He waited.

‘It’s some sort of resolution, I suppose.’

‘Yes, in a way. Her father thinks so. But …’