The Blue Mountain (50 page)

‘What’s left for him to see?’

‘My mother was right,’ Uri said. ‘All those crazy people really drove you mad.’

I didn’t answer him.

‘You can’t imagine how much I missed this place,’ Uri said. ‘In spite of the scandal. In spite of being beaten and made to leave. Twice I even came secretly at night, but both times I left right away.’

He looked at me for a moment and laughed. ‘What a waste for you to walk around like this. You should be hitched to a cart or a plough.’

‘Suppose I carried you in my arms,’ I suggested.

‘Fat chance,’ he said.

‘It’s no problem for me.’ I smiled with forlorn hope. ‘I could easily carry you home from here.’

‘What’s wrong with you?’ he asked. ‘Why don’t you find a nice bull to lay instead of picking up boys?’

Uri can be as vicious as a weasel.

‘I can carry you in my arms, on my back, on my shoulders, any way you want,’ I persisted.

But he wasn’t having it. ‘Stop it, will you!’ he said, and now his voice sounded jagged and scared.

We walked on in silence. As we approached the village, we saw a crowd of men by Ben-Ya’akov’s pear orchard. We could hear shouting in the distance, and when we came closer we saw that it was Meshulam again with his sawtoothed sickle and sickening bandanna.

‘What am I supposed to do?’ Ya’akovi was yelling. ‘Station a guard by every water tap?’

The earth moved like jelly around him. Squishily it threw up from the depths dark refuse, sludge, bones, and thick, pale worms that coiled around the pear trees and dragged them down into the pestilent muck. In their place sprang up reeds and rushes as tall as a man, which Meshulam charged brandishing his sickle. An old Arab he had hired ploughed lazily by the swampside, mumbling familiar words. A small herd of wild boars came grunting out of Grandfather’s stories. There were several large males, some brutish-looking females, and a dozen or so bristle-haired piglets with stiff, erect tails. Trotting up to the swamp, they sloshed in to wallow in the deepening mire. I glanced at the sky. Black dots soared overhead and swooped closer. Shrieking madly, they circled above me.

I looked at the hysterical Ya’akovi, at Uri, at the crowd of angry farmers. Through the thin veil of their work clothes, sun-parched skin, and strong bodies, I could see the great mud fossils that had been waiting these many years in the earth.

Now the ponderous water buffalo approached, their deep, moist nostrils flaring excitedly at the first signs of human apostasy. They didn’t scare me. I was used to animals. A huge blond
bull strode among them. The girth of its shoulders, the thickness of its hooves, and the hot vapours blowing from its wet muzzle made my heart beat faster. I began running towards them, and as I drew near I saw the young man in khaki trousers and a beekeeper’s mask supporting a stumbling old man who carried a decrepit pack. Yet soon the whole drove crossed the field and vanished beyond the distant cypresses, and when I returned to the flooded orchard and the questioning looks, I realised that no one else had seen a thing.

49

A
fter Rosh Hashana Yosi came home on leave. I heard the tyres of his jeep screech to a stop, the loud crackle of a two-way radio, footsteps running and climbing stairs, and last of all, a loud girlish scream from Avraham and Rivka’s house.

The cabin door swung open. Standing there in his uniform with his officer’s bars and paratrooper wings, Yosi demanded to know the identity of ‘the pious bombshell in my parents’ house’.

Uri burst out laughing. The twins laughed. I could feel my gorge rise at the affection they displayed despite the differences between them. Yosi had also received mail from his parents, and now the two of them sat down to compare letters and photographs.

‘It’s about time Father got some fun out of life,’ smiled Uri, though Yosi thought that ‘instead of teaching all those darkies’, Avraham should have found work as an adviser in some new settlement on the Golan Heights.

I stood by the sink, slicing vegetables for a salad. First the onion and tomatoes, then the cucumbers and green pepper. Perhaps their fresh tang would be wafted far away, as far as the ends of the earth.

I liked being with Uri, and Yosi’s appearance annoyed me. I
knew I would have to put him up in the cabin and regretted having agreed to give Avraham and Rivka’s place to the cantor.

‘Why don’t you two take a walk,’ I said. ‘Supper will be ready in half an hour.’

‘What’s the matter, Baruch?’ asked Yosi. ‘Don’t you like being with your cousins? Or are you afraid we might sting you for a loan?’

‘I’m not afraid, and I’ll be glad to get out of here as soon as either of you wants the farm back,’ I said.

‘Who said anything about wanting the farm back or you leaving it?’ asked Uri. ‘Why do you always take everything so seriously?’

‘It would take a heavy infantry company to get you out of here,’ said Yosi in the clipped military tone he had learned from Uzi Rilov. He began chuckling too loudly with that wrong-way laugh of his, breathing in instead of out in spasmodic, infuriating jerks. The muscles in the back of my neck tensed.

‘If Uri wasn’t here now,’ I told him, ‘you’d go flying out the window, right back into that damn jeep of yours.’

‘Comrades,’ said Uri, ‘suppose we all calm down, okay? My dear Baruch and Yosi, in these difficult times when the entire Movement is looking for new horizons, let us not waste our energy on sterile disputes. The three of us haven’t been alone like this for years. The three grandsons of the one and only Ya’akov Mirkin, pioneer, swamp drainer, and desert blossomer. Let’s give him a hand, people!’

‘Two grandsons and one Jean Valjean,’ corrected Yosi.

‘I’d rather be Grandfather’s calf than your mother’s son,’ I shot back.

Yosi rose, said he was going to remove the radio from the jeep, and left the cabin.

‘Just what was that brilliant Chinese proverb of yours supposed to mean?’ asked Uri.

‘At least you have a mother,’ I answered.

‘Stop the dramatics,’ he said crossly. ‘This isn’t the first time I’ve heard you talk crap, but I know you well enough to know when you mean it.’

‘Why don’t you call your brother,’ I said. ‘The salad is ready, and I’ll make the eggs when you’re at the table.’

Uri went out and came back with Yosi half an hour later.

‘We were at the cemetery,’ Yosi said. ‘God Almighty, what have you done to our father’s farm?’

‘It was your father’s decision to go abroad,’ I answered him. ‘And since you both announced that you weren’t coming back, you have no right to complain now.’

‘Enough,’ said Uri. ‘Either we eat or I leave you here by yourselves and find someone to climb the water tower with.’

When supper was over and we had calmed down, we went to wrestle in Meshulam’s abandoned hayloft, since the Mirkin farm was out of hay.

‘It’s the Twins versus the Monster!’ panted Uri, riding my back and trying to strangle me while Yosi bobbed, weaved, butted, and punched me. The three of us couldn’t stop laughing. The straw stuck to us, getting in our hair and all over us, until at last I threw Uri down on it and pinned him with my foot while lifting Yosi in the air by his belt. This time he did not cry. His mouth opened wide and he shouted battle cries, choking on his laughter.

A oil lantern approached us from the direction of Founder’s Cabin, bobbing up and down in the dark. Frightened and angry, Meshulam stepped into the hayloft.

‘Attention!’ cried Yosi.

Uri jumped at Meshulam and snatched the lantern away. ‘Are we back from a rendezvous with a water tap?’ he asked. ‘Or have we come to set fire to the hayloft?’

‘What do you think you’re doing here?’ demanded Meshulam furiously.

Touchingly wrapped in Pesya’s wet black slip, he looked like a little baby crow.

‘Moron!’ said Yosi.

‘We were just having a little fun, Meshulam,’ I said. ‘Let’s get out of here, boys.’

Uri walked out backward, his sardonic face toward Meshulam. ‘You know the rules,’ he said. ‘You have to count to a hundred before you can look for us.’

My high spirits had faded. We started back for the cabin, but halfway there Yosi asked to go to the cemetery. ‘It must be awfully nice there at night, with all those white flowers and gravestones.’

I opened the gate. The gravel crunched beneath our feet. Crickets sang all around. The twins leaned on Grandfather’s grave while I sat on Rosa Munkin’s pink tombstone.

‘How much do you charge for a grave?’ Yosi asked.

‘That depends. For a rich old American it’s about a hundred thousand dollars. Busquilla could tell you exactly.’

‘That makes you a millionaire,’ said Yosi in a voice that was higher than usual. ‘You’re a millionaire, do you know that?’

‘I’m not anything,’ I said. ‘I’m just keeping up the farm. I’m doing what Grandfather wanted.’

‘It is nice here,’ said Uri. ‘It’s awfully nice.’

He rose and went over to the wall. We heard him peeing there.

‘Didn’t the army teach you how to take a leak quietly at night?’ called Yosi. ‘Wag it.’

‘I’m trying, but all my life it’s wagged me,’ came Uri’s voice from the darkness. ‘I’m going to bed. I’ll see you in the morning.’

‘What a character,’ said Yosi. ‘He’s a character, that Uri.’

Now that we had fooled around and it was too dark to see his mother’s face looking at me from his own, I felt more comfortable with him.

‘So what’s going to happen with you?’ he asked.

‘What’s worrying you? Didn’t you say I was a millionaire?’

‘Why are you always so edgy with me?’

‘Because you get on my nerves.’

‘And you don’t get on mine? You’re a pain in the neck. You made the whole school laugh at us. To this day everyone in the village thinks there’s something wrong with you.’

‘Let them,’ I said. ‘They’re just jealous. They drove Efrayim away from here. It’s time they realised.’

‘Stop quoting Grandfather all the time,’ said Yosi. ‘And if you ask me, it’s a bit odd that no one but you ever heard Grandfather make such a strange request.’

‘What are you getting at?’

‘That if that was his will, you didn’t do badly by it.’

‘Pinness heard it too,’ I said.

‘Pinness,’ snorted Yosi. ‘Well, well.’

For some reason I was enjoying the conversation.

‘This is the first real talk you and I have ever had,’ said Yosi.

He rose, about-faced, bent to smell the flowers, studied Shulamit’s grave, walked back and forth, and sat down beside me.

‘Why did you bury her here? Who the hell was she?’

‘It was Grandfather’s wish,’ I said.

‘Grandfather’s wish, Grandfather’s wish! Don’t you ever get tired of it?’

‘It’s what he wanted.’

‘So you just went and took her?’

I went and took her. Her coffin was the only one I never opened before the funeral.

‘She was all alone in this country. She had no one else.’

‘You’re making me cry,’ he said. ‘Tell me, you saw the two of them together in that old folk’s home. What was there between them?’

‘I don’t know anything about those things,’ I answered, thinking of Grandfather’s wrinkled neck and bald head in the flesh of Shulamit’s dead thighs.

‘What did you say?’

‘Nothing.’

He looked at me suspiciously. ‘But you must have spied on them like you did on everyone.’

He waited for an answer, then went on. ‘You think we didn’t know that you snooped and peeked through windows?’

‘Suppose you did. So what?’

‘When we were little, my mother once said that if she ever caught you at it again, she’d give you a licking. My father told her that if she so much as laid a finger on you, he’d break her arms and legs.’

I said nothing. I thought of the looks Rivka gave me when I wrestled with the big calves and of her hatred for my mother,
whose wedding dress and flawless bell-clapper legs went on ravaging my aunt’s life even after they had gone up in flames.

‘I always envied your living with Grandfather,’ Yosi said suddenly. ‘You were his child.’

‘I thought so too,’ I said, swallowing a dry dungball of mucus in my mouth. ‘I’m not so sure any more.’

‘I envied your being an orphan,’ he said. ‘Once, when we were six or seven, I told Uri that I wished our parents would die so that Pinness would take us for hikes too and Grandfather would bring us up.’

‘But neither of you would have buried him like I did,’ I said. ‘Ya’akovi would have made you back down, and Uri couldn’t care less.’

‘You were always so strange, always hanging out with the old folk, with Pinness and Grandfather and Tsirkin and Liberson. You frightened everyone from the time you were six. Do you know that no one ever dared pick on me or Uri because of you? They were scared of you.’

He slipped off the grave and sat on the ground, running his hand over the soil and rolling some between his fingers, which were short and stubby like his father’s. It was a habit the pioneers had picked up in the Valley and passed on to their children. Their grandchildren were born with it.

‘I would have stayed on here,’ he said after a pause. ‘I swear I would have, and you know I could have made a decent farmer. It was only these graves that made me decide to leave home, and Uri will never come back. In the end you’ll be the only one left. You’ll show the village and the world, and you’ll make more money than the old folk ever dreamed of in their wildest visions.’

‘Why does everyone keep talking about the money?’ I asked. ‘You can see for yourself that I don’t spend it. Have I bought anything for the cabin? Clothes? Built a swimming pool? I’ve never even been abroad.’

‘That shows you’re a real farmer,’ chuckled Yosi. ‘No one in this village knows how to enjoy life, including myself. Farmers don’t like to spend money. They’re too afraid of drought, locusts, mice. They’ve got their feet on the ground and their heads in the
clouds, looking for rain – because that’s the one thing that’s free. Uri is the only one who was able to outgrow all that.’

‘I’m just a watchman,’ I said. ‘I’m watching Grandfather. I promised I wouldn’t let anyone take him from here.’

‘My favourite story was the one about his saving you from that rabid jackal,’ murmured Yosi. ‘Our father made a bedtime story out of it. You were sitting in the yard throwing earth at some kittens, and Grandfather jumped on the jackal and broke all its bones.’