The Cavendish Home for Boys and Girls (2 page)

But below that schedule sat her academic report, and when Victoria forced herself to look at it, nausea overwhelmed her. On the crisp manila paper, in black text as immaculate as Victoria’s own handwriting, she saw the three A’s in Letters and Literature, History of the World, Intermediate French—and the one grotesque, intolerable B. She received a B in
music
class, of all things.

Victoria had never received a B in her entire life. She knew that some of her classmates yearned for B’s. They were glad for B’s. They jubilated at B’s. But to Victoria, a B was even worse than mud on her carpet or a tangle in her perfect blond curls.

She walked to the desk, her breath trembling, folded the report into its envelope, pressed the golden Academy seal over the flap, and shut the report away in the bottommost drawer. It had a keyhole she had never seen the point of using before now, for she had never had a secret worth hiding. She found the appropriate key in the box labeled
MISCELLANEOUS
along with the other things she hadn’t much use for, locked the drawer, and put the key back in its proper place.

She turned and stared at the closed drawer. She was supposed to get her parents’ signatures and return the report by the following Monday morning, but the idea of admitting this catastrophe to anyone horrified her.

“Just breathe, Victoria,” she said, putting a hand to her heart.

She caught the time on the silver clock beside her bed. 7:04. She had dawdled.

She hurried down the staircase, past her father’s art collection on one side and the sweeping view of her mother’s rose gardens on the other. She arrived at the kitchen in a bit of a flurry. Her father looked up from his newspaper, and her mother looked up from her magazine, for Victoria was seldom in a flurry.

“Good morning, Mother, Father,” Victoria said. She could not look at her parents; if she met their eyes, they might see the B on her face. They would be disappointed in her, which they had never been before. Victoria didn’t know what it felt like for anyone to be disappointed in her, but she could imagine it based on what she had heard others say. Mr. and Mrs. Wright would sigh and shake their heads, and when they went out for dinner, they would not brag to the next table about their perfect daughter. They would not even go out at all; they would be too ashamed.

Victoria swallowed hard. When she said, “Good morning, Beatrice,” it sounded a bit funny.

Their old housekeeper, Beatrice, raised a slender white eyebrow and passed Victoria a bowl of fruit and a slice of toast with jam.

“Good morning, Victoria,” said her mother.

Miranda Wright did not work in the conventional fashion, but she supervised Beatrice and the gardener who tended the roses, and was an expert shopper. She kept her magazines in pretty, labeled boxes in her closet. She wore fancy aprons in the kitchen even though she didn’t cook, because she looked lovely in aprons, and that’s what one is supposed to wear in the kitchen, after all. Miranda Wright was beautiful and stylish with penny-colored hair. She lunched with important Belleville ladies and knew everyone in town, even those about whom she would whisper to Victoria as having “questionable taste.” Her high heels clicked just
so
. A member of the neighborhood homeowners’ association, she loved making everything around her just
so
, too. Whenever Victoria looked at her mother, she felt almost as proud as she did when adding another medal to her
MEDALS
box, which held years’ worth of honor roll pendants and spelling bee ribbons and “Top of the Class” certificates.

But she could not look at her mother today.

“Good morning, Victoria,” said her father.

Ernest Wright was a successful, middle-aged lawyer, and he looked exactly like a successful, middle-aged lawyer should look. He drank mild mint tea, spent thousands of dollars on dental work so that his teeth would be perfect and white and gleaming, and shared his wife’s fascination with trendy diets. His most triumphant success in life was the sleek, modern swimming pool he’d had installed in their backyard, although no one ever used it. He was considering tearing it out and putting in another one, because the Nesbitts’ new pool was even sleeker and more modern than his. Mr. Wright knew everyone in town, too, and was one of the richest men in Belleville, and some people were even afraid of him because he was so rich and perfectly toothed. Few things could impress him, but Victoria had always managed it.

And now she had failed him. She had failed them both. The realization filled her belly with ice.

They must never find out
, Victoria thought.

With the good-mornings said, Mrs. Wright flipped another page in her magazine, and Mr. Wright returned to his newspaper. To them, everything was just as it should be in the Wright house. Flushing with shame, Victoria returned to thoughts of the B in music class. She thought about it so
much that she couldn’t finish her breakfast and excused herself despite Beatrice’s protests. Grabbing her book bag from the coat closet, she rushed out the front door.

Like every other street in Belleville, Silldie Place boasted cobbled walks, large trees, tall hedges, lampposts, and iron gates. Houses had high, peaked roofs and pretty white gables and impressive brick chimneys inlaid with stone birds. Yards were luxurious and groomed and spotless. If someone’s yard began to wilt, they heard about it at once. Mrs. Wright would leave a crisp, red warning note in their mailbox.

The largest house and grounds in the whole town lay at the end of Victoria’s street, on a rolling estate with trees so old you could hear them creaking two streets over, and a pond and a long, gray brick garden wall. This was Nine Silldie Place, the Cavendish Home for Boys and Girls. Victoria didn’t like to think about the Home. She didn’t even like to go near it. Orphanages held a distinctly untidy connotation. Although she had to admit she had never actually
seen
any orphans doing such things—or any orphans near the Home at all, for that matter—she couldn’t help imagining a passel of them, dirty-fingernailed and smelly, running amok and knocking all her labeled boxes to the floor.

Shoving that horrifying image out of her head, Victoria marched along, growing angrier about her B with every step.
Surely Lawrence hadn’t gotten a B. Surely Lawrence had received not only an A in music class but also another of old Professor Carroll’s glowing essays about
talent this
and
prodigy that
, urging Mr. and Mrs. Prewitt to send Lawrence to the city for more advanced study.

By the time she reached the Prewitt house at Two Bourdon’s Landing, Victoria found herself wishing, rather viciously, that Lawrence would go live somewhere else for a while. Every time she saw him now, she would be reminded of her failure.

She rapped with the knocker till the door opened to reveal Lawrence, hunched over and frowning. Of course his shirttails hung loose. Of course his tie wasn’t tied.

“You’re early,” Lawrence said, flicking his gray eyes back over his shoulder, into the dark house.

Victoria scowled and stalked past him into the living room, where the Prewitts kept their ancient piano. It wasn’t good enough for Lawrence. On her reasonable days, Victoria knew this. On her reasonable days, Victoria wondered if perhaps Lawrence should go to the city to study his music, even though the Prewitts would never let him. They were dental surgeons and wanted Lawrence to follow in their footsteps. Music was supposed to have only been part of a well-rounded education. All Belleville children needed culture, after all.

But when Lawrence’s piano lessons turned into an obsession and he spent hours practicing Mozart sonatas and Chopin preludes and Gershwin solos till the neighbors complained, the sensible Prewitts realized they had a serious problem. They had never meant for
this
to happen.

However, today was not a reasonable day; Victoria had an academic report sitting at home with a B on it, for goodness’ sake. There was no time to listen to Lawrence whine and sigh about how he wished his parents understood him and his stupid music better. Victoria slammed open the piano and rummaged through Lawrence’s untidy stacks of music.

“Where’s the Fauré?” she snapped. “Let’s play it.”

Lawrence blinked. “The Fauré?”

“Yes, the duet. We’ve got an exam on it next week, don’t we?”

Lawrence sat on the piano bench beside Victoria, looking around from beneath his hair. The house was much darker than usual. The air sat strangely quiet and heavy around their shoulders.

“I don’t know if that’s such a good idea,” he said.

“Well, I don’t care.” Victoria put her fingers on the keys and glared at him. “Come on, play.”

“What’s the matter with you, anyway?”

Victoria didn’t answer. She started playing the bottom
part of the duet. Her anger made the notes choppy and clumsy, but she kept going, her cheeks flaming. All she could think of was that awful B mocking her.

Lawrence joined in after a few measures, and even in the dark house and despite Victoria’s fury, once Lawrence began to play, everything seemed better. His fingers flew across the keys, delicate and confident. Music came to him as easily as order and structure came to Victoria. Lawrence’s eyes glazed, and he got that tiny secret smile that he always got when playing. When they ended the duet with four bouncing chords, Victoria sat in angry silence. She glared at the piano.

“I got a B,” she said.

“I figured.”

“Oh, don’t act like you know me so well.”

Lawrence grinned. “Can’t help it. That’s what happens when you’ve got only one friend.”

“You’re lucky you have even that,” Victoria said.

“You aren’t bad at piano, you know. You just need to relax.”

Victoria scoffed. “People who relax don’t get anything done.”

“Oh, that’s right. For a second, I forgot who I was talking to.”

“Make fun of me all you want, but don’t come crying to me when you’re working in a dump someday, all smelly and
rumpled with only your lousy music to keep you company, when I’m at some big, fancy office somewhere, making lots of money and . . . and . . .”

Victoria stopped. Lawrence watched her from beneath his hair, the silver strands bright in the light of the piano lamp. He looked pathetic and hopeless. Victoria’s stomach sank with shame, but she tightened her mouth and refused to look away.

“That’s really what you think of me, huh?” said Lawrence.

“It’s not like I ever made a secret of it,” said Victoria, wincing inside even as the words popped out. It wasn’t what a friend was supposed to say. She couldn’t help saying it, though; her anger was too great.
I have a B, for goodness’ sake
, she thought. And anyway, Lawrence could use a harsh word or two, to snap him out of his piano world and into the real one.

Lawrence frowned and closed the piano. “Let’s just go to school.”

As they passed through the foyer, Lawrence grabbed his tattered book bag from the floor by the door. He kept tripping over himself as he pulled on his shoes. Victoria watched, her nose wrinkling.

“What in the world’s wrong with you?” she said.

“Nothing,” said Lawrence, but Victoria noticed for the
first time that his normally sleepy gray eyes seemed a bit funny, like a rabbit’s eyes—scared and stupid.

Upstairs, someone stalked across the floor, toward the stairs. Victoria jumped at the sudden noise. Lawrence flinched.

“Let’s get out of here,” he said quickly.

Victoria stared at him. “Shouldn’t we wait to say good-bye to your parents? It sounds like they’re coming right down.”

“No. Let’s go.”

When they reached the front gate, Victoria sniffed and said, “Look, I’m sorry about what I said before. I didn’t mean it. Your music isn’t lousy.” She hated apologizing, especially when she knew she was right in the first place. All right, so his music wasn’t lousy; anyone could tell that much. But if Lawrence didn’t start trying harder at school, he would go on probation, or he might be dismissed, and then he would have to attend one of the public schools outside Belleville, and that would ruin him forever. What good would music do him then? It wasn’t practical; it wasn’t profitable.

Victoria opened her mouth to tell Lawrence all these things in the hopes that he might actually listen to her this time, but before she could, Lawrence grabbed her hand and tugged her through the gate.

“What’re you—?”

“Hurry, Vicky,” he said, looking back over his shoulder again.

“You act like you’re scared or something,” said Victoria, shaking him off.

But then she looked back over her shoulder too and saw Mr. and Mrs. Prewitt watching silently from the front door. She was too far away to see their eyes, and their faces were only blurred, white disks, but for some reason, the sight of them chilled her.

“Don’t look at them,” said Lawrence. “They’re . . . not feeling well. They’re acting so weird lately.”

“What does that matter? You’re being ridiculous.”

“I heard them talking about me, after supper one night. They didn’t know I was listening, but they were talking about my music, and . . . I don’t know. Maybe I heard wrong. They didn’t sound like themselves, if that makes sense.”

“It doesn’t.”

“Well, it’s true.”

Victoria sighed. “So, they were talking about your music, and . . . what?” But Lawrence shook his hair into his face and only said “Never mind. I don’t want to talk about it anymore.”

As they hurried on to school, between clipped hedges and towering black gates, Victoria kept looking behind them, but she saw nothing out of the ordinary except a big black bug on the walk, waving its feelers in the air. Even so, she couldn’t shake the feeling of being followed.