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Authors: Brad R Torgersen
Tags: #Fiction, #science fiction, #General, #Space Opera, #Action & Adventure
“I could smoke you, but I’m so tired of hearing myself talk, I’m not going to bother. It’s too late in the damned day for this crap. So I’m gonna let you have this one—and only one—freebie. Mess up like this again, and it’s no mercy. Do I make myself absolutely and one hundred percent clear, recruits?”
Bay, together and straining, “YES, DRILL SERGEANT!!”
“I said is that one
thousand
percent burned into your little minds, recruits?”
“YES, DRILL SERGEANT!”
“Good. Now get to the position of attention and stay on the line while I check your miserable names off.”
We got back to our feet. Most of us sweating.
I stood where I was, face slowly drying in the gentle air from the overhead ducts. My heart rate slowly began to slow. The awful feeling in my stomach subsiding. For many seconds I had been positive that ultimate extinction was falling down on my head, and I had been powerless to prevent it. Now . . . ?
Now, I flicked my eyes around the rectangle, checking blank—and mostly relieved—faces, for signs of culpability or guilt. Webber and Ajala looked ashamed, and wouldn’t meet my gaze, but I couldn’t bring myself to blame them because I knew they weren’t the ones at fault.
I rapid-scanned until I found the one person I suddenly was sure in my bones had been behind it.
Thukhan wouldn’t meet my gaze either, even though I glared at Batbayar with enough seething rage to melt holes in a tank’s hull.
He just stood there, as if oblivious to the whole thing.
Only, a little curl crept up at the corner of his mouth.
And I suddenly wished very much for a magazine of live ammunition.
CHAPTER 25
SOMETHING NUDGED ME AWAKE.
I slowly pulled the jacket off of my head. There was a sensation of fine grit in every pore and crevice of my skin. My lips were dry and my throat parched.
It was dusk, or getting on towards it. The storm had passed, and the air was clear. So clear, in fact, that I could see the stars, sharp and precise in the purpling sky.
I saw the captain’s pack in front of me, but no Adanaho.
The Professor hovered nearby.
“Is everyone okay?” I asked, my tongue rubbery. Saliva flowed into my mouth, and I spit several times to get the dust out—though I still felt it on my teeth. My eyes were crusted and I wiped at them with hands that felt caked in powder.
“Yes,” said the Professor.
I slowly stood up, yawning and stretching my back. There were wind storms on Purgatory too, but in the valley where my chapel was built, things had been more or less protected.
Not so, here. Though the hill had done us good. I couldn’t begin to guess what might have happened if we’d been caught out in the open with nowhere to run and nothing to hide behind. There weren’t any mountains on this world, from what I could see. No recent or ongoing geologic activity. Everything had been slowly worn flat by wind and occasional water. It was probable we’d see several more sandstorms before our journey was over.
My bowels suddenly told me it was time to do God’s work.
“Excuse me,” I said. And began walking away from our hill, looking for something farther and smaller—just big enough to crouch behind and relieve myself.
When I was done I made my way back. The far horizon still glowed with the setting sun. I stopped short, seeing two silhouettes at the top of our hill: one human, distinctly female, and the other mantis. I observed them for a time. They were both facing into the setting sun, their heads erect and their eyes forward. I thought I could just barely hear the sound of Adanaho’s voice.
Coming back to the makeshift camp in the hollow at the base of the hill, I quietly spoke to the Professor.
“What are they doing?” I asked.
“When the storm lifted, your Captain was the first to rouse. She checked the status of myself and the Queen Mother, then she shed her equipment and went to the top of the hill to survey the surround. When we heard her voice coming softly down to us, the Queen Mother asked me what your Captain was saying. I told the Queen Mother that it sounded like prayer.”
Prayer.
I was surprised, though I don’t know why. I’d not known the captain long enough to inquire as to her upbringing or spiritual affiliation. If any. Was she Muslim? She had mentioned North Africa.
“So how did the Queen Mother get up there?”
“I carried her,” said the Professor. “She was curious. She’d never seen a human engaged in religious rite. Of any sort. Your captain did not seem to mind. The Queen Mother asked that she be left alone with your captain, and I have done this. I suggest you do it too.”
“It sounds to me like Adanaho is still talking,” I said. “She has to know that the Queen Mother isn’t able to understand.”
“Perhaps her words are not for the Queen Mother?” the Professor said.
Yes, perhaps.
I sat down in the hollow and retrieved some water and a concentrated food bar from my pack, drinking and eating in slow, deliberate portions. The Professor softly landed his disc next to me, and I felt his alien eyes studying me as I stared at the gravel in front of my toes.
“You are a curiosity,” he said.
“Oh?”
“Yes, assistant-to-the-chaplain. In all the time we have known each other—through all of the work that you have performed in my presence, as a religious human—I have never known you to be overt about your feelings in the way other humans are overt.”
I felt my face get warm.
He was treading in uncomfortable territory.
“I don’t believe it’s my place to be showy,” I said. “It might make some of the chapel’s attendees think I was playing favorites. In terms of which ‘flavor’ I subscribe to.”
“But we are not in your chapel,” said the Professor. “And there are no other humans around us to see you, save your Captain. Who is now occupied. Our circumstances are dire. I know from studying the human history of belief that this is the ideal time for supplication. Harry, why do you not pray?”
The warm feeling in my face grew more intense.
“I don’t know,” I said. He was asking me questions I didn’t dare ask
myself.
“You built a holy house with your own hands, and you maintain this house for use by any human who comes through your door. You do this out of loyalty to your deceased chaplain. Yet, you do not perform services in your chapel. Never have you offered a sermon. You do not pray, nor have I ever known you to habitually carry out any religious ritual of any sort—save for demonstration purposes, for the educational benefit of myself and my students.”
“Stop,” I said. Though perhaps too quietly. It was a plea, not a command. My eyes were closed, but that didn’t prevent the tears.
“My apologies,” said the Professor, when he noticed the muddy streaks on my cheeks. “It was not my intent to cause you grief. I was merely curious. It seems to me a very large irony that you of all humans should be a non-believer. Yet this has been my slow, hesitant conclusion. After spending many years away from you, during which I was able to further digest our mutual experiences. You support and feed the belief of others. You have made it your mission in life. Yet you cannot partake of that which you give.”
“I’m . . . I’m not sure
what
I goddamned believe,” I said, though perhaps too loudly. The gentle, whispery sound of Adanaho’s voice had ceased. And suddenly the clicky-clacky speech of the Queen Mother replaced it. The Professor listened intently for a few moments, then looked down at me—his body and disc just faint outlines in the near darkness.
“I must go. The Queen Mother wishes me to translate.”
He left me there, feeling embarrassed and miserable.
I put away my food and water and rewrapped myself in my jacket. Nights in the desert—any desert—tend to be cold. Though I didn’t think the chill was entirely physical.
CHAPTER 26
Earth, 2153 A.D.
I WAITED SIX DAYS.
Acting any sooner would have been a mistake. With the situation between Thukhan and I coming to a head, any immediate action on my part would have been expected, or even planned for, by him. So I hid my rage behind a mask, and plowed through the immersive marksmanship training, to include simulator exercises prior to the following week’s live-fire trips to the open-air range.
I also redoubled my efforts to find excuses to demonstrate through action what the DS had been screaming about the night my weapon went temporarily missing. It didn’t take much. Notice someone struggling to get his bunk made on time? Help him make his bunk. Spot someone’s uniform out of whack? Walk up and straighten things out for her. See an error of any sort? Correct it before the DSs did. And so on, and so forth. To the point that I got to know a goodly number of my fellow bay inmates, and a few more people around the company as well. Simply by making an extra effort to notice things, and help a brother or sister out. Usually earning me a smile, or an embarrassed thank you, or a fist bump.
Before too long, the trick caught on. Spontaneously. Just little things, here and there. A locker left open would magically find itself locked. A latrine kit, accidentally abandoned in the head, would be secured for later return to its owner when the DSs weren’t looking. Boots and shoes not aligned properly under bunks became mysteriously aligned. Until it seemed as if the bay, and the platoon, and indeed the whole company, began to think and act on a different, almost subliminal level.
The smokings and the chew-outs predictably dwindled in number as well as intensity. Which meant more time to actually focus on training, and less time spent locked up at the position of attention or parade rest, wondering what kind of terrible punishment was going to be dished out.
In the back of my mind, I relaxed and waited. Just long enough for Thukhan’s eyes to begin wandering elsewhere.
I knew I had my chance when Batbayar drew night watch assignment: midnight to three in the morning. When the bay was full of sleeping recruits and the only other person awake would be Thukhan’s assigned double on duty.
They each took an end of the bay, per longstanding instruction from the DSs. I’d pulled a few shifts already. I knew the routine. Everybody did.
Sweat coated my skin as I lay in my bunk, awake with nervous energy. I’m not a violent person. But even I knew that someone with Thukhan’s mentality wouldn’t stop until something drastic was done. I didn’t want to wait to find out what a man like Thukhan would do with a live weapon in his hands. Maybe the DSs didn’t have the time or the energy to see it yet, but I knew in my heart that Thukhan was going to hurt someone. If not me, it would be someone else. And in this environment there were plenty of ways for a person with ill intent to ruin someone else’s whole life.
Which is why at 2:08 AM, when I saw Thukhan walking back to the head doors at the rear of the bay—far from his counterpart, who sat yawning sleepily at the other end—I became almost spastic with anxiety. If I was successful, it would get Thukhan out of the bay and out of the platoon. Perhaps even out of IST altogether? Failure would leave me more wide open than ever to Thukhan’s depredations, and I had no doubt that once he’d been openly retaliated against, Thukhan would let nothing stand between himself and his vengeance.
At 2:13 AM, I finally forced myself out of my bunk. Thukhan was clearly distracted or otherwise occupied, and the recruit on watch at the other end of the bay had his chin on his chest while a quiet snore issued from his throat.
I padded silently down the side of the Dead Zone—bare feet being forbidden in the bay, but in this instance they were essential—until I was leaning an ear against the head door. There was no sound coming from inside that I could hear. Had Thukhan fallen asleep on the pot? Was he pulling on his pud, PT shorts around his ankles? He’d be in a for a very rude surprise, if so.
I clenched my rifle in my hand.
In addition to shooting, we’d been practicing man-to-man contact maneuvers with our weapons as blunt instruments. Not that these moves would work against a mantis, but there were some military traditions that simply refused to die. Tonight I hoped my training would serve me well enough to put Thukhan out of the picture for keeps.
“Don’t do it, man,” said a whisper to my left.
I nearly jumped off the floor.
The shape in the darkness was impossible to make out. I couldn’t tell which recruit had spoken. So far I’d pretty much kept to myself, and while I’d managed to get along with most people, I’d not exactly become friends with any of them either.
The interloper was unwelcome.
“This is none of your business,” I hissed.
“Eff that,” he said. “You think we’re all blind? You and Thukhan have been spoiling for a fight ever since we got here. You think the DSs don’t know it too? What happens when they find the body? Who do you think they’ll point the finger at?”
“I don’t want to kill him,” I said.
“Then what?”
Our hushed whispering seemed overly loud in my ears. I craned my head over my shoulder to be sure the night watch at the end of the bay was still snoozing. Which he was. Then I turned back to my nameless interrogator.
“I just want him gone,” I said. “A broken arm or leg should do it. Knock him unconscious. Say he slipped on the wet floor, or something? That way he’s recycled, at best, and I don’t have to deal with him anymore.”
“Naw, man, Thukhan is from the street. You’re not from the street. You’ve learned a little bit about fighting from the cadre, but that doesn’t mean you know how to close with a man and put him down. Not yet. Maybe not ever. You don’t seem like the kind of guy who wants blood on his hands.”
I was sweating profusely at this point, despite the cool air from the ventilators.
“I don’t,” I said, swallowing hard.
“Then let it go, bro.”
“He’s going to hurt someone if he’s not stopped.”
“You mean he’s going to hurt
you.”
“And someone else after me, and someone else again after them, and so forth. Look, who the eff are you anyway? And why do you care?”
“I’m just someone who thinks you’re about to make a big mistake.”
I had no reply. I simply stared at the dark silhouette to my side, trying to make up my mind whether or not to go through with my plan.
“Look,” said the shape, “you do whatever you want, I can’t stop you. Just don’t say you weren’t warned.”
“So if I do nothing, Thukhan gets to keep on being an asshole?”
“Maybe,” said the shape. “Or maybe assholes have a way of weeding themselves out? So far, Thukhan has been a loner. You haven’t. You’re making friends. He’s not. By doing this you’re letting your focus on him distract you from gaining allies elsewhere.”
“Are you my ally?” I asked honestly.
There was a brief moment of silence.
“Yeah,” said the voice. “Maybe I am.”
More silence.
Then the tell-tale sound of a plastic toilet seat dropping onto its ceramic bowl, followed by the gurgling growl of flushing water.
Without even thinking about it, I hotfooted my way back up the bay and slid into my bunk, the springs bouncing just slightly as I hurriedly covered myself up.
Thukhan emerged from the head a moment later.
If he’d heard either myself or the nameless recruit talking, he didn’t seem to show it. He simply sauntered up the bay, nudged his partner awake, then went back to take a seat for the remainder of his shift.
I stared at the springs to the bunk above me.
When I joined up with the Fleet, I’d simply wanted to do what my friends were doing: get away from home, and go to space. To see the stars. For real. Help the human race survive. Beyond that . . . I’d not put much thought into it. What kind of plan did I have for myself, or my future?
Lying there in my bunk I considered the fact that I’d been on the brink of trying to really hurt another human being—and possibly hurting myself worse in the process. My interrogator was right. I wasn’t from the street. I was from the suburbs in Colorado. Had grown up and been raised by a mother and father who, while firm, had never put a hand to my face in anger.
What did I know about taking anyone to the woodshed—whether they deserved it or not?
With my rifle securely tucked beside me under my blanket, I felt a wave of quick exhaustion sweep over me. With a little luck, I’d still get three hours sleep, before morning reveille started the regimented madness of IST all over again.