The City of Shadows (11 page)

‘John Cavendish.'

‘You're not Special Branch.' Stefan ignored the proffered hand.

‘Oh, I'd say you're a better detective than that, Sergeant.'

The Tullow train pulled out of Kingsbridge. It wasn't a corridor carriage and they had the compartment to themselves. No one would hear; that mattered to Cavendish. He had made Stefan wait on the platform till the last minute.

‘I'm a bit like you, Sergeant.'

‘What does that mean?'

‘I'm not supposed to be doing this.'

‘What is it I'm not supposed to be doing?'

‘I don't know what Sergeant Lynch would make of you meeting Miss Rosen today. I assume you've been warned off Keller.' He tapped his nose. ‘Well, you didn't have that when you left the Shelbourne last night.'

‘Are you going to tell me who you are?'

‘I'm actually Lieutenant John Cavendish.' He reached into his pocket and took out a leather card case. He pulled out a neatly printed card.

Stefan looked down at it. He shook his head, stifling his laughter.

‘I'm sorry, am I missing a joke?' frowned the lieutenant.

‘You're with G2?'

‘More or less.'

‘And you give out cards saying Military Intelligence?'

‘Well, someone had them printed up,' he grinned amiably.

‘And more or less means –'

‘Not leaving undone those things that ought to be done simply because our political masters have instructed us to leave them undone.'

‘This could go on for some time, couldn't it? And I'd say I'll still have no idea what you're talking about. So why are you following me?'

‘I did think you were working with Lynch.'

‘Does it look like I am?'

‘No. I don't know what you're doing. I don't know why you arrested Hugo Keller, only to have Special Branch pull him out of a cell in Pearse Street and take him home. I don't know who Hannah Rosen is or what she's got to do with Keller. I don't know why you met her today when you've been told, in a variety of ways I imagine, to lay off Herr Keller now. But I'd hazard a guess that Lynch is looking for something he thought you had.'

‘And is that what you're after too, Lieutenant?'

Cavendish looked at him, saying nothing. He had been thrown into this conversation abruptly and unexpectedly. Whatever about the nonchalant smiles, he had blown what was meant to be a simple surveillance.

‘It's not my business, Lieutenant. I don't want to get between you and Special Branch. You'll have important work to do, following one another round Dublin. I just arrested an abortionist when nobody wanted me to.'

‘What happened to the evidence you took out of Merrion Square?'

‘Lynch has got it.' Stefan smiled. ‘Except for what's missing.'

‘And what is missing?'

‘Give me a clue. I might have seen it, who knows?'

‘What the hell does that mean?'

‘It means it would take a lot more than a punch in the face from Jimmy Lynch's bulldog to make me give up something worth having. So what's your offer? You don't look like the shite-kicking sort, Cavendish.'

The soldier didn't reply. He was trying to get the measure of Stefan. He wasn't sure about him. Was he joking? Was he really hiding something?

‘Look, I haven't got it, Lieutenant. I don't even know what it is.'

‘So what are you doing then?' persisted Cavendish.

‘My job.'

‘And where does Keller come into your job now?'

There seemed no reason not to tell the truth. It wasn't a secret.

‘I'm looking for a woman who disappeared earlier this year. The last thing she did was go to Merrion Square for an abortion. That makes Hugo Keller the last person who saw her, the last I know about anyway. That's what I'm doing. So what about you? Why don't you tell me what you and Special Branch are looking for? Did Keller keep a list of his customers?'

‘That would be some of it,' replied the lieutenant.

‘I guess there'd have to be more to interest Special Branch?'

Cavendish's silence gave him his answer. Then the officer smiled.

‘So what do you know about Hugo Keller, Sergeant?'

‘As a posh backstreet abortionist, he's got some unusual friends. And he seems to generate a surprising amount of activity in unexpected places. What with Special Branch dancing round him, not to mention the director of the National Museum, who happens to be the leader of the Nazi party the Germans have set up here, and now Military Intelligence, I can't decide whether he's a national treasure or a threat to national security. Which is it?'

The lieutenant didn't answer. ‘So, who is this missing woman?'

‘I doubt she's going to be of any interest to G2 or to Special Branch. She's just a woman no one's seen for a long time. I'd be surprised if she's alive. I don't know how, or why, but that's what I think. That's what I was talking to Hannah Rosen about. It's what I intend to talk to Herr Doktor Keller about, whether it goes down well with Military Intelligence, or Special Branch, or the German embassy, or my inspector or anybody else.'

‘Well, if determination was all there was to it, Sergeant –'

‘Meaning what?'

‘Adolf Mahr drove Keller to Dún Laoghaire last night and put him on the mail boat. He'll be in London by now, I'd say on his way to Germany.'

Lieutenant Cavendish got out at Naas, where the train took the branch line that led along the River Slaney and the western edge of the Wicklow Mountains to Baltinglass. And as the train set off again Stefan Gillespie took out the letters Hannah Rosen had given him. Immediately he found himself in a world that was complex, intense and unfamiliar. Naturally enough, the letters between two old and close friends were full of epigrammatic references to people and events he could know nothing about, both in the lives they had shared in Dublin and in the lives they now led in Ireland and Palestine. As a detective he had tried to piece together the jigsaw of a stranger's life before, but this had an intimacy that at once absorbed him and made him uncomfortable. Susan Field almost certainly wrote as she spoke. Her words tumbled over each other and took tangential, unlooked for directions, sometimes finding their way back, circuitously, to what she had started speaking about, sometimes leaving the original thought behind, never to return. Several times she made him laugh out loud – once when she described sitting in the gallery of the Adelaide Road synagogue on a Saturday morning, mesmerised by a man who had fallen asleep below, wondering how long it would be before the growing intensity of his snores would be loud enough to compete with the cantor's recitation of a psalm; another time, when she kept patting the packet of cigarettes in her coat pocket to reassure herself that soon, very soon, she would be outside the synagogue drawing in the invigorating smoke that was all the more desirable because it was forbidden on the Sabbath. It reminded her, she wrote, of the time she and Hannah, just seventeen, tore along the South Circular Road after shul to light a cigarette in a doorway, only to meet the pious and disapproving faces of Mrs Wigoder and Mrs Noyk. He could feel the vitality of Susan Field in her breathless words; it brought him closer to the loss that consumed Hannah. It wasn't hard. His own loss wasn't buried very deep.

The letters were punctuated by words Stefan didn't quite understand, but every so often there was something familiar about the closeness of a community that was both a part of the world around it and at the same time engaged in its own private rituals and habits. Catholic Ireland was a public event, but his own childhood, especially the teenage years, when his Sunday mornings still belonged to the Church of Ireland, didn't feel very different to some of Susan Field's memories. There was the same mix of boredom, irritation and impatience; there was the same sense of something apart. He looked out of the window, seeing the water of the Slaney for the first time, and to the east the round-topped Wicklow Mountains. He played no part in all that now. He couldn't remember when he last sat in the church by the river in Baltinglass. Yet he still knew that what his father always said was true; it wasn't just a more private way of looking at the world; it was about keeping your head down. His parents still did keep their heads down.

By the end of the first few letters Susan Field's swirling narrative had moved from the past to new excitement about being at University College Dublin. He knew her better here. And he still felt the closeness between her and Hannah. There was a letter that ended with a paragraph of invective about a priest who was lecturing on medieval philosophy. He was arrogant, supercilious and never listened to what anybody else said. Fierce intelligence and blind faith. Didn't the first mean you shouldn't be a prisoner of the second? How could you argue with someone whose ideas admitted no doubt? In the letters that followed, her irritation with the man she started to refer to jokingly as ‘John' was replaced by an admiration that was already about something else altogether. She had done more than find his doubts.

He came to the pub with us. I don't know why. He never did before. I started arguing with him, mostly about how his lectures infuriated me. But he wasn't as stuffy as the stuff he spouts. I don't mean he doesn't believe things I could never believe, but he was so much sharper and funnier than in college. He's full of questions about what he believes after all. He's obviously committed to being a priest, but he said he wasn't sure he would have become one, if he'd thought the way he thinks now. Anyway, we ended up talking on our own, after the others all went. And when the pub closed we walked round Dublin for hours and hours, just talking and talking. I think he's probably a bit of a mess underneath. I quite like that really!

Soon the world of the family and friends Hannah and Susan shared had almost disappeared from the letters; so too had the references to what Hannah's letters must have contained about her life in Palestine. Stefan was very aware of that. He found himself scanning the later letters, not for the pieces of the jigsaw he was actually meant to be putting together, but for the pieces of the other one, the one that was about Hannah Rosen. Sometimes there was still a glimpse of that, buried among her friend's preoccupations.

When I met John tonight we didn't talk very much. We finally did what we'd both wanted to do at the end of that first night, when we walked through Dublin. You always tell me I use the word love too easily. You don't even like using it when you're talking about Benny, and you're marrying him! Tell me which of us is the more confused? Anyway, I'll pretend I'm not talking about love even if I am. You're the only person I can say all this to. I quite like how secretive and exciting it all is. Sounds a bit daft of course. I know you'll think so! But then you've got a nation to build. You've got to be serious. I don't suppose it'll last long – after all he is a priest! It'll get a lot less exciting once guilt catches up with him. But just now he hasn't got time!

As the letters went on they were less and less about excitement and more about unhappiness and isolation – from her family and her community, even from the friends she had at UCD. It seemed to Stefan as if some of the things Susan said suggested that Hannah reciprocated those feelings at times – not of unhappiness perhaps, but at least of uncertainty. Soon, however, there was scarcely any room in Susan Field's letters for anybody else, even her best friend. And then, in middle of it all, she found out she was pregnant.

Well, I told him. He started on about leaving the priesthood and meeting his obligations. God, the only thing worse than the mess I'm in is the thought of a lifetime with a man who's ‘meeting his obligations'. I just shut him up, but then he surprised me. He asked me if I wanted to keep the baby, and when I told him I didn't, he said he'd help. There's a man in Merrion Square, a proper doctor I think, German, all very private and swanky. He knows somebody John knows. I don't know how. I can't say I care. I've seen him and it's all very easy. It'll be sorted out next week. John and I won't see each other again. He's leaving UCD. It seems a long time since we felt happy with each other. I'm not sure we ever did, whatever we told ourselves.

The last two letters were much shorter. The animation that had filled the others, even when she was writing about unhappiness, had been drained out of her. There was only emptiness. Now she just wanted it over with.

Merrion Square tomorrow. I don't know what then. It was all about nothing in the end. In between I seem to have lost touch with all the things I cared about. I can't even remember what they were. I'm a long way from everyone. I wish you were closer, Hannah. I suppose the blues are inevitable. But they'll go, I guess. By the way, if I use the word love too much, you don't use it enough. If you don't love Benny, then making the desert bloom and filling it with babies won't be enough. I don't know so much about myself any more, but I know that about you. Anyway, here I go!

That was the final letter. It was dated the twenty-fifth of July. The end was bleaker than Hannah had made it sound. He knew what darkness was, and he could feel it in Susan Field's final letter. There was a time when he had thought about walking away from it all. In Ireland the boat to somewhere was always an option; for some it offered new hope, for others it was the final expression of despair. He had even thought about another journey once, the darkest journey. For the Greeks you took a boat for that one too. It had been no more than a thought that he left behind. He had his son Tom to pull him out. What did Susan Field have? In that last letter it didn't feel like very much.

As the train pulled into the station at Baltinglass it followed the road and the River Slaney, black now under still thickening cloud. Beyond the river, Baltinglass Hill rose up above the town, a great pyramid of green. Three thousand years ago the people who lived there had buried their dead on its slopes and had looked down from the stone fort at the summit, as a new people arrived. The newcomers had probably followed the river too. And then the people who watched from the fort were gone, even the words of their language had disappeared, unremembered for thousands of years. They left only the ring of stones on the hilltop and the megaliths that once covered their dead.