The Detective's Daughter (7 page)

Isabel lay on her back, her body so slight that the bed appeared empty. Although she told her cleaner that she was a light sleeper, she did not stir when, some time later, the fifth stair creaked.

Tuesday, 11 January 2011

A telephone rang from somewhere beyond the waiting room. Stella skimmed the
Daily Mail
she had taken from the pile of newspapers and brochures on the smoked-glass table, pondering how the old-fashioned bell was at odds with the modern techniques of dentistry boasted of in the glossy marketing.

It was her phone. She rummaged for it in her rucksack and hastened to the conservatory at the end of the waiting room.

‘Stella, are you there?’

‘Speaking.’

‘No, I mean are you at the dentist?’ It was Jackie, her personal assistant.

‘Yes I’m here,’ she hissed into the handset, stirring toothbrushes displayed in a cane basket on the window sill that resembled the gift sets with soap and baubles of bubble bath nestling in straw she received every Christmas from clients who saw no irony in giving soap to a cleaning company.

‘You’ll feel better.’ With less conviction Jackie added: ‘Good luck.’

At nine that morning Jackie had found Stella at her desk dosed with painkillers that had not masked the hammering in her jaw and, without consulting her, sourced a dentist online and booked the first appointment of the day.

Stella had not divulged her fear of the whining drill, the scraping of metal on ivory and the electric shocks of exposed nerves. Or her revulsion of latex-coated fingers poking around her mouth; never would she admit to feelings or failings.

The pain had started when she got home from her visit to the office last night. On top of Terry’s death, toothache was the last straw; she had ignored it, replied to her emails and designed and priced an oven-cleaning package. The throbbing increased and she decided to stipulate to the undertakers that the funeral would be basic: no cars, no flowers, no music. No mourners.

In the morning Jackie handed her the address of the surgery on a Clean Slate compliment slip and, snatching the keys for a spare van, gave Stella twenty minutes to get to Kew.

Stella had no intention of going; she would pretend Mrs Ramsay had called and asked her to come a day early. Yet obeying the satnav’s peremptory directions and driving along untypically clear roads to ‘reach her destination’ – a tree-lined street of detached Edwardian villas off the South Circular – she had arrived with five minutes to spare and a pain that was robbing her of her senses.

She had slotted the van into a tight space outside the surgery, crunched over a gravel sweep, circumventing a huge four-by-four car to steps between plinths, each supporting a stone eagle with outspread wings. A brass plaque on one, smeared with dried polish, read: ‘Dr S. A. I. Challoner. Dentist’. Nursing her jaw, Stella had pushed open one of two studded doors and gone inside.

She returned to her seat and took refuge in the newspaper.

Her phone rang again: Paul had called her at home and so far today had sent five texts. She switched off the handset.

‘You must be Stella.’

Stella looked up from an article about the curse of the Kennedy dynasty to see a resurrected Ted Kennedy: a middle-aged man with ebullient greying hair in a pristine white coat, piercing blue eyes and a smile of perfect teeth. He spoke as if her presence was a happy discovery and put out his hand. Stella rose.

‘I am Ivan.’ He kept her hand for the right amount of time in a grip that was firm but did not crush.

When he gently shut the door to his surgery, all extraneous noise ceased.

The richly decorated room reminded Stella of the sitting rooms of many of her clients. Floor-to-ceiling shelving of hardback books: Austen, Dickens, Eliot, Homer and Trollope were – she was gratified to see – in alphabetical order. The opulent décor of rich ochres: yellow, terracotta, deep oranges contrasted with the midnight blue of Mrs Ramsay’s tablecloth. All this demoted the harsh white dental equipment to ornamental rather than the main activity of the room. Stella’s dread diminished and she waved at the bookshelf indicating
Wuthering Heights
.

‘Good story.’ She dared risk no more; she had only skimmed it at school.

‘Don’t you love it?’ Dr Challoner was examining his instruments, laying them out on a long marble-topped table with lion-paw legs.

‘I wouldn’t go that … Yes, I do.’

‘It was my wife’s favourite too.’

This stopped Stella from adding that she’d been annoyed by all the bad weather and had given up before the end. As Dr Challoner guided her to the chair, she kept to herself that she did not see the point of fiction and, lying back, became aware of the faint notes of a piano.

Although Stella knew little about classical music, she recognized it. Mrs Ramsay had put it on every day; the music was depressing and Stella thought it could not be good for her. Mrs Ramsay said the music came from the walls, which was the sort of illogical remark that had led Stella to suspect she was going mad. On her last visit, Mrs Ramsay, behaving as if in the scene she was describing, had rhapsodized over some bird – ‘Don’t look up, you will blind yourself’ – hovering above the ruins of a village and had cautioned: ‘Sssssh! See the children playing. Keep an eye on what they are doing.’

Stella had been compelled to reply that she could not see anyone. Mrs Ramsay had pointed out that the top of the cistern needed a wipe, which it did not.

Stella had taken over Mrs Ramsay’s cleaning two years ago when one of her staff was frightened by the old lady pretending to be a celebrity at an opening ceremony and forcing her to hold up a length of parcel tape that she snipped with a pair of pinking shears.

Mr Challoner clipped a plastic bib into place around Stella’s neck and adjusted wrap-around sunglasses on her nose. He elevated her into position and Stella allowed herself to relax.

As he stood over her, a lock of his hair slid over eyebrows so defined Stella wondered whether he plucked them. She could not identify his aftershave: a mix of musk and incense cut with juniper berries and spicy pepper and calculated that veins criss-crossing the backs of his hands put him in his mid-fifties while his translucent complexion and prominent cheekbones made him seem younger.

‘My nurse is off sick. It is she who runs this tight ship, so do bear with me.’ He snapped on surgical gloves with a magician’s flourish.

‘I like this music.’ Stella regretted speaking. It opened possibilities of a discussion in which she would have nothing to say.

‘When my son was small this was his favourite, he made my wife play it every bedtime. One gets sentimental once they grow up. If music had been more accessible in Proust’s time, he might have experienced it as a vehicle of transcendence instead of a morsel of sponge cake.’ He gave a quick smile.

Stella opened wide to avoid responding and her jaw clicked the way Terry’s did; her calm evaporated.

‘I’m transported to his bedroom, tidying his toys, reading Beatrix Potter or some such to him. Raise your hand at any time during the procedure if you want to rest and rinse. Creeping out, I would have to stop and gaze at him, his face deceptively angelic in the glow of the nightlight, he hated the dark.’ Dr Challoner appeared distracted; then he shrugged and picked up a sickle probe from his tray.

Stella imagined a father who read his child stories, held her hand in the street and sat her on his knee to ask about her day at school. Bright light warmed her face when Mr Challoner repositioned the lamp; she closed her eyes.

It was over.

Mr Challoner was keying details of his treatment into a computer. Stella tottered against the chair as she tidied her hair and tugged at her clothes. The bib lay on the counter.

She had a gum infection under her lower left second bicuspid for which he scribbled a prescription for antibiotics, reassuring her that, apart from a spot of plaque and decay behind her top left incisor revealed by the X-ray, her teeth were good. With his hygienist on holiday he had performed a clean and polish. He would see her again for the filling which he made sound like a treat in store.

He delivered Stella to his receptionist and with a slight bow bade her goodbye.

Outside it occurred to Stella coming out of the reception, that the wall where the surgery had been was blank. She put this crazy impression down to the lidocaine numbing one side of her face; it turned the visit into a not unpleasant dream.

She stuck to the speed limit on Chiswick Bridge thinking about the little boy tucked in by his father. Terry could not have named her favourite music. Her phone’s ringtone was amplified through the speakers and propelled her into the present.

Jackie had left a voicemail about Mrs Ramsay, although crackling made the message unintelligible, Stella guessed Mrs Ramsay wanted her. When doing costing analyses Stella never built in the extra attentions she gave some clients regardless of their business worth. Such efforts, she had explained to Terry, were key to her success.

Stella did not reflect that the extra touches were because she cared about Mrs Ramsay. Page two of her staff handbook warned cleaners of the dangers of mixing emotion with business:
You are one side of the dustpan and brush
;
the client is on the other.

Stella resolved to start on Terry’s house that afternoon. The pain in her mouth had gone and as her van rumbled over the rickety Hogarth flyover the cloud lifted. She angled the visor to cut out low sunlight and estimated, based on years of experience, that clearing his possessions need take no time at all.

A police car and a van marked ‘Scientific Support Branch’ were parked outside Mrs Ramsay’s house. The back doors of the van were open and inside Stella could see the same blue plastic slide-out containers that she used for storing cleaning equipment in her vehicles. She drew in behind, wrenching up the handbrake to the furthest notch.

Blue police boundary tape, rattling in the breeze, had been tied across the gateway of Mrs Ramsay’s house and a policeman blocked the path.

‘Sorry, madam, you can’t pass this point.’

Stella looked over the officer’s shoulder to the shadowy hall. A lookalike Terry in a crumpled grey suit, balanced on his haunches, was inspecting her shampooed rug. A woman in scene-of-crime overalls sprinkled powder along the dining-room window sash bars which Stella had treated only last week and now would have to do again. The detective came out on to the porch, speaking into his phone.

It was not Terry.

As he kicked his heels, stamping on the mat and smacking dirt off his trousers, she caught the words ‘… place is a tip…’

‘I’m going to have to ask you to move on, madam.’

‘I’m here to see Mrs Ramsay. We handle her cleaning.’

The constable folded his arms. ‘Not any more. Mrs Ramsay died in the night.’

May 1985

The engine hurtled too fast into the tunnel; he should have applied the brakes sooner. Everything went into slow motion. His tummy churned, his tongue was a dead thing and when he tried to shout the sounds were lost in yawning blackness. Beakers of tea and coffee, books and bags slid gracefully off tables. Suitcases tumbled out of netted racks and blocked gangways as ceilings and floors changed places. He was alive to noises only experts would identify: cogs loosening, axles shearing off, metal grinding and snarling. The engine was swallowed up by the hole in the hillside.

The urgency in the air was intoxicating, yet the engineer in him worried that the collision and consequent vibration would weaken the tunnel roof and expose mistakes. The driver’s cab should survive, he calculated as the engine roared out the other side dragging carnage in its wake like tins tied to a wedding car. The second carriage had telescoped into the first. Too late he blew his whistle: this was the best part and he had looked forward to it but his ribs hurt as if splinters of glass had lacerated his organs and his nostrils filled with the stench of rotting roots and claggy soil. The train careered off the track and came to rest beside a watering can.

Jonathan had been proud of his tunnel, excavated into a mound of topsoil; it was high and wide enough for the rolling stock. He surveyed the damage: there were cracks around the opening which would develop into critical fissures and fatally undermine the structure if not repaired.

‘You went too fast.’ Jonathan dared to be cross with Simon. He rubbed his hand on his shorts leaving a bloody stain; he had been biting his thumb. Someone would be displeased with him; at this moment, dazed by the incident, Jonathan could not remember who that would be.

‘You’re a scaredy-cat, Justin.’ Simon was matter of fact.

Justin, for that had been his name for four months now, shuffled his feet to alleviate pins and needles. Simon sat with his legs apart; there was a graze on his knee from football. Justin’s legs were skinny and pale; his football shorts flapped around his thighs, like a skirt, Simon said.

Simon says: Justin’s a girl.

Simon says: Justin’s a weirdo.

Simon’s willy lolled in the depths of his shorts; everything about him was bigger. Justin concentrated on the tunnel in case Simon caught him staring and called him names. He was fretting about the incident, and wanted to be alone to inspect his train.

The kitchen garden had been a secret but, falling into a routine of going there instead of the playground, Justin grew careless and Simon had seen him. He sneaked up when Justin was doing the opening ceremony for his new cut and cover railway tunnel behind the greenhouse.

‘Can I have a turn?’ Justin should not have to ask for a go with his own train.

‘Unfortunately you cannot. I need to perform more test runs.’ Simon was imitating him. He knew nothing about engineering or trains, Justin fumed.

Simon shoved the engine along flattened soil that Justin had weeded and designated a ‘sand drag’ – intended to prevent a catastrophe such as this. He had not taken human error into account because he did not make mistakes. He would have liked to have installed a Moorgate control but lacked the tools. There were no actual rails; he had constructed the track along a section of earth he had punched flat with a brick. Justin dreamed of real tracks raised on ballast. Simon was pressing down on the engine’s tank until it sank into the mulch at the foothills of the compost heap.