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Lucy

Lucy was really the outgrowth of my mother's love for southern cooking. I was spending the summer in the south when my mother wrote my aunt and asked her to find her a colored woman who could really cook and would be willing to come to New York.

After canvassing the territory, Lucy was the result. Her skin was a rich olive and her features were finer and lighter than most negroes'. She was tall and reasonably round. She had been one of the teachers at the school for colored children. But she seemed to have a natural intelligence, not formed by books, but a child of the earth with a deep understanding and compassion for all that lived. As most southern negroes, she was very religious, and even now, I can see her sitting in the kitchen reading her Bible, and declaring most earnestly to me that she was a “child of God.”

So we had Lucy, and when she stepped off the train that September morning at Pennsylvania Station, you could see the pride and the triumph in her eyes. She told me that all her life she had wanted to come north, and, as she put it, “to live like a human being.” That morning she felt that she would never want again to see Jim Crow with all its bigotry and cruelty.

At that time we lived in an apartment on Riverside Drive. From all of the front windows we had an excellent view of the Hudson River and the Jersey Palisades, rising steep against the sky. In the morning they looked like heralds greeting the dawn and in the evening, at sunset, when the water was dyed in the confusion of crimson shades, the cliffs shone magnificently, like sentinels of an ancient world.

Sometimes, at sunset, Lucy would sit at the apartment window and gaze lovingly at the spectacle of the dying day in the world's greatest metropolis.

“Um, um,” she would declare, “if only Mama and George were here to see this.” And at first she loved the bright lights and all the noise. Almost every Saturday she took me down to Broadway and we went on theatrical sprees. She was crazy about the vaudevilles, and the Wrigley sign was a show in itself.

Lucy and I were constant companions. Sometimes in the afternoon after school she would help me with my mathematical homework, she was very adroit at mathematics. She read a great deal of poetry, but she didn't know anything about it except that she loved the sound of the words, and occasionally the sentiment behind them. It was through these readings that I first became aware of how homesick she really was. When she read poems with a southern theme, she read them beautifully, with a unique compassion. Her soft voice recited the lines tenderly, understandingly, and if I glanced up quickly enough there was just the trace of a tear gleaming in the exquisite blackness of those negro eyes. Then she would laugh if I mentioned it and shrug her shoulders.

“It was pretty though, wasn't it?”

When Lucy worked she invariably accompanied her actions with a soft singing, “blues” in its quality. I liked to hear her sing. Once we went to see Ethel Waters and she went around the house imitating Ethel for days, then finally she announced she was going to enter an amateur contest. I'll never forget that contest. Lucy won second place, and my hands were raw from applauding. She sang “It's De-Lovely, It's Delicious, It's Delightful.” I remember the words even now, we rehearsed them so many times. She was scared to death she was going to forget them and when she went on the stage, her voice tremored just enough to give it a Ethel Waterish tone.

But eventually Lucy abandoned her musical career, because she met Pedro, and she didn't have time for much else. He was one of the basement workers in the building and he and Lucy were thicker than molasses. Lucy had been in New York only five months when this happened and she was still, technically speaking, green. Pedro was very slick, he dressed flashy, and besides I was mad because I didn't get to go to the shows anymore. Mama laughed and said, “Well, I guess we've lost her, she'll go northern too.” She didn't seem to care so much, but I did.

Finally, Lucy didn't like Pedro either, and then she was more lonesome than ever. Sometimes I would read her mail when it was lying around open. It went something like this,

Dear Lucy,

Yu Pa he's got sick, he in bed now. He say, hallo. We guess now yo up thea yo hev no time fo us po folk. Yo brother, George, he done gone to Pensacola, he work in bottle factry thea. We sends you all ouah love,

Mama

Sometimes, late at night, I could hear her softly crying in her room, and then I knew she was going home. New York was just vast loneliness. The Hudson River kept whispering “Alabama River.” Yes, Alabama River with all its red muddy water flowing high to the bank and with all its swampy little tributaries.

All the bright lights—a few lanterns shining in the darkness, the lonely sound of a whip-poor-will, a train screaming its haunting cry in the night. Hard cement, bright cold steel, smoke, burlesque, the smothered sound of the subway in the dank, underground tube. Rattle, Rattle,—soft green grass—and yes sun, hot, plenty hot, but so soothing, bare feet, and cool, sand-bedded stream with soft round pebbles smooth, like soap. The city, no place for one of the earth, Mama's calling me home. George, I'm God's child.

Yes, I knew she was going back. So when she told me she was leaving I wasn't surprised. I opened and shut my mouth and felt the tears in my eyes and the empty feeling in my stomach.

It was in May that she left. It was a warm night and the sky over the city was red in the night. I gave her a box of candy, all chocolate-covered cherries (because that was what she liked best), and a pack of magazines.

Mother and Daddy drove her to the bus station. When they left the apartment I ran to my window and leaned over the sill until I saw them come out and climb into the car, and slowly, gracefully glide out of view.

Already I could hear her saying, “Ohhhh, Mama, New York's wonderful, all the people, and I saw movie stars in person, oh, Mama!”

Traffic West
IV

Four chairs and a table. On the table, paper—in the chairs, men. Windows above the street. On the street, people—against the windows, rain. This were, perhaps, an abstraction, a painted picture only, but that the people, innocent, unsuspecting, moved below, and the rain fell wet on the window.

For the men stirred not, the legal, precise document, on the table moved not. Then—

“Gentlemen, our four interests have been brought together, checked, and harmonized. Each one's actions now should to his own particulars be bent. And so I make a suggestion that we signify consent, attach our names hereto, and part.”

A man rose, a paper in his hands. Another rose. He took the paper, scanned, and spoke.

“This satisfies our needs; we drew it well. Indeed, our companies are by this piece assured advantage and security. Yes, in this document I read great profit. I'll sign.”

A third arose. He fixed his lens, perused the scroll. His lips in silence moved, and when words sounded, each was weighed.

“We must admit—our lawyers, too, agree—the text and wording of this note
is clear
. I have it from advice on every hand: herein is, despite the power it assumes, what legally can be, what by the law is. Thus, I'll sign.” He read the script anew, and passed it to the fourth.

An executive like the others, he fain would have affixed his name and gone. But his brow clouded. He sat, reading, scanning, examining. Then he laid the paper down.

“I cannot, though agreeing, sign the document. Nor can you.” He saw their startled faces. “It is the power of the thing that damns it. The very reasons you have just given, that show the lawful measures it
allows
. The purposes of
huge
extent, the full
assurance
of support, the mighty steps
permitted
these things, though lawful, are not for us. If unlawful, we could risk it, for the law would then be acting contrary—
supporting,
not oppressing, the thousands of workers; protecting, not destroying, the interests of weaker peoples.

“But if the law, our government, allows we
have
the right to make this tract to move, through legal pen, ten thousands for what our interests want—and worse, to misuse those same ones whose rights we represent; then
we
must draw the line—reject a measure which risks the welfare of the many in our care.

“We have power, as do all who serve great interests. But if we judge by God, a thing most difficult for moneyed minds to do, we sense, as men of might, our duty to the ‘average man,' and, gentlemen, I beg you, take no such selfish action.”

Again the room was still. A businessman had just torn down one kind of code, and in this tearing down revealed another.

Three others saw his reasoning, and, having seen, replaced old business goals with goals of brotherhood.

“Let us take the bus away from here, and leave the document destroyed in legal fashion.”

III

The bright morning sun streaked over rows of waiting roofs and struck against the closely drawn blinds of the house on the hill.

The covers on a huge, medieval bed stirred and a sleepy head turned on the pillow as a knock sounded on the door.

Two freshly shaven, trim young men filed into the room.

“Good morning, Uncle. Your orange juice,” greeted one as his brother stepped to the windows and raised the blinds. The eager sun thus welcomed streamed into the room.

“You're late, Gregory,” growled the man in bed. He sipped his juice, then raised himself. “And damn it! If Minnie leaves seeds in this drink once more, I'll get rid of her.” He spat the seed on the rug.

“Pick it up, Henry, and throw it in the wastebasket,” he commanded.

“Uncle,” grinned Gregory as he returned from the receptacle. “How's your leg? We've good news—”

“Shut up,” the older man rasped. “When I tell Henry to do something, I want
Henry
to do it. You may be twins but I can tell you apart. So, Gregory, pick that seed out of the wastebasket and let Henry do as I said.

“All my life I've seen to it that things were
just so
. I've kept my library exactly the same way. I've kept my room exactly the same way. I've kept the house the same way. I've gone to town and worked. I've gone to church and prayed—exactly the same way. I've thought and acted as I should have. My great strength as mayor has not been in myself but in my sound habits—”

“Oh, you'll be elected again, Uncle,” cheered one. “But right now, we've good news for you—”

“Hell, boy, of course I'll be elected!” interrupted the invalid. “I'm not talking about that. He signaled impatiently for an extra pillow. “My greatest worry is you two. Your dead father wanted me to take care of you. But God, what can I do? I break my leg—it'll have to come off, you know. I send for you two to be in my office until I recover. Hell! It's one thing to lose a leg, but it's too much to lose an election because of someone else's stupidity. And, say, did you touch that cross word puzzle on the floor?…Good, I've got to have some relaxation.”

“We've good, news, Uncle—”

But he had sunk back in his covers. His rage was abating. He noticed sunshine playing on the top of his bed. “Listen to me first.” His voice was sad.

“I've lived a good life.” He turned to them. “But I've never had any fun. Not a bit. Being too busy to marry. I've left women quite alone. I didn't smoke, or drink, or sw— Hell. I could swear, but
it's
no fun. And I never enjoyed golf, couldn't break ninety. Never liked music, either—or poetry, or—” He thought of his cross word puzzle. He became silent, remained silent….His mind followed a strange course, one it had never taken before.

The sun was saying “hello” to his face now.

“By Jove, boys!” he cried, “I've never looked at it that way! Politics is one big cross word puzzle—delightful. And”—he sat bolt upright—“so is life! Aaaaaaa!” He had never smiled like this. “Last night, Henry, I thought I might make something of myself, if I only had two legs. But now, lame or
not,
I see I can be just like—just like”—he glanced around the room—“Yes! just like the sun!”

He pointed a trembling, happy finger at the ball of fire.


Our
uncle!” laughed the twins, and Henry said, “Your legs are your own. That is the good news! The doctor has declared the amputation unnecessary. You should begin walking as soon as possible. Tomorrow afternoon the three of us will take the bus to town!”

II

A ten-inch record whirled on the turntable. From a small speaker issued a beautiful, stirring trumpet solo. The girl rose from the bench on which she had been seated. She reached for the switch and the high trumpet tones died away in a gurgling gasp.

The music had disturbed her; she was dreaming of her childhood.

Outside the little try-out room, row upon row of record albums hemmed in two men. One pulled out a Beethoven quartet and handed it to the other.

“You can try this out, sir, as soon as the young woman is through with the machine.”

“No need,” laughed the other. “I think I can trust the Budapest String Quartet without hearing them.” The girl appeared from the booth and laid fifty-five cents on the counter.

“I'll take it,” she said, holding up the disc. And so, man and girl left the Music Shop, records under their arms.

“It's a warm day,” she began.

“Oh,” he replied, “the day holds nothing for me. Nor does the night anymore.”

“Do you feel that way, too?” she returned quickly. “Do you feel that—that you're like an engine on a track—just going you don't know where?” She turned red—he was a stranger after all. “But I'm serious, do you see any point in living?”

“I have no night; I have no day,” he replied sincerely. “I really have only one thing.” He held up his album. “My very life hangs on music.” He turned to the girl. He saw that she
was
pretty, but it was more her charm than her face. With a friendly motion, he put his hand in hers. “Are you going through the park?”

“I can,” she replied, and they stepped along the pathway. A minute later they came upon a wooden bench between two trees.

“I always stop here for a spell,” he said, loosening her hand. “Perhaps we'll meet again.”

The color mounted on her cheeks. She trembled slightly and, touching his coat with one hand, whispered. “Do you mind if I sit with you? Oh
please
! I must!” She stood silent.

He bit his lips, gently took her record, and, placing it on the bench with his album, pulled her down beside him. A moment later he drew her closer, then, slowly, placed one arm behind her.

“I was afraid to hope it,” he murmured, “for from the moment I first saw you, I knew why music meant so much to me. It was sort of a substitute—a glorious substitute, for something finer—for something—something”—he looked at her—“like you.”

They sat there, each thrilled by the other.

“The earth spins round us now like one huge record,” he went on. “This record plays—hear, listen, see—it is the song of life!

“Now, music is everywhere. These trees, this grass, this sky, swing to our rhythm.” He stretched out one arm. “Oh love!” He bent down and kissed her.

“Tomorrow afternoon we'll take the bus, and go to town for a license, and the rest.”

“Yes,” she sang, fixing his collar.

I

Dear Mother,

I write this note, dear Mother, with truly humbled pen. I see beyond my weaknesses and those of fellow men. Yet only as the sun rose up this morning.

My first ten years of life I filled with self, self, self, and self alone. Only cared I for the things you gave me. I wanted food, sleep, and pleasure. I was as a monkey self-intent. I cared not who was near me nor cared why.

And then, the next few years instilled in me a growing sense of “presence.” Presence of what cared I not, but only knew that if I did a right, this “presence” smiled. But when on
self
I thought—and, so thinking, wronged another—this “presence” scowled.

At length I grew to love this “presence” and to call it God. It helped me see it was the truth of life. I saw it should be followed and I tried to draw it near. But it said, “You are not ready,” and hovered near.

I was discouraged when I found I had it not. I flatly told it off, returned—almost to the first stage of my life. I took up smoking, swore, had a good time—thought I didn't care.

But then this “presence” whispered encouragements to me. I listened. It held before me such a light, I couldn't help but try. I only feared this light I might not reach before I die.

In struggling, I found my frailty. And God, in whisperings, showed me, too, my strengths. And so I did discover another method: failing that, a
personal creed
to cover both talents and setbacks was necessary.

Indeed, it did great wonders, for the difficulty of fulfillment gave me a chance to know and try my strength.

Yet found I that this creed could not be filled, and so I added to it “Presence of God,” which made, with sure conviction, all pain and inconveniences worthwhile.

Even with this addition, would the light not come. I now was struggling only for HIS PRESENCE within me; yet, I had it not. I let Him talk to me; I begged Him to. I followed what He would: His will, I tried to do.

And so, the sun bore a gift for me today. Dear Mother, “it” has come to me—and on the perfect day. The perfect day, because in my hand I hold acceptance to the Armed Forces of the United States of America. I'll take the bus tomorrow.

Your loving son _____­_____­___

0

Associated Press—“Ten people were killed tonight in the worst traffic disaster of the season. A late afternoon bus collided with an oncoming truck and overturned. The dead included four business executives, the mayor of a small town, and a young woman. For a complete list of the deceased, turn to page thirty-two.”

—

“For every man must get to heaven his own way.”

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