The Fallen (21 page)

“Uh …” Chloe started to sit up, then fell back on one elbow, as if she were woozy.

Mrs. King sighed. ‘I'il call the school. I shouldn't have let you drink anything last night. Or I should have at least made it red. That's supposed to be good for headaches and colds.” She fluffed Chloe's hair. “I'll call you later. Call me if you need anything—do you think you'll be okay at home by yourself?”

Ah, here it comes.
Chloe saw the worry and the single-mom guilt shadow her mother's stony eyes. Should she stay home with her sick daughter? That was what
her
mother would have done.
Well, her mother didn't have a job, but whatever.
At least Chloe's mom was always very careful to keep her adult doubts and worries and psychoses to herself and never burden her daughter with them.

Of course, she couldn't help projecting sometimes.

And she would worry a hell of a lot more if she knew about the attempt on her daughter's life.

“Don't worry,” Chloe reassured her, wondering vaguely how the whole mother-daughter thing had flipped around so quickly in the last few weeks and wondering when they would flip around away from each other again. “I'll call Amy.”
Yeah, right.
“She can come over right after school with stuff if I need it. I'm probably just gonna sleep here for the next few hours anyway.”

“Okay,” her mom said, sounding unsure. She leaned over and kissed Chloe on the forehead. “Feel better.”

And with the clank of a Coach purse, Italian attaché, and Kenneth Cole heels, she was gone.

Chloe waited on the couch for a while before deciding
what to do. There had been enough time since the attack for a little distance; she wasn't as terrified to be alone at home as she had been the first night. This day would be a good test: if her assassin meant to track her down and attack her at home, there would be no better time. She was by herself and the neighborhood was quiet.

But even if she
did
stay at home all day, it certainly wasn't going to be in a prone, vulnerable position lying on the couch. She could follow up on Xavier more, maybe call him. And what exacdy
about
Xavier and Alyec? Were these urges—all the way from sexual to self-destructive to simply destructive—
normal,
or did they come with the claws, the speed, and the sudden desire to eat raw meat?

She flexed her hand and watched her claws
sslt
out. She held them up in a ray of sun that beat its way around the curtains and plants. On the one hand, the claws looked “normal”: shiny, off-white, with little bits of calluses and dead skin around them at the base. On the other hand—paw—they looked as freakish and alien as the first time she'd seen them.

“What else do you bring?” she asked them aloud. Still no tail, thank God. That would have been harder to hide, and she couldn't imagine it suddenly disappearing somewhere up inside her body. She looked at her feet— her mom had removed her socks sometime during the night. Chloe hadn't even felt it—was that because she'd been dead asleep or because her mother's scent and
touch and little sounds were familiar, nondangerous? Had she somehow known instinctually, even in her sleep, that she was safe? Amy's cat would often spend the entire day sprawled at the bottom of the bed. You could pet him as hard as you wanted and he would stretch, never quite open his eye, and continue sleeping.

Or
did I just completely pass out?
A much scarier thought.

She spread her toes pinkly in the sunlight. Then she flexed them. No claws emerged. Was this it, then? No more physical changes?

She got up and stretched, enjoying the feeling of morning warmth.

Then she went upstairs to brush her teeth and stuff. But before she did, she remembered one task she had to take care of:
Mus-mus.

She went into her room and opened the drawer. Mus-mus came running forward, eager for a treat. Chloe dropped in a Cheerio. It bounced. The delivery and noise starded Mus-mus for a second, who was used to much gender treatment. Chloe put her hand out slowly, extending a finger toward the little mouth. He leaned forward, sniffing. Then he squeaked, dropping the Cheerio, and ran away.

“You don't like cats, even nice ones …,” Chloe whispered. Just one more thing that came with her changes, along with the violence. She bit her lip, feeling a tear well up in the corner of each eye.

“Okay, Mus-mus.” She reached forward to pick him
up; he was so desperate to escape her grasp that she had to extend her claws and very delicately close them around him like a cage. She held the mouse up to eye level, regarding the terrified little thing that had been her closest confidant as of just a few days ago. “Goodbye,” she whispered. “And good luck.”

Then she leaned down and opened her hand near the base of the bed. Mus-mus didn't hesitate at all, shooting forward and under the bed as soon as he could. Chloe sighed again, knuckling the tears out of her eyes. She carefully placed a little pyramid of Cheerios on the floor in case he needed a good start.

I'm gonna miss you.

She took a shower, trying to wash away everything she felt and start the day again. She put on her tank top and a pair of jeans, not bothering with undies.
Cats don't wear underwear,
she told herself but didn't even manage a smile. She adjusted her bra.
This cat has to wear something supportive on top, however.
She couldn't imagine having six or eight teats the size of her own.

Chloe wandered around, straightening some things, cleaning out the fridge for her mom, channel surfing. Overwhelmed by depression, she lay down on the couch.

Would I give up the claws if it meant no more crazy attacks on me, and life would return to normal, and Mus-mus would come back?
Even if she had the choice, she wasn't sure what the answer would be.

•   •   •

A hesitant knock at the door jolted Chloe out of a long, dreamless sleep. She looked out the window, fingering the chain mail necklace at her neck.

It was Amy and Paul.

Chloe frowned, not sure she was ready for this. But she went downstairs anyway and opened the door.

“Chloe,” Amy said. Her and Paul's eyes immediately took in the sexy tank she was wearing—and then focused on something particular near her left shoulder, causing them to gasp.

“Uh, your mom called us. Amy, I mean,” Paul explained as Amy stared, still fixated on the wound from the other night. Chloe had cleaned it out in the shower and put antibiotic on it, but it was still huge, deep, and red. Healing fine, just ugly. “She said you were sick.”

“Yeah, uh, come on in.” Chloe opened the door all the way, turning to go into the room first. Her two friends followed meekly. “Want anything? Coke? Diet Coke?”

“Coke,” Paul said absendy.

The stillness in the room was museumlike; it was twilight and everything was dusky, dusty, dim. Like a grandmother's house. Noises dropped and disappeared into the room like drops into a flat black lake, absorbed instandy.

“What happened to your arm?” Amy finally asked.

Chloe turned from the fridge and tossed Paul his Coke.

“I was attacked on the sidewalk the other night,” she answered flady.

“By the bum,” Amy supplied hopefully.

“No, someone else. Someone with a knife. Someone who seems to be
stalking
me.”

All three were silent for a moment. Amy seemed to disappear into the gigantic puffy silver coat she wore— somewhere between pimp and London DJ chic. Her hair was up in knots and she had a thin lime green scarf thrown about her neck. Paul looked far more casual— though just as ill at ease—in jeans and a leather jacket, surprisingly normal for him.

“Is it someone you know?” Amy finally asked.

“No.”

“Have you called the police?”

“Not yet.”

Amy must have sensed something in Chloe's tone; she didn't follow up with the obvious, “Why not?”

“I guess we have a lot of catching up to do,” Amy said slowly.

“Yeah?” Chloe asked, sounding like she didn't care.

“I didn't realize—you didn't tell me.…” There was a long pause. “I really haven't been there for you, have I?” Amy said sofdy.

“Not really,” Chloe agreed, but there wasn't any malice in the way she said it.

“Paul told me how you felt.” Amy suddenly laughed, forced. Paul looked down, embarrassed.
“Paul
told
me.
How
you
felt That's a first.” She was right usually one of the two girls was demanding that the other talk to the impenetrable Paul. “I flaked, I know—and then I got pissed because you
were dating Alyec.
And
this other guy. It was like you suddenly had this whole life apart from me.”

“Hello?” Chloe indicated Paul.

“I know, I know.” Amy sighed.

“I can leave… if you guys want,” the boyfriend in question suggested, a little annoyed that he was being referred to as a distraction.

“I thought you would be overjoyed we were together, like celebrate it or something,” Amy continued. “It's like—you know, perfect. Your two best friends, dating.”

“I'm going to… uh… go to the bathroom,” Paul said, getting up and leaving.

“That's pretty egomaniacal of you,” Chloe said, sort of regretting that she hadn't minced words, sort of glad she'd said it the way she had. “I've never really dated
anyone
and you've had a string of boyfriends—and now you and my only other close friend have decided to see each other exclusively? How do you
think
I felt?”

“Is that why you suddenly started dating all these guys?” Amy said, heat rising in her voice.

“There aren't ‘all these guys.' There's Alyec, who's fun and a great kisser, and Brian, who I met at the shop. Oh, and Xavier, this guy I met at the club the night after I fell when I was totally alone and felt weird and I tried calling you everywhere and you were busy with Paul.”

Amy's mouth opened as if to say something, but nothing came out.

“I don't really count him,” Chloe admitted. “I've only
seen him once since that night.”
And he was at death's door.

“Why didn't you tell me at dinner when—” Amy suddenly broke off, remembering the birthday pizza and how eager she'd been to talk about
her
experience with Paul the night before.

“You looked like you needed someone to listen to you,” Chloe said quiedy. “I didn't think what I did with Xavier was as important as what was going on with you two.”

Amy's eyes grew wet and glassy.

“I'm
sorry”
she finally said, trying not to cry. “I know I haven't been there for you
at all,
and I felt guilty about it, but I was angry and busy with Paul, and the longer we went, the guilder and angrier I got…. . .”

“It's okay,” Chloe said, trying not to smile. Typical Amy. Overemotional but genuine to a fault—if you pressed her long enough. Amy grabbed her in a big bear hug that made Chloe grunt in surprise, the breath knocked out of her.

“Wait, isn't two attacks on you in one month kind of weird?” Amy suddenly asked, wiping her tears off.

“You don't know the half of it,” Chloe said with a wry smile.

“Hey.” Paul appeared in the doorway. “Why don't we walk across the bridge, like we used to?”

Amy and Chloe looked at each other.
Why not?
Chloe thought, trying not to focus on how “used to” was less than a month ago.

•   •   •

On the bus ride to Golden Gate, Chloe filled them in on the details of Alyec—minus the car theft—and Brian, focusing more on the latter and how she was really disappointed he'd turned out to be such a loser. Both her friends were disturbed when she told them about how he knew Alyec's name and told her to stay away from him.

“Isn't that a little weird, two stalkers so close together?” Paul asked, unknowingly echoing Amy's previous question. “You don't suppose…”

“That Brian hired a knife-wielding maniac to frighten me?”

“Or Alyec,” added Amy quickly. She had granted that the popular boy might not be the root of all evil in the universe, but she hadn't given up hoping that he might be.

Chloe and Paul ignored her.

“Maybe you
should
call the police,” Paul suggested in his “serious” tone.

“It's a little more complicated than that.” Chloe sighed. She wasn't sure how much she was going to tell them, but she wasn't ready to say anything quite yet.
Maybe on the bridge. That would be the right place.

When they got off, they slipped past the crowds of large, slow-moving people who were taking pictures and standing around in aimless groups like the Golden Gate buffalo. Patii stopped at a machine to get a botde of Coke. Once upon a time he would have finished it when they made it to the middle, and the three friends would have written a note and sealed it inside, tossing it into the
water below. When they were even younger, they'd pretended that they were on an isolated little island and the bridge led to another world and it was the beginning of a long journey and quest for the three of them, together.

But now they tried to look as normal and unthreat-ening as possible to the action-figure National Guard. The days of throwing harmless things off the bridge were long, long over.

“It's like we live under martial law,” Amy muttered.

“Uh, I think they're here to protect us,” Paul protested.

“I like your skirt,” Chloe said, noticing the segmented and flaring jean mini Amy sported, almost like a loose tutu.

‘Thanks,” Amy said shyly. “I made it last week. I'm thinking about doing a whole matching set, like ‘Jeans Princess.'” She pointed her foot and revealed, under the silver puffy coat, matching jean leg warmers, kind of like bell-bottoms without the rest of the pants attached. Chloe wasn't sure
she
would wear them, but it was definitely a cool idea.