The Gift of Girls
Authors: Chloë Thurlow
CONTENTS
9. Nude Descending a Staircase
About the Book
Magdalena Wallace scores a great summer job as an intern at City accountants Roche-Marshall. But she omits to tell her boss, the mysterious Simon Roche, that she works nights as a waitress at Rebels Casino.
When Magdalena learns a ‘secret’ system from a high-roller, she plays the tables only to lose all her university savings. Soon she is dipping into clients’ money and it is not long before Simon Roche catches her in the act. As an alternative to notifying the police, he suggests she become his slave until the debt is paid. She agrees but never envisages just how far she will have to go to break even.
About the Author
Chloë Thurlow is a London-based author. She is the author of
Being a Girl
.
Also by Chloë Thurlow
BEING A GIRL
For Jim Arnold
1
The Interview
SITTING ACROSS THE
desk from Simon Roche in his office was worse than sitting A level French; worse than being sent to Sister Benedict to be reprimanded. My armpits were dripping and my knickers were so damp they had ridden up into the crack of my bottom. I was wearing a lacy blouse that revealed rather more bare flesh than was probably appropriate and my cheeks turned pink with embarrassment as I followed Mr Roche’s eyes down to my throbbing breasts.
My flatmate Melissa had said, if you’ve got it, flaunt it, and the thing with clichés is, while they are usually true, they don’t always apply.
With the push-up bra shamefully tipping my breasts out of my top, I had chosen a pink suit and cherry-red heels high enough to give a girl a sense of presence. That was the plan. My clothes were neat, pretty, feminine and tight enough to ensure that my bones could be seen to be exactly where they should be, pressing through my lightly tanned skin and brushing the inside of the pink fabric.
I was wearing the uniform of a girl with confidence, although I couldn’t help wondering as I gazed back mesmerised into Simon Roche’s deep-set eyes if I had got it all terribly wrong. He looked like Heathcliff in
Wuthering Heights
with wavy black hair and those probing dark
eyes
that had remained for an age on my breasts before panning slowly upwards over my chin and my nose. As our gaze met once more, I got the impression that he was looking into my soul, into my hidden desires and secrets. Desires and secrets I didn’t even know I had.
The office was cool and dark with pale wooden planks underfoot and floor-to-ceiling windows cloaked by vertical blinds. The blinds were partially drawn and bars of light patterned the room in such a way that for a moment I felt as if I were a bird in a gilded cage, there of my own free will to have my wings clipped. Roche-Marshall was one of the top accountancy firms in the country and a month’s work experience at their London office would give me a feeling for the profession before I started my degree at the London School of Economics.
‘Aren’t you going to find accountancy a little dull, Miss Wallace?’ Mr Roche began.
‘Not at all, I adore figures.’
He cast his eyes over my neck and shoulders, over that reckless display of cleavage.
‘As do I,’ he finally said, and I felt the flush on my cheeks burn more brightly. ‘How old are you?’
‘Eighteen.’
‘So, no gap year?’
‘No,’ I said and paused. ‘I want to get ahead. I like to succeed in what I set out to do and taking a year off now would slow me down.’
‘You seem very … disciplined.’
‘Yes, I am.’
‘That is something I like in a girl.’ His eyes in the refracted light seemed to sparkle like black stars. ‘Unlike art or literature, that can be bent to the shape that pleases the practitioner, the purity of numbers demands our subjugation to discipline.’
He clearly expected a reply and I wasn’t sure what to say. ‘Yes,’ I said. ‘I think that’s probably right, Mr Roche.’
‘You can call me Simon, and I shall call you –’ he paused before saying my name ‘– Magdalena.’
My name sounded oddly sensual in his deep voice. ‘OK,’ I said with a little shrug.
‘We are a very old firm. Some of our clients have been with us for a hundred years. Dealing with other people’s money requires complete trust. I like to reward those who respect that trust. Those who betray it I punish. I punish with extreme severity.’
As he spoke, he lowered his voice and I felt a shiver run up my spine. ‘Of course,’ I said, filling the moment’s silence.
He looked down at my application and continued. ‘I see you received the maths prize at school.’
I nodded.
‘And your hobby is gymnastics?’
‘Yes.’
‘I’m sure you look very fetching in a leotard?’
Was this a question? Was this the sort of thing employers asked? I wasn’t sure what to say. ‘Well …’ The flush on my cheeks must have been turning from pink to crimson. My throat was dry. I tried to swallow.
‘Magdalena, you’re not embarrassed, are you?’ he asked.
‘No, not at all.’
‘And?’
Now what did he mean?
‘I said, I imagine you look very fetching in a leotard?’
‘Well, yes, I suppose.’
‘Good. We try not to be too dull, even if we are accountants.’ He pushed the papers into a folder and smiled. ‘I’m sure you’re going to fit in at Roche-Marshall very well, very well indeed. I shall look forward to seeing you on Monday.’
That was it. I was in. I was so thrilled my knees felt wobbly as I got to my feet. Simon Roche pushed back his chair and stood, tall in his charcoal suit, a few curls of
dark
hair climbing over the top of his blue-and-white-striped shirt. He wasn’t wearing a tie.
He walked with me out to the lifts and stood there studying me in my pink suit, my slender waist and prominent hipbones, my full breasts of which I was secretly rather proud, the neat cut of my dark hair which Sister Bianca had once described as the colour of temptation. I had never been sure if the little nun from Napoli had been flirting with me.
The lift bell rang and Simon Roche touched my arm as if to guide me between the silver doors as they whispered open.
‘Until Monday,’ he said.
‘Thank you, thank you so much,’ I replied.
The doors closed and the lift whisked me down seven floors to the glass entrance of Roche-Marshall, a temple to the divinity of numbers, the altar for the sacrificial lamb.
2
Learning the System
I ARRIVED SPARKY
bright in a yellow suit Monday morning and was astonished to be given the job checking the accounts for various large corporations. I imagined this was a test, that the accounts had already been signed off, but there was probably going to be some small error in each one and, if that were the case, I was determined to find them.
It may seem weird that a girl like me, a gymnast, should enjoy the cold inflexible world of numbers, but I really do.
Life when you leave the safety of school is bewildering. We have all this education and ambition and temptation, and, while you are navigating a path through the grown-up maze, numbers have a purity, an honesty. Except in quantum physics or spacetime, two plus two always equals four, and there is comfort in knowing that, even if deep down the mathematician knows it isn’t strictly true.
I had been placed on my own in a small office with a view over the church spires and old slate roofs of East London. I was just along the corridor from Simon Roche and mid-morning he popped his head round the door to ask how I was getting on.
‘Fine, fine.’
‘Have you found any inconsistencies?’
I couldn’t resist a small smile. ‘Yes, a few,’ I replied.
‘No problems with the software?’
‘No, I did IT at school.’
‘Good for you.’
He seemed to be studying my feet under the desk. He glanced up, gave me one of his penetrating looks and left me with a vague sense of unease as he closed the door behind him.
Simon Roche gave me the feeling that he knew something I didn’t know, that he was aware that, while I was gilding my CV working as an intern at Roche-Marshall by day, from eight at night until two in the morning I was serving complimentary drinks at Rebels Casino in Piccadilly.
The truth is, I wasn’t taking a gap year and I was doing a waitressing job that wasn’t entirely suitable because I didn’t have any money. Well, yes, I had about £1,000 in savings, but I was sharing a flat in Camberwell with Sarah and Melissa, and £1,000 added to my meagre £3,000 student loan wasn’t going to last through my first term at the LSE. Not if I wanted to eat. Actually, not eating wasn’t a problem, it was not buying the clothes and creams and underwear that make a girl after seven years at boarding school feel that life’s worth living.
How I had managed to get into this sorry state wasn’t exactly my fault. Father made and lost fortunes with his harebrained schemes and had just lost the most recent fortune publishing English textbooks for the Chinese; only 50p a copy to print in Singapore, but, with ten million copies rolling off the press, the Chinese man who had ordered the books vanished. Poor Daddy got stuck with the bill and went bankrupt. He was now in the Middle East trying to set up a business selling second-hand aeroplanes, my Spanish mother was acting suicidal, and I was on my own.
I had taken the job at Rebels at Melissa’s urging because I had once played Sally Bowles in the school
production
of
Cabaret
and my role at the casino required a similar costume: a bowler hat and bow tie, a sleeveless girdle that nipped in the waist and, correspondingly, pumped up my breasts, black fishnets hooked to a garter belt and shiny black knickers, which alluring prospect invited punters to smack my bottom, an occupational hazard rewarded with small gratuities and, as I’m sure it says in the Bible, who among us can resist temptation?
The job allowed me to get a glimpse of the real world, or at least the real world of gamblers, who, as often as not, seemed to toss their chips across the green baize of the gaming tables so that it resembled debris vanishing on the outgoing tide. The majority of the players lost their money, and most did so with the equanimity of poor people standing in the rain at bus stops.
There were exceptions, and I often lingered over the blackjack table to watch an Australian man who wore the same creased linen suit every night and always appeared to cash up more chips than he had purchased at the beginning of the evening. He didn’t drink cocktails, but took a bottle of Coke every time I passed with the tray.
On Saturday, at the end of my first week at Roche-Marshall, I plucked up the courage to ask him how come he always seemed to win.
‘I have a system,’ he said and he placed four £50 chips on the three of diamonds.
My tray was empty and I had to dash off to refill it. I swept back around the room. An actor named Jay Leonard, whom everyone knew from the TV soaps, shoved £5 down my knickers and smacked me so hard I nearly dropped the tray.
‘Ouch,’ I cried.
‘She loves it,’ he called.
I stumbled on, bottom burning, determined to get a first in economics from the LSE.
Men, I had discovered, were obsessed with bottoms. They want to spank them, pinch them, squeeze them like
ripe
peaches in the greengrocer’s. Men see bottoms and can’t keep their hands to themselves. Even some women are lured by the same strange temptation – the nuns at my school, certainly, who dearly loved to see girls breaking the rules so they could instil a bit of old-fashioned obedience in them. Spanking may have been banned in most schools, but not in mine.