Arwood hands Benton a coffee. Across his left knuckles is the word
LESS
.
âTattoo.'
âOh, this? Yeah. My first was âDeath Before Dishonour'
â put that on my shoulder when I joined the army in 1989. But then, you know, I came back from Desert Storm not dead, and all dishonourabilised.' Arwood makes two fists, and puts them next to one another for Benton to admire. His knuckles are cracked from the dry air. They say
MORE
and
LESS
.
âYou like them? I think they make a good matching set.'
The tattoos are in a serif typeface. They have faded, as though the concepts themselves have been overused.
Benton uses a white plastic teaspoon to take sugar from a kilo sack, and stirs it into his mug. âI've seen
GOOD
and
EVIL
,' he says, âand
LOVE
and
HATE
. Never those.'
âYeah, well ⦠I know what these mean,' Arwood says.
The Nescafé is hot, and tastes the same as it does everywhere else, which is its virtue.
âSo there was this other guy in the tattoo parlour at the time,' Arwood continues. âSame deal. Across the knuckles. Guess what his said?
YOUR NEXT
. Can you believe it? What an arsehole. Didn't even spell it right.'
Night falls beyond the shatter-resistant windows like a carnival shutting down. It is best not to be out at night. Teenagers have nothing to do here. These are the world's newest street-corner societies. This is when it gets dangerous: when something new is being formed.
Arwood takes a cigarette from a soft pack. He taps it a few times on the table, and lights it as though it should have been lit already.
âI've got a car and driver,' he says, leaning the plastic chair back so it is now on two legs. âA local kid named Jamal. Works for the IRSG. They're gonna loan him to us for the one ride â there and back. I figure we top him up a hundred bucks, and make it worth his while. It's a week's wage around here, if you're lucky. There are only one or two stops to make.'
âThe girl,' Benton says. âYou know exactly where it happened?'
âThe mortar attack? Yeah.'
âThey weren't specific in the news reports. It was between small villages.'
âThe coordinates were in the sitrep from the UN,' Arwood says, pushing two stapled pieces of white paper across the desk. The top reads, âUN STRICTLY CONFIDENTIAL (File reference: 0009/22-14, Security Information Sensitivity, Classification and Handling) 1600 hrs EST 22 September 2013 DSS-IRAQ Daily Situation Report, Events and information pertaining to UN staff safety and security over the last 24 hours in Iraq â¦'
âWhere'd you get this?' Benton asks.
âThe NGO. It's not really confidential. Everyone on the mailing list gets one.'
Benton skims the note and slides it back.
âI used it to get more details, and asked around a bit, and I now have very accurate GPS coordinates. I'm off by metres.'
âMade an impression here?' Benton asks.
âNo. People know about it because it's on the news, but the internationals aren't interested. Most people here don't think the Kurds did it, but they're so factionalised and unpredictable one never knows. The locals are numb to this stuff. It was one of a dozen attacks this week alone. Only reason it comes up in conversation at all is because it came with art. All eyes are on the Syrian side. Assad's as much of a fuckin' psycho as Saddam ever was. Everyone at the camp here is mostly concerned with what's walking or being dragged across the border. No one understands why we're bothering to go look. I tried to be convincing but I wasn't, so you'll need to come up with an explanation. I can't think of one. And the truth sounds nuts.'
âThe truth is nuts. It's comforting to know it sounds that way.'
âWhat little we know is that everyone hauled arse after the attack. Left the bodies behind. The zone's hot. No one's been back since. Al-Nusra and ISIL are in the area now. They hate each other. You know these guys? ISIL is al-Qaeda, but apparently even al-Qaeda hates them, because they aren't following orders and seem to have their own plans. This story is definitely going to develop.'
There are two empty chairs by the table. Benton imagines the girl in green sitting in one of them, flipping through a fashion magazine while sipping a Coke Light from a clear straw as the scent of the fragrant pages wafts upward, casting a spell of glamour and luxury and permanence. He can't decide which of the two girls he's seeing. He doesn't believe they were the same girl. But he doesn't know enough about them to tell them apart.
Charlotte, his daughter, was fourteen once, too. That's what she did, sitting at the kitchen table in Fowey, at breakfast, as Benton tried to lay down the law about soft drinks. Vanessa was no help. The women ignored him. Why wouldn't they? Coke Light makes you thinner.
âKurds didn't do it,' Arwood says.
âVideo says they did. The world believes the video.'
âCameras lie.'
âI thought the line was, “The camera never lies,”' Benton says.
âThat's the line, but it's not true. Cameras lie because they're held by people.'
âYou've changed,' Benton says.
âIt's the mileage.'
âWhose office is this?' Benton asks.
âI don't want to tell you yet,' Arwood says. âThere's not gonna be a lot of fun on this trip. A little. But not much.'
âI'm a little past surprises.'
âThen you're in the wrong place.'
âTell me. Please.'
âI'll give you a hint: FFCs.'
âWhat?'
âFlying frozen chickens.'
âThat's your hint?'
âYou don't remember Perdue's Revenge?'
âDo I remember frozen chickens falling from the sky? Yes.'
âSo â¦What's your guess?'
âWhy are you punishing me?'
âLet me make this more simple. Do you remember getting laid that night?'
âYou were gone. How do you know what happened that night?'
âAs it happens,' Arwood says, âall those refugees outside who look like props are actually people with eyes and opinions. So ⦠think blondes.'
âYou don't meanâ'
âMärta Ström. Or however she pronounces it.'
âMärta's here?'
âShe could walk in any minute. She knows you're here. I talked to that Spanish assistant of hers. In fact, she was supposed to be here when you arrived. But she's not. If I were you, I'd read something into it.'
âWhat did she say when you said I'd be here?'
âThat's your first question?'
âNo. Of course not. Is she well?'
âYeah. She seems fine-ish. This lifestyle isn't the best for Nordic skin â all the sun and all. At least she doesn't have vitamin D deficiency.'
âYou two have stayed in touch all these years?'
âNo. I know people in the region, though. She's got a helluva reputation for being hardcore. Unlike you, she has not taken her foot off the throttle. Could have been director at any number of places, but she still prefers the field. I got in touch through channels. Turns out, she remembers us. I think we made an impression.'
âShe probably remembers you for walking through a minefield.'
âYeah, I don't do that anymore. Not literally, anyway.'
âDid she seem ⦠pleased to hear from you?'
âI don't know. She's got a better poker face than the Russians.'
âShe was reserved on the outside. Maybe she's still like that.'
âIt's because she's blonde,' Arwood says. âI think it's the eyebrows. Harder to track blonde eyebrows in low-light situations. The proof is that you never have to wonder what the Greeks are feeling. Or the Italians. Or the Spanish. Or the Arabsâ'
âI get the idea.'
âJapanese. Jews. Jamaicansâ'
âThank you, Arwood.'
âAnyone south of the Rio Grandeâ'
âI'm going to take one of your cigarettes,' Benton says.
âHappy, sad, angry, and blank. That's what blondes give you,' Arwood says.
âI didn't know about the dishonourable discharge,' Benton says.
âThey call it other-than-honourable, which is nice, because it lets people guess.'
âWhat happened?'
âYou saw what happened.'
âNothing else?'
âYou know what I did to Harvey.'
âThey were extraordinary circumstances. If that was the result, then they overreacted.'
âIt's the army, Benton. They overreact for a living.'
There are no cars at night. No tyres on roads, no teenagers driving too fast, or taxis refusing to let people merge. There is only the hum of the generators. Above, the stars are orderly, and separated by vast distances.
One sound catches Benton's attention â a stringed instrument. The player is skilled, and the song is sad. It is coming from a place nearby, out in the night.
âIt's a buzuq,' says Arwood quietly, guessing Benton's question. âLooks like a mandolin with a long neck. He's not half bad, this guy. He's been playing out there for almost a week. Families sometimes go and listen to him.'
âWhat's the plan tomorrow?' Benton asks.
Arwood reaches down into a drab-green rucksack and takes out a neon-green document holder and an iPad. He places both on the table. He removes a foldout map of Iraq, Syria, and Turkey that already has highlighted routes, destinations, and sticky notes on it.
âWhen did you do all this?'
âMostly after I saw the news. Same day I called you. As soon as I saw her, I knew we were coming. I started calling in favours and moving money around. Isn't it amazing how much the people in this part of the world remember? When they say they'll never forget something, they don't. And kids ⦠they grow up so fast. I feel like I've got clarity again. Don't you think so, too?'
âKids grow up fast, yes. I have no clarity, no,' Benton says.
Arwood points to the border between Syria and Iraq. âThere's a pontoon bridge that went up in August last year between Syria and Iraq at Peshkhabour. Way up north. Looks like a road over the Tigris. They're streaming in from Aleppo, Efrin, Hassakeh, and Qamishli.' Arwood points to the Syrian cities and villages. âThe video we saw was taken here,' he says, pointing to a spot east-south-east of the bridge. âIt was a humanitarian food convoy. They were dropping off some provisions for a mobile medical unit handing out water and rations to the refugees walking in. There was a lot of food there. Food's a commodity here.'
Benton looks at Arwood, and tries to read his face.
âYou're still holding to this fantasy that she's alive?'
âIt's a big maybe, I admit, but I think she's there. Waiting for us.'
âMaybe? That's what's anchoring our strategy?'
âNo. My hunch is what's anchoring it. My gut. My feeling that we've got nothing better to do, so let's go find out.'
âIt was three days ago, Arwood. There are rumours stretching all the way to Lebanon about children being abducted and their organs being harvested for international buyers. They abduct ten-year-olds and strap bombs to their chests, telling them that they'll be fine and that only the other people will get hurt. The idea that she's still there and needs us to rescue her is ⦠well, it's lunacy.'
Arwood reaches into a bag under the table and takes out a bottle of Johnnie Walker Red and places it next to the Marlboro Lights. He takes two plastic cups and then pours them both generous portions. He's clearly done with Nescafé.
âListen to me, Thomas,' Arwood says, with an intimacy that pushes away the years. âI believe that we were called back here. This one single attack. I've checked the numbers, Benton. I've become quite good at numbers over the years. The chances of its being filmed at all, of its being shown, of me seeing it and both of us seeing her ⦠chances that low require a poetic kind of maths. The State Department documented over 6,700 separate terrorist attacks worldwide in 2012 alone. Those 6,700 attacks killed over 11,000 people. More than 21,000 injured. Almost 1,300 taken hostage or kidnapped. These aren't war statistics, man,' Arwood says. âThese are peace statistics. Mission accomplished, and all that.'
Benton sips his blended whiskey, and says nothing.
âI'm not even including state-driven slaughter in Syria or the DRC, or Sudan, or Pick-a-stan. And in this year of tears? 2013? Gonna be even worse by the time we're done. But the camera eye caught this one. And we saw it. And we alone know what it means. And to ignore that is to turn your back on this big old goofy world and all its mysteries. So you're coming with me. Because somewhere in that soft belly is that gonzo journalist who once walked into a Shiite stronghold for a story and an ice-cream cone. So let's go into the desert and find what we find, including the girl. That's my speech. You want a better one, you call Bill Murray.'