The Golden Naginata (57 page)

Both wind and drizzle subsided, though the sky rumbled distantly, still promising ferocious weather. The sound of prayer was somewhat louder. The bikuni took a side path over slippery clay. She wove between additional monuments, many of them leaning. At last she came to an area devoid of monuments, but recently cultivated with graves, few of them marked, proof that the old cemetery was still used.

She pushed through brittle, dead weeds higher than her shoulder, finding grave after unmarked grave, and hoofmarks which she took to be the tracks of Ittosai Kumasaku's cherished horses. This would be the very place into which Kuro the Darkness instructed Ittosai, his only true retainer, to place the uncremated victims of monstrous and curious schemes.

She found a certain grave, one of the few with any kind of marker, albeit a marker of little merit, its inscription apparently made by an unsteady hand with a worn-out brush; the bikuni could not read the sloppy characters. Before this grave knelt a woman whose bent posture and ragged brown clothing conveyed old age. Her face was mostly swaddled, the slits of her closed eyes the only portion revealed. She seemed a very mountain spirit, a ghostly hag, hunkered in front of the recent grave, calling out to the wargod in her weak voice, muffled by wrappings; pleading for revenge. Omnipotent revenge. Purifying revenge. Glorified and holy to gods, devils, and humankind:
revenge!

“Grandmother,” said the bikuni, shattering some spell. The old woman grew still and opened her eyes. “It's too cold to stay out here. Can you pray before your houseshrine for a while?”

The old woman's wrappings hid her hair and ears and nose and jowls and chin … everything but those pinched, narrow eyes. A knife was sheathed at the front of her obi. Her muffled voice replied,

“Here lies the last of my kin. I've made this marker with his name upon it, in my own broken calligraphy. I couldn't find a priest to do it properly. I couldn't have his corpse taken for interment at our traditional grave sites near a temple distant from here.” She pointed vaguely south with a bent finger, then continued. “I am cast from my home, in which I could live only while my nephew had the rights of a castle retainer. What is there for me to do but die in this place, begging Hachiman for revenge against Lord Sato's hellish cleric?”

“What good is dying here alone?” the bikuni asked, pitying the old woman. “If you have no home, why not live secretly in one of the abandoned temples? You can pray for your nephew's spirit anywhere.”

The oldster turned her swaddled face away and said vehemently, “I will die right here! Don't try to make me fail! You shouldn't bother me like this. Even that villain Ittosai, who buried nine more men this morning, does not interrupt me, does not try to sway me, does not show me such disrespect. You know it's impolite to meddle! Go away quickly!” Now she glowered at the bikuni and insisted that she “Go! Go! I pray for only one to come to me before I die!” She gripped the handle of her sheathed knife and added, “The one I wish to see is the slayer of my poor Chojiro!”

Only when the woman said her nephew's name was the bikuni able to decipher the barely intelligible calligraphy on the wooden slat marking the grave.

“Grandmother,” she said, head hung low. “Hachiman has answered your prayer just now.”

The old woman's vein-mapped hands clutched at the knife's handle, ready to unsheath it. She stared up at the bikuni, demanding, “You are Kuro's handmaiden of death? You killed my poor Chojiro?”

“I have never seen this Priest Kuro. I fancy myself his foe; although I wonder how deeply his intrigues are rooted. I begin to wonder if anyone can die within this fief who does not do so by the design of Kuro the Darkness. Whoever slays anyone may serve Kuro, though not knowing how or why.”

The old woman tried to stand quickly, but was too feeble, and found her unsteady legs by awkward stages. Her hunched spine kept her from standing tall. Her fingers were knotted and deformed; she could not draw the knife very well. Her eyes conveyed a fierceness all the same. The knife was raised to the side of her head and she appeared willing to dash forward at any cost.

But she did not move. Momentarily, her expressive eyes broke from ferocity into shame and sorrow. She confessed, “I knew Chojiro was too much influenced by Priest Kuro. I knew it would undo him in the end. He was a good boy all the same, if you can believe that. He did what others told him, but never thought up anything evil on his own. I can bear the truth, if it comes from a nun with so guileless a face. Tell me: Did my Chojiro die bravely?”

The bikuni had to turn her face away in order to reply. “He was not such a brave man, if I must tell the truth.”

A cry caught in the old woman's throat. She took one step forward and managed to ask, “Did he commit some misdeed in Kuro's name that required your cutting off his head?”

The bikuni was bitterly ashamed, and barely able to respond. “I don't know that he did,” she said. “I gave in to the irony of the moment. He begged mercy, but I had none.”

The old woman's knife raised again, aiming shakily at the bikuni. She demanded, “Then how can I let you off for killing him?”

The bikuni squared her shoulders, looked the woman in the eyes, and replied, “I don't believe you can.”

The old woman hobbled forth, striving for swiftness, knife stabbing the space the bikuni had already vacated.

“Grandmother, your vengeance is a just one. If I give my blood to any, I promise it will be yours. Yet I am not ready to give it to you now.”

The old woman struck again, but the bikuni stepped aside, evading her easily.

“Take care of your health,” said the bikuni, “in case it takes a while for you to have your wish.”

Then the bikuni wheeled about and hurried back toward the Temple of the Gorge, quickly outpacing, and losing, her elderly foe.

As she backtracked, intending to reclaim her hat, she found, in the muddy courtyard between buildings, the same scrap of paper that had torn in her hand when Heinosuke snatched his scroll, and which she had dropped in pursuit of him. It was wet and dirty, but after she straightened it out a bit, it was easy to read. It contained part of another list of names, a peasant clan, and one of them was Shinji's. As was the case with Otane's name, Shinji's had already been given the mark that implied completion of revenge.

The bikuni stood in the courtyard, pondering the variety of families on Heinosuke's scroll: a lord and his relatives; vassals of various posts, with their kin; local holy men; and here, she found, even a farm family. All their fates were intertwined for some reason that the bikuni could not penetrate. A strange mystery! She wished she had been able to speak with Heinosuke, for it was possible his research had already resolved Priest Kuro's purpose and the connection between such divergent and unsuspecting families.

As her mind struggled with the fragments of information she had acquired, the dark sky became extremely pale and unleashed not a deluge, but snow. The day's long promise of tempest would not be met after all. Snow clung to her shoulders and hair; but that which touched the ground melted at once. It was a light snow and had the beneficence of making the temple less overtly grim.

That which she had felt in the main temple hall—a hand placed lightly at her nape—she felt a second time in that courtyard. It was eerily unnatural; she might have dismissed it as a snowflake or breeze had she not felt it once before. Yet the touch was not entirely threatening. She looked about, seeing no one. She crumpled the paper, then opened her palm; and a slight gust stole the scrap, losing it among flakes of snow.
How odd I feel
, she thought, gazing at her palm, on which snowflakes danced as within a miniscule tornado.

The peaked, tiled roofs around the court were swiftly becoming white-on-rust. Menace was certainly not erased, but snow's deathliness was more comprehensible, muffling the temple's native strangeness. The bikuni felt once more a fascination with or attraction for the macabre, a thing usually contrary to her disposition, or so she felt. Sometimes she was moody or withdrawn, but rarely grim or haunted. All the same, the monastery made her think about the tragic beauty of things grotesque, not about their frightfulness.

Perhaps this was in her nature, she reflected, only she refused to embrace it with full honesty. Her past was rife with gory deeds, dark battlefields, calm strokes of steel. She had been less reflective in those days. Even now, despite a discrete sense of criticism regarding herself and others, her dreams remained peaceful ones, more than not, never filled with severed limbs groping for the life her own sword had denied them. Because she had fallen from high station and become humble, some might think she suffered, battling a corrupting ego or a pitiful sense of inconsequentiality. Really she reveled in such feelings in a self-indulgent manner, and was quite happy to evade peace of mind. This being so, both her occasional sense of inadequacy and her questioning of the necessity of violence in no way caused her sensations of guilt for things past, or things that yet might happen.

In all, it would seem her life was a kind of supernormal force that meant no evil, destruction and slaughter notwithstanding. The malignance of the Temple of the Gorge was like this also. What really separates a hero from a villain where death is concerned? Is a righteous slaying less irrevocable?

She entered the long, narrow building, treading the corridor in search of the room where she had first spied Heinosuke and where she had dropped her bamboo amigasa. Her thoughts still rushed about her like the flurry of snow outside the monastery. She knew that of late her own cruel blade had swung less easily, not for loss of valor or vitality, but out of some sense that life was precious. Thinking about life was too interesting. The snuffing of such thoughts was too sad. Did the thing that was hellish about this Buddhist compound ever have such doubts? Probably it did not. Maturity had made her more conscious of herself, but the haunted temple was something frozen in time, mindless of itself and therefore, like a young warrior, able to destroy without shame. It was, then, her own violent youth she felt amidst the haunting: a loving recollection of the terrors she had witnessed, wrought, or survived.

And wasn't that the same thing that caused her to slay those three roguish samurai? She hadn't thought they merited death for pursuing a harmless girl through the night; so far as she had been able to tell, they had not even consummated their infamous intent. But she had been caught in the mystery of steel's strength, eager to recapture the innocence of the naive warrior who ceases to be a thinking entity but is only a part of a sword. It was easy to apologize afterward; to play her instrument for the dead, or buy a priest's prayers, or carve a lantern of stone.

Yet she would not give up what she had learned in order to be innocent again; and innocence is as ongoing a process as gathering knowledge. It was unlikely anyone ever knew herself completely. Still, some aspect of herself, out of her past or hidden within herself at all times, grazed off the walls of the Temple of the Gorge and echoed though its corridors. Though others would regard this place as horrific, the bikuni found in it something that was comfortably familiar and singularly splendid.

From a long way off, she heard the whinny of an aged horse. The bikuni thought it might mean Ittosai Kumasaku was bringing another corpse for Priest Kuro's cemetery. It might even be the corpse of the Todawa patriarch, for Priest Kuro, through Lord Sato, would doubtless cause the beleaguered family to give up any notion of interment elsewhere.

She found the room and reclaimed her hat. It was less dark, for the shutter was gone from the window. Snow reflected into the chamber like myriad small white flames. She noted that Heinosuke had also returned, at least momentarily. The books containing genealogies were gone from beside the table. The bikuni knelt before the table, removed a piece of rice paper from her sleeve, and lifted the inkbrush Heinosuke had left behind. She wrote:

Yabushi: We've much in common, I think.

We both take comfort in this haunted place.

Please think well of me until next we meet.

Then, from within her kimono, against her belly, she extracted her silk wallet. From this she withdrew a woman's hair, held fast by a tube of paper on which was written the name “Oshina,” Heinosuke's sister. She placed the hair upon the short missive and said to Oshina's spirit,

“I was nearly fooled into fighting your brother.” She bowed to the hair and asked Oshina's forgiveness, adding, “He considers himself to be dead to the world, so I must try to save him, fearing he will not save himself. As it stands, I don't understand the whole mystery yet. But I feel some resolution is pending. In the meantime, please look over Heinosuke for both of us.”

When she stood, taking up her hat again and leaving Oshina's hair for Heinosuke to discover, she turned and saw a shadow hulk in the door, a wide straw hat upon his head. Ittosai Kumasaku came into the room and looked about, as though the nun were not his primary concern. Finding nothing of greater interest, he acknowledged her by saying,