Authors: Hanna Martine
Oh no. This did
not
happen to her while she was pouring.
She shook it off because she had to and turned back around to face her tasters, meeting the eyes of everyone but Byrne. She poured a shallow tasting amount in each glass, starting at the far end with plaid-shirted Drinker and ending with Byrne, who nudged his glass a little closer to her.
“Last summer?” he prompted.
She made the colossal mistake of lifting her gaze, of getting a good, long look at his eyes. Powder blue with a dark navy ring around the edge. Gorgeous. Flirtatious. Really fucking dangerous.
“At the Highland Games up in Gleann, New Hampshire.” And now the dangerous eyes were smiling, too. “That cow wiped out your tent. Me and my team helped you clean it up.”
The bottle slipped from her fingers. Just an inch or two, but it made a graceless clink on the table. She
did
remember him now. How he'd tried to openly flirt with her the first night after his team had won the tug-of-war competition, and then more subtly the next day after that damn loose cow had destroyed hundreds and hundreds of dollars of good whisky.
She also remembered that she'd been briefly intrigued by him. Extremely reluctantly intrigued, but intrigued nonetheless.
That damn crooked smile layered a boyish tint over his confident, intense focus on her, and she suddenly realized that his sojourn in here and all his amusing comments weren't entirely about the whisky.
Good luck with that, buster
, she wanted to say.
I don't ever date tasters
.
“Oh yeah.” Cool as the breeze, that was Shea. “Didn't you guys win the tug-of-war?”
“So you do remember.” The way he said it, all drawn out, was packed with suggestion.
He was acting way too encouraged, like their witty banter would actually go somewhere. She shrugged. “That's about all I remember.”
She turned her back on him and stepped to the center of her tasters, then poured herself her own tiny glass.
“So you do, like, a lot of these things?” slurred Drinker down at the end.
“You mean the Highland Games?” she asked, and when Drinker nodded, she replied, “Last year was my first doing the tastings. Got a couple more this summer.”
“Lot more people up in Gleann,” Byrne said, looking around her empty tent with an odd, thoughtful expression. Gleann's tent last year had been nonstop, from open to close.
“I am grateful for each and every taster,” Shea replied carefully.
“But you wish there were more people?” he asked, meeting her eyes again.
“I always want to share whisky.” God, she was starting to sound like a brochure. Throwing on a smile, she returned her focus to the two couples. “Are we finally ready to drink, folks?”
Drinker held up the small, squat, stemmed glass. “Why not the flat-bottom glasses? What do you call those again?”
“These are better for nosing the whisky,” Shea replied. “Here, hold the base likeâ”
She didn't mean to look over at Byrne again. Habit, really, to take in everyone at the tasting table, to make sure she had their attention and that they each knew they were important to her. Hot Air was grasping the glass underneath, resting the bowl in his palm. But Byrne had the base balanced lightly in his fingertips. Correctly.
She ripped her stare from him and focused on the couples. “Hold it like this.” She showed them how to hold the base of the glass and not grip the bowl like a Viking. “What we're going to do first is nose the whisky three times, each time slightly longer than the last. One second, two seconds, three seconds. I'm going to count. Why don't you all watch me as you do it.”
The women shared a glance and laughed, and Shea wondered how many of those empty plastic beer cups had been theirs.
“One.”
Shea lifted the glass to her face, inserted her nose, and inhaled.
The couples followed suit and displayed pretty much the range of reaction she'd expected. Everything from I-Don't-Give-A-Shit-Let's-Drink, to Ew-This-Is-Disgusting, to dramatic, chest-pounding coughing because she'd inhaled too deeply and too long. Hot Air's expression said that this was nothing he hadn't already known.
And then there was Byrne. Nose in his glass for about a quarter second longer than was necessary. Powder blue eyes lifted just over the rim. Set solely on her.
Did he think he was the first guy to give her The Eye from the other side of the bar? This flat surface in front of her was No-Man's-Land. Quite literally.
“Should be different the second time, now that you got the shock of the alcohol out of the way,” she heard herself saying. “It should be sweeter.”
The corner of Byrne's mouth twitched, a hint of that crooked smile, then he buried his nose in the glass again, exactly matching her movements. Concentrating. This time
not
looking at her. Black lines of dirt had settled into the deep grooves of concentration along his forehead. He must be a few years older than her, maybe midthirties. He wore his years extremely well.
Stop it, stop it, stop it.
On cue, Hot Air started spouting off to his companions a list of all the things he smelled in the whisky. While there were never any right or wrong suggestions to specific scents or notesâwhisky was an entirely personal experienceâhe was messing with Shea's rhythm.
“And the third?” Byrne asked Shea, cutting into Hot Air's thesaurus recitation. Hot Air shut up.
“On the third nose,” Shea said, “you should smell some fruit, going deeper into the intricacies of the glass.”
Her tasters followed her actions.
“Byrne! You done in there yet? Come on, let's go!”
Byrne swiveled to the sound of the chorus of male voices. Outside in the sun, the rest of his team, muddy and disheveled in red and black, beckoned to him. No other rugby players wore yellow wristbands.
Byrne acknowledged them with his glass, then took a perfect taste of what Shea had poured.
The brown liquid disappeared slowly into his mouth. His jaw worked it over for a good four or five seconds. Biting it, chewing it. Savoring it, as it should be done. Then he swallowed it back, his throat working.
Exactly like how she was about to instruct her newbies.
Byrne lifted his eyes to Shea without a hint of pretentiousness or flirting. “Excellent, thank you.” Then, with a nod to the other four tasters, he left her tent.
She watched him go.
He had a long stride, masculine but oddly graceful. A leisurely confidence to his gait, contrasted by the clumps of turf stuck to the bottom of his cleats. He was built exactly how a rugby player should be with those ridiculous legsâtanned and thick and strong, with a distinct pronunciation of his quads. Might as well have
rugby player
tattooed down the side.
God
damn
it. In her mind she held one of those giant cartoon mallets and was whacking herself on the head.
Outside, the rest of Byrne's team had moved on except for one guy with a stocky build and longish blond hair. Byrne gave the other guy a “just a minute” gesture and disappeared in the opposite direction of his team.
Shea shook her head of his image and poured the next whisky for the couples, answering their questions about the Speyside distillery and the mashing process and what the years of aging on the bottle meant.
Then Byrne ambled back into view. Just a red-and-black-striped figure in her periphery at first, but her stupid brain demanded she look out through the tent flaps again, and so she did, beyond annoyed at herself. Distantly she thought she heard a nearby clearing of a throat, but she couldn't rip her stare away from Byrne.
His friend had drifted out of sight, but Byrne didn't seem to be looking for him. Instead Byrne went down the grass slope to where two couples, possibly in their forties, had spread out a blanket along the flag rope just outside the athletic field. The hammer toss was going on, but Byrne ignored the event and instead tapped one of the women on her shoulder. He gave her that incredible, crooked smile.
Toast. That woman was toast.
But then all four of the strangers were listening to Byrne say something, nodding up at him enthusiastically.
Byrne reached into the pocket of his rugby shorts and pulled out four yellow wristbands. One of the men reached for his wallet, but Byrne waved him off.
Shea gasped. Why on earth had he done that? Four hundred dollars. Four hundred dollars! Not to show off or to try to impress her, she hoped, because tossing around money was the absolute wrong way to do that.
To be generous, maybe? But still, four hundred dollars on whisky, given to complete strangers? Who
was
this guy?
As the two new couples slapped on the wristbands and stood, folding up their blanket, Byrne headed in the direction his team had gone. As he passed by the whisky tent, he turned his head and instantly found Shea. Caught her staring.
She quickly ducked her head, blindly grabbing for the third and final bottle, but not before she was blasted by the full impact of that crooked smile, far too bright in the sunshine.
That smile promised a lot. Things she hadn't allowed herselfâor been affordedâto think about in a long, long time. Things that hit her right where she hadn't been touched in an embarrassing number of months.
It disturbed her greatly, to be disarmed while in uniform, so to speak. It disturbed her even more that the man who'd done it was a tasterâquite possibly a Brown Veinâmet while she was working, and apparently in possession of some kind of money. No-nos, all around.
He wouldn't win.
He had to know that even though he'd caught her staring, and even though she'd looked away like a shy virgin at a bachelor auction, it didn't mean that he'd gained any sort of ground with her. She had strict personal rules to uphold, a hard-won reputation to maintain, and a business to keep at the top of the New York scene.
But when she looked up to tell him all that with her cool, disinterested expression and Stay Back eyes, Byrne was gone.
2
T
hat one sip of sweet, hot, golden whisky spread out and tingled its way through Byrne's body. He wanted more, plain and simple, but it had been pretty clear that what he wanted wasn't exactly available.
That was a damn shame.
The day had started out with the stress of the workweek still lingering in his system, until he'd hopped into the van with the rest of his rugby team, tightened the laces on his cleats, and jogged out onto the pitch, so very ready to get physical. Every play, every scrum, every hit, knocked out a little chunk of the shit he'd had to deal with this weekâthe intense kissing of asses, only to lose the business in the endâso when the clock wound down today and Manhattan Rugby chalked up yet another loss, he didn't care. The game had done what it was meant to do for him, and he'd walked off the field feeling high.
Shea Montgomery had been merely a bonus. A delicious whisky chaser.
He'd been meandering through the Highland Games, trying desperately to outrun the screech of those god-awful bagpipes, when he saw the whisky-tasting tent. The names Amber Lounge and Shea Montgomery had given him a good slap across the face.
Shea. The gorgeous, intriguing whisky expert he'd met last summer. He recalled briefly trying to track her down after their chance encounter with the cow up in Gleann. But then life and work and general crap had gotten in the way, and she'd slipped from his mind for a whole year.
How on earth could that have ever happened? After enthusiastically paying a hundred dollars and stepping into her tent, seeing her standing tall and confident and utterly beautiful in front of a line of sparkling brown bottles, he really didn't know.
Then she'd shot him down, bringing the total number of bullet holes she'd given him to two, because he seemed to remember standing in front of her firing squad up in Gleann last year.
And yet . . . just now he'd caught her looking.
Now Byrne swam against the crowd as he tried to make his way toward the parking lot that jutted up against the back of the whisky-tasting tent. A lot of people seemed to be making their way over to the big field where some seriously huge guys in plaid skirts were trying to swing some sort of ball on a short pole across the grass.
“There you are. Finally.” Erik was standing at the taillight of a sweet blue Tesla, tapping at his phone. “Was about to call. George is ready to leave without you.”
“Sorry.” Three lanes over, the van the team had rented sat idling with its side doors thrown open, George's thick body stuffed behind the wheel, the rest of the team wedged in the back. “Wanted some whisky.”
Still did.
Erik peered over Byrne's shoulder, and Byrne also turned, if only to see what his friend saw. Of course it was Shea, perfectly framed by the waving flaps of her tent, standing with her hands spread on top of her makeshift bar, laughing with the four people sporting new yellow on their wrists. Her long ponytail, nearly white in its paleness, swung down her back.
“Uh-huh.” Erik threw Byrne a side eye. “So what was with the wristbands?”
Byrne shrugged. “It was a great setup and no one was inside. Was a shame to let all that good whisky go to waste.”
He'd loved Shea's enthusiasm, her clear knowledge, and her patience and love for talking to tasters. More people deserved to experience that. He remembered how packed her tent had been up in Gleann. He wanted that again for her.
Erik slapped Byrne's arm. “Hey, don't suppose you'd want to stick around with me? Hire a car to take us back later?”
Someone started up on the pipes again and Byrne shuddered. “No. Why would you want to stay?”
“I don't know. I kind of love this. Feels a little like home.”
“But you're German.”
“Doesn't matter. I'm liking it here. I could have a couple of beers, you could try to romance the whisky chick again. Looks like some sort of band is starting up soon?”
Byrne squinted at the stage on the other side of the athletic field. More bagpipes. No fucking way.
“This really isn't my thing, man. Sorry.” Normally Byrne was game for anything Erik wanted to do, but this? Besides, Byrne was champing at the bit to get back into the city.
Erik spouted something in Germanâhe tended to do that when he got too excited or upset or frustratedâmade a dismissive gesture to Byrne, and then stomped off toward the van. Byrne wove through the cars after him.
After he packed himself into the van, Erik cried out, “This thing was great! Fantastic idea, George.”
“We got our asses kicked.” Dan, at shotgun, sneered into the windshield. He took a sip from a flask and stashed it back into his bag. Byrne cringed.
Erik ignored Dan, as usual. “Why aren't we staying and drinking every keg they have?”
Being the last one into the van, Byrne got squeezed into the crappiest, tightest spot in the very back. Though the air-conditioning was on full blast, the odor of sweat and mud and general man pretty much ensured they wouldn't be getting back their security deposit.
“Gotta get home for dinner tonight,” George said. Several other guys muttered their similar situations. Byrne and Erik and Dan were the only single guys on the team.
Byrne pulled shut the doors, George threw the van into gear, and the Manhattan Rugby Club rolled out of the Hamptons, heading back to the city.
“So you guys played a Highland Games last year?” Erik turned around in his seat to face Byrne.
“George suggested it,” Byrne said. “He's from this small town up in New Hampshire that was trying to revive their games or something. One of his high school buddies called and begged that we come up and play. So we made a guys' weekend out of it.”
“That was fucking
fun
,” George said.
Byrne nodded, remembering playing with a hangover. “Winning that case of whisky in the tug-of-war was worth it.”
“And that bartender was fucking
hot
,” George added, making Byrne shift and the rest of the players nod like bobbleheads.
A string of German spewed out of Erik. He was practically bouncing in his seat. “Why don't we do that again? Find some more Highland Games, play some tourneys, make a couple of weekends out of it. Shit, it's not like we're in it for the competition or anything.”
“Speak for yourself.” Byrne lightly smacked the back of Erik's head.
“Well, you're the only one who can actually play,” Erik added, to a chorus of loud indignation and the tossing of various dirty, rank articles of clothing.
“Anyone else up for that?” George asked from the front, eyeing the van through the rearview mirror. “I'll see what other games are going on, find out which ones have rugby tourneys, throw out some locations and dates? We can get out of town for a day or two, pound some dirt and then some beers?”
As every other player clapped or voiced their hearty approval, Byrne let his head drop back and gave it a good couple of bangs on the headrest. This was it. This was how he was going to die. Death by terrible musical instruments.
“Byrne?” A punch to his chest. “You in?”
“Ow.” Byrne straightened, laughing and wincing at the same time. The whole van was looking at him. It really was true; the team didn't have any shot at competition without him. It was as much about not letting them down as needing to be out on the pitch, toes to the dirt, fingers around the ball, shoulders to another guy's body. If he wanted stiffer competitionâand oftentimes he didâhe could always try out for the bigger traveling teams, but it was the guys involved in this van who made it a day worth living.
“Yeah.” He sighed. “Yeah, I'm in. But if you make me wear a fucking kilt I'm out of there.”
Rousing shouts went up, mixed with some extrafine cursing, so it wasn't until he felt the vibration in his shorts pocket that he realized his phone was sending him a notification.
Pulling it out, his heart stopped at seeing the colored bubble on-screen. Then the organ stumbled back into beating, racing, as he swiped the screen and opened the email app.
This could be it. What he'd been waiting for, trying for, for years.
The sounds in the van descended into ball-busting and general bullshit, rehashing the match from play to play. It all faded into nothing as the private email account came to life on-screen. The inbox showed a blue
1
. Byrne held his breath.
Spam.
Spam coming in on an email account he used for only one very specific purpose, to send messages to only one other very specific email address.
Expanding his cheeks, he blew out all the air he'd been holding inside. No other emails in the inbox. Not that he'd been expecting one. He hadn't gotten a response in nearly five years.
Didn't mean he was going to stop trying. The most important people in his life needed this, depended on this. So did he.
Only one person in the Contacts folder. He tapped the address and started a brand-new email. It had been a couple of days since he'd sent one.
Elbows crunched awkwardly into his sides, he typed a short and to-the-point message, careful not to use the same subject or text so as not to get shuffled into their spam folders.
He closed the email the same as always: “Please let me know if and when the property becomes available.”
He hit Send.
No one had ever accused him of giving up easily.
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T
he delightful people Byrne had sent into her tent finally left, a little buzzed, a lot happy, and with napkins scrawled with the names of several price-friendly whiskies stuffed into their pockets. Now that the entertaining hour was overâand since no other tasters seemed to be wandering inâShea was left to wonder again about her muddy, rugby-playing benefactor.
As she wiped off the bar, her phone chimed with a text.
Still in bed
. Willa.
Still? It's 3
, Shea thumbed back.
Dying for a kilted man to bring me Gatorade and ibuprofen.
A big laugh bubbled out of Shea's mouth.
There was one hot guy, but no kilt.
That'll do. Send him over.
Hmm, Shea did not know how she felt about that. About just handing over Byrne to her man-eating best friend.
Still working,
Shea replied.
Still hungover.
A figure appeared at the tent entrance, fuzzy and indistinct in Shea's peripheral vision. Funnyâand horribleâhow she recognized the shape and stance and general oily presence of the man she deliberately hadn't seen in four years. Not wanting to, but knowing she had to, she looked up to confirm what the shiver down her spine had foretold.
Oh fuckity fuck
, she furiously typed to Willa.
It's Marco. He's here. FUVCKKKK.
Quickly she shoved the phone back into her pocket like she was in high school and not thirty-two years old.
Marco said something to the old man checking wristbands at the entrance, clapped the elderly volunteer on the back with an expansive grin, and then stepped over the velvet rope to come inside. Because such rules had never applied to Marco Todaro, oh no.
He took his time crossing the empty tent. Shea didn't move, refusing to come out from behind the bar for him. Though she was standing in her place of work, where it was easy to become who she needed to be, her ex-husband's unexpected presence threw everything out of whack, and she hated it.
“Hi, Shea.” Marco's smile was blindingly, falsely white.
“Hello.” She would be civil, cordial. “You look”â
orange
â“tan.”
He seemed so pleased she noticed. Gross.
“Greece,” he said. “Remember that yacht off Santorini?”
Yes, she did remember. And no, she didn't want to. She crossed her arms. “What're you doing here?”
He did that thing she'd grown to hate: cocking his head and making a face like
she'd
been the one to do the confusing thing, that her emotions and actions were wrong, and how
dare
she not realize this?
He spread his arms, and in one hand he held the program for the games. “Saw your name in here. Came to do the gentlemanly thing and say hello.”
“No, I meant what are you doing here, at the Highland Games? You never used to let me be involved in stuff like this, and now here you are.”
He made an indignant sound. “That's not true.”
It was very true. She'd always wanted to get involved with the New York City Scottish Society, but every time an event had come up and she'd expressed interest in going, he'd book something else for them to do. Something obnoxious and lavish on the opposite side of the globe. Santorini, for example. Then there were the many, many times he'd taken it upon himself to make or cancel her other private social events based on whether or not he approved, or whether or not they would advance him in the New York scene.
And she'd always gone along without argument. Stupid girl. Stupid, spineless, clueless little girl.