Authors: Janet MacLeod Trotter
As they reached the top of the street, lightning streaked across the sky to the west, followed swiftly by a low rumble of thunder. Rose knew that they would get caught in the rain long before she reached home, and glanced back at the large church.
âGrand, isn't it?' William followed her look. âMy father helped to build it when we first came to Jarrow. It's more special being built by ordinary men, isn't it?'
âAye, it's beautiful,' Rose agreed, amazed at this sudden burst of conversation. âDo you think we should turn back?'
William looked at the brooding sky overhead. It was an unnatural green. The town had suddenly emptied and the streets were eerily quiet.
âLet's hurry,' he decided. Rose nodded, unsure if he was just keen to get the job of taking her home over, or whether it meant something more.
As they made their way through the dense streets away from the river, lightning flashed again and the thunder grew louder. Minutes later, slow fat drops of rain began to splash around them. Within seconds, rain was falling from the sky as if a sluice had been opened, pounding the cobbles around them and soaking their clothes. Rose slipped, but William instantly put out a hand to catch her and she grasped it in delight.
Hand in hand they ran and slithered along the road, laughing out loud at their folly as the thunder boomed overhead like cannon-fire. As the streets thinned out into rows of cottages and the roads turned to tracks, they soon became bogged down in a squelching sea of mud. Then the rain turned abruptly to hailstones, huge balls of ice that cut at their bare faces and hands, and made it impossible to see where they were going. All at once, William stopped and pointed to a small wooden hut on the edge of rough ground that marked the pull uphill to the McConnells' smallholding.
âLet's gan in there!' he shouted over the din of the storm.
âIt's a pigeon loft!' Rose cried in distaste.
âI've nowt against pigeons, if they don't mind us,' William replied, and pulled her after him.
Rose laughed, not caring how bedraggled or mud-spattered she looked, just giddy with the adventure. Lifting the latch quickly, he pushed her inside first. There was a trill of protest and a flapping of wings in the semi-dark, but they sank on to the dry ground thankfully.
As they regained their breath, Rose rubbed at her sodden hair with her shawl and patted her stinging face. âI'm sorry. This is all my fault.'
âNo, we should have stopped in the church like you said.' William was generous. âIt's just...'
Rose detected something in his voice. âJust what?' she asked, curious. Even in the gloom she could tell he was blushing furiously.
âI wanted the excuse to walk you home,' William admitted softly.
Rose's pulse quickened. âYou did?' she gasped. On impulse she put out her hand and found his. âI wanted you to, an' all. I didn't mind how much of a soaking I got.'
They both laughed in bashful delight and she felt him squeeze her hand. His shyness seemed to evaporate in the dark shed and they chatted happily as the birds cooed around them and the hail drummed noisily on the roof. They swapped stories about their families and people they knew around Jarrow. She made him laugh with tales of the characters she met while selling her vegetables and he talked of his hopes for a better life once the strike was over.
âI've no time to myself,' he said ruefully, âjust all day working at the mill. But once we've won the battle over working hours I'll have more time for other things.'
âLike what?' Rose probed.
âLike ganin' to watch the rowing, or helping at St Bede's - the things I've been able to do these past few weeks since the strike began - but to do them without the worry of how we're going to get through the week without pawning Mam's china and Dad's best suit.' She listened to the eagerness in his voice as he talked of a brighter future. âWhen my apprenticeship's over, I'll have a good skilled job at the steelworks. It's what working men deserve. We're the ones who put in all the hard graft every day; it's only fair we get a decent share of the bosses' profits.'
Rose had hoped for a more romantic answer, but was prepared to be patient. They might be too young to start courting, yet Rose knew she had found the lad she wanted. He was hard-working and ambitious, gentle in manner but quietly determined. He talked with the knowledge and fluency of someone who was educated, and to top it all, he was a devout Catholic and good-looking into the bargain.
Rose was the first to notice that the storm had subsided and that bright chinks of light were cutting into their shelter. But she said nothing, not wanting to stop William's chatter now he had started. Only later, when he began to sneeze and they both felt chilled in their sodden clothing, did they stir.
âHaway, it's time I got you home,' he said, helping Rose to her feet.
They emerged from the hut into bright sunshine, yet the air was still cold from the freak icy storm. As they hurried uphill and the McConnells' home came into view, William retreated into his usual reserve. They arrived to find Rose's parents in bad temper and standing outside surveying the damage. The summer vegetables had taken a terrible battering and two windows had been smashed by hail. Her mother took one look at Rose's dirty, soaking dress and shrieked.
âRose Ann! You look like you've been dragged through the midden! Where've you been? I thought you were safe in the church. What's the meaning of all this?' she demanded, staring suspiciously at the pale-faced youth at her side. âYou're the Fawcetts' lad, aren't you?'
âWilliam,' he nodded. âSorry to worry you, Mrs McConnell,' he answered politely. âI offered to see Rose home but the storm came on that bad, we took shelter till it was over.'
Mr McConnell shouted over. âShe knows the way home without you having to show her.'
âI was frightened of the storm,' Rose muttered. Her father snorted in disbelief.
âGet yourself inside and change out of that dress before you catch your death,' her mother fussed. âIt was good of you to take care of her, William. Will you come in and dry off?'
By now, Maggie and Lizzie had appeared to stare at him with interest. Rose knew he would refuse.
âI can see Mr McConnell needs a hand fixing up that fence,' he replied. âI'm handy with a hammer.' He strode over to Rose's father and picked up a plank of wood before anyone could argue. The older man grunted in acceptance of the offer and in silence they set about repairing the storm-damaged plot. Rose was full of admiration at the way William had effortlessly gained her father's approval, but was disappointed at the end of the afternoon when William again refused to enter the house.
âBetter be off,' he said quickly, and she only had time for a brief wave from the doorway before he turned and hurried away down the hill. He looked tired and chilled, and there was no hint of the warm intimacy that they had shared a few hours ago. Rose wondered anxiously if he had found their home too coarse, or her sisters too rude in their giggling inquisitiveness. She determined that she would find a way to speak to him again soon.
But she developed a cold after the drenching and her mother kept her confined to the house for several days. Eagerly, Rose hurried to St Bede's once her feverish head had cleared. To her dismay there was no sign of William, not even at Mass on Sunday. In alarm she sought out Florrie.
âWould you like to go for a walk this afternoon?' Rose asked tentatively. âWe could go up the fields at the back of ours.'
Florrie looked pale and tired. âI don't think so...”
âWe could paddle in the stream,' Rose urged. She was determined to get Florrie on her own and find out more about her elusive brother.
But Florrie seemed distant. She shook her head. âNot today. It's too hot and the walk's too far.'
Rose looked at her in concern. âAre you sickening for some'at?'
Florrie shrugged.
âIs that what's wrong with your brother?' Rose blurted out. âIs he ill?' She flushed at Florrie's look. âI just wondered, him not being here. It's just he's always here. And he was kind to me the other day - walking me home in the storm.'
âWilliam's been poorly ever since,' Florrie told her bluntly. âHe came back in a terrible state - couldn't stop shivering.'
âHow poorly?' Rose asked in alarm.
âVery,' Florrie said shortly. âHead's as hot as a furnace - and he's got a bad cough. Mam's frightened it might be pneumonia, but we can't afford to call out the doctor.'
Rose saw the tears welling in Florrie's eyes. âI feel terrible,' Rose gasped. âWhat can I do to help?'
âNothing,' Florrie replied, turning away.
âPlease!' Rose insisted. âI'll bring round some veg - make a warming soup. Mam's good at making remedies for all sorts. Me granny taught her.'
âFather won't accept charity,' Florrie told her bleakly.
âNot charity - just helping out friends,' Rose said. âIt's the least I can do. William only caught a chill because of me. I'll come round this afternoon.' She hurried after her mother and sisters before Florrie could protest.
Later, with her parents' agreement, Rose took a basket of produce down to the Fawcetts in James Terrace. She was curious to see the house, for she had never been invited inside, despite her friendship with Florrie. Mr Fawcett was genial enough, but Mrs Fawcett was always distant in manner and spoke with an accent quite foreign to Tyneside. But instinct told Rose that she would have to impress this sharp-featured woman and she had spent half an hour scrubbing the soil from under her nails and from the grooves of her calloused hands. Overawed for a moment by the grandeur of the whitened front step and gleaming brass door knob, Rose rubbed her boots on the back of her legs before knocking.
Florrie came to the door and hesitated before letting her in. âYou'll not be able to stay long,' she said, with a hasty glance up and down the street. Rose had the uncomfortable feeling that the girl did not want her to be seen entering their house.
âI can't stop more than a few minutes any road,' she answered to save face.
Through an open door she could see a neat parlour with a carpet and a piano in the corner. Mr Fawcett was dozing in an armchair by the unlit fire. Florrie whispered for her to follow. She took her into the kitchen. It was orderly but sparse, with a meagre fire burning in the grate and no smell of cooking from the well-polished stove. Two pairs of working boots stood gleaming but idle on the hearth like soldiers waiting for action.
âJust put the basket on the table,' Florrie said as if talking to a servant.
Rose pursed her lips as she plonked down her offering. âWhere's your mam?'
âNot feeling very well - she's resting,' Florrie said, her fair face blushing easily, reminding Rose of William. They looked at each other awkwardly. Rose took her time unloading the basket, thinking that Mrs Fawcett had looked perfectly well to her at Mass that morning. Was the woman avoiding her because she blamed her for William's illness?
Rose took off her shawl and hung it over a chair.
âWhat are you doing?' Florrie asked tensely.
âGoing to help you prepare these onions and carrots for a canny pot of broth. Ma's put in a nice ham knuckle. We'll need to stoke up the fire a bit, mind.'
âNo!' Florrie said in alarm. âI can manage. We've already eaten, so we'll keep this for tomorrow. Thank you.'
Rose was baffled and a little hurt by her friend's frosty attitude. She had been looking forward to them making the soup together and chatting about William.
âIs there any chance . . . ? Could I... er - see your brother?' She tried to hide her embarrassment.
Florrie looked scandalised. âOh, no, you can't go upstairs. I mean he's much too poorly to have visitors. At least at the moment. Maybe when he's on his feet again. . .'
âAye, of course,' Rose said, feeling foolish for having asked. Suddenly she wanted to get out of this unwelcoming house as quickly as possible. âWell, I'll be off then.' She put on her shawl. âI hope William's better soon. You'll let me know if there's anything else we can do? Ma and Da are only too pleased to help out,' Rose added pointedly.
âThank you, but I'm sure we'll manage,' Florrie replied.
Rose noticed for the first time how her friend lifted her chin haughtily and remembered her father's comment about the Fawcetts looking down their long noses at the likes of them. She felt sudden annoyance. She came from a respectable family and was here to help them out, not the other way round. Having airs and graces and living in a posh house in James Terrace boiled down to nothing when there was a strike on and not enough food on the table. It was then that friendship and neighbourliness counted for everything.
But maybe Florrie did not even see her as a friend, just someone she knew from St Bede's? Rose realised she was always the one who approached Florrie first, never the other way round. What did their friendship amount to? A few minutes of chatter at church and someone to play with on rare social outings. Occasional titbits of ribbon bestowed on her with the showiness of a queen to a humble servant. And she had been so grateful! Now Rose felt only humiliation.