Read The Keeper of the Mist Online
Authors: Rachel Neumeier
She whispered out loud, to herself, not expecting Cort to hear her, much less respond, “Anyway, it doesn't matter how far it is. We have plenty of time. All the time in the world.” Orâ¦all the time that could be stretched out from the gift of a single moment. The heavy gold watch in her hand was silent, its clockwork still and waiting, but how long could this moment last before the magic set into Nimmira compelled her to pass that watch to a new Timekeeper?
It would have to be long enough. She looked up at Cort.
He had heard her. He gave her a sober little nod. Not exactly agreement, Keri understood. It was more reassurance that he wanted her to be right, that he would do his best to make sure she
was
right. He didn't say,
All the time, maybe, but what about all the strength and endurance in the world, do we have that, too?
He didn't have to say it, because Keri heard it without Cort saying a word.
She wondered if her five-times-great-grandfather Lupe Ailenn had first drawn out the boundary of Nimmira this way, too: in a single stretched moment, only afterward handing off the keeping of time to the right person, a person who could make time move forward again as it was supposed to. She wondered even more whether Lupe Ailenn had had any notion of what he was doing, or if it had all seemed to happen in one mad cascade as he scrambled to avoid disaster. Maybe that was the way it always was: complete confusion at the time, until afterward someone wrote everything into a play and put in a smooth plot anybody could understand.
Of course, Lupe Ailenn had lost Summer Timonan. So he hadn't avoided
every
disaster.
Cort was now striding along at a decisive pace, his face turned straight forward. Keri, not as tall, had to half run to keep up. But that was fine, because it had become impossible to miss the sharp flickering as he stitched the boundary closed. They should have been just about leaving the far pastures of Gannon's farm and pretty near the edge of Glassforge, but every step took them farther than it should have; the town was already miles behind them.
Step, and a flicker in the air, and they walked through a pine woodland. A well-kept farm nestled between the trees. A dog barked a warning at their sudden intrusion so near its goats. The goats, whose oblong yellow eyes could, as everyone knew, see magic, did not seem disturbed.
Then step, flicker, and they were under the shadow of a great spreading oak, with the pines only visible in the distance, and no one but a startled squirrel to scold them on their way. Then teetering on the pebbly bank of a creek, in the lacy shade of overhanging shrub willows. Then, without so much as dabbling a toe in the water, high on a hill in a springtime wood, with everywhere around them bluebells and wood anemones.
It wasn't a mile with every stepânothing like it. But it was far more than a single step. Maybe a hundred steps instead of just one, Keri guessed. She could not quite tell; her own sense of where they were did not measure distance in steps or inches, but only gave her an awareness of the minnows in the creek and the fox pups in their den, of the earth underfoot and the weight of time held back.
She wished it had occurred to her, sometime in her life, to count how many steps made up a mile. She had no idea. Thousands, surely. She wished she had a better notion of how much distance Cort was stepping over and how much he was passing through, and of how long a moment the Timekeeper had given them, and whether the Wyvern King might be able to step out of that moment and into this one. She could feel the boundary spinning out behind them, and she knew where it should lie before them, and she could tell they had a long way to go. The watch seemed now to weigh more than a bag of flour; Keri had twisted the chain around her wrist to help support it, which hurt, but she couldn't just hold it in her hand anymore. She wished she'd thought to find a bit of cloth to tuck under the chain, to protect her skin. She knew she was going to have a nasty welt if she had to carry this weight any distance.
She was sure the watch would only get heavier. She was starting to be afraid of how heavy it might get.
Cort strode up a sloping pasture where rust-colored cattle grazed and then up a wooded hill, Keri hurrying behind him. Then another and then a third, always uphill, each time with trees bigger and older and closer together. Keri knew they were approaching Woodridge. They would pass rather close to the town, because, like Glassforge, Woodridge lay quite near the boundary. Once, before Lupe Ailenn and Summer Timonan had separated Nimmira from the Outside, Woodridge had traded wood and beef with the stonier, poorer lands to the west. Then the palisade had been important for defense, though the town's ties of friendship and kinship with the Outside had also been closer than those of Glassforge, and far closer than those of Ironforge.
Now, of course, Woodridge's trade was only with Glassforge to the south and east and Ironforge to the north and east, and its palisade was merely decorative.
Oak and hickory gave way to pine. The air was sharp with the fragrance of pine needles and damp earth, and, yes, there was Woodridge before them. Keri could have drawn the course of the quick little river that ran right through the middle of the town; she recognized the sweet tones of the great brass bells set one above the next in the famous bell tower; she recognized the houses and shops, the steeply pitched roofs of pine shingles. The people of Woodridge painted the blades of their water mills red, and also the bridges over the river. Keri loved the town immediately. She thought it looked peaceful and pleasant.
Then Cort took another step, and Keri followed, and Woodridge was suddenly far below. Only the red blades of the water mills flashed in the sun, like the wings of summer tanagers. Cort's blood was darker, the drops glowing in the light like garnet cabochons as he flicked them off his fingertip, one by one. His face was drawn now, and pale, and Keri thought of blood loss and wondered again how many drops of blood would fill a cupped palm, and how many would have to run out of a man's veins before he died. There was a long way to go. The Timekeeper's watch weighed as much as a lump of iron ten times its size, and she looped its chain through her belt to make it easier to carry. Then she had to tighten her belt, so heavy had the watch become.
Cort took another step, and Keri followed. The world around them flickered, and Woodridge was gone. Had it been a shorter step, though? Keri tried to see if Cort looked different, and was terribly afraid he seemed more weary, more strained. They were still walking uphill, and the land here was steep; no wonder he seemed to have to put so much effort now into just moving forward, but she was so afraid it was more than that.
But it was working. The magic trailed out behind them, a ribbon of mist that broadened into a river or a wall or a bulwark, except it was none of these things. No analogy really fit, but Keri felt a doe, startled by a snapping twig, begin to leap away to the west and then turn instead to bound south. She couldn't smile, but she nodded to herself, stiffly. If the boundary would turn back a deer, she knew it would turn back a man.
Step, flicker, and to Keri's relief the land began to run downhill again; the pines were thin here, replaced by birches and red-seeded maples and lonely summer pastures as yet tenanted only by deer. Step, flicker; step, flicker; step, flicker, and the birches were giving way to stands of oaks and hickories, and to lower, gentler pastures dotted with the honey-colored goats and rust-red cattle of this part of Nimmira.
Cort stopped, gasping, bent over, breathing hard.
Keri seized his arm, steadying his hands so he wouldn't cast blood uselessly across the pasture grasses. He had closed his eyes, but now he opened them. Something had shocked him back into the world, for his eyes were once again sane and aware of her. He did not pull away from Keri's grip, but glanced down at her fingers, smeared now with his blood, and ran his thumb gently across the back of her hand. He said huskily, “I'm so thirsty. How farâ?”
“Just past Woodridge,” Keri told him anxiously. “There's still a long way to go. What happened? Are youâ” But she knew he wasn't all right. She didn't dare ask. Besides, he would only say he was fine. What else could he say? She wanted to embrace him, make him sit down, tell him it was all right, that they had done enough,
he
had done enough, Nimmira was safe. But she couldn't. And anyway, he would know it wasn't true.
“I don'tâ¦Oh. That son of aâ¦It's Osman. He's trying to lay in a gap across my boundary.” Cort shook his head and rubbed his eyes, but carefully, with the backs of his fingers. It still left a smear of blood on his face. But he was smiling, if reluctantly. “Of course he is. Stubborn, that one, and he knows just what he wants. But how many sorcerous earrings did his grandmother give him anyway?”
“More than two?” Keri sighed. “Have you stopped him? Can you?”
Cort met her eyes. “I have to stop him. Or I think the whole boundary might become uncertain. Was I imagining there wasâ¦something? Between him and Tassel?”
“No. I don't think so.”
“The Bear Lord and Tassel,” Cort repeated, incredulous. But not offended, as Keri might have expected. He shook his head, but that was only astonishment and, she thought, maybe regret. He said again, “I can close any gap he tries to open. I have to close every gap, or I think the boundary won't be clear enough.” But he looked at her for the decision, waiting.
“Then stop him,” Keri said steadily. Because Cort was waiting, and because she knew very clearly how the decision had to go. She said, “Make the boundary utterly firm and clear, and we'll sort it out for Tassel later.” If there was a later. If he was with her, later, to help her sort it out. She wouldn't think about it. She asked instead, “Do you need to rest? Or are you able to pick up theâ¦the thread again right now?” She thought perhaps he wouldn't be; once his attention had been diverted from his magic, it must surely be hard to go on.
But though Cort shook his head once more, it was not in denial or refusal, but only in weary agreement. “I'm so thirsty. But I can go on. We have to go on. Just past Woodridge? We're not even halfway yet.” He straightened, with an effort that showed in his tightening mouth. Then he looked around. “A stream, a river⦔
Keri tilted her head, looking inwardly at the land surrounding them. “I should have thought to bring a wineskin, butâ¦we'll turn straight north soon, and then start back east, and then if we haven't found a stream, we're sure to cross the Ouzel. I'll tell you when we're close and you can take small steps so we don't miss it. Cort, we're
almost
halfway, and you're all right. You're fine. So we're fine, we can do this, and
then
we'll deal with Osman the Younger and his grandmother's little gifts. Osman doesn't worry me!”
The Wyvern King worried her, but she didn't say so.
She knew that the Timekeeper had saved them all, she knew that the Wyvern King couldn't touch them, but she worried anyway. The weight of the Timekeeper's watch dragged at herâthe weight of time trying to balance itself across kingdoms. Or perhaps it was the weight of the Wyvern King's sorcery trying to find her and Nimmira, even hidden as they were in a moment that did not pass to the next moment.
Gritting her teeth against the weight, she straightened. Cort smiled wearily and nodded. Then he took a step, awkward now that he had lost the rhythm. But he took another step after that, and the world flickered.
Where they found it, high in the mountains, the Ouzel was a fast-moving little river. The water, coming down from the heights of Eschalionâfor now they would walk alongside the border of Eschalion for many milesâwas very clear and cold. It dashed over jagged granite, shattering into light where it broke against the stone, and cascaded into deep pools. There were indeed water ouzels here, little dark birds with white eyelids that flickered like tiny lanterns when they blinked. They darted fearlessly through the spray and the rainbow-prismed light, into and out of the water, half hopping and half flying underwater. Keri loved them. She loved all this rugged country of pine and white birch and naked granite. Out beyond Nimmira, the mountains climbed and climbed. She wanted to bend the boundary outward and take all that country for her own, but then she looked at Cort and did not suggest it.
He had sunk down beside the river and was gazing longingly at the crystalline water, his bloody hands cupped in his lap, unable to drink.
Keri patted a birch tree, coaxing it to yield a length of flexible bark, which she tucked around itself to make a cup. She told the cup that it was waterproof, dipped water from the river, and held it for Cort to drink. She drank, too, after him, from the same cup, while he leaned against the bole of the tree, tilting his face up to the cold spray and the warm sun. Here in Nimmira, it was late afternoon. Yet she could see that Outside, where they had not yet raised up the boundary mist, the world lingered near noon. Nimmira was now hours and hours out of true. No wonder the Timekeeper's watch had grown so heavy with the weight of time trying to pass. She took off her belt and slung it over her shoulder to make it easier to bear the weight. It was a pity she had not worn a wider, softer belt. Or, even better, thought to find a sturdy satchel.
Cort got to his feet at last, so Keri scrambled up, too, staggering a bit. The watch seemed to have become heavier in just that little time. She didn't mention it, because what good would that do? She only braced herself against the weight and looked around vaguely, wishing she had a walking stick. The birch would give her one, but its wood would be too light and springy. She should have thought about walking sticks while they were still making their way among oaks.
She did gather up the birchbark cup, though. She even stooped quickly to fill it, telling the water not to spill.
Then she hurried to catch up with Cort.
The mountains only grew after that: great ranks of sharp-edged peaks lying off to their left, rising up against the glass-clear northern sky. Here in Nimmira, they made their way across lower mountains that were like mere foothills compared to the sharp ranks of the northern range. But the footing was uncertain, or Cort seemed to find it so, though Keri always seemed to know herself which stone would turn underfoot. But there was no trail. She wished for one, but even if they had come upon a beautiful straight road, of course they would have lost it again after a single step.
Keri held Cort's arm all the time now to steady him in case he should stumble; he looked terribly pale, and a fall here could be bad. The cup was long since empty, though she had paused to dip up water whenever they happened to cross a stream. There were many streams in the mountains, at least, as the snow melted with the shift in the seasons. Keri longed for the golden fields of summer. At least down among the fields, the land would have lain level and soft underfoot.
They came to Ironforge at last. It rested below them in their timeless moment, a rambling sort of town that sprawled down the flanks of the hills wherever the land was level enough to build. There was some wood in Ironforge, certainly, but there was more stone: mostly granite, but other stone as well, darker gray and closer-grained than granite. The forges of its name smoked, and traces of the mines could be seen, jagged lines opened up along the face of a mountain. They smelted iron here, and tin, and made bronze. There was even a seam of gold ore. Keri knew, absently, just where it snaked its way through the mountains, slightly south of where she and Cort stood now.
The people of Ironforge had enough of hard metal and gray stone. They wanted softness and color. There was little good land for gardens, so they planted flowers in boxes and small trees in barrels and tended them carefully. Spring was not as far advanced here as lower down, but even so, flowers were everywhere, and the people painted their doors and window frames in bright colors and dyed their cloth not just red but also sky blue and buttercup yellow and madder pink, so that color spilled down the mountains wherever people built their homes and lived their lives.
Here near the town, there was no good grazing for cattle or sheep, but the people kept goats: pretty little shaggy animals that leaped up and down quite vertical pathways between yard and mountain pasture. Half a dozen kids, white with fawn spots and white with brown spots and one pure white, bounced across the slope in front of Keri and went up a sheer incline that seemed too steep for a spider to climb. She laughed, and felt less weary.
Cort did not seem to have noticed the goat kids. Looking at him, Keri didn't feel like laughing after all. He had every right and reason to be exhausted, but this seemed more than weariness. He had always been stocky and strong, but he had lost weight. This did not seem possible in so little time, but the bones of his face stood out more than she remembered, and surely it was not just the streaks of blood that made his hands look thin. He was only a few years older than she was, but there was actually gray in his hair now.
He wasn't going to be able to finish.
Or, no. Of course he would finish. She knew that Cort would always finish any task he began. But she was more and more afraid he would not survive it. Summer Timonan had died and become a story, tragically lost in a hundred plays. She feared Cort was going to die, too. He would reforge the border and save Nimmira, but all that would be left of him afterward would be a heroic story.
She couldn't bear to lose him. She knew that now. Nimmira would create a new Doorkeeper. But she knew she couldn't bear to have a new Doorkeeper. The depth of her certainty astonished her; it seemed to have unfolded whole all at once, though looking backâ¦she could see that conviction in the bud, too. She could see now that it had always been thereâas though part of her had known all the time how much she needed Cort, how much she needed him to be here for her. To be
here.
She could stop him, because if she refused to do her part to set the magic in place, there would be no point in his going on.
But she couldn't stop him without risking the whole of Nimmira.
Keri always made a decision when she had to, when no one else could. She could see, now that she was paralyzed with indecision, that she had always before been able to decide. Now she couldn't. Every possible decision was wrong.
She could almost see Cort growing thinner, his bones becoming more stark before her eyes.
If he went on, he was going to die.
Hurrying, she caught his arm and pulled him to a halt, even though she knew there was nothing she could do to help him. There was nothing she could do. But she couldn't bear it, and so she drew him to a stop anyway.
Swaying slightly, he reached out to press a hand against a nearby pine for balance and support. “Is there water?” he asked her, his voice strained.
“No, I'm sorry,” Keri told him gently. “Rest for a few minutes. Are you hungry? We're a bit past Ironforge.” She tried to make him sit down. “If you'll rest here just for a little while, I can goâ”
Cort only shook his head and looked ahead, toward the way they needed to go. She couldn't tell whether he meant he wasn't hungry or he didn't want to rest, or whether he meant that if he stopped now, he wouldn't be able to start again. She was afraid he meant the latter. But Cort didn't say anything. As though he no longer had the strength or attention to spare to form words.
Keri pressed her hands over her eyes. In a moment, she would let him go. In just a moment. He would step forward and catch back up the rhythm he had learned, and they would go on, around the arc of the boundary and back to his brother's farm, and thenâ¦and then a new Doorkeeper would come forward to pick up his keys, and Tassel would record his death in her book.
Keri caught her breath.
The Bookkeeper recorded every birth and death. The Bookkeeper recorded every death, but what if she
didn't
record it? When Summer Timonan had died, the Bookkeeper had written down her death, but what if she hadn't? What if, when Summer had collapsed, the Bookkeeper had written down that she woke up two days later and was perfectly fine?
If the Timekeeper could make time stop for Nimmira, then the Bookkeeper ought to be able to make truth match her record of it. Shouldn't she?
Something about this analogy seemed strained, but Keri didn't want to think about it too closely. She wanted it to be true. If she wanted it to be true, and she was the Lady of Nimmiraâ¦and if Tassel wanted it to be true, and she recorded births and lives and deaths for Nimmiraâ¦then maybe. Maybe Tassel could save Cort.
Maybe not.
But maybe she could.
Except that Tassel was miles and miles away, waiting for them. As Keri had told her to wait. And now Keri had no way to ask her to try writing the ending of this play before it was set. She should have told Tassel to come with them. But she hadn't thought of it. What good was being decisive if you didn't think of the right things when you needed to?
Cort tugged against Keri, looking forward. He took a step, shaking off her grip with impatience, as though he had forgotten her and didn't realize she held him.
Keri caught his hand and held on tightly, patting her pockets even though she knew perfectly well she didn't have a scrap of paper or a quill or ink or
anything.
Then, more sensibly, she patted Cort's pockets, because she didn't know what he might have, except he was the kind of person who always had whatever you needed. She found a sliver of wireâthat was typical, but not usefulâa bit of twine, a slender piece of leather that could be used to mend a bridle or patch a bucket or do any of a thousand little tasks on a farm, but was completely useless to Keriâ
A sliver of wire. Keri seized on that. Cort tried to pull away from her, seeming not quite aware of anything, and she shook him hard. “Open a door, Cort! Straight back to Gannon's farm and Tassel!”
The urgency in her tone snagged his attention, and he focused on her then, glowering in confusion. “We're not done. We can't go straight back to Gannon's farmâ”
“I know! Just a little door, hand-sized is enough, right in front of Tasselâyou can do that, can't you? You have to be able to do that!” Looking around hastily, Keri pulled the biggest leaf she could see off the nearest treeâit was an oak, with last year's tough leaves still hanging on its twigs, brown and dead, but whole. Squinting in concentration, Keri told the leaf not to tear and used the wire to punch out words:
W-R-I-T-E
â¦
“Tassel,” muttered Cort, peering around as though expecting her to be there beside him.
“A door! Right in front of her!” Keri punched out
T-H-E
and then
E-N-D-I-N-G
. It took both hands, but Cort seemed willing to wait, at least for a few seconds. She had wanted to say
Write the ending we want
or
Write the ending where Cort lives,
but the leaf wasn't that big and she couldn't punch out letters that small. She looked for a second leaf, but then Cort extended a hand and opened a gap in the air, narrow as a knife blade and no longer than her finger, and waved vaguely at her as though to say,
There, that's done.
And then he stepped forward, and the air flickered.
Keri hastily threw both the leaf and the wire through the tiny gap and called Tassel's name. There was no time to look to see where the leaf had gone or whether Tassel was there to catch it or whether anybody had noticed anything at all. Even though the moment was not passing, Cort needed her and there was no time to make sure of Tassel before she ran after Cort
.