W
e found Pritchett having dinner in the Hilton’s bar and restaurant, in the company of a middle-aged man and a younger woman. Aside from them, the room was nearly deserted; all low lights and empty tables, a single waiter running a push broom near the entrance to the kitchen. Pritchett looked up as we approached. I walked briskly in front of Duane and Carolyn, with Matthews and a pair of uniformed officers barely keeping me in check. Pritchett stood and faced me.
“I saw it on the news,” he said preemptively, indicating
a TV set above the empty bar. He looked dismissively past the uniformed cops and addressed Matthews. “I had nothing whatsoever to do with this. It is not what I intended to happen.”
From the grim set of his mouth and his readiness for confrontation, I read two things right off: he most likely hadn’t been responsible for Hayden’s abduction, but he was as certain as ever that I had been involved with his daughter’s murder.
I plunged ahead regardless. “You threatened my son the first night you came after me,” I said. I didn’t realize I was hissing through clenched teeth until Duane grabbed my arm. I was actually poised to launch myself at Pritchett, whose face was noticeably pale, if resolved.
Matthews advised me to control my emotions if I wished to stay. Then he asked Pritchett to account for his whereabouts during the afternoon. For the first time, Pritchett introduced the two people sitting at his table. They rose in concert and, incredibly, smiled politely as they shook hands with the detective. “Elliot Talese and Denise Sanders,” Pritchett said. “Two representatives from my company who flew out here to consult on an upcoming marketing promotion. We’ve been engaged in teleconferences throughout the day.”
“You sold your company,” Duane said pointedly.
“I’m still on the board of directors,” Pritchett fired back. He evaluated Duane curiously for a moment, then nodded as he recognized him. “I’d heard you and your wife were helping Mrs. Mosley. No conflict of interest in that,
I’m sure.” He shrugged him off as casually as he had the street cops, and continued to direct his defense at the detective. “Look, I didn’t plan on Mr. Talese and Ms. Sanders being here. This was a last-minute issue and the company only alerted me that they were coming the day before yesterday. You can call and verify that with any number of people.”
Talese and Sanders both seemed quite eager to back him up, and Matthews sent them off to another table so the cops could take their statements. Matthews told Pritchett that they’d be interested in verifying all of the phone calls and personal visits he’d made since he came to town.
“Not a problem,” Pritchett said. “I’ll instruct the hotel to release the calls made from my room, as well.” He was still talking to Matthews, correctly surmising that the detective’s assessment would be the deciding factor in whether this was a momentary hassle or a continuing problem, but he kept turning toward me, eyes flashing. “I could never hurt another person’s child. Not after what happened to mine.” And then, as if he couldn’t help it: “But at least now you finally know how it feels.”
Duane snorted. “You been practicing that line for long?”
“I’ve been practicing some form of it for the nine years since my daughter was butchered,” Pritchett replied, his steely sense of wounded dignity intact. “That doesn’t mean I would harm her son.”
Carolyn called him a sonofabitch. “At the very least you put both of them in jeopardy with your bullshit PR campaign. Even if it wasn’t you, it’s because of your splashing her face across the TV and newspapers that this happened.”
“In that case, I’m sure you’ll accept your share of the responsibility, Mrs. Rowe,” Pritchett said with a smile.
Matthews suggested we wait out in the lobby.
“I’m all right,” I said levelly.
Duane removed a check from his pocket, tore it into quarters, and dropped it onto Pritchett’s dinner plate among the garlic bread crusts and leftover pasta. “That’s our share of the responsibility. It’s your payment for us finding her. I’ve been carrying it with me, hoping to get the chance to do that in person. Ever since you went on the air, I knew this was something I wanted no part of. And if you’ve made me party to the hurting of a child, if you’ve stained my hands with something like that …” He saw Matthews’s warning glance and finished simply, “No matter what you do, none of this will bring your daughter back.”
“And that overwrought show of umbrage won’t bring her son back, either,” Pritchett said. “If you want to discuss your fee, you’ll have to do so through McClellan Associates. They hired you, not me personally. But I expect you know that.”
Matthews sat in the chair where Talese had been. He pulled a folded piece of paper out of his pocket. It was the newspaper clipping that had been placed beneath my windshield wiper blade the night Pritchett initially accosted me, the article about the murdered woman in Tennessee. Carolyn had given it to the detective, along with some further background details, before we left the school. Matthews let Pritchett look at it long enough to recognize it, then asked him why he’d left it for me.
“That article was sent to me anonymously a few weeks before I learned Mrs. Mosley’s whereabouts,” Pritchett said. He kept calling me by my old name, goading me to correct him, but I was determined not to give him the satisfaction. “To be quite honest, I think she sent it to me, perhaps as a warning, because the people who’d been hired to find her”—and he paused long enough to glare at each of the Rowes in turn—“had been sloppy and alerted her to the fact that she wouldn’t be able to keep her identity and whereabouts secret for much longer.”
I didn’t know whether to laugh or scream. “I can understand if you still think I was a part of what Randy did. I can’t do anything to change your perceptions about that at this point. But you can’t possibly believe that I had my own son abducted. Why would I?”
Pritchett didn’t have an answer; everyone could see it in his face. But he maintained his composure, even though it appeared to cost him significantly. It was like watching an implosion of sorts, as his mouth turned down and his lips thinned. So he defaulted to his old accusations. “Why was your name on the fake documents?” was the best he could do. “Out in the shed, where he kept his trophies—your name was all over them, the licenses and passports. And your DNA—”
“Because Randy was insane, Mr. Pritchett,” I said, despairing. I wished for a bullhorn so I could scream it in his face. I wanted to blare it, to force him into seeing reason. “He was crazy. He almost drove me out of my mind, and he seems to have succeeded in driving you out of yours.
Maybe I deserve to pay for what happened to Carrie, but my son doesn’t. So, please, if you know anything that could help us find him,
please
tell us. I’m begging you.”
But he wouldn’t look at me anymore. Instead, he asked Matthews to arrange a formal time tomorrow when he could come down to the station and make a statement. Matthews suggested that he make time for it tonight. Pritchett summoned his minion Talese over and instructed him to call LA. “Tell them I’m going to need some legal representation out here,” he said.
My anger waned as I watched him fold his hands and stare blankly past me. When he finally managed to conjure a waiter and request a glass of whiskey, it was plain to see that he was a broken man already.
B
ack at my place, I lingered in the upstairs hallway outside Hayden’s bedroom, unwilling as yet to cross the threshold. Matthews had assigned a rotation of officers to keep watch on the house, and a couple of tech geeks had come by to put a trace on my phone. I signed forms granting them permission to track all incoming calls to the home number and my cell. Carolyn had taken two minutes to wash up and dump her purse in the guest bedroom before getting on the phone. I could hear her downstairs, tapping keys on her computer and muttering to herself about departure times. Duane had returned to their house to pack his
things. He was going to fly out tonight if possible, or early tomorrow if that was the soonest he could find a flight. I’d told them I didn’t know how I could pay them for their efforts and they’d waved me off without further comment. I had the feeling of being a sideline observer in a game that would have consequences only for me.
Duane’s first stop would be Detroit, Lane Dockery’s hometown. He’d verified with Dockery’s sister, Jeanine, that she’d organized what notes she could find that pertained to our case. Duane only planned to be there for a few hours before heading farther west. If he could arrange an appointment, he was going to see my ex-husband in person.
“The prison officials have interviewed Randy, and they claim he’s pretty distressed about the whole thing,” Carolyn said softly behind me. I jumped half out of my skin and she laid a cool hand on my arm. “I didn’t mean to startle you. I was trying to be quiet when I came upstairs, in case you were sleeping.”
When I laughed at the idea, she said I’d have to get some rest at some point. But I could still hear the TV downstairs; the ten o’clock news led with the incident at the school, and they just kept going. Repeating over and over the description of the minivan that had been seen leaving the school, driving erratically, around the time of the crime. CNN had picked up the story and we were supposedly getting coverage across the whole Southeastern viewing area, with Amber Alerts periodically scrolling across beneath people’s sitcoms and reality shows and basketball games. I wondered if they would blank them out, the way I usually did.
“If it wasn’t Pritchett, then it was Randy,” I said. “I don’t know how, and I don’t know who he recruited to do it, but it has to be him. I’m thinking about those letters the warden at San Quentin told you about while you were out there. Maybe he wasn’t after just Pritchett and Dockery.”
“I tend to agree,” Carolyn said. “We’re checking all his prison acquaintances, going back for as long as he’s been there. The PO box where Randy was mailing his letters will be staked out. If we could somehow connect him to the article that Pritchett left on your windshield, the one he claims was sent to him anonymously … Matthews says his forensics people couldn’t get anything from it. But whoever killed the girl in Tennessee is likely the same person who abducted your son. We’ve confirmed with the authorities there that what was done to the victim in Tennessee is the same as what was done to the teacher in Hayden’s school, Rachel Dutton.”
“And the same as Randy did to all those others. My ex-husband has himself a copycat,” I said, shaking my head. “A partner in crime to complete his unfinished business. I can understand someone wanting to hurt me, but Hayden …”
“Forget trying to understand. Only someone as sick as Randy is could figure out how his mind works. The police are looking into it, and so are the people at San Quentin, and so are we. But there are warrants that have to be signed by judges, logistics to work out … I know all that sounds like bullshit to you right now, but I’m just telling you so you understand that it’s going to take some time.”
I stared into my son’s dark room. His bed was halfway
made, or at least the covers were pulled up. If I did sleep tonight, it would be in here, on his little mattress, beneath the Backyardigans poster and his certificate of graduation from first grade, which I’d framed and put on the wall last year, even though he claimed it was no big deal. I found myself thinking about the late Rachel Dutton.
Was she married? Did she have a boyfriend? A girlfriend?
I realized that I knew nothing at all about her, not even her age. I imagined phones ringing, the police knocking softly on a front door.
“I know what Pritchett meant tonight,” I whispered.
“What’s that?”
“When he said, ‘Now you know how it feels.’ He was right. All this time, I imagined that I was hurt because Randy deceived me, and because to some degree, it doesn’t even matter anymore how much, but to some degree I allowed myself to be deceived. And I thought that meant that I understood, that I had some empathy with the real victims. But it was bullshit, Carolyn, it was bullshit of the absolute worse kind.”
Carolyn started to say something, but I cut her off. “No. I had some responsibility, and all this time I’ve spent feeling guilty and agonizing over it, I forgot the essential truth. What Pritchett meant is that now I know how it feels to have
no responsibility
, to have something done
to
me, and that’s worse, because the situation is completely out of my hands and beyond my control. I’m helpless. That’s what Pritchett and all the others have been living with all along.”
“Will your realizing that comfort you right now? Will it help get Hayden back?”
“I don’t know.”
“It won’t, and you
do
know it. So forget it. Focus on what you
can
do. If you can’t sleep, come downstairs and help me go over the notes from Randy’s trial. I ordered a transcript when we were first looking into how Pritchett went after him in prison. Maybe something in there will help.”
So I followed after her, feeling like a sleepwalker. I could read the words in the transcript, but for all the comprehension that seeped in they might as well have been written in a foreign language.
All the while, a clock in my head kept winding down. The seconds ticking away my son’s life while the authorities worked on getting warrants signed and coordinating logistics.