The Last Embrace (16 page)

But he shook his head. “I need my eyes on the story to digest it all and take notes. Anyway, there's no time to worry about all that now. I need you to come with me.”

“Where?”

“Eden's called an urgent press conference without saying why. I want photos.” The correspondents usually worked alone, and Teddy did not have a colleague to ask for help—except for me. He started for the door. I hesitated. Teddy had never asked me to help him with a story before. “Come on!”

I gestured to his clothing. “You can't go like that.”

He looked down blankly. “Oh, right. Meet you there, then.”

Twenty minutes later I stood uneasily outside the massive Foreign Office, waiting for one of the guards to decide I did not belong and ask me to leave. Teddy soon arrived in a freshly pressed jacket and polished Oxfords, the aroma of steam and sandalwood soap rising from his collar. As I followed him through the stale marble corridor, I was reminded of the day Mr. Steeves had brought me along to the meeting at State, where I had run into Charlie. “What is it you want me to do?”

“Just take down what they say. We'll see if they're allowing photos—or if there's anything worth shooting.”

The pressroom was full of men, correspondents like Teddy smoking and talking and jostling for space. I was suddenly separated from him and he looked back helplessly. “You go on,” I called. “I'll circle around.”

“And bring us some coffee while you're at it, love,” a man overhearing us joked. Ignoring him, I slid to the back of the room, trying to peer over the sea of tall shoulders. Through the crowd, I could see Teddy striding to the front, his style sure and easy among the room of stiff, suited men. Impulsively, I reached in my bag and pulled out my camera, then and took a snapshot of the scene.

A hand clamped down on my shoulder. A red-coated guard towered over me, glaring. Without speaking, he led me from the room, then ripped the camera unceremoniously from my hands. “No photos,” he said, ushering me toward the security desk. Was he going to arrest me or simply kick me out? I searched over my shoulder, hoping to signal to Teddy for help. But he had vanished from sight.

“I'm sorry, I didn't know,” I stammered. The guard still held my camera as he led me to the front door of the building and opened it.

“My camera. May I have it back please?”

He pulled it out of reach. “I'll have to keep it. Security reasons.”

“But it's mine.” My cheeks began to burn.

“Say now,” a voice interjected behind the guard. We both turned. A sturdy woman in a wide-shouldered pinstriped navy blue suit stood behind me. “There's no need for that. Just take the film and give the girl her camera back.”

The voice of the strange woman was surprisingly firm and the guard complied. “She still has to go.” Reluctantly, I walked from the Foreign Office building, grasping the camera in both hands. Teddy had given me a chance to do something more and I had failed. I started down the street, past two man in dark suits and caps who leaned against a low wall.

“Wait!” The woman in navy had followed me out the door.

“Thank you.” I raised the camera slightly.

“I'm Claire.” She extended her hand. She stood a good six inches taller than me with posture that Aunt Bess would have loved.

“Adelia.”

Her grip was firm, just shy of masculine. “You're a correspondent, aren't you?”

“I'm helping one out. Or was,” I added, gesturing toward the door that had slammed behind me. “I kind of messed it up.”

“Not at all. Those blokes are missing the real story anyway.” I cocked my head, curious. “The prime minister is going to tell them about the Polish émigré who has come to England with stories of what Hitler has done to the Jews. Where's the man himself, though? Come.” She led me around the corner and through a door on the side of the building. I held my breath, wondering if I might be stopped again. But a different guard nodded and let us pass. Was the woman some sort of government worker? I looked over my shoulder uncertainly, past one of the suited men I'd seen outside. Teddy would not know where I had gone. But Claire was moving swiftly and I had no choice other than to follow or be left behind.

We crossed a corridor and entered a small study. A man, pale and slight, sat alone in a chair, smoking. “This is Jan Tomaszewicz from Poland.” I understood then that this man, who might have been a schoolteacher or an accountant, was the refugee who had made such a brave journey to tell the world about the Jews.

“Mr. Tomaszewicz, can we get you anything?” Claire asked. The man shook his head, just barely understanding. “He's too nervous to speak to the press himself,” Claire explained in a low voice. “The Foreign Minister is just going to introduce him and tell the press generally what they've learned from him. But if someone could speak with him first, it might put his mind at ease.”

I looked up at Claire, surprised. “Me?” She nodded and I sat down beside him. “You came from Poland?” I asked tentatively in Yiddish.

“You're a Jew?” he asked. A light seemed to dawn in Tomaszewicz's eyes as I nodded slightly. “I'm not,” he said, his voice almost apologetic. “But the language, it's close enough to German.”

“Can you tell me about your trip?”

He dipped his chin. “I'm not supposed to talk about the information I brought.”

“I'm not interested in the information. I'm interested in you.”

The man seemed to relax slightly. “I was raised in the town of Lodz. My wife and daughter—she's nine—are still there.” A shadow passed his face. “I really shouldn't say more.”

“I understand. My parents put me on a boat to America when I was sixteen. They stayed behind in Italy.” I could hear Teddy admonishing that I should not make myself part of the story.

But doing so seemed to gain Tomaszewicz's trust. “One day when making deliveries I came upon a horrible sight in the woods,” he began. “They were forcing Jews in a truck, a regular delivery truck, you know, one that might deliver boxes to the store.” He was talking fast now, telling me more than he should in the rush of emotion. “They were putting them—men, women and children—in the back and connecting something to the exhaust pipe.” My pulse thudded in dreadful anticipation. “There were screams and then there were none.”

I gripped the side of the table. I'd heard back home, of course, of Hitler's hatred for the Jews, how schools and businesses had been closed. I knew that some had been arrested, though I'd assumed that they were mostly political activists like my father. But murdering innocents, in civilized Europe. They had automobiles, for goodness' sake, movie theaters. I thought of my parents and felt sick. Could such things be happening in Italy, too?

“I knew I had to tell someone.” I forced myself to concentrate on his words, which poured forth now. To get the story. His eyes grew moist as he told of the family he had left behind. “I tried to bring them with me, but my wife's mother was too sick to travel and she would not leave her.” Though not a Jew himself, he had risked everything to help people he did not know.

From the other room came a din of voices, growing louder as the door opened at a suited man whom I presumed was a diplomat stuck his head in the room. “Prosze.” He gestured for Mr. Tomaszewicz to follow him.

“Wait!” I blurted. “Mr. Tomaszewicz, may I take your photo?” He nodded. When the man who had come for him did not protest, I put in the spare film I always carried, then snapped hurriedly.

The man gestured again for Mr. Tomaszewicz, more impatiently this time. As Mr. Tomaszewicz passed me, I put my hand on his shoulder. “God bless you and your family.”

“Thank you,” I said to Claire when they had gone. We stepped into the hall.

“I met Tomaszewicz earlier and I sensed he needed to talk. But the translator was nowhere to be found. I thought of you.”

“Me?” So the meeting had not been incidental.

“I knew you spoke some other languages and hoped there might be one in common.”

I blinked, puzzled. “I'm sorry, but have we met?”

“You're Teddy's girl, and everyone knows Teddy.”

“I work for Teddy but I'm not his girl.” The words came out harsher than I had intended, bordering on rude.

One of the suited men who I had seen earlier outside and also in the corridor was also in the hallway, watching us with interest. My skin prickled. “I know this may sound silly,” I whispered, “but I think that man may be following us.”

Claire chuckled. “He is following us. Security and all that.”

“I don't understand.”

“When I'm working, MI-5, and my uncle, insist upon it.”

“Your uncle?”

A man in military uniform came up to them then. “Excuse me, Miss Churchill? The prime minister is looking for you.”

“Sorry, my dear, I must go. Good afternoon.” As Claire walked off, I stood speechless, my jaw hanging in disbelief. The woman who had gotten me the interview was none other than the prime minister's niece.

After she'd gone, I waited, uncertain whether to head back to the office. I went outside and lingered by the main door where the guard had ushered me from the building. Several minutes later, Teddy came rushing out. “A dissident from Poland with proof of the awful things Hitler is doing. They introduced him at the press conference, but he didn't take questions. There's a story here, more to tell, if we can just get to him.”

“I know. I met him.” I could not keep the pride from my voice. “Got the interview.”

“Met him? That's brilliant! How on earth did you manage it?”

“I'll explain later. Right now let's get back so you can write up the story before I forget everything he said.”

“Me? Adelia, it's your story. You'll write it up and you'll get the byline.” That would never happen, of course. At best, the story would go out under Teddy's name with a credit to me.

At the bureau, we went straight to the darkroom, where I began to develop the film. “Tell me everything and I'll write it down.” As I gently bathed the film in chemicals, I recounted Tomaszewicz's tale.

“It's unbelievable,” he said when I finished. “We knew that the Germans were arresting Jews and that there had been some isolated killings, but this is a whole other level of barbarity.”

Suddenly, overwhelmed by everything Mr. Tomaszewicz had told me about the Jews, I could not take it anymore. “Oh!” I dropped the film into the liquid and brought my hand, which smelled of chemicals, to my mouth.

Teddy was at my side them. “I'm sorry.” He was standing close to me in the dim light now, his arm touching mine. He put his hand on my shoulder.

“It's fine. It just reminds me of my own parents. Is that what happened to them?” I had told Teddy before about their political activism and the way they had disappeared.

He put his hand on my shoulder. “Would you want to know? If it were possible, I mean.”

I hesitated, feeling the unfamiliar warmth through the fabric of my blouse. Something inside me stirred. “I don't know.” I had been born with the need to know the truth, to peel back the lid and see what was inside. But there was a fantasy I'd allowed myself that somewhere my parents were still out there. Finding out could destroy all that. Would it be better to no longer have hope? “I suppose,” I replied finally. “In some ways I'm still a child, waiting for them. I'd give anything for that to be true. Finding out what really happened might help to explain why they disappeared. It doesn't matter, does it? We just don't know.”
And probably never would
, I finished silently.

He looked at the photo I was hanging to dry. “These are phenomenal, Adelia.” They were good, I conceded inwardly, secretly pleased. I'd caught the light so that every line of Tomaszewicz's face was etched, a map of bravery and grief.

“Dinner tonight to celebrate. That's the wrong word, of course, for such a sad story,” he hastened to add. “But you've done really good work here.”

I hesitated as I cleaned up the darkroom, searching for the right answer. Teddy had made clear his interest in me ever since I arrived. I'd held him at arm's length, the idea of being with anyone but Charlie unthinkable. I opened the door, letting in harsh light. “I'm sorry, I can't.”

“You would almost think there was someone back home,” he baited as he followed.

I flushed slightly. “It's nothing like that.” And it wasn't a lie—because there really wasn't someone anymore, was there?

“Then what is it?”

“I can hardly date the boss,” I replied, keeping my voice light.

“I'll fire you.” Was he serious? But his eyes crinkled and that dimple appeared.

“Don't tease. I can't.” He was watching me still, looking for a greater explanation of the things I could never put in words. I understood his confusion: I'm sure Teddy was used to women falling all over him, not refusing him. “I'm just not going out these days,” I offered lamely.

“At least let me see you home. That's not out, it's in.”

“I'm planning to walk.”

“All the way to Bayswater?” I nodded. I walked home often in good weather, though it took more than an hour. “I'll join you. The exercise will do me good.”

“All right,” I relented.

“Don't sound so excited,” he chided.

“I'm sorry, I was still thinking about the story,” I lied, then forced a smile. “That would be swell.” We started from the office and down Fleet Street, winding west past the shops closing early because there was nothing left to sell. But as we neared Covent Garden, the stalls were lively with shoppers, and the cafes packed thick with people enjoying a quick drink before heading home for curfew. I wondered if Teddy might suggest stopping for a cocktail.

“It's nearly seven o'clock,” I said, surprised at how the time had passed.