The Madness Underneath: Book 2 (THE SHADES OF LONDON) (30 page)

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It happened at nine forty-six in the morning.

Right before that, things had gotten very slow—the beeps and wiggles. People started to come in more often. I held his hand harder. The beeps became a flat, droning noise. I closed my eyes. Then
something
was pulling on me. Not something muscular, not something I could see, but something gentle yet unyielding. It reminded me of a science lesson in grade school when they gave us a box of magnets and let us play with them, and I made one tiny magnet pull another across a small distance and lock together.

You are not going anywhere,
I said to him, in my mind.
You are not going anywhere. You are staying here. You are staying with me.

I could still feel the activity around me. I was profoundly aware of Boo at my left side.

DO YOU HEAR ME? YOU ARE NOT…

It almost knocked me down. I was pulling on something, or it was pulling on me. And the space behind my eyes went white. The world went away entirely. Even the white went away, and everything was a bright nothing. Unlike the other times, it wasn’t just a flash. I was calm and still and the world was gone, but that was fine. I had become something else, I had joined something larger. Maybe I was water. Maybe I was a drop of water in the ocean. Maybe I was a particle of light. I was the same as everything around me, and everything around me was peaceful.

I wanted to stay here.

There was whiteness. There was falling. I was falling a hundred feet, a thousand feet, but at no particular speed.

And then there were edges of things. Round things. A red line and a black lump. A face—Boo’s. My head was forced between my knees, and when I opened my eyes, the hospital floor came back into violent, sudden focus.

“Sorry,” I said. Because I knew what was coming next.

I threw up. A plastic basin was shoved in the approximately right spot and I did my best to aim for it. Someone helped me into a chair. I was put in a forward-facing position, slumped over my knees. Boo knelt down next to me.

“Is he—”

She nodded.

“Did it work?” she whispered, stroking my hair.

“I…don’t know. Something happened.”

“I’ll look for him,” she said. “You all right? I’ll look.”

Boo was gone for what seemed like forever. I finally lifted myself up and sat back normally. When I did that, I saw Stephen lying there, exactly as before. He looked no different, but all was silence, and his chest did not move.

Thorpe’s eyes were red.

“How long does it take?” I asked when Boo returned. “Before they…you know. Appear.”

“Jo said that when it happened to her, she thinks she woke up right after, but she was never sure,” Boo said. “It could have been hours, or even a day or two.”

“Alistair said it was right away,” I added. “He was asleep, and then he was standing outside of himself. Do they always show up where they die?”

“He could be anywhere,” she said. “It’s often tied to the place of death, but not always. I’ve heard of other places
people end up. He could be at the flat. He could be at his parents’ house, though I doubt that. He’s bound to be somewhere. We just have to find him.”

“Unless it didn’t work,” I said.

“I know he’s here,” Boo said, nodding. “We need to start looking. We do the hospital. We do the flat, both the old one and the new one. And if that fails, we come back here and do it again. Yeah?”

It was then that I understood everything. There would be no train to Bristol. There might be no return to Wexford, or America. Life was being written, right now, in real time. I was not going home. I was staying here. I would find Charlotte. I was going to make Jane pay.

And I would find Stephen.

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