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Authors: Catherine Coulter

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“I know.” She sighed deeply, leaned her face into his shoulder, and lightly bit him. She then licked where she'd bitten. “You're probably right. But I have to tell you those warmer places have gotten even warmer. Hot nearly.”

“Sherlock, stop now. This isn't good. I knew it wasn't good when I got in bed with you. Now I know it's maybe one of the stupidest things I've done in a good long while.” He thought if he moved now, he was in for seven years of bad luck, because he'd crack into a billion pieces, just like a mirror.

She pulled her hand away from beneath his. He sucked in his breath in disappointment. “I'm sorry. Ollie told me you didn't ever get involved with your people.”

Why had Ollie told her that? He had dated Hannah before she'd joined the Unit, but then he'd called a halt when she'd come on board. Well, yeah, at least at one time Ollie had been right. Actually, until an hour ago, he would have bet the farm on it. Maybe even just ten minutes ago he would have bet a second farm on it. “No, I don't get involved with any of my people. At least I haven't. It seems that's shot all to hell now, though. And don't say you're sorry again. If you do, I'll do something unsuave.”

“What?”

“Sherlock, I'm outta here. I'm not about to take advantage of a nightmare. You're vulnerable and afraid and I happen to be convenient. But you don't need me now. You're okay, right?”

She didn't say a word. He thought he'd been punched in the gut when he felt her tears against his chest.

“Oh damn,” he said, hauled her on top of him, and kissed her. All light, feathery kisses, and between the kisses he was
saying, “Don't cry. I'm trying to be noble. It's a battle and I'm losing. You've got to help me with this. I want you a whole lot, but this isn't the way, surely. Actually, I want you whole again, I just said it wrong. Does that make any sense to you?”

Her palm smoothed over his thigh, upward. She said against his ear, “That must be what it is then.”

He didn't know what she was talking about. All he was thinking about was kissing her.

“I've got to stop,” he said between another round of kisses, “or if I don't, then I'm going to be on top of you and that nightgown is going to end up on the floor.”

She lurched away from him, taking him completely by surprise. “Let me be plain about this,” she said, smiling down at him. He wanted to weep until he realized what she was doing. “Let me be straightforward. I don't want you to have any doubts where I stand on this.”

He watched her pull the gown over her head and throw it across the room. She was sitting over him, naked, staring down at him, and she looked scared to death, and defiant. Yes, that was it, defiant and determined.

Oddly enough, it calmed him. He wanted to put his hands on her, but no, not just yet. “What do you want me to do, Sherlock?”

“I want to make love with you, that is, if you'll make an exception for me.”

“I've made an exception for you since I kicked you into the bushes in Hogan's Alley. Why do you look scared to death if you're so certain about all this?”

“I'm not scared. It's just the morning light.”

“Yeah, right.” But he was more than willing to believe it.

She had lovely breasts, all high and smooth and round, just the right size for his hands, his mouth, any other part of him that wanted to touch her there. And he wanted to. He couldn't remember ever wanting anything so much in his life.

Then he remembered that he'd wanted more than anything to be an FBI agent. That sure put a crimp in things.

24

N
AH. THAT
was pure bullshit.

In the scheme of things, that had been very shortsighted of him. This woman sitting naked on top of him was, he figured, just about the most important milestone in his life. She was what was real, what was urgent, more urgent to him than anything else in his life. He wanted her, right now, he wanted all of her. Slowly, he lifted his right hand and lightly touched his fingertips to her breast.

She drew back, as if surprised.

He cupped her breasts in his palms. Lovely, a perfect fit. Again, she flinched.

“What's wrong? You don't like me holding you?”

“Dillon, I should tell you something.”

He couldn't take his eyes off her breasts, but he did manage to drop his hands, for the moment, although his fingers itched like mad. But he knew he had to pay attention. Something wasn't quite right here. Now he was looking at her ribs, at her stomach, at the smooth expanse of thigh.

“Dillon?”

“Yes? Keep talking, I'll try to pay attention, but I can't help but look at you, Sherlock. You're really quite nice to look at.”

She sucked in her breath, then blurted it out. “I've only done this once. When I was nineteen. It was in the backseat of Bobby Wellman's yellow Jaguar. It was really cramped and no fun at all. Actually it was messy and horrible, but I was philosophical about it, really. After all, it was the backseat of
a car. But then, well, after Belinda's death, I just couldn't stand to have any men around me.”

“Just once? In your whole life? In a Jaguar? Surely not an XJ6? That would be practically impossible.”

“That's the truth, but Bobby managed somehow. It wasn't at all pleasant, as I said, and I didn't realize how bony he was, all knees and elbows, even his chin was sharp. I guess if anybody was looking, they'd have laughed their heads off. Bobby loved that car. I remember that the leather was really smooth and slick because he was always oiling it. Then he'd leer and say he used his mother's extra-virgin olive oil.”

“What a jerk. Now that I think back on it, I did something similar to that when I was seventeen and eighteen. But you're twenty-seven, Sherlock.”

“Yes. When I was nineteen, after Belinda was murdered, I just shut down. I've never even been interested in another man since that time with Bobby. Not even remotely. Until you. Do you mind?”

“I don't think so. Never Douglas, then?”

“No. Once, just weeks ago, he kissed me, but that's all there was to it. No, it's just you.”

“Just me.” That sounded incredibly fine. Actually, he thought, as he eased her down on top of him, if he didn't suffer from sensory overload first, he would give her pleasure if it killed him.

When he'd gotten her level of interest up to at least half of his, he was so far gone, he just didn't know if he'd make it. He lifted her to his mouth, felt her surprise, her shock. After not more than a minute or two, he felt every quiver in her legs, the deep clenching of her stomach muscles. And when she cried out, her back arching wildly, her fists pounding on his shoulders, jerking on his hair, he knew that he was the luckiest man on the earth.

He wanted to bring her pleasure again, but he knew he simply couldn't take it any longer. “Sherlock,” he said. Looking into her eyes he came into her fast and deep, his powerful arms shaking with his effort to control himself, to keep his weight off her, as he moved deeper and deeper, feeling her flesh easing slowly to accommodate him. His head was thrown back, his eyes closed. And when he touched her again with
his fingers, he knew that being in deep shit was the best thing that had ever happened to him in his life.

She came again when his fingers touched her, and as he watched her face, heard her whimpers of pleasure, felt her draw him close and closer still, he let himself go.

And it was just fine, all of it.

 

“Lacey, just close your eyes, that's right, and lean your head back. Let your shoulders drop. Good. No, don't stiffen up. Now, just breathe very deeply. Deeper, let go. Good. Yes, that's just fine.”

Dr. Lauren Bowers, a conservative congresswoman from Maryland and one of the best hypnotists Savich knew, raised her head and grinned at him. “People like Ms. Sherlock here,” she said in her normal tone of voice, “are usually the easiest to get under. Once you get past her defenses, she's an open book, all the pages ruffling in the wind, that sharp brain of hers just invites you right in. Now, Savich, you've written down your questions.”

She took the sheet of paper from him and scanned it. “Did I ever tell you that you are really quite good? Of course you know you are, you've been trained by the best.”

Dr. Bowers turned back to the young woman who looked flaccid and pale, as if something had been sapping her from deep inside for far too long a time.

“Lacey? Can you hear me?”

“Of course, Dr. Bowers. I'm not deaf.”

Dr. Bowers laughed. “That's very good. Now, I want you to go back, Lacey, back to the last time you saw Belinda. Do you remember when that was?”

“It was April thirteenth, three days before Belinda was killed.” Lacey suddenly lurched forward, then flopped back. She was shaking her head frantically, back and forth. “No!”

“Lacey, it's all right. Just breathe in deeply.”

“I want Dillon.”

Without pause, he was lightly stroking her hand. “I'm here, Sherlock. I won't leave you. Let's go back together, all right? You're going to have to do something for me. You're going to have to paint that day to me in words, so I can see it as you see it. Can you do that?”

Her expression changed, softening, and incredibly, she looked like a girl again, a teenager. She sighed, then smiled. “It was very sunny, crisp and cool, just a low fog swirling in over and through the Golden Gate Bridge. I loved days like that, watching the sailboats on the Bay, seeing the Marin Headlands through open patches in the fog, all bleak and barren, but still green from all the winter rains.”

Dr. Bowers nodded to Savich to keep going. He said in his low, deep voice, “What were you doing?”

“I was sitting out on the deck off the living room.”

“Were you alone?”

“Yes. My mother was in her room napping. My father was at the courthouse. He was prosecuting a big drug case, and he wanted to make sure the defense was sticking to the sitting judge's gag order. He said if they weren't, he'd skin them alive.”

“Where was Belinda?”

Her mouth tightened, her eyebrows drew together. She wasn't smiling anymore. She started to shake her head, back and forth.

“It's okay,” Savich said easily. “Where was Douglas?”

“I thought he was at work.”

“But he wasn't?”

“No, he was there, in the house. He was with Belinda, upstairs in their suite. They were out on the balcony above me.”

“What were they doing?”

For an instant she looked incredibly angry, then her face smoothed out and her voice was smooth, unworried. “They were making love.”

He hadn't expected that. “You understood what was happening, right? It didn't freak you out?”

“No. It was just embarrassing. Douglas was saying lots of really dirty things.”

“Then what happened?”

“I heard Belinda cry out.”

“Was she having a climax?”

“I don't think so. I heard her roll off the chaise onto the brick balcony. I heard her crying, then she stopped.”

“Why?”

“I heard Douglas tell her that if she cried anymore someone might hear her and he wouldn't like that at all. In fact, if she kept whining, he just might throw her off the balcony.”

“Then what happened?”

“Nothing. Belinda was quiet then. After a few minutes, I heard them making love again. I heard Douglas tell her that she'd better moan because if she didn't moan, he wouldn't believe she really loved him. She moaned really loudly then and he said more really dirty things to her. He kept telling her that she owed him, owed him but good.”

“Do you know what he meant by that?”

She shook her head.

“What happened then?”

“I waited until Douglas went out, then I went to their bedroom and called out her name. She told me to go away but I didn't. I just walked in. She was standing in the middle of the room, naked. She grabbed for her jeans and put them in front of her. I asked her if Douglas had hit her and she said no, that was ridiculous. Douglas wouldn't hit anybody. But I didn't believe her. I think I saw a bruise below her ribs when she raised her hand to wave me away. But I didn't leave her. I couldn't.”

“Had this happened before, to your knowledge?”

She was shaking her head. “Oh no. I'm certain. I thought they loved each other. Douglas was always so light and caressing with her, so tender. They were always laughing and hugging, kissing when they didn't think anyone was looking. But not now. She couldn't stand up straight. I wanted to kill him. But she said no, if anyone killed him it would be her. She told me to go away, that she didn't want to see me, I was a pain in the butt. She had a miscarriage that night.”

“You never told anyone about this? Not even the police after she was murdered?”

She didn't say anything. She was frowning again. “She must have had a miscarriage because Douglas hit her. I'd forgotten all about that.” Suddenly, her eyes opened and she stared blankly ahead of her. She looked bewildered, then frightened. He began to massage her hand, closing his fingers over hers. “It's all right, Sherlock. I'm here. Nothing bad is going to happen.”

She started to cry. She just stared at him, made no sound, but tears streaked down her pale cheeks. Her lips were chapped.

Dr. Bowers wiped the tears away with a Kleenex. “Now, Lacey, that's enough. I want you to wake up now. I'm going to count to three. On three, you'll be awake, smile at Savich here, and remember everything we talked about.”

On three, Lacey, her eyes still open, came back into herself. “Why am I crying?”

She rubbed her fingers over her eyes. “Oh, I remember now. It was—”

“It's okay,” Savich said, pulled her against him, and began stroking his big hands up and down her back. “You don't have to talk about it right this minute.”

She grew very still in his arms. Her heart was against his. He could feel the slow, steady beat. He kissed her hair. “You okay?”

She nodded against his shoulder. “I miss Belinda so much. She was more my mother than our real mother was. Our real mother just stayed in her room all the time. She loved to eat Godiva chocolates. And she was so beautiful—both Belinda and my mother. I was the plain one, but neither of them held it against me, well, maybe Belinda didn't like me so much when I was older. I don't know why.

“I know Douglas had never hit her before, she told me he hadn't. I asked her why he'd hit her this time, why he'd humiliated her.”

“What'd she say?”

“She wouldn't tell me. She just stood there, shaking her head. She told me I wouldn't understand. That it had nothing to do with me, that I was to forget it.

“I was confused, then angry. I told her I was nineteen, that I wasn't a kid anymore, that I could play the piano and she couldn't. She laughed at that, but it hurt her rib to laugh, so she stopped really fast. She told me to forget this, that it wasn't important in the scheme of things. She told me to go away. I went to Napa Valley with some friends. I never saw Belinda again.”

“How did you know that Belinda had a miscarriage?”

“I don't remember. Someone must have told me. But no
one seemed to know about it. It isn't in the medical reports or the autopsy report. I just don't remember.”

“But somehow you followed her through the warehouse, followed her to her death, saw everything she saw, felt her terror, felt her die.”

Dr. Bowers looked as if she wanted to leap on Savich, but he just shook his head. Lacey was stiff now, withdrawn from him, but he didn't say anything more, just held her, rocking her slightly, back and forth.

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