The Only Thing That Matters (21 page)

I have often experienced “talking to myself,” or “thinking out loud,” and so allowing myself to consider that this book is a
written version of that experience
is an easy transition.

I can imagine that these thoughts and words are simply being transcribed for me by the Part of Me whom others refer to by a different name and think of as the author of this book.

To people who do not understand what I am allowing myself to experiment with and experience right now, this may all seem a little strange. For them it will absolutely be true that someone else has written this book, and that I am merely reading it.

If I were to share with them what I'm experiencing in this moment by suddenly switching my point of view from that of the Reader to that of the Writer—if I were to tell them that I truly believe it is very possible that I am at the very least a Collaborative Cause of this writing, and so, in that sense, that I am The Source of It—they would surely say that I've just lost touch with reality.

There's a certain irony in that, because it feels as though I have just now gotten
in touch
with Reality. Reality with a capital ‘R.'

Again.

At last.

It's true … I
do
know all that I am encountering here. I
do
know that the “someone else” who has written this book is merely Another Part of Me.

I've always understood that all of
life
is just Another Part of Me. And so I know now that I
called forth
this book—that I am calling it forth now, in real time—as yet one more way to remind my Self of the largest truths of my life.

I know that the Oneness of All of Humanity (and of the entire Universe, really) is a difficult concept for many people to embrace. They are not familiar yet with M Theory, which today's physicists are advancing to offer, finally, a Theory of Everything, and which supplies mathematical evidence for the notion that we do not live in a Universe at all, but a Multiverse, made up of
an infinite number
of universes—all created and connected by a single phenomenon called The Membrane.

People do not know that this is not “New Age nonsense,” but today's new
science
.

This notion that I am One with the Author, that the Author is One with me, and that all of us on this planet are One With Each Other, seems very UNscientific, running counter to everything we've been told by our cultures, our clans, our families, our communities, and our religions, and calling up the opposite of everything we see reflected in our politics, our economics, our societies, and, in fact, our entire world from top to bottom.

That does not make it any less true.

My invitation from Life is to “judge not by appearances,” but to hold to the Truth. This Truth will allow me to see others, and to
treat
others, as aspects of myself.

That alone could change my life.

If I did nothing else
, seeing others and treating others as aspects of myself would alter everything in my experience.

But that isn't enough. Not anymore. I'm tired of settling for small steps or simple aphorisms. It is time now to enter into deep, honest, self-­examination. That's part of the reason I came to this book; that is part of the purpose of writing this to myself. I need to ask myself some questions. Some important, even pointed, questions:

Does it feel as though what I'm doing these days is what an evolved being would do? Beyond the issue of
survival
, beyond “taking care of business” or slogging through the day “doing what needs to be done,” how much of what I'm “up to” feels like what really matters, and how much feels like just “stuff and nonsense”—or, in Shakespeare's words,
Much Ado About Nothing
…?

Are my minutes fulfilling? Are my hours ringing with satisfaction? Are my days overflowing with contentment? Are my weeks and months teeming with accomplishment of my Soul's agenda?

Are my years brimming with spiritual radiance and soulful, Divine expression and experience? Or do I awaken on milestone days—birthdays, anniversaries, times of celebration—with a vague feeling of how fast time is passing and how slowly I have progressed at what I came here to accomplish—and how difficult it is to accomplish it …?

For that matter, have I always been clear that there
is
something specific that I came here to accomplish? If so, have I known exactly what that is?

I guess I should not be surprised or embarrassed if I have not. It turns out that 98% of the world's people do not. And it's not their fault. And it's not my fault if I find myself even now, at least from time to time, among them. Because nobody told them, and nobody told
me
, what really matters.

Oh, they've tried to tell us. Some people have tried to convince us. And many, many of us listened to those peoeple, because to know something for
certain
—as religions and politics allow us to think that we do—feels better than to not know.

But the more
I
listened the more I knew that what others were “buying into” of what still others were telling
them
couldn't possibly be true. So I moved away from all of their agendas. I may not have known where I was
going
, but I knew what I wanted to get
away
from.

The result is that I am spending less time these days in that larger group. And right now I am not even in it … or I would never have this book in my hand. It is wonderful that I am not among that 98% now, and that I spend less and less time there, because there's nothing worse than spending most of one's life on things that just simply don't matter.

No, wait, yes there is. It would be worse to
not know
what
does
matter. It would be worse to not know that what I am doing here is taking a Sacred Journey, fulfilling a Divine Purpose.

Well, I don't have to worry about that. I understand now—and I understand that I've
understood
what I understand for quite a while. I simply wasn't doing very much about it.

Oh, I dabbled now and then. I read some things, went to some events, made some promises to myself. But, truth be told, I didn't jump
into
it whole hog. I was a “chicken” about it.

One day the Chicken and the Pig were walking down the road when they came upon a huge billboard. On it was a picture of a plate of ham and eggs. Above the picture was the headline: The World's Favorite Breakfast.

The Chicken turned to the Pig with the biggest smile. “Look at that!” she said. “Doesn't that make you proud?”

“That's easy for you to say,” replied the Pig. “For you it's partial dedication. For me it's total commitment
.
”

I think I'm ready for total commitment. I've had enough of shaking my head in dismay and feeling sadness in my heart each time I see the news on my computer or turn on the television or glimpse the headline of an evening paper.

More and more, the world in which I live feels like a world to which I don't belong. I feel strangely out of place, as if someone dropped me off somewhere in the cosmos where the local inhabitants act very strange and I don't know why they're doing what they're doing, because it all seems so
opposite
to what a normal, loving, caring, intelligent being would do …

I am done with this, and I'm so glad I came here—brought myself here—because I've wanted it explained, before I move forward, why things are the way they are, and what I can do to get back to what matters.

So I've made my decision. I'm on board. I'm
going for it
.

Can my decision be experienced
totally
while I am in my present physical human form? No. It cannot. One physical lifetime is too limited for the Unlimited Oneness to fit into. I get that. Does my True Identity
have
to be experienced
totally
for my life to have meaning and to be fulfilling? No. I get that, too. I am clear now that attaining even portions or aspects of the Divine (Oneness being the sum of those aspects) is sufficient for me to know immense joy and fulfillment.

I am also clear that sticking to the Agenda of the Soul is just the challenge I have been preparing for all these years as I now move into the extraordinary times just ahead.

The whole Earth is moving through these important moments with me even now, and I want to help
create
those moments, not merely witness them. I remember now that I can best do that by focusing much more of my life on The Only Thing That Matters.

Yet how can
What One Desires
produce good for oneself and for the world—and what does a clear focus on
What One Desires
“look like” in Life's on-the-ground, day-to-day moments?

That is the next great question. And, by going within, I am certain that I can find many answers being drawn
to
me,
by
me. One way might be for me to
continue with this book
—but as the Writer, or the Reader?

25
A Demonstration of Free Will

T
HE
P
ROBLEM
I
S
that I seem to move in and out of the level of “knowing” that I am experiencing now. I seem to “get there,” then I find myself “not there”—sometimes in the very next Moment … just as described at the end of Part Two of this book.