The Other Side of Sorrow (14 page)

‘I thought you would be. When I saw a resourceful-looking person go in and come out so quickly I guessed that you and that man hadn't seen eye to eye. And when I saw what happened between you and the thug I felt convinced of it.'

‘I think he has some involvement with the man I'm looking for. But it's just a suspicion. You have to be very careful with doctors, they …'

‘I'm sure he has a lot of things to hide. Who is this person?'

‘Do you watch the news on television or listen to the radio news?'

‘Sometimes, not lately.'

I told her about the death of the guard at Tadpole Creek and my interest in the matter without mentioning any names. I mentioned Talbot's van again.

‘I've certainly seen that van over there. It goes in through that back entrance.'

‘How often have you seen it?'

She tapped her fingers on the table. ‘Oh, my memory for something like that is so bad. More than once or twice is all I could be sure of.'

I thought back quickly. There'd been two vehicles in the carport. Neither was a van. ‘Have you seen it recently?'

She sipped her pale drink. ‘I really couldn't say. Of course I don't keep a watch on the place all the time. I've got a garden to attend to and shopping to do and so on.'

I finished the drink and stood up. ‘This has all been very interesting, Miss Cartwright and I think you've been of some help. If Macleod's involved in the matter I'm looking into I'll try to see that he gets into serious trouble. You can get me on these numbers pretty well any time. Let me know if you see the van or the young man who drives it. The one with the limp.'

She took the card that I held out. ‘And the young woman I've seen. Who is she exactly?'

‘I wish I knew.'

She shook her head. ‘I think you do know.'

‘She may be my daughter.'

Her nod was wise, compassionate, concerned—all that.

I was sitting in the car wondering what to do next when my mobile bleated.

‘Hardy.'

‘This is Tess Hewitt, Cliff. I'm sorry about what happened the other night. I over-reacted.'

‘It's okay, Tess. I'm glad you called. I didn't mean to upset you but this bloody business I'm in requires it sometimes. Anyway, what's new?'

‘Well, you were right. Bill Damelian didn't have any trouble getting bail for Ramsay and he doesn't think the charge'll proceed. So I should've listened to you.'

‘That's good. Where's Ramsay now? I'd like to talk to him.'

‘God, you do stick at it, don't you? He's doing something for one of the television stations about the protest. He said he feels terrible about the guard but …'

‘The publicity's good.'

‘He's young, Cliff. I sort of hoped you might want to talk to
me
.'

She hadn't really answered the question about Ramsay's whereabouts and I wanted to put the same question I'd put to her, to him: who was the Tadpole Creek protest's benefactor? She misinterpreted my pause.

‘All right, then. You don't want to see me again. I …'

‘Tess, Tess, don't get me wrong. I do want to see you. Right now. Where are you?'

I was hoping she wasn't at the protest. The last thing I wanted to do was crowd Geoff.

‘I'm at home,' she said. ‘Please come, and you can ask me anything you want. I promise I won't fly off the handle.'

There's nothing like resolving a conflict to bring people closer. Tess said hello and touched my arm. I walked into the house with a companionable feeling that was rapidly becoming something more than that. We had a drink and more or less repeated our phone conversation. But we were standing closely together, almost leaning towards each other. I abandoned my glass and put my arms around her.

It had been a considerable time since I'd had sex with someone and the need in me was great. She seemed to feel the same. But we were in no hurry. I enjoyed the feel and smell of her. Her body was well covered but not soft and when she lifted my hands onto her breasts I felt the smooth silk of her blouse and the fabric of her bra and the firmness underneath. I heard my own sharp intake of breath and kissed her hard. She moved her hand to my crotch and gripped me.

‘I want to,' she said. ‘You do, too.'

‘Yes.'

‘Come on.'

She led me through to her bedroom. We took off each other's clothes in a slow-moving dance around the bed. She turned on a lamp. I pulled back the covers. We lay down and rolled together in an embrace that had us touching from head to toe. She was broad-shouldered and wide-hipped. She had the remnants of a deep summer tan except where her swimsuit had been. I kissed her pale breasts and she moaned and stroked me. Her nipples hardened. She opened her legs and I put my hand between them and probed.

‘You're not married now, are you?' she said.

‘No.'

‘I haven't slept with a man for two years. I haven't wanted to.'

I was looking at her face. Her skin was taut over her cheekbones, smooth and clear. I was inside her, feeling the wetness and I knew I was filling her hand. My voice was hoarse. ‘Tess, we don't have to fuck if you don't want to. We can do something else.'

She wriggled free of me and reached into a shelf under the bedside table. She held up a packet of condoms. ‘You're a vile seducer to say something like that. Fuck me, please.'

Later, she pulled the blankets up and we dozed for a little while, locked close together the way only new lovers can be. Discomfort isn't an issue, only the contact. I felt her stirring and thought she was going to pull away but she didn't. If anything, she moved closer. I took a firmer hold to show her my appreciation.

‘Are you all right?' she murmured.

‘I'm a lot better than all right. You?'

‘Mm.'

I began to take in details of the room for the first time—polished floor with rug, built-in wardrobes with mirrored doors, heavy curtains. The bed was queen size and low, with wicker bedside tables—one bare, the other holding books, a drinking glass and a lamp. The sheets were some kind of coarse, nubbly cotton. In the dim light I couldn't make out the colour scheme, but I liked the unfussy, spartan feel of the room. It was something like my own bedroom, except that I was inclined to let the empty glasses and coffee mugs build up and the odd sock and T-shirt to lie about.

‘Detecting, are you?' she said.

I nuzzled down into her hair for the smell of roses it held. ‘Not really. It's just that I was so blinded by lust when I came in that I didn't notice a bloody thing.'

‘Controlled lust, I'd say. Whatever happens, I'm glad I broke the drought with you.'

‘Likewise, it's been a bit of a drought for me, too. I nearly …'

‘What?'

‘Nothing.'

Now she did pull away, slightly. ‘Come on, I thought we were getting close here. I don't want your life story, Cliff. But you were starting to say something about the here and now, weren't you?' I had a sense that this was one of those crucial moments when you tell the truth and suffer the consequences, or don't, and feel things slip way from you, go out of your control because you didn't have the guts.

‘The other day I tracked Damien Talbot to an address in Homebush. He'd left. The woman who told me this was a prostitute. She had your leaflet about Tadpole Creek. She was at least my age, maybe older.'

‘You were tempted?'

I nodded. ‘She was a nice woman.'

She moved back to where she'd been before and her hand got busy again. ‘Use it or lose it,' she said. ‘So I got lucky and she didn't make a sale.'

I laughed, and the feeling that I could do a lot of laughing with this woman excited me almost as much as the smooth, warm skin of her shoulders and what she was doing to me. We made love again.

After, we lay close together with only the film of sweat on our bodies separating us. She raised herself up on one elbow and kissed me in what felt like an exploratory fashion.

‘You've been drinking.'

‘Yep. Whisky, very good Irish whisky in fact. With a woman.'

‘Oh.'

‘Nice woman. Very small.'

‘Yes?'

‘Older than me.'

‘How much older?'

‘Oh, I'd say thirty-five years, give or take a few.'

She dropped back and I rolled over and I took her breasts in my hands, drew them together and kissed the nipples.

‘When I was young they didn't need lifting up.'

‘They don't need much now. When I was young I'd be getting ready for you again pretty soon. Come to think of it …'

‘What?'

I told her about the impotence clinic and she laughed until she ran out of breath. Then she stopped laughing and looked at me seriously.

‘I didn't realise just how far you're prepared to go in your work. I shouldn't have objected when you questioned me that way. You can't help it, can you?'

‘I could've been more subtle.'

‘Bugger subtlety. A man's dead, a dangerous bastard's on the loose and you've still got to find this girl for your poor ex-wife—and for yourself, if you'd just be honest about it. I want to help. No restrictions. I mean it.'

‘Okay. Have you got any of that good plonk to hand and an egg or two?'

‘I think I can manage something a bit better than that. Where the hell did my knickers finish up?'

I got dressed, Tess put on a black kimono and pretty soon we were sitting in the kitchen eating microwaved lasagne and drinking Jacob's Creek red. She'd also made a salad out of what she called the wreckage of her vegetable garden. Mindful of how touchy she'd been the time before, I ate and drank appreciatively and didn't jump straight in.

She grinned at me. ‘Okay, you've shown enough restraint for now. Ask away.'

‘I want to talk to Ramsay to see if he can help me find Talbot. Can you tell me where he's likely to be?'

‘Yes.' She looked at her wrist and grinned again when she realised she hadn't put her watch back on. Neither had I. I guessed that we both had the same thought:
Was I staying the night?
She fetched her watch from the bedroom. ‘He'll be here around ten. He's going to tell me what went on with the TV interview.'

‘D'you think he'd know anything about Talbot that he wouldn't tell the police?'

Tess took a mouthful, chewed and swallowed and washed it down with some red. ‘Possibly. Ramsay's an anarchist. He's got no time for the police. The question is, if he
does
know anything, would he tell you?'

This was tricky territory. How do brothers feel about their sister's lovers? I hadn't met any of the men my sister had known at uni before she was engaged and swiftly married, so I had no experience in the area.

Tess seemed amused. ‘I can read your mind,' she said. ‘Will Ramsay be so upset if he knows we're fucking that he won't talk to you?'

‘Will he?'

‘Probably. He'd have strong doubts about you, seeing that you're a lackey of the capitalist establishment. That's one thing.'

She got up, came around behind me and locked me to the chair with her arms. ‘I don't
think
you're a shit, are you? You're not just using me to get information.'

I let my head drop back until I could feel it pressing against her breasts, loose under the kimono. ‘Not at all. I went to sleep thinking about you the other night and I thought about you through the day. I was very glad when you rang, Tess.'

She kissed the top of my head. ‘Still thick on top, very thick. That's nice.' She let go and returned to her seat. ‘Okay. We'll have a go at him together. If he does have any clues about getting on to Talbot we'll find out. Might be best if I got dressed, not that he won't be able to tell. You've got such an après sex look on you.'

‘You too.'

We finished the food and most of the bottle. Tess showered and put on white jeans, medium heels and a black velvet blouse. Despite what she'd said she seemed a bit nervous about her brother's visit. She tidied things until I stopped her. I kissed her and held her against me.

‘Like that, is it?' she said.

‘Like that.'

‘Good. Oh, that's good.'

We kissed hard and when we let go she laughed and did a few dance steps. ‘You make me feel so young,' she crooned in a very fair Sinatra impersonation.

‘If you want me to join in with spring is sprung and so on, forget it. I sing as flat as a tack.'

‘Maybe you could be taught. Coffee?'

As she was making the coffee she said, ‘You know it's a funny thing. There was a kid down at the site today asking questions about us. Sort of, I don't know, questions like you might ask, or did ask.'

Well, we were at it now. In this business, no matter how hard you try, if you get emotionally involved with one of the players, there comes a time when you have to choose between being honest with the person and the requirements of the investigation. It usually comes out the same way. I kept my voice neutral. ‘A kid?'

She busied herself with the coffee. ‘Yeah. Nice looking youngster. I mean, twenty or so. The girls took to him.'

I hesitated. Show too much interest and her suspicions could be aroused, too little likewise.
Think of something neutral, Cliff and do it quickly.

I was saved by a noise outside. Tess finished with the percolator and smoothed back her hair. ‘That's Ramsay. I can hear that beat-up old Honda of his a mile away. I'll just go and turn on the front porch light.'

She brushed against me as she left the kitchen and I stood listening to the percolator, wishing that I could be totally honest with her.

Ramsay Hewitt, standing a full head taller, followed his sister into the kitchen

‘You remember Cliff Hardy,' Tess said.