The Queue

THE QUEUE

First published by Dar Altanweer, Cairo
Copyright © 2013 by Basma Abdel Aziz
Translation copyright © 2016 by Elisabeth Jaquette

First Melville House printing: May 2016

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The first thing Tarek did when he arrived that morning was ask the head nurse for the file. She brought him a transparent plastic folder that appeared to be sealed around the edges, with the words
Suspended Pending Approval by the Gate
written on the cover. He contemplated this weighty phrase, printed diagonally across a corner in bright red ink. The name
Yehya Gad el-Rab Saeed
was written on a rectangular white identification card affixed in the very center, and at the bottom of the card was a seven-digit number. The first half was probably part of the patient’s national ID number, and the second half was a code referring to a type of file, something only the filing personnel really understood. Below the number came the name of the attending physician, his own name:
Dr. Tarek Fahmy
. Hundreds of times he had wished it would be struck from the label, but there was nothing to be done. It would remain there, a thorn in his side, until fate willed otherwise.

He walked into his office with the folder in hand, and Sabah, one of the nurses, followed behind him with a cup of coffee. She placed it on the edge of the antique wooden desk, just as she did every day, and then stood with her hands folded in front of her ample stomach. She began to yawn.

“Something else I can do for you, Dr. Tarek?”

“Stick around today, Sabah, I might need you for something.” His tone was as calm and congenial as it always was, but to her he seemed unusually sullen.

“Of course, Doctor.” She left and closed the door behind her.

Tarek was a serious, middle-aged man, one of the doctors
responsible for the hospital’s emergency department. Sabah had known him for years, ever since he was a young trainee who spent nearly all his time with patients and barely ever went home. He didn’t have many friends, didn’t go out after work with his colleagues, and never skipped a shift like the others did. He was rather difficult to read; he kept to himself, shut himself up in his office during breaks, never chatted with the nurses in the hallway, and never mentioned a word about himself or his family. But everyone knew he was skilled at his job and—most important—that he had a good heart.

Tarek took a sip of coffee and began to pace back and forth across the room, his eyes on the folder. He finally settled back in his leather chair, opened one of the edges, and removed the file inside to review it again.

For him, actually handling a patient’s file was a rare occasion. These documents usually contained only basic information, the kind taken from all patients, scribbled down quickly and often haphazardly. When the doctors and nurses tired of filling out forms, they just wrote down the person’s name and age and that was it. But here, someone had thoroughly recorded all the patient’s personal information; no space was left blank. Every question had an answer, even questions a doctor might not be concerned with. Even questions an average person might be surprised to see in a medical file.

Yehya Gad el-Rab Saeed, 38 years old, Single, Place of Residence: District 9 – Building 1, Occupation: Sales Representative
 … Tarek had gone over these basic details again and again until he knew them by heart, although they were not what interested him most about the patient.

He pushed the first document aside and took out the next one. There was a series of knocks on the door, and he quickly
put everything back in the folder, closed it, and hid it in his desk drawer. He sat up straight as Sabah entered again, carrying a new file in her hand.

“There’s a patient asking for you, Doctor. Should I tell him you’re busy?”

He didn’t feel like taking on any other work just now. As soon as he’d begun to review Yehya Gad el-Rab Saeed’s file, he’d been transported to a place where he couldn’t bear to be around other people. But he also didn’t want to have to explain himself to Sabah, so he told her to take the patient to an examination room and wait for him there. He was considering whether he should return the folder to the filing room instead of leaving it there in his office when he remembered the keys sitting on his desk. He slipped on his white coat and left the room, softly closing the door behind him and making sure to turn the key twice in the lock before carefully placing it in his shirt pocket.

The examination only took a few minutes. He asked the patient a few quick questions, hastily examined him, and scribbled down a diagnosis and treatment, but his mind wandered back to the folder he’d left in his desk. He considered making a copy of the file and taking it home, where he could read and reflect upon it without interruption, but he pushed the idea aside, afraid of the consequences. He was beginning to understand that this was no longer a trivial matter; it was of interest outside the hospital administration’s jurisdiction as well.

Tarek was a man who didn’t overstep boundaries, a man who’d never been to the Gate, not once in his life. No questions, no problems—life passed him by both predictably and monotonously, just as he liked it. He’d finished his studies and received his master’s degree, and it wouldn’t be long now before
he could open his own clinic. He’d even asked a colleague out on a date not long ago. The only thing hindering this stable, traditional plan of his was Yehya Gad el-Rab Saeed.

Why had he stayed in the hospital that day, when he always left right after finishing his shift? Why had he insisted on checking on the injured, resolutely doing all he could to treat their wounds and stitch them up before the ambulance took them away to the military hospital? Why had he been drawn to Yehya in particular, rushing to perform an X-ray and ignoring everyone else? His head was all muddled; the answers and details steadily slipped away. There were parts of that day that he did remember, and he had reviewed them over the course of the intervening weeks, but these were rapidly outnumbered by parts he couldn’t recall. It was as if entire pieces of what had happened were simply gone. Looking back through the file should have helped, but instead it only exacerbated his sense of confusion.

On his way back to his office, he walked past the empty examination rooms and saw several new doctors drinking tea and coffee by the radio. He paused a minute to listen: it was the Youth Station presenter speaking on the air with a call-in guest. The presenter asked the guest about her children, who were still in school, and applauded their nationalist values, which were so worthy of emulation. How honorable they were not to leave the house when the Disgraceful Events broke out! What laudable principles they had, which had kept them from being swept up in lies or spreading false rumors themselves.

The guest was delighted by the praise lavished upon her—she spared no effort on her children, she added excitedly. She offered them constant guidance, so they would grow up knowing what was good for them, and she’d never feared they would
stray from what was proper. Bewildered, Tarek shook his head. He made his way back toward the head nurse. He asked her if she would let him finish some important paperwork in his office without interruption, and she told him she would divide his patients among his colleagues. She summoned Sabah, who had finished her breakfast, and told her to distribute the files equally among the other rooms.

Tarek returned to his leather chair, the presenter’s words still ringing in his ears. The country had been through tumultuous times in recent years, though he’d tried to keep his distance from it all. Just like everyone else, he’d heard about the Disgraceful Events when they occurred, or perhaps shortly after they began. But he hadn’t been there, didn’t know much about it, and had never been interested in finding out more. He’d heard passing comments from colleagues and acquaintances, neighbors, and fellow passengers on public transport, and had formed a vague image of the Events, hazy in the details but enough for him to participate when people brought it up in conversation. If asked, he would produce an opinion about how certain people—who were angry about being forced to follow the strict order the Gate had imposed soon after it appeared—had caused an unnecessary uproar. They’d rejected its new rules, and wanted to create a different, less authoritarian system, as Tarek had understood. They’d wanted a more lenient regime, one perhaps more tolerant, but, in Tarek’s personal opinion, it was also less stable.

The Events had begun when a small group of people held a protest on a street leading to the square. There weren’t many of them, but they boldly condemned the Gate’s injustice and tyranny. Their demands were lofty, the stuff of dreams, another doctor told Tarek during one of their night shifts together:
the protestors called for the dissolution of the Gate and everything it stood for. Before long, others joined the demonstrations, too. They chanted with passion, their numbers grew, and the protest started to move, but they were quickly confronted by the Gate’s newly formed security units. These accused the protesters of overstepping their bounds, and said they wouldn’t tolerate such insulting behavior. Then the forces attacked, to “return people to their senses,” beating them brutally. When the injured protestors scattered in retreat and ran into the side streets, they were accused of “spreading chaos,” and attempting to undermine the blessed security that had finally—thankfully—returned under the Gate’s rule.

The protesters quickly regrouped and met the security forces again, in a street battle that lasted for four days. More and more people fell. The Quell Force had been created to suppress this kind of riot and was better armed than any government agency before it. On the final day, it cleared the square effortlessly, wiping out everyone at the rally in just a few hours. In the end, the Gate and its guardians had prevailed, and they emerged stronger than before.

Tarek had never questioned the Gate’s definitive and crushing triumph. But he wasn’t altogether enthusiastic about it, either, particularly given the sorts of injuries he’d attended to in the emergency room. He’d seen firsthand the how the Gate had secured its victory, and he knew that such opposition wasn’t likely to build again.

The Gate had come into power many years earlier, in the wake of a popular uprising known as the First Storm. Tarek had never been one for history, but he remembered reading about these winds of change that had once swept the whole country. Ordinary people rose up, defeated the security forces
on the streets, overcame the old guard’s defenses, and nearly forced the ruler to surrender. But unfortunately—or perhaps it was fortunately?—things hadn’t continued as they’d begun. The movement fractured before it was able to overthrow the regime. Some people used the gains they’d made to secure their own position and power. Others continued the fight against the regime, leaving a path of destruction in their wake. Some armed themselves in anticipation of a counterattack. Still others were wary because the ruler might manage to remain in power, and slipped away to make their own private deals with him.

Soon the situation unraveled, and different groups who had taken part in the First Storm accused one another of betrayal. They were so entrenched in their own conflicts that they forgot about the ruler, who started to rally his inner circle and regained influence on the ground. While the people were distracted with their squabbles, the old guard regrouped and began to rebuild. Not long after this, the Gate appeared.

Tarek stood up from his chair. He felt drained, even though he’d barely accomplished anything since arriving that day. He scanned a page from the file in front of him again, for this patient whose problems he didn’t entirely remember, and then asked for permission to leave early, with an excuse about a cough he said had lingered for days.