Read The Quilter's Legacy Online
Authors: Jennifer Chiaverini
At the bottom of her stationery case, Eleanor found a few sheets of black-edged paper left over from when Fred's father passed away. She would observe the rituals out of respect for her mother. Mother would expect it.
She rehearsed her words in her head rather than waste paper and ink searching for the appropriate phrases. Mother was easily offended, and her present circumstances would render her even more sensitive. But after twenty unproductive minutes, Eleanor steeled herself and wrote the first words that came to mind, as quickly as she could.
May 14, 1927
Dear Mother,
The Bergstrom family is honored that you would consider coming to reside at Elm Creek Manor. You will have a comfortable room and bath of your own and all the privacy you wish. Your three grandchildren will be thrilled to finally meet you.
I have indicated the nearest train station on the enclosed schedule. Please let us know when you shall arrive so Fred and I may meet you.
I would be grateful if you would extend our sincere condolences to Cousin Claire's family.
Your Daughter,
Eleanor Lockwood Bergstrom
She read the letter over as the ink dried. Despite her attempts to sound cordial and welcoming, the words were as stiff and remote as anything her mother could have written.
The second letter was easier to write, for all Eleanor regretted the need to do so.
May 14, 1927
Dear Mrs. Davis,
Now it is my turn to instruct you to sit before reading on. I believe I have news that will give you one shock to equal all those you have sent me throughout the years.
My mother is coming to Elm Creek Manor, not merely to visit, but to live. I still cannot quite believe it, but she would not have asked unless she was in earnest, and I have her request written in her own hand.
She must vacate her current residence by the end of the month, so I suppose she will be among us by June. I tell you this not to warn you away but to prepare you. Promise me you will not cancel your visit on her account. You would not visit me at my parents' house because of her, but this is my home, not hers, and you will always be welcome in it. I will lock her in the attic if you cannot bear the sight of her, but please do not deny me the pleasure of your company. With my mother in the house, I am certain I will need you more than ever.
My children do not believe you are real and never will unless they finally meet the former nanny of
Your Affectionate Friend,
Eleanor
PS: If you simply cannot bring yourself to visit with my mother here, please consider coming before her arrival. We still have two weeks left in May. What more can I say to persuade you? Tell me and I will say it.
Eleanor sent off her letters, hoping for the best. When Mother arrived, everything would change. She would have to shield the children from Mother's cutting tongue. Claudia was lovely and usually obedient and thus might earn her grandmother's grudging approval, but Mother would shudder at Richard's noisy play and proclaim him incorrigible within minutes of meeting him. As for Sylvia, she stood little chance of earning her grandmother's favor. Bright and moody and perceptive, she was everything her grandmother disliked in a young lady, and her appearance was unlikely to help. Her hair always seemed a tangle no matter how often Eleanor instructed her to comb it, and she could not step out of doors without getting grass stains on her dress and dirt on her face.
She was seeing them through her mother's eyes, Eleanor realized, but those very things that her mother would find so offensive were what endeared them to Eleanor most.
All that week, she waited anxiously for replies to her letters. As before, as always, she found solace in quilting. Not in the way Elizabeth did, numbing her pain with the repetitive motions of the needle, but in the act of creation, in piecing together beauty and harmony from what had been left over and cast aside. Her art would not endure as long as painting or sculpture, but it would outlive her, and every time her descendants wrapped themselves in one of her quilts, she would be with them, embracing them.
Months ago, Fred and William had moved the quilt frame into the nursery so that she might quilt while she looked after the children. That was the excuse she made, but in truth, she did not want Fred to see the quilt she worked upon, a gift for their twentieth anniversary. Once she had not thought it possible she would live twenty years, and in a few weeks, she would have been married that long, more than half her life. It was a miracle, and she had Fred's love and God's grace to thank for it. She did not have the words to tell her Freddy what those twenty years had meant to her, so she stitched her love, her passion, her longing into the soft fabric, which was as yielding as they had learned to be with each other, and as strong, as closely woven together. She was the warp and he the weft of their married life, two souls who had chosen each other, not knowing the pattern their lives would form.
One morning she climbed the stairs to the nursery, resting every three steps before continuing upward. The children were surprised to see her; the girls ran to hug her, and Richard toddled after them, crowing with joy. Sylvia begged Eleanor to read them a story, which she did, then gathered them all into her arms for one big hug and asked them to play without her for a while. They were so glad to have her in the nursery again that they did not complain.
Eleanor removed the sheet she had placed over the quilt to keep off dust and sticky fingers. Two years in the making, the Elms and Lilacs quilt was truly her finest work. She had appliquéd each lilac petal and elm leaf by hand, using fabrics in the new lighter hues that were coming into fashion. She had quilted around the floral motifs in an echo pattern, as if the leaves and petals had fallen into a pond and sent out gentle ripples. In the open background fabric, she had quilted feathered plumes over a crosshatch. Every stitch and scrap of fabric she had put into that quilt had a meaning she knew Fred would understand. The elms came from Elm Creek Manor, of course, but everything else symbolized the cornerstone patio. As Freddy had given it to her, so would she share it with him.
Only the last corner of the quilt, a square less than a foot wide, remained unquilted. When it was complete, she would need to finish the scalloped edge with binding. A straight edge would take less time, but in such situations she preferred to sacrifice her deadline to her design.
She threaded a needle, slipped her thimble on her finger, and soon was engrossed in her work, the children's play a happy murmur in the background. Then Richard toddled over and demanded to be picked up. She laughed and settled him on her lap, but she put only two more stitches into the quilt before he began to squirm. “Richard, darling,” said Eleanor, sliding the heron-shaped scissors out of his reach, “this will work only if you hold still.”
“Let Mama quilt,” said Claudia. “Don't be naughty.”
“He's not being naughty,” said Sylvia. “He's just being a baby. That's what babies do.”
“But Mama needs to finish her quilt.”
“I need to play with Richard, too,” said Eleanor quickly, before the fight could escalate. Claudia could be as imperious as Abigail had once been, but Eleanor had known to ignore Abigail's bluster and let her have her way. Sylvia ought to do the same with her sister, but she would rather be right than give in to get along.
“We could take turns,” said Sylvia, brightening. “One of us could quilt while the other two play with Richard. This way he gets to play with everybody and the quilt still gets finished.”
Claudia regarded her with scorn. “You just want to work on Mama's quilt.”
“So what if I do? As long as Richard's happy and the work gets done—”
“That is the point, isn't it?” interrupted Eleanor. “I think it's a fine idea. I've already taken my turn, so Claudia, would you like to quilt next?” Claudia nodded, and Sylvia, who had already reached for the spool of thread, snatched her hand back. She shot Eleanor a look of protest, but Eleanor shook her head to remind Sylvia she did not reward bickering.
“Mama,
pay
,” beseeched Richard, tugging on her hand. “Pay bock.”
“Very well.” Eleanor allowed herself to be led away, with only one glance back at Claudia and her quilt. “Let's go play with your blocks.”
Sylvia joined her, helping Richard stack his wooden blocks and building towers for him to knock over. Sylvia threw herself into their play, pretending to have forgotten her sister, but after ten minutes she looked up at Eleanor with such woebegone hope that Eleanor agreed she could take her turn. Claudia relinquished the needle with only a small pout, and though she dragged her heels a little, she brought over one of Richard's favorite storybooks and offered to read it to him. He climbed into her lap, stuck a finger in his mouth, and stared at the pictures while Claudia told him the story. Eleanor sat back and watched, grateful for the chance to rest. The tranquil scene made her forget the time until Claudia set the book aside and reminded her Sylvia's turn was over.
Sylvia traded her place at the quilt frame for Richard's storybook, and she continued reading from where Claudia had left off. Eleanor studied her daughters' handiwork, pleased to discover that both girls had used their very best quilting. Claudia, especially, had far surpassed her usual efforts, so that her stitches were virtually indistinguishable from her sister's, even though Sylvia's work was ordinarily finer. Freddy wouldn't care even if their stitches were an inch long and uneven, of course; he would be prouder of a quilt bearing his daughters' imperfect stitches than a flawless quilt they had no part in making.
The climb upstairs to the nursery must have taxed her more than she had realized, for she was ready for a rest when Claudia's turn came again. Claudia took the needle eagerly and set herself to work with enthusiasm, the tip of her tongue visible in the corner of her mouth.
Sylvia's turn came once more, and then Eleanor's, and then Claudia's again. The girls no longer made faces when Sylvia took over for Claudia, and Richard was content, enjoying play time with all three of them. Eleanor was congratulating herself for resolving the latest in her daughters' long series of disagreements when Claudia suddenly shrilled, “What is she doing?”
“Hmm?” Eleanor looked up from Richard's wooden train in time to see Sylvia quickly set down the scissors. “What's wrong?”
Claudia stormed over to the quilt frame. Sylvia folded her arms over her work, but Claudia shoved her aside. “She's ruining my work,” cried Claudia. “She picked out all my stitches.”
Sylvia thrust out her lower lip. “I didn't ruin her work.”
“Liar! She did!” Claudia pointed at the quilt. “Come and see for yourself.”
Suddenly Eleanor felt too exhausted to do anything more than pull Richard onto her lap. “Sylvia, did you remove Claudia's stitches from the quilt?”
“Only the bad ones,” said Sylvia. She glared at her sister. “I can't help it that most of them were bad.”
Claudia shrieked and Sylvia shouted back. Eleanor closed her eyes and kissed the top of Richard's head. “Stop it.” She covered the baby's ears and raised her voice. “Girls! Stop it. Sylvia, that was a very naughty thing to do—”
“But it's a present for Daddy,” said Sylvia, chin trembling. “It should be just right.”
“My quilting is just as good as yours,” said Claudia.
“Now who's the liar?”
“Sylvia,” said Eleanor, stern. “What you did was wrong, and being saucy about it only makes matters worse. Apologize to your sister, and go to your room.”
Sylvia shot her a look of shame and frustration before mumbling something that might have been an apology and fleeing from the nursery. Eleanor sighed and sank back into her chair, patting Richard to soothe him, although he seemed not half as troubled as she.
The room fell silent. Eleanor closed her eyes and felt weariness overtake her. She had almost fallen asleep when she heard Claudia say, “I'm finished now. Do you want a turn?”
“No, thank you, darling.”
She heard Claudia's chair scrape the floor and soft footsteps. Then, near her ear, Claudia whispered, “Richard's asleep.”
Eleanor nodded. Even with her eyes closed she had known, not only by the sound of his breathing, but because only when asleep did her son hold still for so long.
“Shall I take him downstairs to his crib?”
“Would you, please?” Eleanor opened her eyes and allowed Claudia to take him. “Be careful on the stairs.”
“I will.” Claudia regarded her curiously. “Mama, are you all right?”
Eleanor smiled. “I'm just tired.”
“Why don't you go to bed and take a nap? I'll get Richard if he cries.”
She was tempted, but the thought of all those stairs was too daunting. “I think I'll just rest here for a moment and then quilt some more.”
Claudia looked dubious, but she nodded and carried Richard away, sleeping on her shoulder.
When the door closed behind them, Eleanor curled up on the sofa, pulled an old scrap quilt over herself, and drifted off to sleep.