The Red Door (The Door Series Book 1) (5 page)

“No.” Mitch looked down at me as he said it. His face relaxed and gave nothing away.

“Mitch, we agreed to…”

“No, Adam.” He looked over at Adam, and I could see his jaw tighten.

“Yes. If it doesn’t work for you, I’ll keep her under…”

“I said no. She is mine and goes by my rules.” His jaw was beginning to tick, and I looked over to see Adam shake his head and look away.

“Umm…so it isn’t going to be a walk through?” I asked, trying to read the non-communication going on between them and failing.

“No, Aurora, if that is what you thought, then I’m sorry. If you wanted to be a voyeur, we could put you in the surveillance room and leave you there. You’ll not know what you like until you can experience it. You need to feel the pain to know your limits. Feel the ropes to give up control. Be blindfolded to fully understand what it means to trust. We’ll take it slow, but you’ll be more than a pretty floor ornament.” Mitch was looking at me with a tenderness that I didn’t know what to do with. I was scared out of my mind.

I was going to lose my virginity, even if he didn’t know, and it would probably be to him.

“Aurora, calm down, you’re shaking. What are you scared of? You said you wanted this. Both Adam and I saw you respond to the picture of Holly. Have you changed your mind? Do you not want to join the club after all? You need to be completely sure.” When I stared at him, he added, “This is part of it. You have to trust us. Be open and honest.”

I filled out the paperwork, and it asked about the age I had lost my virginity, but that part was optional. I filled out my soft and hard limits, putting a few “yes,” some definite “no,” and a whole lot of “unsure”.

My eyes stung as I wondered how I could say I didn’t know what I liked. I hadn’t even kissed a guy in over four years. Adam was right; I was uptight.

“Please, trust us. Trust me and let me know what you are afraid of.” Mitch stepped closer, his body against mine, and his rough hand touched my face as I looked up in his eyes. He had the kindest brown eyes I have ever seen, and they relaxed me.

“I don’t know what I’m afraid of, Sir. I...I haven’t done this b...b...before.”

“I know that, sweetheart. I am your guide. I’ll show you around, and you can tell me about your experience.” He rubbed his hard shaft against me, pulling me tighter against him. “I have not had or wanted a sub of my own, ever. I have worked with several, but not one belonging to me. When I saw you tonight, my first thought was mine. I want you. I don’t know what it is, but I am claiming you. It might be that you look so pure and innocent that I want to be the one to dirty you up or I might really want to own your ass. But while you’re in this club, you answer to me. While you learn about the club, we can learn about each other and see if we will work together. Does that sound good? Holly will be here with Adam, and we can watch them do a scene. Alex can help out front so I can be with you. After all that, we will see what we should try tonight, if there should be an open scene or a private one. Hmm… how is that, my Aurora?”

And like that, I knew to trust him meant with everything, even my virginity. Weirdly, I wanted it to be him to have it. I wanted someone who knew how to please and take care of a woman for my first time. I figured Mitch’s skills went far beyond most other men. I knew him for close to forty minutes, and I wanted to give him everything. I looked over to Adam and then Alex and back up to Mitch.

“Sir, can I speak to you? Only you? Please, Sir.”

“Aurora, if we all are going to help you, we all need to know whatever you have to say.”

I looked over to Alex. He didn’t say this in a reassuring way. He had a pissed off look on his face, and he was staring down Mitch. Even still, it was Alex. Anytime he spoke, it made my heart beat faster.

“It’s that, well, it’s kind of personal.”

Three blank faces stared back at me. I knew from the way I responded I could talk about this with Mitch and apparently Alex, too, but Adam was older and my father’s friend. He had even done scenes with my mother. I could not talk about this with him. I would leave if they tried to make me.

Okay, honesty. I could do this. I stepped back from Mitch, only to be pulled back against him. I pulled again and got nowhere. I turned in his arms and faced Adam.

“Adam, you’re my friend, but I can’t discuss this in front of you. You were too close with my dad and mom, and I can’t go there. I’m sorry.”

“Thank God. It’s fine. Trust me. This has been hard on me, too. I’ve been feeling like a dirty old man sitting over there listening to you talk but wanting to kick their asses for touching you. I will say that of your parents’ friends in this club, Holly, me, and Mitch’s dad are all who comes in anymore, and if more show up, I’ll let you know. Will that make you feel more at ease? Plus, I’ll be there for you, no matter what, in this club or out.”

I walked to Adam and gave him a big hug. “Thank you. I do trust you and value your protection. I would like to talk with you and Holly later, if I can.”

“Anytime Aurora, and you are always welcome at our house. Mason will want to see her Aunty Ari at Sunday dinner I’m sure.” He kissed my cheek and left me with two good-looking men and a huge problem.

I didn’t know how to start this conversation but knew what needed to be said. It was almost time for the club to open its doors, and it had to be dealt with.

Dealt with, a lovely way to view something that was supposed to be such a memorable occasion. Then again, I doubted that I would forget this anytime soon.

I looked down at my sexy hot pink heels. I had on a black halter dress that looked somewhat modest from the front, going down to the knee, but and was completely backless and nearly showed the crack of my ass and a little side boob. Besides the pink heels and the dress, I had on my wet, pink thong. What could I say, I liked pink. It made me feel girly and was my armor. Peeking through my eyelashes, I decided I had waited long enough. I took a final glance at Holly’s picture and gained what strength I could from it before looking up at Mitch. I knew I would never get this out facing Alex.

“The thing is I don’t know what I like...because that is uncharted territory.” I glanced off quickly after I said it so I wouldn’t have to see how angry his face looked. I wondered how they would reply. If they would kick me out, yell at me, tell me I was stupid for coming to the club in my condition. So I waited. And waited. And waited. Finally, I looked up to see two men, Alex had moved to stand by Mitch, looking at me like I was a prime cut of Kobe beef, and they were starved men.

“Umm, please say something.”

“You’re a virgin? Is that what you meant?” This cracked whisper came from Alex as he stepped toward me and away from Mitch, who was still standing there looking like he was going into shock.

I looked back down at my shoes. “Yes, I am. So you see, I don’t know what I like. I do know I want to feel the trust, love, and comfort that my parents had in their relationship, that Adam and Holly have in theirs. I also know that when I look at this picture of Holly I want to know what that feels like, and when Sir Mitch asks me for something, I can’t deny him.” I glanced up at Mitch to see him suck in a breath of air. “And also, just now to you, Sir Alex. I...I’ve had dreams of being spanked then taken hard while my hands are held down.” I let out a huge amount of air that I had inhaled and decided to let it all go, to be completely honest. “I’ve had to control every area of my life these last four years. I am tired and want someone, someone I can trust, to step in and take the weight off my shoulders. I want someone to see to me and my needs. Someone willing to take them from me without me having to ask.” I shook my head and looked off. “God, that makes me sound like a wimp.”

“No, you sound human, my Aurora. And this, you being a virgin is no problem. It is a gift, one to cherish and one either of us would love to receive.” Ugh, I hated that it had become an issue. A gift. Yeah right, it was just a hindrance.

“I want it done with so I can move on and get to where I want to be. I trust both of you. Can you flip a coin and let us get it done?” I heard Mitch start chuckling, then Alex joined in. I looked up, incredulous of them laughing at me.

“Sweetheart, we are not laughing at you. First off, you don’t trust us. You can’t, not yet. It’s too soon, and as for us laughing, we both want to have that gift so bad. I don’t think you realize the prize you are.”

“So men do covet a girl’s virginity?” I saw them look at each other hard. Neither replying to my question nor looking away from the other. Finally Alex shook his head before looking away.

“Yes, some men do, but that is not what we are talking about. You, with your innocence, not your physical innocence, but your mental innocence, are a prize. The man who gets you will get a gift, and I’m not talking about your virginity, but your submissiveness.” I looked between Mitch and Alex.

“Neither of you want a relationship like Adam and Holly? You don’t want the commitment?”

“It’s not that. Most everyone here wants a relationship with a sub like you described, us included, but you have to find the Dom who will suit your needs and you his. If I paired you with a Dom who liked breath play, would you like that?”

“I don’t know what breath play is.”

“It is where a Dom restricts your breathing to increase your sexual stimulation.”

“No, I wouldn’t like that.” What crazy person would?

“See, it wouldn’t be a good pair. What about whips? Floggers?”

“I don’t know. I would like to build up to there and see.” I felt desire shoot through me as I thought of exposing myself to receive either of those.

“That is something that Alex likes and is good at. Me? I like to use my hand, and I love some good rope play.” He held up his huge paw-like hand. “I would like to see you tied down and your ass reddened with my hand print. How does that sound? Would you like that, my Aurora?”

“Yes,” I barely whispered because I did want that, and now that he had mentioned it, I wanted it more than anything.

“Look at me, my pet.” I looked up and into his brown eyes. “Yes, what?”

“Yes, Sir,” I whispered.

“Love hearing you call me Sir. Now, both Alex and I are here. You don’t care which one of us it is? I find that hard to believe. I thought all girls grew up dreaming of the man they would marry and give everything over to.”

“No, really I just want it done.” I had to force myself not to look over to Alex.

“Are you sure? I know you said flip a coin, but this is something that should be planned out in advance. Dinner, roses, candles, and satin sheets.”

“You and satin sheets.” I watched as Alex shook his head. “Angel, he’s right. This shouldn’t be something you want to get over with. You are treating it like it’s an obstacle you need to hurdle to get to the finish line. It’s not. This is important and whomever does it needs to see it as that. Would I like it? No. I’ve never had a virgin and never want one. There’s too much pressure to make it as good and painless as possible.” I felt a little disappointment from his refusal but fought it off.

“If you want to continue, even without satin sheets, we can make it as special as possible. I can assure you that it will not be perfect and will unfortunately be painful as Alex said, but I will do my best to make it memorable.”

“I’d like to,” I whispered back to Mitch.

“Good girl. Sir Alex is going to lock the door, and you’re going to step out of your panties. Then turn and put your hands flat on my desk.”

I jerked. Did that mean Alex was staying? He did say ‘we can make it as special as possible’.

“Oh, yes, my Ari, just because you are a virgin doesn’t mean that we are going to shed our ‘Dom’ coats and treat you with kid gloves. You are in a BDSM Club. Now, either remove your panties and put your hands on the desk or walk out the door, your choice sweetheart.”

I slowly pulled off my embarrassingly wet panties and before I could do anything with them, Alex was back from locking the door. He grabbed them, brought them to his nose, and inhaled. I froze watching him. I knew I was supposed to be facing the desk, but Alex was sniffing my panties for Christ’s sake! Never in a million years would I have thought I would see that.

“You smell sweet, like spiced peaches. I can’t wait to bury my tongue in your pussy.” I stared at Alex not knowing if or how to respond. He reached out and touched my face. I leaned into his hand as he brought his lips closer. He kissed my forehead, my eyes, my nose, and finally reached my lips. He rubbed around my lips at first, teasing me before he dove in as I let out a sigh. He consumed me, roughly grabbing the hair at the back of my head with the hand that was on my face as the one holding my panties pulled my hips against him. I could feel all of him, and I knew he was enjoying this. It was all I could do to grab hold and go for the ride. He slowly released my lips and made his way to my ear. “You are supposed to have your hands flat on the desk facing the other way.”

“Hmm.” I tried to bring my mouth back to his, but he turned me and placed my hands on the desk. He walked around to the other side and placed his hands on top of mine and smiled down at me.