The Right Bride? (25 page)

You’re going to experience it very soon, thought Rafe. With me. What had started here, on an island beach, could only be continued. He took her by the hand and side by side they walked back to the car.

There were four vehicles left in the lot. A family was just getting into a red SUV, parents and a little boy.

Karyn’s eyes widened in horror. She tried to duck behind
Rafe, but she was too late. The boy was waving at her. “Hey, Mum,” he yelled, “there’s Karyn!”

The woman’s head swiveled around. “Karyn,” she called, and after the smallest of hesitations walked over to them, followed by her husband and the little boy. “How nice to see you. Wasn’t the sunset beautiful?”

Passionately wishing they’d met anyone else at the beach but this particular family, Karyn quickly made the introductions. “Sheila and Duncan Harvey, and their son, Donny. This is Rafe Holden, who’s visiting from England.”

If Duncan recognized the name, he was discreet enough not to mention it. He made some commonplace remark to Rafe as Donny ran over to Karyn, grabbing her by the skirt. She ruffled his tangled red curls; he smelled of salt water and seaweed. They all chatted for a few minutes, then Duncan said heartily, “We’d better get this fella back home, it’s past his bedtime. Nice to have met you, Rafe. Karyn, we’ll see you around.”

Sheila gave Karyn a brief, hard hug. Then Karyn got into Rafe’s car as fast as she could and busied herself fastening her seat belt. Rafe got in, too. His intuition operating in high gear, he said casually, “The little guy, Donny—he’s got a crush on you?”

She bit her lip. “You could say so.”

He put his hand on her wrist. “What’s up, Karyn? There was something off-key about all that.”

Dark hair feathered his forearm; she felt that inner shiver he could arouse in her simply by existing. If he’d had her investigated, he could do the same for Steve; she wouldn’t put it past him. She said tonelessly, “My husband, Steve, saved Donny’s life when the boy fell through the ice on the river near their house. Steve saw what was happening through the window—we were neighbors of the Harveys.
But after he’d lifted Donny onto the thicker ice, the current got hold of Steve and pulled him under the ice. They found his body two days later.”

Whatever Rafe had expected, it hadn’t been this. “I’m so sorry,” he said. “No wonder Sheila hugged you—and no wonder it’s difficult to see them. They must feel so incredibly grateful, yet horribly guilty at the same time. I understand perfectly why you sold the house you and Steve were living in.”

Karyn made an indeterminate noise. She was sure it hadn’t occurred to Steve that he might drown should he try and rescue a small boy from the river; Steve had never believed in his own mortality. However, the fact that he’d died in the act of saving a little boy’s life still filled her with complex and conflicting emotions. She’d been freed from the terrible prison her marriage had become, no question of that; yet his last action couldn’t help but redeem him in her eyes. It also made her feel unutterably sad.

How could she possibly explain all this to Rafe? She scarcely understood it herself. Karyn was very quiet all the way back; and Rafe was busy with his own thoughts. So Steve had been a hero, who’d lost his life saving a small boy from drowning. How could Rafe possibly fault that? Yet he was jealous of a dead man.

Despicable, he thought. What kind of lowlife are you?

Doing his best to concentrate on the road, Rafe found himself for the second time wondering whether Karyn had directed him to take an unnecessary detour near Heddingley; he had an excellent sense of direction. He said nothing. After he’d parked in her driveway, he got out of the car and lifted the hamper from the trunk. “Have the leftovers for lunch tomorrow, Karyn.”

She took the hamper from him, holding it like a shield in front of her. “Good night,” she said awkwardly.

“I’ll pick you up tomorrow at six, does that give you enough time?”

She should say no. End this now. Everything rational within her told her to do just that. “Plenty of time,” she said, turned on her heel and hurried into the house.

Rafe waited until she was indoors before driving back to his hotel in the city. He hadn’t actually lied this evening about his reasons for seeking Karyn out; just prevaricated. His father, Reginald, was a demon bridge player who early on had taught Rafe one rule: play your cards close to your chest. It was a rule that had often stood Rafe in good stead.

With Karyn, was he playing the game of his life, with passion as the wild card? Would he win or lose?

Did his happiness depend on the answer?

As soon as she got in the house, Karyn phoned her best friend, Liz Gaudet, who managed to combine being a wife, a nurse and a mother without losing either her sanity or her warmth. “Liz? This is an emergency. I’ve been invited for dinner somewhere really fancy tomorrow night. What will I wear?”

“Wow. Where? Who with?”

Karyn swallowed. “I don’t know where. I’ll be with Rafe Holden—I told you about him. My sister Fiona’s friend.”

“The filthy rich Rafe Holden?”

“Who’s used to sophisticated jet-setters in designer labels and makeup by Elizabeth Arden.”

“He hasn’t asked them out for dinner. He’s asked you. Okay, let’s think.”

“I had lots of evening clothes when I was married be
cause Steve and I used to go to insurance bashes. But I got rid of them all and I haven’t needed any since.”

“Smart of you to turf them,” said Liz; she’d made no secret of her dislike for Karyn’s husband. “How long’s your lunch hour tomorrow?”

“Forty-five minutes max.”

“So that’s out. I’ve got that wonderful sea-green dress I bought before Jared was born and that I’ve never been able to get into. It’d fit you.” Liz sighed histrionically. “You’re so slim, just like I used to be.”

“It’s not too dressy?”

“For Rafe Holden? No way. Can you come over now? And, Karyn, I can’t tell you how happy I am that you’re going out on a real date. The guy’s a hunk—I’ve seen pictures of him. Just about made me salivate and I love my darling Pierre with all my heart.”

Panic flickering in her chest, Karyn rang off. An hour and a half later, she was home again. She hung the dress in her closet, taking a moment to admire it first. Liz had put the hem up an inch, but otherwise it had fit Karyn perfectly. She could wear the stiletto heels she’d bought on sale in town a couple of months ago because they made her ankles look so impossibly slim. Her mother had left her a pair of delicate crystal earrings that would be perfect with the dress; and in her precious forty-five-minute lunchbreak tomorrow she’d go to the drugstore for new eyeshadow and mascara.

And a new toothbrush?

She fingered the thin straps of Liz’s dress. What was she doing, getting all dolled up to go out for dinner with a man wealthy beyond her imagining and so sexy he made her melt?

Playing with fire, for sure.

But hadn’t Steve, in two years of marriage, crushed her
spirit of adventure? Dammit, she was going somewhere very special with an escort most women would die for, and she was going to have a good time. So what if she didn’t have a clue exactly where they were going? So what if the next day she was back to eating macaroni and wearing work boots?

It’d be worth it, she thought, and went to have a shower.

Rafe was up early the next day. After breakfast he contacted his head office, swiftly delegating a job he’d planned to look after himself. He spent the rest of the morning working on his laptop. That afternoon, he drove through Heddingley and took the most direct route to Stanhope. Searching from side to side, he soon saw what he’d suspected he’d find: the Harveys’ red SUV parked outside a split-level house. Their name was printed on the mail box. He drew up beside an elderly woman determinedly speedwalking along the shoulder of the road. “Excuse me? Can you tell me if Steven Patterson used to live around here?”

If she thought it odd that he was inquiring about a dead man, she was puffing too hard to question him. “In the Cape Cod next to the Harveys,” she gasped. “His widow—such a sweet girl—sold it very soon after he died and moved into Heddingley.”

“Thanks,” Rafe said with his best smile. “You’re setting a great pace.”

“Why are calories so easy to put on and so hard to get off? If you can explain that to me, young man, you’ll go far.”

Saluting her, Rafe pulled a U-turn and drove back toward Heddingley. Yesterday evening, Karyn had twice avoided passing Steve’s house. Plus, he thought with a catch at his heart, the river that wound so placidly behind it.

He then drove past the veterinary clinic. He could have
gone in; in a place this size, Karyn’s boss would undoubtedly have known Karyn’s husband. Or he could have indulged in gossip at the local supermarket.

He didn’t want to do either one. He wanted Karyn to tell him about her marriage, and the grief that had followed Steve’s tragic death.

He’d phone the clinic, though, when he got back to his hotel, and ask to speak to Karyn’s boss. Planning ahead was a strategy that had never done him any harm.

Even if Karyn did tell him about Steve tonight, he still had to bide his time, building a relationship step by step. No sudden moves. His passionate need of her leashed.

She was worth waiting for. With every moment he spent in her company, Rafe was more and more convinced that in some way that still eluded him, she was important to him.

Wasn’t that why he was here?

K
ARYN
was ready at quarter to six. As ready as she’d ever be. She started pacing up and down her bedroom, growing more and more nervous by the second. More and more convinced that what she’d called playing with fire was nothing but insanity.

Rafe Holden wasn’t for her. In bed or out.

In all likelihood she was risking a repeat of the terrible mistake she’d made with Steve, by getting in over her head with a man she knew virtually nothing about. Was she out of her mind?

At three minutes to six, the doorbell rang. She jumped as though someone had shot off a gun in her ear, made an unnecessary adjustment to the neckline of her dress and walked carefully downstairs in her high heels.

But two steps from the bottom, Karyn stopped. She wasn’t walking toward a firing squad. She was going out to dinner with Rafe Holden. Any number of women would vaccinate a thousand sheep for the privilege. So was she going to behave like a terrified ewe?

No way.

She straightened her shoulders, pasted a brilliant smile on her lips and opened the door.

“My God,” said Rafe.

Her dress was a brief shimmer of sea-green over impossibly long legs. Her shoulders and arms were bare, her cleavage…don’t go there, Rafe. At her lobes, tiny earrings shot flashes of colored fire; her lips were luscious curves of iridescent pink.

Uncertainty flickered across her face. “Too much eyeshadow? Lipstick on my teeth?”

“You’re perfect,” he said unsteadily. “The most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen.”

Her smile was more natural. “Oh, sure.”

“I’m telling you the truth,” Rafe said in a raw voice.

He meant it. Karyn’s jaw dropped. “It’s only my friend Liz’s dress and makeup from the Heddingley drugstore.”

“I don’t care what it is, you take my breath away—and that’s the truth, too.”

Hadn’t he done the same to her? Her cheeks flushing a bright pink that had nothing to do with makeup, Karyn said, “You don’t look too bad yourself. Heck, who am I kidding? You’re gorgeous, you’re sexy, you look good enough to eat.”

“Any time,” Rafe said.

Her flush deepened. His light gray suit was impeccably tailored; his blue shirt was teamed with an elegant silk tie. He could have graced the pages of any glossy magazine. Yet beneath his highly civilized garments, she was all too aware of his sheer physicality: his muscular body, broad-shouldered and narrow-hipped; his every move with a predator’s grace and sleek economy.

Danger, her brain screamed.

Shut up, she thought in an intoxicating surge of rebellion. I’ve earned a night out. The last three years have been hell on wheels and why shouldn’t I have a few hours of fun? She fluttered her mascaraed lashes at him. “Is the restaurant—wherever it is—ready for us?”

“It might be. I’m not sure I am.”

“I’m a small town girl, Rafe. Nothing fancy. Certainly not what you’re used to.”

Not like Celine, he thought. “Besides being so beautiful you knock my socks off, you’re real, Karyn,” he said force
fully. “You’ve got integrity and courage. If you made a promise, you’d do your best to keep it. Don’t ask me how I know that, I just do.”

“Well, of course I would,” she said, slightly offended that he could even question that.

His voice deepened. “If I kiss you, will I wreck that shiny lipstick?”

“According to the label, it’s kissproof.”

“Why don’t we put it to the test?”

Her breath caught in her throat. She closed her eyes, feeling his breath warm on her cheek, then the first tantalizing sweep of his mouth over hers. As her lips parted to the dart of his tongue, nothing could have stopped her low purr of pleasure. She locked her arms around his neck, lipstick and their destination dropping from her mind as he tasted and sought and explored.

He was clasping her by the hips, pressing her to his body; she could be in no doubt that he wanted her. In a thrill of pride, she allowed her own needs to surface, hot and urgent. Was this the adventure she craved? All her doubts and fears eclipsed in Rafe’s arms?

It was Rafe who pulled back. With a hand whose tremor he couldn’t quite disguise, he brushed a gleaming tendril of hair back from her cheek; then, briefly, buried his face in the sweet-scented curve of her shoulder. Bide your time, Rafe. Take it slow.

Easy enough to say, not so easy to do after a kiss that had made nonsense of his own counsel. “We’d better go,” he muttered, “or we won’t be going anywhere.”

“I have to relay every detail of the menu to Liz,” Karyn said faintly. “She’d never forgive me if I only took this dress up to bed with you.”

“A terrible waste,” he said with a wry grin. “Is that your shawl? It could turn cool later on.”

As she nodded, he picked up a white shawl woven from the finest of wool and threaded with silver. He draped it around her shoulders, his fingers brushing the smooth ivory of her skin. Bide your time, don’t rush and keep your cards close to your chest, he thought crazily. All he had to do was follow his own advice.

All? It sounded like one hell of a lot.

Outside her house a shiny black limousine was parked, a uniformed chauffeur at the wheel. Karyn blinked. “Are you trying to impress me? Because if you are, it’s working.”

“We only go this way once.”

Rafe helped her into the back seat, trying not to stare at her slim legs in their glistening hose. Then he got in the other side. On the seat between them was a great sheaf of pink roses. Karyn lifted them, breathing deep of their fragrance. “Are those for me?”

Her face was rapt, the voluptuous softness of her lips almost more than he could bear. He said clumsily, “If you want them.”

“How could I not? They’re gorgeous!”

She gave him a radiant smile, her eyes sparkling like the crystals at her lobes. Any sensible thoughts fled from Rafe’s brain. “How was your day?” he asked with a singular lack of originality.

She began describing the various cats, dogs and pigs that she’d seen since eight o’clock that morning, and gradually he relaxed. When the limo came to a halt, Karyn looked out. “We’re at the airport,” she said, puzzled.

“That’s my private jet over there.”

A shadow crossed her face. “Where are we going, Rafe?”

“An hour’s flight, to a resort I own in Maine. I’ll have you home in time for work tomorrow.”

Trust me.
That was the message. Perhaps she could trust him; it was herself she was worried about. Rafe added, “You’ll like it there, I promise.”

She said with a frown that charmed him, “You’re really very rich, aren’t you?”

“Very.”

“How many resorts do you own?”

“A couple of hundred.”

“And how many houses?”

She looked as suspicious as though owning foreign property was a criminal activity. He said meekly, “The stone house in Droverton, a penthouse in London and the cottage in the Hebrides. A ski chalet in St. Moritz. And a lovely open bungalow in the Caicos Islands. But I spend as much time as I can at Stoneriggs, and I often loan the others out to friends.”

“We’ve got nothing in common!”

“Karyn,” Rafe said with sudden authority, “we’re not getting into any heavy-duty discussions before dinner. If you leave money out of the equation, we’ve got a whole lot in common. The pilot’s waiting for us—let’s go.”

The sleek Learjet delighted Karyn with its deep leather seats, kitchenette and fully appointed bathroom. Laying her roses carefully on an empty seat, she put her small overnight bag in the overhead bin and settled down to enjoy herself.

The resort was on an emerald-green island off the coast of Maine, private yachts and cabin cruisers dotting a sea smooth as glass. As the jet descended, Rafe said, “I’ve designed this place as a conference centre for executives. So there’s a helicopter pad, meeting rooms with state-of-the-art technology and a sportsclub. You can see the marina from the air. There’s also an Olympic-size pool in the solarium.”

Karyn grinned. “I’d find it awfully difficult to concentrate on business.”

“It’s been a good investment,” Rafe said casually, as the jet touched down and taxied along the runway, coming to a halt near a manicured golf course. Another limo was waiting for them on the tarmac. They drove along a winding road edged with fir trees and silver birch, past chalets tucked among the trees, and gleaming sand beaches interspersed with great chunks of granite. The main lodge, built Adirondack-style out of stone and cedar, took Karyn’s breath away. But the limo kept going, until they reached a secluded cedar bungalow surrounded on three sides by magnificent copper beeches, dense shrubbery and gardens scented with lilies, honeysuckle and roses. The other side was open to the ocean and a curve of pale sand.

As they got out, Rafe said easily, “There are three bedrooms, choose whichever one you want. Then we’ll go for dinner at the lodge.”

Each bedroom had its own balcony, a fireplace, and a marble bathroom with a whirlpool tub and piles of luxuriously thick towels. In the living room, paneled in bleached pine, hand-woven rugs were scattered over the hardwood floor; modernistic glass sculptures framed a stone hearth. Karyn had run out of superlatives; she had no idea how she was going to describe all this to Liz. Perhaps it would be easier to tell Fiona, who was used to this kind of luxury.

Feeling as though she was in a dream, she walked with Rafe to the lodge under a sky blazoned with gold-flecked clouds. As they were greeted in the vaulted foyer with its expanse of windows overlooking the surf, Rafe glanced sideways at his companion. She looked as composed as though she visited resorts like this every day of the week, he thought with a quiver of amusement. After they’d been seated at their table and left with the menus, Rafe said
softly, “You’re not to even look at the prices, Karyn, have you got that?”

Trying not to gape at the high timbered ceiling, priceless carpets and even more priceless view, Karyn picked up the menu and opened the embossed leather cover. “I’m hungry enough to reduce you to penury,” she smiled. Then, in spite of herself, her eyes widened in shock. “Rafe—it’ll be bankruptcy.”

“I own the place, remember? Order whatever you want.”

This time her smile was pure mischief. “We won’t end up washing dishes?”

“Not tonight.”

She gave a sigh of pleasure. “How am I ever going to decide?”

Celine, he remembered, had taken for granted everything he’d given her. But Karyn wouldn’t. Any woman capable of medicating a sick bull wasn’t going to be blasé about the finest gourmet cuisine.

Was he falling in love with her?

He began discussing the appetizers, steering away from a question he wasn’t ready to answer. When their wine was poured, he raised his glass. “Shall we toast Fiona and John?”

“To their happiness,” Karyn said, sudden tears shimmering in her eyes. “I really miss her…and I’m dying to meet John.”

“You can stay at Stoneriggs any time you like. Use it as a base.”

Her lashes flickered. It was on the tip of her tongue to say he was taking a lot for granted; but hadn’t he warned her against heavy-duty discussions? Savoring the chardonnay on her tongue, she exclaimed, “I’ve never tasted anything so wonderful—who else can we toast?”

He laughed. “Your friend Liz?”

“Absolutely. To Liz and Pierre.”

He clinked his glass with hers. “I’m so happy to be here with you, Karyn.”

The words had come out before he could censor them. Her blue eyes, deep and unreadable, flicked to his and then away. “I’ll take that as a compliment to my borrowed dress.”

It was, very subtly, a brush-off. Rafe felt the stirrings of anger, and stamped them down. A confrontation was no doubt in the offing. But he had no intention of it taking place here. “So you should,” he said easily. “Why don’t we toast my parents next? To Joan and Reginald—who are as madly in love now as they were when they got married.”

She echoed him, the wine sliding down her throat. She didn’t want to discuss the institution of marriage as embodied in his parents. “They run the castle, don’t they?”

“In their eccentric way, yes.” He began describing Holden Castle as it was many years ago and now, moving to his mother’s pack of irresponsible dogs and his father’s obsession with contract bridge. His face was lit with an affection that touched her in spite of herself. How could she not be drawn to a man who so unselfconsciously loved his wacky-sounding parents?

As the wine sank in the bottle, she began to talk about her own parents, her father’s long battle with heart disease and the hardships that had brought to the family; her mother’s steadfast support of husband and daughter. “I buried myself in my books at university—how could I not when she’d given up so much to send me there?” she said, taking her first mouthful of a leafy green salad lightly tossed with a cranberry vinaigrette. “Mmm…luscious.”

“They use local ingredients as much as possible.” Rafe asked another question, drawing her out about her child
hood and adolescence. A shrimp terrine, scallops from the bay with julienned garden vegetables, and a maple syrup mousse followed, each accompanied by the appropriate wine. But even then, Karyn’s tongue didn’t loosen in one particular area: when he mentioned Steve’s name once or twice, she swiftly changed the subject.

His hope that she’d share some of the details of her marriage wasn’t panning out. He could have been more direct, insisting on answers to specific questions. But he wasn’t ready to be quite so unsubtle.

As she drained her espresso, Karyn gave a sigh of repletion. “That was the best meal I’ve eaten in my entire life,” she said. “Thank you, Rafe.”

“My pleasure,” he said, the simple words invested with new meaning. “Want to wander around the grounds for a while before we head back? Or dance on the patio?”

“I used to love to dance,” she said wistfully. Steve had been a technically perfect dancer; but the music had never entered his soul, and she’d soon learned not to take other partners. Briefly a memory of his savage temper rippled along her nerves; she shivered, her eyes downcast.

“Are you cold?”

“Too much wine,” she said with a smile that didn’t quite reach her eyes.

“Let’s go dance,” Rafe said. All evening he’d had the sense that someone else was sitting at the table with them: a man called Steve, who’d died a hero. It was a feeling he could do without, he thought, getting to his feet and offering her his arm.