The Sign of Seven Trilogy (107 page)

“Except you're here, and not wherever else. Sorry.” She waved a hand when his eyes narrowed in warning. “Sorry.”

“I make up my own mind, and I expect other people to do the same. That's what I'm saying.” And all at once, he knew exactly what he was saying.

“I'm not here with you because of some grand design dictated before either of us were born. I don't feel what I feel for you because somebody, or something, decided it would be for the greater good for me to feel it. What's inside me is mine, Cybil, and it's in there because of the way you are, the way you sound, the way you smell, you look, you think. It wasn't what I was after, it's not what I was looking for, but there it is.”

She stood very still while the candlelight played gold over the dark velvet of her eyes. “Are you trying to tell me you're in love with me?”

“Would you just be quiet and let me manage this on my own?”

She walked to him. “Let me put it this way. Why don't you lay your cards on the table?”

He'd had worse hands, he supposed, and walked away a winner. “I'm in love with you, and I'm almost through being annoyed about it.”

Her smile bloomed, beautifully. “That's interesting. I'm in love with you, and I'm almost through being surprised by it.”

“That is interesting.” He took her face in his hands, said her name once. His lips brushed hers, softly at first, like a wish. Then the kiss deepened. And as her arms hooked around him, there was the warmth, and the
rightness
of her. Of them. Home, he thought, wasn't always a place. Sometimes, home was a woman.

“If things were different,” he began, then tightened his grip when she shook her head. “Hear me out. If things were different, or I get really lucky, would you stick with me?”

“Stick with you?” She tipped her head back to study him. “You're having a hard time with your words tonight. Are you asking me if I'd marry you?”

Obviously thrown off, he drew back a little. “I wasn't. I was thinking of something less . . . formal. Being together. Traveling, because it's what we both do. Maybe having a base. You've got one already in New York and that could work for me. Or somewhere else. I don't think we need . . .”

He wanted to be with her, to have her not just in his life, but
of
his life. Wasn't marriage putting the chips on the line and letting them ride?

“On the other hand,” he thought out loud, “what the hell, it's probably not going to be an issue. If I get really lucky, do you want to marry me?”

“Yes, I do. Which probably surprises me as much as it does you. But yes, I do. And I'd like to travel with you—and have you travel with me. I'd like to have a base together, maybe a couple of them. I think we'd be good at it. We'd be good together. Really good.”

“Then that's a deal.”

“Not yet.” She closed her eyes. “You need to know something first. And that I won't hold you to your hypothetical proposal if it changes your mind.” She stepped back until they were no longer touching. “Gage. I'm pregnant.” He said nothing, nothing at all. “Sometimes destiny pushes, sometimes it pulls. Sometimes it kicks you in the ass. I've had a couple of days to think about this, and—”

Thoughts tumbled inarticulately through his head. Emotions stumbled drunkenly inside his heart. “A couple days.”

“I found out the morning your father was shot. It just . . . I couldn't tell you.” She took another step back from him. “Chose not to tell you when you were dealing with so much.”

“Okay.” He drew a breath, then walked to the window to stand as she had been. “You've had a couple days to think about it. So what do you think?”

“We'll start globally, because somehow that's easier. There's a reason the three of us conceived so closely together—very likely on the same night. You, Cal, and Fox were born at the same time. Ann Hawkins had triplets.”

Her tone was brisk. In his head he saw her standing at a podium, efficiently lecturing the class. What the hell
was
this?

“Q, Layla, and I share branches on the same family tree. I believe this has happened for a purpose, an additional power that we'll need to end Twisse.”

When he didn't speak, she continued. “Your blood, our blood. What's inside me, Q, Layla, combines that. Part of us, part of the three of you. I believe this is meant.”

He turned then, his face unreadable. “Smart, logical, a little cold-blooded.”

“As you were,” she returned, “when you talked about dying.”

He shrugged. “Let's shift down from global, Professor. What do you think about two weeks from now, a month from now? When this is over?”

“I don't expect—”

“Don't tell me what you expect.” Sparks of anger sizzled along the edges of control. “Tell me what you want. Goddamn it, Cybil, save the lectures and tell me what the hell you want.”

She didn't flinch at his words, at the tone of them—not outwardly. But he sensed her flinch, sensed her draw back, and away from him.

Let it ride, he told himself. See where the ball drops.

“All right, I'll tell you what the hell I want.” Though she'd drawn back, it didn't lessen the power of her punch. “First, what I didn't want. I didn't want to find myself pregnant, to deal with something this personal, this important when the rest of
everything
is in upheaval. But that's what's happened. So.”

She angled her head so their eyes were level. “I want to experience this pregnancy. I want to have this child. To give it the best life I possibly can. To be a good mother, hopefully an interesting and creative one. I want to show this child the world. I want to bring my son or daughter back here so he or she knows Quinn's and Layla's children, and sees this piece of the world we helped preserve.”

Her eyes gleamed now, tears and anger. “I want you to live, you idiot, so you can have a part of that. And if you're too stupid or selfish to want a part, then I'd not only expect but demand you peel off some of your winnings every goddamn month so you help support what you helped create. Because I'm carrying part of you, and you're just as responsible as I am. I don't just want to make a family, I'm going to. With or without you.”

“You're going to have the kid whether I live or die.”

“That's right.”

“You're going to have it if I happen to live and don't want any part of being its father, except for a check every month.”

“Yes.”

He nodded. “You've had a couple days to think about it. That's a lot of thinking in a short amount of time.”

“I know my own mind.”

“Tell me about it. Now, do you want to know mine?”

“I'm riveted.”

His lips quirked. If words were fists, he'd be flat on his ass. “I'd like to send you away, tonight. This minute. Get you and what we've started in you as far away from here as possible. I've never given much thought to having kids. A lot of good reasons for that. Add on that I'm not quite finished being annoyed to find myself in love with you, and handing out hypothetical marriage proposals, and it's a jam.”

“Tant pis.”
She shrugged at his blank stare. “Too bad.”

“Okay. But I can do a lot of thinking in short amounts of time, too. It's one of my skills. Right now? Right at this moment? I don't give a flying fuck about global thinking, greater good, destiny. None of it. This is you and me, Cybil, so listen up.”

“It was easier to do that when you didn't talk so damn much.”

“Apparently I've got more to say to you than I used to. That kid—or whatever they call it at this stage—is as much mine as it is yours. If I happen to live past midnight on July seventh, you're both going to have to deal with that. It's not going to be you, it's going to be we. As in, we show him the world, we bring him back here. We give him the best life we can. We make a family. That's how it's going to work.”

“Is that so?” Her voice trembled a little, but her eyes stayed level on his. “That being the case, you're going to have to do better than a hypothetical marriage proposal.”

“We'll get to that after midnight, July seventh.” He walked to her, touched her cheek, then cautiously laid his hand on her belly. “I guess we didn't see this one coming.”

“Apparently we didn't look in the right place.”

He pressed his hand a bit firmer against her. “I'm in love with you.”

Understanding he meant both her and what they'd begun, she laid her hand over his. “I'm in love with you.”

When he lifted her up, she released a watery laugh. And when he sat on the side of the bed, cradling her, she curled in, held on. They both held on.

 

IN THE MORNING, HE STOOD BY HIS FATHER'S grave. It surprised him how many people had come. Not just his own circle, but people from town—those he knew by name or face, others he couldn't place. Many came up to speak to him, so he went through the motions, got through it on autopilot.

Then Cy Hudson reached for his hand, shook it hard while giving him a shoulder pat that was a male version of an embrace. “Don't know what to say to you.” Cy stared at Gage out of his battered face. “I talked to Bill just a couple days before . . . I don't know what happened. I can't remember exactly.”

“It doesn't matter, Cy.”

“The doctor says it's probably getting hit in the head, and the shock and all scrambled it up in my brain or something. Maybe Bill, maybe he had a brain tumor or something like that, you know? You know how sometimes people do things they wouldn't, or—”

“I know.”

“Anyway, Jim said how I should take the family on out to the O'Dell place. Seemed like a screwy thing to do, but things are screwy. I guess I will then. If you, well, you know, need anything . . .”

“Appreciate it.” Standing by the grave, Gage watched his father's killer walk away.

Jim Hawkins stepped up, slid an arm around Gage's shoulders. “I know you had it rough, for a long time. Rougher and longer than you should've. All I'm going to say is you've done the right thing here. You've done right for everybody.”

“You were more father to me than he was.”

“Bill knew that.”

They drifted away, the people from town, the ones he knew by name or face, or couldn't quite place. There were businesses to run, lives to get back to, appointments to keep. Brian and Joanne stood by him a moment longer.

“Bill was helping out at the farm the last week or two,” Brian said. “I've got some of his tools, some of his things out there, if you want them.”

“No. You should keep them.”

“He did a lot to help us with what we're doing,” Joanne told Gage. “With what you're doing. In the end, he did what he could. That counts.” She kissed Gage. “You take care.”

Then it was only the six of them, and the dog who sat patiently at Cal's feet.

“I didn't know him. I knew, a little, who he was before she died. I knew, too much, who he was after. But I didn't know the man I just buried. And I don't know if I'd have wanted to, even if I'd had the chance. He died for me—for us, I guess. Seems as if that should even it all out.”

He felt something. Maybe it was some shadow of grief, or maybe it was just acceptance. But it was enough. He reached out for a handful of dirt, then let it fall out of his hand onto the casket below. “So. That's that.”

 

CYBIL WAITED UNTIL THEY WERE BACK AT CAL'S. “I have something we need to discuss and deal with.”

“You're all having triplets.” Fox dropped into a chair. “That would put a cap on it.”

“Not so far as I know. I've been doing a lot of research on this, but I've hesitated to bring it up. Time's too short for hesitation. We need Gage's blood.”

“I'm using it right now.”

“You'll have to spare some. What we did for us after the attack, we need to do for Cal's and Fox's families. In their way, they'll be on the front line. Your antibodies,” she explained. “You survived the demon bite, and there's a very decent chance you're immune to its poison.”

“So you're going to mix up a batch of antidemon venom in the kitchen?”

“I'm good. Not quite that good. We'd use the ritual we used before—the basic blood brothers ritual. Protection,” she reminded Gage. “Your Professor Linz spoke of protection. If Twisse gets past us, or if it's able to breach the town, or worse, the farm, protection may be all we can offer.”

“There are a lot of other people besides our families,” Cal pointed out. “And I don't see them circling up to hold bloody hands with Gage.”

“No. But there's another way. Taking it internally.”

Gage sat up, leaned forward. “You want the population of Hawkins Hollow to drink my blood? Oh yeah, I bet the mayor and town council will jump right on that.”

“They won't know. There was a reason I put off bringing this up, and this is it.” She sat on the arm of the sofa. “Hear me out. The town has a water supply. The farm has a well. People drink water. The Bowl-a-Rama's still doing business, selling beer on tap. We wouldn't cover everyone, but this is the best shot at a broad-based immunization. I think it's worth a try.”

“We're down to days left now,” Fox considered. “When we go into the woods we'll be leaving the Hollow, the farm, all of it. The last time we did that, it was damn near a massacre. I'd feel easier if I knew my family had something—a chance at something. If that something's Gage's blood, let's start pumping.”