Read The Sirian Experiments Online
Authors: Doris Lessing
Before I could move he had again advanced, and now stood immediately in front of me: arms akimbo, legs apart. Seen thus, I had every opportunity for a full scan of this species, enabling me on my return to furnish the biologists with ample details. The most remarkable feature was the wide slit of a mouth, connected, I judged, not with alimentation, but with voice production: when he spoke next, I was able to see, as I had not when crushed in the street, that this slit seemed to vibrate, and the sounds came from his mid-torso. The way he spoke was resonant, giving a fuzzy sound to the words.
âOrnaments of this kind are not permitted in this city!'
And as his stone eyes seemed to swallow the artefacts, so that I was enveloped in a glitter of cupidity, I felt he was again trying some rather crude technique of hypnotism. But there was more to it: he was testing me, trying to elicit from me some kind of show of authority â was that it? Something he had been accustomed to find in Nasar? At any rate, I felt his triumph â and then, in myself, a weakness of fear because of this triumph in him. I knew that I had failed in some test he had applied.
My mind was racing. I turned from him casually, and moved away, my back to him, stood a few moments glancing out of the window, then sat down on a low chair. There are few places in the Galaxy where superiors do not sit, while supplicants or inferiors stand. As I sat, an idea flashed into my mind unrelated to the present situation â very clear my thoughts were, because of the aligning practices just concluded, and because of this situation of danger. âHow long
has it been,' I inquired, âsince this city was allowed to spoil its original design?' For I had understood that this city,
as it had been designed
, had consisted solely of the conical towers, in a certain alignment â probably interlocking arcs â and that the huddle of poor buildings around their bases, and the spreading new suburbs, were a dereliction of an original purpose. Memories of what I had been told of the ancient mathematical cities, speculations that were never far from my mind as to what their function was â these were in my mind, and my distance from this situation and this stone slab of a man was genuine.
His response was immediate: sullen, and this meant a genuine annoyance; cunning â which alerted me to say: âThere will one day be an end to your cupidities and your despoilings.'
He stood still. Very still. The heavy eyes seemed to glow. What I had said, not idly, but certainly not with any crushing intention, had made him remember past â warnings? Threats?
I remained where I sat, watching him. In my mind were two models of behaviour â one was Nasar, and everything that I felt was needed by this situation dismissed him. The other was Klorathy, who I understood as I thought of him would not regard this little servant of even the most horrible power with anything but â at the most â a detached dislike. So I said mildly, even with humour: âAs for your colleague, he is of course not dead. He will recover, if he has not already â¦' and I rose again, as if dismissing him, and returned to the window, for I wanted to look around at these spiring towers with my new ideas in mind, and to imagine this city as it had been.
For what purpose?
But I heard a humming, or vibration just behind me, and turning, there he was, that slit mouth of his thrumming: I knew now that that wordless sound had meaning, but knew, too, that I could not allow him to think I did not understand it. I leaned on the ledge there, and saw the towers dark against the pale falling sky.
âYou are to come with me. I have authority. In this city I have the authority,' he insisted, and I believed him: it was part of some agreement that Canopus had allowed.
âI shall change my clothes,' I said.
âNo,' he said, slamming it out, and he again ate my headband, the armlets, my earrings, with his eyes. I remarked: âBut it is very cold tonight.'
âYou have a cloak.'
âI take it we must be expected at some very fine function indeed,' I said, smiling. And his lips' rapid quiver conveyed to me that this was the case.
âI can only hope that you have a good reason to take me there tonight,' I remarked, as I took up the great black cloth and enveloped myself in it, âfor I had other plans. Canopus has work to do.'
âI understand perfectly, perfectly,' said he, hurried and placating, and I knew that while he had not expected that he would fail to get his way, he was at least relieved that he had got it: and was afraid that I might find some reason to give him the slip. And all the time everything about this creature emanated greed, so that I thought back to the visit, long ago, by the hairy avid Shammat-brutes: they were the same breed, different though they were. And I was not going to ask what he must be expecting me to know: Are there many different kinds on that Shammat of yours? Or are you from Puttiora itself? Well, I learned later he was from Puttiora: the cities of this plain were policed by Puttiora and not by its subject planet Shammat â but that is part of another story.
We descended the long twining stairs, he coming close behind me, and I could feel the pressure of his itching want, want, want, all over me, his eyes like the touch of hands.
In the street we stood in a white storm, with dull lamps half obliterated at the entrances to streets and lanes. There were only the two of us. I was being chilled to stiffness as I stood, and the whine of the northern wind struck a painful fear into my bones: winter was fear, in this planet, and fear was the memory of sudden tempests of snow and ice that could wipe
out a continent in a breath, of screaming winds that could tear water-masses and vast sea beasts into the air and whirl them around like dust. A square shape appeared in the white, an opening showed itself, and I got in, urged by my jailer, and found myself in a box furnished with cushions and a little oil lamp. I did not know at once how it was being conveyed, but soon thought it was by runner, for it was not the first time I had been carried in this way â the sign of a slave state, of a proud and ruthless governing class, wherever it is to be found.
The Puttioran smelled bad: it was a cold greasy smell. I of course checked this thought, knowing that mine was not likely to be pleasant to him: smell has always been the hardest obstacle to overcome in the good relations between species: in that nothing has changed! As I wrote the words beginning the account of my entry into the city of tall dun-coloured cones â which, alas, I could see nothing of from inside the jogging box â I was called to a delegation from one of quite the most pleasant of our Colonized Planets, and with the best will in the world, I had to leave the audience chambers on an excuse, for the smell that emanated from the otherwise quite ordinary and normal individuals, equipped as usual with âtwo legs, two arms, a head, a nose, eyes and mouth', as we say (but in this case it was a tail as well), was so appalling that I could not stand it.
The distance was not great. We stepped down on to thick snow outside a building that streamed light through pillars and from windows. We were outside one of the villas of the western suburbs, and this was a festivity of some kind, for I could hear music, of a kind I was ready to suppose an entertainment, though to my ears it was a high wail not unlike the whine of the gale. The box we had been brought in seemed to lift itself, and jerked away into the white: I could just see projecting handles, and dimly, four ill-clad beasts, who I hoped were being kept warm by the thick head hair that fell to the shoulders, which they freed from deposits of snow by continually shaking their heads. They vanished with the box into the snowfall.
I ascended wide steps beside the Puttioran, to a deep verandah that had many ornamented pillars, and braziers standing here and there. I was familiar with the affectation of governing classes anywhere for modes of their past, and knew that braziers were not the sum of their current technology for keeping themselves warm: the rooms at the top of the tower were heated by air that flowed in from ducts. Few individuals were on the verandahs because of the cold, but I saw they were in full festive dress by the fact that they were half naked.
I did not know whether it was on account of Sirius or of Canopus that I should strive for a good impression, but removed the poor black cloth in which I was muffled, and draped it over my right forearm in a way that I had seen in a certain history of custom from our early Dark Age: this manner of arranging an outer garment had signified rank.
I was being aided as I advanced through the graceful springing pillars by another historical comparison: a planet recently visited by me had preserved as a record of former times an area of villas similar to these, also set among vegetation â though of course I could see nothing of the gardens that I knew enclosed these suburbs.
The verandah was separated from the very wide and large inner room, or rooms, by curtains of thick many-coloured materials. I stood quite still in the entrance, in order that I might be observed. What
I
was observing was not unexpected: there were about twenty individuals there, all scantily clad, and with the unmistakable air of a ruling or privileged class taking its ease. They sat about on cushions, or on light chairs. Low tables were heaped with every kind of food and fruit. Around the walls stood about a dozen servers, almost naked young females and males, holding jugs and ewers of intoxicant. The lights were not braziers, but some kind of gas burning in transparent globules from pillars and walls. The stone floors had handsome rugs.
Their immobility was not because they were surprised at my arrival but because they had expected it and did not want to show â yet â whatever emotions or needs had led to my
being summoned. For I could see that this was the case. There was no surprise shown by the Puttioran at my side. There were two others of this most unattractive species present, seated among the others, but not lolling or sprawled about â I was at once able to see that they were tolerated here, no more.
âKlorathy' â was there: Nasar, in this dim pearly light was so like Klorathy that for a moment I could not believe it was not he. But then he turned his head, and I knew at once his lateness in doing this was not because he had only just understood I had arrived but
because he was ashamed.
He had a studied and casual air, as he sat on a low square seat with his back to a pillar. He at least was not half naked.
In every scene there is a focus ⦠a centre ⦠and Nasar was not that centre here. Nor were the Puttiorans. At an arm's distance from Nasar, on a wide seat, which was not as low as the others, so that she looked down on her guests, sat a woman who dominated everything. She was exceedingly beautiful. She was more than that. I am certainly not talking of the aesthetic here, but of a sexual fascination, which was immediately and instantly evident, and which I had seen nothing to compare with for many years.
Every breeding female has this quality, often briefly enough. But in certain conditions this sexual attraction can be concentrated and maintained by an effort of individual will, if the social circumstances permit. Of myself I can say that I am pale and blonde; but of her I can say only that she gleamed and shimmered. Her hair was of fine gold, elaborately dressed, with a mass of little waves and curls, and very fine plaits, like twisted gold wires, on either side of her broad, pearly, smiling face. Her eyes were grey blue and widely set under shining blonde brows. Her long white hands were displayed, unadorned, in her lap. White feet were in jewelled sandals.
On her bare arms were heavy gold bracelets made of repeated and interlocked V's, which very slightly compressed her flesh, in a calculated manner. Now these bracelets were of the exact pattern prescribed for previous practices set by
Canopus, those that had been superseded by the âsuggestions' sent to me before I began this visit. I looked quickly around again and saw that nearly everyone there, male and female, wore bracelets, earrings, anklets, or an association of colours that were
almost
accurate, for in each place I observed them, a pattern on a hem, or a design on a skirt, they had, as it were, slipped out of true â and now I understood why Nasar could not easily meet my eyes. Though he was in fact now rather sullenly gazing across at me, not so much defiantly as in reckless sombreness.
I understood a good deal as I stood there, smiling calmly. For one thing, what it was they wanted of me now: the three Puttiorans all wore the earrings of the current prescription â they and I wore them, not one of the others, and not Nasar. Who, of course, if he were being ruled by what had been prescribed, would not be wearing them at this occasion. Just as I should not, had I not been commanded and brought here in the way I had.
I saw that the eyes of every individual there glittered at the armbands, the headband, the earrings I wore, and as I wondered why the Puttioran who had fetched me had not simply taken them, realized that of course he must be afraid, or that is exactly what he would have done.
Still no one had moved, or made a sign of greeting. I took then a great chance, which made me quite cold, and inwardly confused for a moment: I stepped forward, with âCanopus greets you!' and glanced at Nasar to see how he took this, as I gestured to a girl servant to bring forward a chair that stood by the wall. This was a chair similar to the one used by the beauty, who was, I had decided, hostess there: I seated myself on her level, at a short distance from her and from Nasar, and clapped my hands without looking to see if this was being obeyed â a custom taken from another recent visit of mine â and when a goblet was presented to me of some crystalline material, was careful not to let a drop of it touch my lips, while I pretended to sip.
âI understood that you were from Sirius?' remarked the fair
one, clapping her hands as I had done, and accepting a fresh goblet â this was to put me at my ease? To encourage me to drink?
This was the most dangerous moment of my meeting with these decadents. I could not afford to hestitate, and I smiled, merely, and with a rather amused little glance at Nasar, as to a fellow conspirator in a harmless joke: âIf it has amused Nasar to say that I am, then why not?' And I laughed. And did not look at him, but smoothed my skirt.