The Snow Child: A Novel (44 page)

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he strawberry plants were just beginning to green and send out their reddish-purple runners. Mabel bent from plant to plant and with a pair of shears snipped off last year’s growth and tossed the curled, brown leaves to the side. When she reached the end of the raised bed, she stood, slid the shears into the pocket of her gardening apron, and pushed the wide brim of her straw hat up from her forehead.

It was still there. The very last patch of snow in the yard, banked in the shade against the north side of the cabin where it had drifted the deepest. It had dwindled in the warming days until all that remained was a circle the size of a wagon wheel.

She squinted up at the sun, already white hot in the sky, and pushed up her dress sleeves. It would be a scorcher, as Garrett was fond of saying. He and Jack were working in shirtsleeves as they planted the fields. They would come home sunburned, she was certain.

Mabel pulled her hat brim down to shade her eyes again, took the rake from where it leaned against a fence post, and began scratching and prodding at the strawberry garden, loosening the soil, cleaning up the rows. Out of the corner of her
eye, she watched sunlight glisten off the white snow. It would soon be gone.

She had thought often of Ada’s words about inventing new endings to stories and choosing joy over sorrow. In recent years she had decided her sister had been in part wrong. Suffering and death and loss were inescapable.

And yet, what Ada had written about joy was entirely true. When she stands before you with her long, naked limbs and her mysterious smile, you must embrace her while you can.

When Faina stepped out of the spruce forest, the sun’s rays struck her and set her blond hair alight in a peculiar golden silver, so that even from across the yard Mabel was reminded of starlit fairies and fireflies. Faina’s puppy, grown lanky and big footed, panted up at her and followed her across the yard.

The girl’s lean arms and legs were bare. She wore only the plain cotton dress with its pattern of blue flowers that Mabel had sewed for her. Her stride was long and sure as she moved through the newly sprouted grass and beneath the leafing cottonwood tree, and as she neared Mabel saw that her skin was tanned. She wore no shoes or moccasins. Tall and lean, she showed no signs of pregnancy yet.

Faina stopped at the edge of the strawberry patch and crouched beside the dog. She put one hand beneath its chin and ran her other hand back between its ears, and the dog grinned as it had that first day. When she stood and silently gestured, the dog promptly lay in the dirt, still panting, its black fur gleaming.

She walked down the strawberry rows, and her bare feet
pressed so firmly to the ground that Mabel could see the soil squish between her toes. She took Mabel’s hands and kissed her on the cheek. When she let go, Mabel embraced her and held her for a long time, even as she could feel the heat of the sun on Faina’s back.

You look well, Mabel said.

I am, she said. I am.

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ack led Garrett down the wagon trail and out into a meadow within sight of the river.

“It’s yours,” Jack said. “Consider it a wedding gift. We’ll build the cabin right in here, facing toward the mountains.”

“It’s a fine place.”

The very next evening, after they stopped planting for the day and ate dinner, he supposed Garrett had gone to sleep in the barn. He told Mabel he was going out for some fresh air, and he walked to the meadow. There he found Garrett with a shovel and an ax, rough sketching the outline of a cabin into the dirt.

The work had a rhythm and purpose, and Jack and Garrett fell into it with ease, even relief: the back-and-forth pull of the two-man saw and the thunderous crash of trees falling; the slide of the draw knife along the spruce logs, the bark peeling off in long strips; the chop and slice of the sharpened ax, each notch hand-carved. Love and devotion, the devastating hope and fear contained in a woman’s swelling womb—these were left unspoken. At midnight, as they hefted another log into
place, they could hear the red-breasted robins and dark-eyed juncos chirping in the trees, and that was enough.

By the time planting was done, they had the log walls up waist high, and it went faster now that they had all of each day. Jack let Garrett do the heaviest of the work, and at times he would sit on a log to rest his tired back and watch the younger man work. Mabel often came with lunch in a basket, and sometimes she would stay long enough to discuss where a window should go or what kind of front porch they should build.

Faina was nowhere to be seen. Jack assumed she and Garrett met alone sometimes, but the girl did not come to Jack and Mabel’s for dinner. For once, it was Jack who worried.

“Shouldn’t she be resting, eating regular meals?”

“She’s fine,” Mabel said.

“Why isn’t she here, staying with us until the wedding?”

“She’s where she needs to be. She doesn’t have much longer.”

“Much longer?”

“Her life is going to change soon. Whatever else happens, she won’t be able to run through the woods like a sprite. Everything will be different.”

“I suppose. I just want to make sure she’s safe and healthy.”

“I know,” and Mabel’s voice had a bittersweet acceptance in it that he had never heard before.

Faina came on a warm June day, she and the dog loping out of the trees as if they were halfway through a close race. Garrett was straddling the unfinished wall as Jack used a pulley to raise another log into place. Faina ran to them in bare feet and a short-sleeved dress, her arms and legs bronzed and muscled, her long hair bleached white by the sun.

She and Garrett gave each other shy smiles, and Jack felt like an intruder. Garrett jumped down from the log wall and led her through the rough-cut doorway and into the roofless cabin.

I know it’s hard to see, with just the four walls, but over here, this will be the kitchen and the window will look out to the river. Won’t that be fine?

Faina nodded, but her gaze was distant, as if this all were a strange dream to her.

The woodstove will go here. And through there, that’ll be our bedroom, and the baby’s. I know it’s not real big, but don’t you think it’ll do?

Faina nodded once, slowly.

Garrett seemed unnerved by her silence.

It’ll be OK, won’t it? Once we get some windows and doors in, it’ll feel like a real home. Don’t you think, Jack? It’s coming together?

Jack started to say that yes, he thought it would be a dandy little cabin for a family starting out, but then he saw the girl smile up at Garrett, a tender, reassuring smile. Jack was struck with the notion that perhaps she was the wiser and stronger of the two.

Faina stayed while the two men worked. She threw sticks for the dog. She ran through the tall, green grass around the cabin and picked bluebells and wild yellow asters, but her eyes kept to the trees. The dog ran, barking, to chase a squirrel into the woods, and Faina followed. When she reached the edge of the meadow, she looked over her shoulder and gave a small wave back toward the men.

“She’s leaving,” Garrett said.

“She is, but she’ll be back.”

“I know. But sometimes I wonder.”

“What’s that?”

“If this is the best for her—a baby. Me. If it’s the right kind of life for her.”

“Too late to change that now,” Jack said. He regretted his anger.

“Maybe she doesn’t have to give up everything,” Garrett said. “You know. We’ll run traps together this winter, after the baby comes. I’ll take her out in the woods and she can put out her little snares. It doesn’t all have to change.”

“It will. Everything will change. But you’ll do the best you can.”

Jack turned back to the cabin, because that was something a man could do—fell trees and scribe-fit logs and build a home.

“Come on, now,” he said. “We’re almost to the ridgepole. We’ve got to get this thing closed in before the big day.”

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here’s no way in hell that cabin is going to be done in time for the wedding.” Esther’s hands were on her hips as she stood looking up at the honey-colored logs. “Just a few more days, Mom. That’s what he says to me. We’ve almost got it wrapped up, he says. Why is it men always overestimate their own prowess?”

Mabel smiled in spite of herself. “They have done a great deal.”

“Sure they have. But I tell you, it won’t have a roof on it before Sunday.”

“Perhaps that’s all right.” Mabel thought of Faina looking up through the logs into an open sky, and somehow it was comforting.

“It’s all good, as long as there’s not a drop of rain or a single mosquito… in Alaska… in July.” Esther made no attempt to hide her sarcasm. Then she hoisted her overall straps like a man and shrugged. “Ah well. When you’re young, everything is romantic, right? Even a cabin without a roof.”

“It is lovely. I’ve already sewed some curtains for the windows. And George tells me you’re making them a quilt.”

“Yep. And it will be done by Sunday.” Esther laughed at herself and added, “I might not sleep much this week, eh? But how’s the dress coming?”

“It is finished, but Faina has secret plans. She’s been working on it these past few nights at our house. She waits until we go to bed, and then she stays up at the table doing something, but she won’t tell me what.”