Authors: Martha Faë
The Sphere
The Sphere
Martha Faë
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Translated by Katherine Tunning
“The Sphere”
Written By Martha Faë
Copyright © 2015 Martha Faë
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Translated by Katherine Tunning
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Preface
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M
ercutio and Benvolio had never seen anything like it. They weren’t allowed to go to the beach alone, especially not to the shore, where the water lapped at the sand and left a trace of foam. But the sight of such a magical object was worth the risk of a real scolding. Benvolio was the first to notice that the tide had dragged in something other than the shells and seaweed that turned up on the beach every day. He went over to Mercutio during breakfast and whispered in his ear:
“Finish up quick, we’ve got something important to do.”
The twins ran down the slope that led to East Sands and stared in fascination at their extraordinary discovery. Mercutio said confidently that the gift the sea had dragged in looked like a woman. But Benvolio thought it was just an oddly shaped branch.
“It’s a girl!” said Mercutio. “See what long hair she has?”
A gentle wind shifted the threads of seaweed that were clinging to the newcomer’s skull. In the background thick sheets of flattened clouds filled the sky, hanging over the two boys. The beach was deserted.
“Look,” said Benvolio, his voice small with fear. “It’s not hair, stupid—it’s seaweed.”
“But she’s wearing a dress, see,” said Mercutio, using a stick to touch what looked like frayed lace.
Benvolio snatched the stick away from his brother and poked at the rags covering the rounded end of the mysterious object. Its muddy eyelids rose slowly to reveal two sockets, empty and deep. The twins jumped back and froze. They were almost too terrified to breathe. On the strange face a small nose twitched, and a sneeze shook the seaweed, or the hair, or whatever it was.
“It’s seaweed.”
Benvolio’s murmur was almost inaudible.
“It’s hair,” insisted Mercutio, even more quietly.
The girl pushed the locks of hair out of her face with a hand so slender it seemed to be made of twigs, exposing a starfish stuck to her temple. She turned her empty sockets toward the twins, and it shouldn’t have been possible, but they knew she was looking right at them.
“You have to help me—please!”
The voice was sweet, but there was something terrifying and unearthly about it.
“My situation is desperate, I’m begging you...”
With a great effort the thing managed to stand up, the two branches she had for legs clicking and clacking the whole time. Benvolio had moved behind Mercutio and was watching with his eyes wide. Feeling safe behind the barricade of his brother’s shoulder, he stretched out a hand to touch the visitor, but as soon as his fingers brushed against the extraordinary creature she collapsed. The sand beneath her groaned.
The boys ran, their legs blurring with speed. When they reached the top of the hill they both stopped and looked back at the same time, their curls tousled from the wind, their hearts roaring like mad drums. The wooden girl lay there, motionless. It only took an instant for the sea to reach her and swallow her up, carrying her off as easily as it had brought her. The only thing left of her was a scrap of cloth that the next wave washed away.
The twins felt the sting of fascination and horror. They could not have said whether what they had just witnessed was more beautiful or more frightening. They had hardly dared to go near the terrifying treasure the sea had brought, but they were deeply sorry it was gone. They tasted, for the first time in their lives, the bittersweet flavor of melancholy. Something settled inside them and weighed down the words they might have used to talk about what had happened, so that they never mentioned it again.
It was a sort of an omen of what would happen a few hours later, of the dreadful event that stole away a great part of their young souls.
1
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“G
ive it back! Give it to me!”
I shout, but it doesn’t make any difference. The little music player sails across the living room of our summer house, flying through an imaginary sky, and there’s nothing I can do to stop it. The headphones flap in the air like the wings of an electronic bird, a sneaky little seagull with a square body of pistachio green. As soon as I see it on my right it’s over on the left again, disappearing like some kind of dream. The same face with the wicked smile, the same hands, the same furtive chuckle materializes in one corner and then another of the living room. I should be used to this sort of illusion, but I can’t get my eyes to focus on reality. I lift my hand. I try to take control. But all I do is graze the tip of one of the wings, interrupting its flight, and then everything happens the way accidents always happen—like a sigh in slow motion. The headphone cord tangles around my finger, and with one yank I strip the bird of its wings.
Nosedive to a piece of unclaimed ground.
Freeze frame.
On the left side of the sofa one expressionless face, framed by blond curls. And on the other side, the exact same face.
“I hate you!” The shout wells up from deep inside me with all the force of years of imposed silence, of being practically invisible.
This time my voice at least breaks the stillness.
“Leave your brothers alone.”
My mother is behind an open book, like always.
“Leave them alone? But they broke my iPod!”
“Since when does she have an iPod?” asks my father, not even bothering to look up from his newspaper.
“Ever since her boyfriend gave it to her,” answers Mercutio, a smile crossing his face.
“She has a boyfriend?” my father asks with some surprise, though he still doesn’t put down the paper.
“I don’t know,” says my mother, without looking up from her book.
I watch my father’s hands slowly set the newspaper down on the table.
“Yeah, she’s got a boyfriend and they kiss each other,” Benvolio screws up his lips to blow mocking kisses into the air, and Mercutio copies him like a mirror.
Their voices are identical; it’s impossible to tell which one of the twins is talking if you’re not looking at them. Not even my parents could tell them apart if they didn’t dress them in different colors.
I can feel someone’s gaze on the back of my neck. When I look behind me I see my father giving me the fish-eye. I try to restrain myself, I make my best effort, I even remember that thing about counting in your head to three—or was it ten? It doesn’t matter. No one could stand being looked at like that. Come on, Dissie, hang in there, don’t give them the pleasure of arguing. Don’t call out your brothers. Just one more second and it’ll all be forgotten, just as long as it takes to put the pieces of the iPod in my jeans pocket. One... Two...
“What?! Do you have a question?!” I yell angrily.
Pathetic! I’ve done it again—let a couple of little kids get to me.
“Nothing, dear. We haven’t asked anything,” my father tries to defuse the situation. He lifts his hands and returns his gaze to the newspaper.
The twins keep on blowing kisses from the back of the living room but I go right past them and head for the door to the yard. This time I really won’t to rise to the bait.
“They’re crazy!” I say, spinning around to face the living room, no longer in control of my own reactions. “Boyfriend?... It hasn’t even been two weeks since we got to St Andrews, and it’s not like I brought him with me from home...”
“We saw you in the cemetery,” says Mercutio.
“We did, Mom,” adds Benvolio in his sharp childish voice. “Eurydice was kissing a blond boy. Like this, like in the movies.”
My parents look at me, astonished. What’s the big surprise? Is it so impossible that I might have a boyfriend?
“Of course,” I say, “out of all the places in the world I chose the cemetery to kiss my imaginary boyfriend who I brought from Edinburgh in my suitcase. Yeah, you got it all exactly right. A prize for you both!”
I clap sarcastically and turn to go out to the yard, but I’m not quick enough, and I can still hear my father:
“Dissie doesn’t like blond boys, does she?”
“No,” answers my mother. “But she does like cemeteries.”
After a few seconds of silence they both return to their respective reading material, and that’s it, it’s all settled. Like always, the way everything is settled in this house: without any consequences for the twins. The air makes my lungs ache; it’s hard for me to do something as simple as breathe. I sit down on the porch and try to think about something else. I don’t know why I’m surprised—the real surprise would have been if the twins had actually gotten into trouble for breaking the iPod. Some people are just born lucky, free to do or not do things without anything happening to them. I don’t think the twins will ever have to face the consequences of their actions, even when they’re grown up.
I look at the two pieces of the music player and then I close my eyes so I can paint a happy picture in my mind, a story where I’m the only child. Better yet, one where I was born into another family, any family, any normal family. The fantasy is so real I can nearly touch it. I can almost feel myself living a peaceful life. I’m starting to breathe more easily when a ball whacks my head and jolts me out of my daydream. Apparently reading time is over, at least reading in the house. Now we’re going to the beach, and yes, I am included in that
we
. I don’t get an opinion. I have to go because that’s why we’re a family, and that’s why my parents have rented this house in a place that should have been
my
place, mine alone,
my
place to go to college. At this point I’ve pretty much accepted it: I will never have a life that’s all my own.
I run up to my room, put on my bikini, and toss the essentials into my bag: a towel, my notebook, and a pencil. I put my jeans back on and grab a t-shirt from the dresser without looking. I haven’t even finished getting dressed when I hear my mother call from the foot of the stairs:
“Dissie, we’ll be waiting for you at the beach. And don’t wear one of those huge t-shirts, please.”
I look at myself in the mirror. I look like a deflated balloon, but I’ll never admit it to a single soul. It’s true that my t-shirts are two sizes too big, or else I’m two sizes too small. But it hardly matters—it’s my life, I can decide what to wear, can’t I? I look at the girl in the mirror and don’t recognize her as myself. Sometimes I feel like we’re two different people. Knowing that I’m about to go out with this t-shirt on makes me feel strong. I smile but right away my reflection turns serious again. I hate myself for being such a baby, for not daring to contradict my parents, for not being able to say that I don’t want to go to the beach with them, for not having the courage to stand firm and stay in Edinburgh instead of
already
being at St Andrews. Although, on the other hand... On the other hand nothing, I’d have found some way to stay with
him
. Well, I’d have found a way or I wouldn’t have. I don’t have the slightest idea what’s going to happen with him. Not after what happened yesterday... What I do know is that for the next few years I’m going to be living apart from my friends. I’m sure we’ll only see each other at Christmas. I should be in Edinburgh with Marion and Laura, making the most of our last summer together. There, not here. My parents should have realized that. It should have been their idea. Didn’t they complain for years that I didn’t have any friends? They should be supportive now that I’m finally a little... A little more the way they want me to be. Consistency is conspicuous by its absence in this family.
Why aren’t you a little more normal?
Well, they should encourage my social life. How is it possible that so much reading hasn’t taught them to see the obvious? Family vacations are
not
the best thing that can happen to you. Not at eighteen, not when you’re going to start college at the end of the summer, and above all NOT when out of all the beach towns on the planet they had to choose the exact place where you’re going to school. As if there weren’t other beaches in the world. As if I weren’t old enough to be left alone, for once.