The Story of You and Me (34 page)

“Ms. Blackford, stay behind for a moment. We need a word,” he said.
 

No, we didn’t. Not today. Not now. My fellow students pushed past me out the door.
 

Chaka lingered. “I’ll wait for you,” she mouthed as she eased out the door.

Two

Mr. Preston closed the door between our classroom, the hallway and probably my sanity. I stood next to his desk. It was filled with comic books, real books and magazines. A grayish rock veined with white-quartz crystal that was bigger than my fist rested on a bunch of papers and functioned as a paperweight.

“Madeline.” He ambled to his desk. “Just because your family has influential friends and you retain a partial scholarship here does not mean you can afford to slack off or slide. At any moment you can be dismissed from Preston Academy for bad grades and/or attitude issues.” He picked up a stack of magazines and tapped them on his desk to align them.
 

A weathered copy of
Maxim
poked out from the stack. Ew.
 

“Frankly, I believe you are pushing the boundaries with both of these concerns.” He pushed that magazine back into the paper pile.

“You wanted to know if we had any ideas or thoughts about land grabs. Right now I don’t have a great answer. But Mr. Preston, I will research and report back.”
 

His smile turned to a frown. “Do that by this Monday, please.”
 

Great. There went my weekend. When my cell phone vibrated. I glanced and jumped when I saw Brett’s number. My heart pounded and my foot tapped on the floor almost all on its own. “Mr. Preston can I answer this? It’s important.”
 

“Preston Academy has a strict policy that all phones are turned off during class,” he said. “Surely you know that.”

My phone hummed—Brett was on the line; my love life was on the line—but not for much longer. “Technically we’re between classes,” I pleaded.

“May I?” He smiled and held out his hand toward my phone.
 

I handed it to him and he examined it. “Oh, dear. Your phone seems to be an older model.” He frowned. “One that loses signals easily.” He pushed a button and Brett’s call disappeared.
 

I closed my eyes and bit my lip, trying to hold my temper.

“Lip biting, like nail chewing, is another unattractive habit.” He leaned closer to me.
 

The smell of his cheap cologne oozed up my nose. It took everything in my being not to move away from him. Good thing I didn’t eat breakfast as that would be coming up right about now.
 

“Phone calls might seem important. But honestly, it’s up to you,” he said. “When you’re in the middle of a teacher-student conference regarding your lackluster academic performance, you need to determine whether a phone call from a young man might be worth dropping a grade, detentions, or even stepping
off
the fast-track to a reputable college.”

“I know that, Mr. Preston.” I looked up at the large clock on the wall behind his desk. “Can we please continue this later, sir?” I spotted Chaka pointing at her watch through the small window in the classroom’s door. “I’ve got about five minutes to get to gym class, change clothes and be on time.”
 

“Well that’s a class you certainly don’t want to flunk.” He handed my phone back to me.
 

I bolted out the door into the hallway.

“Why is Piranha Preston so pissed at you?” Chaka asked, her signature bangles jangling as we raced down the hall.

“I don’t have a flippin’ clue. I just want to get in the water and swim,” I said. “I love the water. It clears my head.”

“I hate swimming,” Chaka said. “Unless it’s on Dad’s island in the Caribbean. The water’s crystal clear and bathwater warm. And the pool boys fight over who’s going to teach me how to snorkel.”

“You have your diving certificate, Chaka.” I slammed open the door to the girls’ locker room.

She giggled. “Who cares? They’re really hot and don’t know that.”
 

After gym class Chaka had a date with study hall and I had to find Brett. I returned to the foyer with Aaron at my side. If Brett was actually in Preston Academy today, this was probably the best place to find him.
 

People from all over the world traveled to see and experience Preston Academy’s famous foyer. They came to make etchings from the signatures of their loved ones, or the grads that became celebrities. Recently, a young über successful pop-star singer received permission, (following a hefty donation to our school’s scholarship fund,) to film her lip-synching portions of her latest platinum hit in Preston Academy’s foyer and spotlight her mom’s autographed brick. She featured it in her award nominated music video. A couple of Preston students were in the video. I wasn’t one of them.
 

I had seen these foyer walls so often that my eyes skipped over the famous people: the politicians—local and national, the actors, and the million/ billionaire entrepreneurs. Instead my eyes came to rest, like they did every time I walked through these doors, on one autograph.
 

“Rebecca Wilde,” was inscribed on a brick high on the wall, well over my head and out of reach. I squinted up at her name on the wall.

“Your mother and I were in the same class,” Mr. Preston said. “Rebecca was a risk-taker. Very different from you, Madeline.”

I swiveled and saw him standing just a few yards behind me.

“What is his problem?” Aaron hissed.
 

“In fact,” Mr. Preston said, “I heard Rebecca climbed up rickety scaffolding on a dare to cement that brick up there herself. She got in a bit of trouble for that though. Someone turned her in.”
 

“Probably him,” Aaron whispered. “I’ll pull the ladder over. Climb it and touch her signature.”
 

I hesitated. Aaron walked toward that stupid ladder, kneeled next to its base and flipped up the floor locks. He leaned one shoulder against it and wheeled it around the foyer’s walls until he parked it under mama’s brick. He beckoned. “Come on.”
   

I froze, surrounded, bombarded, by teens hurrying in multiple directions. Everyone was moving except for me. It dawned on me that I was completely caught in time; I was the girl who couldn’t move.
 

The top of the ladder appeared like it stretched to the sky. I hated heights and this whole scene was too tall, too stress-inducing, too much. Which made me wonder if I had my stash of anti-anxiety pills in my purse. I usually didn’t need them. But every once in a while, I’d have a full-blown panic attack, which would leave me paralyzed.
 

Aaron patted the ladder. “It’s not that high up. If you were a rock-climber or enjoyed mountains and cliffs? This ladder would be like a step stool. It would be nothing.”

When I was twelve, my family and I celebrated my stepmom, Sophie, getting hired as a legal assistant at O’Ryan and Sons. We nibbled on tapas in the middle of a trendy restaurant called Barcelona, which was on the first floor, no heights involved whatsoever. I heard the screech of tires braking and a loud “bang,” from a nearby car crash. The next thing I knew I lay on the floor in Child’s Pose, on my stomach, my head between my knees.

I was drenched in sweat and struggled to breathe for fifteen minutes. I clasped my hands over my ears while my dad and Sophie knelt on the floor, hugged me and whispered that everything would be okay; it all would be fine, really. But out of the corners of my eyes I caught the stares of pity from fellow diners as well as the embarrassed glances from the waiters. We haven’t been back to that restaurant since.
 

“Your mama’s brick is about eighteen feet up. You can do eighteen feet.” Aaron said.
 

Mr. Preston smiled and shook his head. “She’s too busy waiting for a phone call.”

Aaron glared at me and snapped his fingers.

“Fine!” I clasped my hands behind my back, stretched my shoulders wide-open and stomped my feet on the floor twice. I climbed a few steps up the ladder and looked down at Aaron. “You need to hold onto the bottom of this thing in case someone bumps into us.”

He grabbed onto the ladder’s railings and planted his feet. “I’m here. Call me Elmer. Climb.”
 

So I did. I climbed two more steps. Five steps. About ten feet up I began to hyperventilate a little. I managed a few more rungs. About thirteen feet up I clutched my chest with one hand and my breath turned raspy. “You’re holding that ladder tight? You’re not going to let it slip?” Sweat dripped off my palms as I squeezed the railings.

“We’re good,” Aaron encouraged.

It felt like I was climbing through mud but I made it up three more steps. I was about fifteen feet up. If I climbed just three more feet, I could stretch my arm high over my head and touch mama’s brick. I never in my wildest dreams planned on doing this and until now, never even thought it possible.

A sudden warmth enveloped me and my skin tingled. My practical brain kicked in and explained: heat rises to the top. I was so high up, close to the foyer’s ceiling. There were only floor heaters in this room. But those heaters hadn’t yet been fired up yet and weren’t usually turned on until around Halloween.
 

I always thought if I ever found myself this high off the earth again that I’d feel light-headed. But instead, I felt grounded. Didn’t make any sense. I was about a yard away from touching the actual brick that mama helped create. Once I placed my hand on her signature maybe I could feel in my own body what Rebecca felt in hers, while she was a student here. Perhaps I could feel what darkness filled her heart that made her so callous about abandoning me.
 

“You’re doing great.” Aaron’s voice broke. “Don’t look down. You’re close. Like that guy who climbed Everest or something. Or that guy who had his hand trapped… but they made a movie about him. James Franco the actor was totally hot and…”

Aaron was talking gibberish and I wasn’t an idiot, so of course I looked down. I saw Brett O’Ryan, my kind-of boyfriend, walking on the foyer far below me. His arm was wrapped tight around the shoulders of a petite girl with porcelain skin and long curly red hair. WTH? My hands started shaking.
 

Aaron’s eyes flitted between Brett and me. He smacked one of his palms onto his forehead and frowned. “I said don’t look… Aw, Maddie. Could you take directions from anyone, just once?”

I gripped the ladder’s railings ’till my fingers turned white and shook my head. “No.” I glared at Brett. No need for any more texts; I’d figured out his news. “Hey Brett!”
 

They looked up at me. Brett’s face blanched. The girl he was with? Her perfect face was smooth, porcelain and stone blank. Not blank, like she was dumb. Just empty like—I couldn’t quite put my finger on it. And right now my heart was too crushed to even try to figure it out.
 

Brett shifted from one foot to his other. He smoothed his white blonde hair back from his forehead with his free hand. “Hey, uh, Maddie. I’ve been trying to get a hold of you about that, um, project.” He looked down and coughed into his free hand. The hand that wasn’t wrapped around that girl’s shoulder.
 

He looked back up at me, huddled and hanging for dear life fifteen feet up in the air on a stupid ladder. “Can we talk later, buddy?”

“Buddy?” I asked. With the exception of Aaron and Chaka, Brett and I had shared more secrets than anyone else. We knew each other for years. Had confided in each other for hours in his house, grungy coffee shops, in city parks, on Lake Michigan’s beaches, on the dunes in Indiana huddled beneath some pine trees high in the hills while the winds whipped past us creating mini sandstorms.
 

We went to some Junior High dances and Preston Academy events. We also shared some kissing action. Now he was practically breathing down the neck of a girl who happened to be a dead ringer for Miss Teen Ireland, and I was Buddy?
 

“Absolutely. Later.” I looked Brett in his eyes. He couldn’t hold my gaze for longer than a second and my heart sunk as I realized I was
never
in Brett’s heart the way I wanted to be. Frankly, that sucked. ’Cause I had liked him for a very long time.
 

“Uh, great. Thanks,” Brett said and walked away with that gorgeous girl glancing up at me while she whispered into his ear.
 

I felt my heart twist and sink into my stomach. I stared at the ground below me. It looked about a hundred feet down, not fifteen. The room spun. I clung to the ladder’s railing, plunked my butt down onto a ladder stair and tucked my head under my arm that clung to the railing.
 

“Hold onto this thing!” Aaron said to someone, way off in a fog somewhere. “Hang on, Madeline. I’m coming to get you.”

Three

I don’t know how exactly, but Aaron got me down off that ladder and somehow dragged me to the school cafeteria.
 

Chaka had rolled out her yoga mat and I lay in Child’s Pose on it for I have no idea how long before I was able to lift my head off the ground.

“Take this,” Aaron shoved a tiny white pill at me.
 

I swallowed it.
 

“Drink this.” Chaka thrust a water bottle at me.

My hands shook and I struggled to unscrew the top.
 

Aaron grabbed the bottle, yanked the top off and handed it back. “You’ll feel better in no time.”
 

I chugged the water and dropped the bottle. “I’ll feel better when I talk to my mama.”
 

I was six-years-old and strapped into a booster seat in the back of Mama’s dinged hatchback while she drove to an important appointment after my horseback-riding lesson. I didn’t know what the important appointment was about, didn’t care, ’cause I was hanging with Mama which was always a good thing.
 

We were driving in one of those tall parking garages, the kind that was round like a soup can where the ramp spiraled up, which felt like we were going in circles. The last thing I remembered was our car accelerating like crazy, me getting dizzy and asking Mama to slow down. Then there was a loud bang! That’s it.