Authors: Ann Petry
By the time she reached the Junto Bar and Grill on the corner, she was walking so fast she almost passed it.
JONES, THE SUPER, came out of his apartment just in time to catch a glimpse of Lutie striding up the street toward the Junto. She was walking so fast her coat flared out above her straight slim skirt.
As his eyes followed her swift progress up the street, he wished she hadn't worn such a full coat so that he could have had a better view of her well-shaped hips as she hurried toward the corner. Ever since the night she had first rung his bell to ask about the apartment, he hadn't been able to get her out of his mind. She was so tall and brown and young. She made him more aware of the deadly loneliness that ate into him day and night. It was a loneliness born of years of living in basements and sleeping on mattresses in boiler rooms.
The first jobs he had had been on ships and he stayed
on them until sometimes it seemed to him he had been buried alive in the hold. He took to talking to himself and dreaming of womenâbrown women that he would hold in his arms when he got ashore. He used to plan the detail of his love-making until when the dream became a reality and he was actually ashore, he went half-mad with a frenzied kind of hunger that drove the women away from him. When he was younger, he didn't have any trouble getting womenâyoung, well-built women. It didn't worry him that they left him after a few days because he could always find others to take their places.
After he left the sea, he had a succession of jobs as a night watchman. And he was alone again. It was worse than the ships. Because he had to sit in the basements and the hallways of vast, empty buildings that were filled with shadows, and the only sound that came to his cars was that made by some occasional passer-by whose footsteps echoed and re-echoed in his eardrums. Until finally he couldn't stand it any more and got a job as super in a building in Harlem because that way there would be people around him all the time.
He had been on 116th Street for five years. He knew the cellars and the basements in this street better than he knew the outside of streets just a few blocks away. He had fired furnaces and cleaned stairways and put washers in faucets and grown gaunter and lonelier as the years crept past him. He had gone from a mattress by a furnace to basement rooms until finally here in this house he had three rooms to himselfârent free.
But now that he had an apartment of his own, he had grown so much older he found it more and more difficult to get a woman to stay with him. Even women who wanted a refuge and who couldn't hope to find one anywhere else stayed only three months or so and then were gone. He had thought he would see more people as super of a building, but he was still surrounded by silence. For the tenants didn't like him and the only time they had anything to do with him was when a roof leaked or a windowpane came out or something went wrong with the plumbing. And so he had developed the habit of spending his spare time outside the buildings in which he worked; looking at the women who went past, estimating them, wanting them.
It was all of three years since he had had a really young woman. The last young round one left after three days of his violent love-making. She had stood in the door and screamed at him, her voice high and shrill with rage. âYou old goat!' she said. âYou think I'm goin' to stay in this stinkin' apartment with you slobberin' over me day after day?'
After her the succession of drab, beaten, middle-aged women started again. As a result he wanted this young oneâthis Lutie Johnsonâworse than he had ever wanted anything in his life. He had watched her ever since she moved in. She was crazy about her kid. So he had gone out of his way to be friends with him.
âHey, kid, go get me a pack of smokes,' and he would give the kid a nickel for going. Or, âRun around the corner and get a paper for me,' giving him a couple of pennies when he came back with the paper.
They planned the shoeshine box together and made it in the basement. He brought a hammer and a saw down, fished a piece of old carpet out of the rubbish, got the nails to tack it on with, and showed the kid how to hold the hammer.
âGee, Mom'll be proud of me,' Bub had said. He was sweating and he leaned back on his knees to grin up at the Super.
The man shifted his weight uneasily. He had been standing close to the furnace at the time and he remembered how difficult it was to keep from frowning, for standing there looking down at the kid like that he saw the roundness of his head, how sturdily his body was built, the beginnings of what would be a powerful chest, the straightness of his legs, how his hair curled over his forehead.
And he suddenly hated the child with a depth of emotion that set him trembling. He looks like whoever the black bastard was that used to screw her, he thought, and his mind fastened on the details. He could fairly see Lutie, brown and long-legged, pressed tight against the body of that other man, a man with curly hair and a broad chest and straight back and legs.
âDamn him,' he muttered.
âWhatsamatter, Supe?' Bub asked. âHey, you look sick.'
âGo away,' the man motioned violently as the boy stood up. He had felt that if the child should touch him he would try to kill him. Because the child was an exact replica of his fatherâthat unknown man who had held Lutie in his arms, caressed her breasts, felt her body tremble against him. He
watched the child back away from him, saw that his eyes were wide with fear, and by a prodigious effort he controlled himself. Don't scare the kid, he told himself. And again, Don't scare the kid. You'll scare off the mother if you do and she's what you wantâwhat you gotta have.
âI got a headache,' he muttered. âCome on and let's tack the carpet on the seat.'
He forced himself to kneel down beside him and to hold the carpet taut while the kid nailed it in place. The kid lifted the hammer and began swinging it with a regular rhythm, up and down, down and up. Watching him he had thought, When he grows up he's going to be strong and big like his father. The thought made him draw away from the nearness of the boy who was so like the fatherâthat man who had Lutie when she was a virgin. He couldn't look at the child again after thinking that, so he stared at the dust and the accumulation of grime on the furnace pipes that ran overhead.
Now standing here on the street watching Lutie walk toward the corner, he was aware that Mrs. Hedges was looking at him from her window. He was filled with a vast uneasiness, for he was certain that she could read his thoughts. Sometimes standing out on the street like this, he forgot she was there, and he would stare hungry-eyed at the women who went past. Some movement she made would attract his attention and he would look toward the window to find that she was sitting there blandly observing him.
When Lutie disappeared around the corner, he looked up and Mrs. Hedges leaned toward him, smiling.
âAin't no point in you lickin' your chops, dearie,' she said. âThere's others who are interested.'
He frowned up at her. âWhat you talkin' about?'
âMis' Johnson, of course. Who you think I'm talkin' about?' She leaned farther out of the window. âI'm just tellin' you for your own good, dearie. There ain't no point in you gettin' het up over her. She's marked down for somebody else.'
She was still smiling, but her eyes were so unfriendly that he looked away, thinking, She ain't never been able to mind her own business. If he could he would have had her locked up long ago. She oughtta be in jail, anyway, running the kind of place she did.
He had hated her ever since he had dropped a hint to her one afternoon, after months of looking at the round young girls who lived with her. He had said, âKin I come in some night?' He had made his voice soft and tried to say it in such a way that she would know instantly what it was he wanted.
âYou got anything you want to talk about, you kin say it at the window, dearie. I'm always a-settin' right here where folks kin see me.' She said it coldly, and loud enough so that anyone passing on the street could hear her.
He was so furious and frustrated that he made up his mind to find some way of getting even with her. There must be, he finally decided, some kind of complaint he could make to the police. He asked the super next door about it.
âSure,' the man said. âRunnin' a disorderly house. Go down to the precinct and tell 'em.'
The cop he talked to at the station house was
young, and Jones thought he acted real pleased when he heard what he had come for. He began filling out a long printed form. Everything was all right until a lieutenant came in and looked over the cop's shoulder as he wrote.
âWhat's the woman's name?' he asked sharply, though he was looking right at it where the cop had written it on the paper.
âMis' Hedges,' the Super said eagerly, and thought, Maybe there's something else against her and she'll get locked up for a long time. Perhaps she would spend the rest of her life sticking her fat head out between jail bars. That red bandanna of hers would look real good in a jail-house yard.
The lieutenant frowned at him and pursed up his lips. âHow do you know this is true?'
âI'm the super of the building,' he explained.
âEver hear any noise? Do the neighbors complain? People in the house complain?'
âNo,' he said slowly. âBut I see them girls she's got there. And men go in and out.'
âThe girls room there? Or do they come in from the street?'
âThey rooms there,' he said.
The lieutenant reached out and took the paper away from the cop and the cop's pen sort of slid across it because he was still writing on it. The lieutenant tore it up into little fine pieces and the pieces drifted slowly out of his hands into a wastebasket near the desk. The cop's face turned redder and redder as he watched the pieces fall into the basket.
The lieutenant said, âThat isn't enough evidence
for a complaint,' and turned on his heel and walked out.
Jones and the cop stared at each other. When Jones started toward the door, he could hear the cop swearing softly under his breath. He went back and stood outside the building. He couldn't figure it out. Everything had been all right until the lieutenant came in. The cop was taking it all down and then suddenly, âNot enough evidence.'
He asked the super next door what that meant. âYou gotta get people to complain about her. And then take 'em down to the station with you,' the man explained.
Jones tried out the people in the house. He talked to some of the women first, keeping his voice casual. âThat Mis' Hedges is runnin' a bad place downstairs. She hadn't oughta live here.'
All he got were indignant looks. âMis' Hedges' girls come up here and looked after me when I was sick.' Or, âMis' Hedges keeps her eye on Johnnie after school.'
âThem girls she's got in there ain't no good,' he argued.
âGood's most of the folks round here. And they minds they own business. You leave Mis' Hedges alone'âand the door would slam in his face.
The men roared with laughter. âWotsa matter, Poppa? Won't she let you buy nothin' in there?' Or, âGo on, man, them gals is the sweetest things on the block.' âHell, she's got a refined place in there. What you kickin' about?'
And so there was nothing he could do about Mrs. Hedges. He had resigned himself to just looking at the young girls who lived in her apartment and the
sight of them further whetted his appetite for a young woman of his own. In a sense Mrs. Hedges even spoiled his daily airings on the street, for he became convinced that she could read his mind. His eyes no sooner fastened on some likely looking girl than he became aware of Mrs. Hedges looming larger than life itself in the windowâlooking at him, saying nothing, just looking, and, he was certain, reading his mind.
He was certain about her being able to read his mind because shortly after he tried to have her locked up the white agent who collected the rents from him said to him, âI'd advise you to leave Mrs. Hedges alone.'
âI ain't done nothin' to her,' he said sullenly.
âYou tried to get her locked up, didn't you?'
He had stared at the man in astonishment. How could he know that? He hadn't said anything to the tenants about having her put in jail. Thus he began to believe that she could sit in her window and look at him and know exactly what he was thinking. It frightened him so that he didn't enjoy his visits to the street. He could only stand there for a little while at a time, for whenever he looked up at her she was looking at him with a derisive smile playing about her mouth.
âShe's always sittin' in the window,' he had said defensively to the white agent.
The man threw his head back and roared. âYou want her locked up for just sitting in the window? You're crazy.' He suddenly stopped laughing and a sharp note came in his voice. âJust remember that you're to leave her alone.'
They were all on her side, he thought. And then he remembered that he was still standing on the street and she was looking at him. He wished he could think of a cutting reply to make to her, but he couldn't, so he whistled to the dog and went in the house stifling an impulse to shake his fist at her.
He turned on the radio in the living room and slumped down in the shabby chair near it. He didn't turn his head at the sound of a key being timidly turned in the lock. He knew it was Min, the shapeless woman who lived with him. He had got to know her when she stopped at his door every two weeks to pay her rent. He was living alone at the time, for the last shabby woman who stayed with him had been gone for nearly two months.
Min used to sit and talk to him while he wrote out her rent receipt, and linger in the doorway afterward talking, talking, talking. One day when she came down to his door, the keys of her apartment were dangling loose from her hand. Usually she held them tightly clutched in her palm as though they represented something precious. âI gotta move,' she said simply.