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Authors: Deena Ward
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The Submissive's Last Word (The Power to Please #4)
The Submissive’s Last
Word
The Power to Please,
Book 4
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Deena Ward
Book Description
The powerful conclusion to Nonnie Crawford’s remarkable
journey
Despondent and adrift, Nonnie lingers in self-enforced
exile on Gibson Reeve’s estate. The daunting task of rebuilding her life seems
more than she can face.
I’d never been anywhere so magical, so perfectly easy,
and maybe that was why I couldn’t make a plan, why I couldn’t move. Any plans I
might make involved leaving. No one in their right mind would want to leave
this place. Or these people.
Or one powerful man in particular, a man who visited me
in my dreams and called me beautiful, who touched me in a way that made me
believe no one had ever humiliated or degraded me. With him I felt whole again.
Maybe only with him. Maybe only here.
How could I move if the only path I could travel led me
away from what I needed most?
Nonnie has more allies than she realizes, chief among them
Gibson Reeves. His knowledge can help her heal, if only she’ll trust him and
listen to some hard truths.
Trust and truth. They’ll need
both as they try to find their way back to one another, while they struggle to
earn indestructible love ... and when at long last, they reach to claim the
ultimate power to please.
“Toy!”
I slowly opened my eyes to the familiar call.
“Toy! Where are you?”
I blinked sleepily in the afternoon sun and looked out over
the sweeping expanse of lawn. There he was, rounding the side of the greenhouse
with a fifty-pound bag of fertilizer slung over his shoulder, the perfect
specimen of tanned male beefcake.
He raised his head at the sound of the distant command, then
took off up the rise at a brisk trot, his tree-trunk thighs making easy work of
the climb. Even from my distance, I could see the smile on his face and the
determined set of his square jaw.
He was Toy. I knew him by no other name. His mistress was
calling him, and he would have been unwise to keep her waiting. Even on her
kindest days, she was a demanding lady, this Mistress Paulina Martin, keeper of
the estate’s grounds and of one muscle-bound boytoy.
I’d been staying at the estate for two weeks, and I’d
settled into the flow of things with more ease than I thought possible. In the
beginning, it was jarring to be strolling the grounds or relaxing on my porch
only to have a 250-pound body-builder pop around a corner and race across the
grass pushing a wheelbarrow loaded with sod.
It wasn’t so much the man himself that was startling, though
his form was arresting. No, it was what he wore, or rather, wasn’t wearing.
Toy’s apparel consisted of a skimpy leather loincloth, thick leather cuffs on
wrists and ankles, and a leather collar around his neck. That was it.
Startling, most definitely.
I shaded my eyes and searched for Paulina. I spotted her off
by the edge of the orchard. Though she was distant, I could tell by her stiff,
upright pose that she was displeased with her sub. Her platinum hair flashed in
the sunlight, and I thought I could see her boot-clad foot tapping impatiently.
Uh-oh, I thought, feeling a touch of sympathy for Toy.
A deep male voice sounded beside me. “He’s in for it this
time, I fear.”
I glanced to my right and smiled. It was Xavier Martin. He
stepped up next to my lounger, gazing after the racing Toy and his impatient
mistress.
“I was just thinking the same thing,” I said.
Xavier smiled down at me. “It’s fortunate then, that Toy
enjoys being in for it.”
I returned his smile. “Do you think he deliberately drags
his feet?”
“That’s precisely what I think. I’ve told Paulina she needs
to crack down on that sort of thing but she won’t listen. Ah, well, it’s her
business, no?”
I nodded. Yep. I supposed it was. Odd, this conversation,
another thing that took some getting used to. Xavier and Paulina were married,
and Paulina was Xavier’s sub, but she was also Toy’s mistress, and Xavier was
like a dominant trainer for Paulina, yet he didn’t have any sexual dealings
with Toy himself. Convoluted stuff. Took me a while to work it all out.
Xavier nodded at the equipment he held. “I thought I’d catch
some fish for dinner. I brought a pole for you. Care to join me?”
I didn’t want to go, but I couldn’t say no. He knew it, too.
Both he and Paulina were often after me to stay busy, to keep my mind off my
troubles. I found it impossible to deny the wishes of these people who cared
for me, provided me with meals and support. If they wanted a hand now and then,
there was no way I could say no.
“Sure,” I answered, “but let me run back to my place and
change clothes. I don’t need anything else ruined by fish guts.”
“Consider those smelly guts your badge of honor for
mastering a new task.”
“Yeah, well, I think that badge would look best on an old
t-shirt that’s already stained.”
“I’ll meet you at the dock.” He headed off down the lawn
toward the small lake.
I managed to slowly heave myself out of the low-slung lounge
chair. It wasn’t far to my cottage, and I was in no hurry. That was one of the
things about life on the estate; I never felt like I was in a hurry. Even with
Toy constantly racing around the place, I felt no pressure to imitate him.
I’d allowed myself to fall into life at this place too
easily, I knew. Part of the reason for this was the warm way Xavier and Paulina
had welcomed me into their realm. Another part was that this was Gibson Reeve’s
home, and I wanted to be close to him. In a way, I needed it.
Then there was the estate itself. The grounds were immense,
with greenhouses and orchards, multiple gardens and barns and a huge stocked
lake. There were flower trails and wooded trails and even a sort of grassy
trail that was kept wild and untended. I’d found numerous small streams and
clever little hidden grottos during my hikes in the forest.
Wildlife was abundant, with birds galore, woodland, nesting,
water fowl, guineas and peacocks roaming the lawns. Small animals like
squirrels and rabbits scampered everywhere. I’d spotted deer wandering the
property. One foggy morning I thought I saw a bear, but Xavier laughed at me
and said that was unlikely.
This place was unto itself, and it sucked you into it. I
felt like I never had to leave it for anything. I could catch fish for my
supper, and pick vegetables from the greenhouses or the late summer gardens.
Everything was provided.
Well, almost everything. Gibson wasn’t around much. But
besides that annoying detail, life on the estate was practically perfect.
It reminded me of when I was a child and spent my summers at
my grandparents’ farm. My parents never made much time for me, but my
grandparents always seemed to love my company. They never complained that I
tagged after them too much, or that I asked too many questions. They never
acted like I bothered them.
For two glorious months every year, I lived on my
grandparents’ farm. It wasn’t a profitable enterprise, that farm. Both Grandpa
and Grandma had to hold down full-time jobs in town, so the farm wasn’t a
business for them, but rather a labor of love.
I would happily traipse after Grandpa as he did his chores,
feeding the cows and chickens, slopping the pigs. He’d let me pitch in, always
giving me something to do that made me feel useful. And he listened to my
chatter and chattered right back.
Grandma let me help her in the kitchen and with her
gardening chores. She taught me how to crack eggs and how to properly fold a
shirt. Over the course of the summer, she fed me a million warm, chocolate chip
cookies.
The summer when I was twelve years old, my grandfather was
badly injured in an accident at work. I was staying at the farm at the time,
and I would forever remember sitting at the hospital next to my grandmother,
her hand tightly wrapped around mine when the doctor told us that my
grandfather might never walk again.
My parents came and took me home the next day. I fought them
like I had never fought before. I wanted to stay, to help take care of Grandpa,
to help Grandma. I was old enough to be of help, and I would always believe
that Grandma thought so as well.
My parents wouldn’t be persuaded, however. They dragged me
home, then shuttled me off to summer camp.
A month later, my mother called the camp and told me my
grandparents had died in a house fire. I never knew all the details, only that
their house caught fire and they were unable to make it out in time. I wasn’t
allowed to attend the funeral.
For years after that, whenever I thought of my grandparents,
I mentally created a scenario where my parents allowed me to stay on the farm
to help with Grandpa’s convalescence. The what-ifs were a nagging barrage. I
imagined myself smelling the smoke from the fire, running into my grandparents’
bedroom, waking them up, and helping to get my grandfather out of the house.
Just in time. Always just in time.
I was younger than them, more agile, and I would have
smelled the smoke sooner, would have been able to breathe it longer. I would
have saved them. And then they would have been alive, happy that I helped them.
They would let me live with them forever.
Sometimes, I imagined that I didn’t smell the smoke quickly
enough. Would I have sacrificed myself for them? I wondered. Yes, I would have,
I believed. If that had been what was needed to keep them alive and safe. Yes,
I would have sacrificed myself for them, those two people who cared for me and
liked me more than anyone else in the world.
What wouldn’t I have done for them if I’d had the chance?
But I wasn’t given the chance. It was taken from me, and I was only a child who
had no way to seize it for myself.
In many ways, Xavier Martin had become a substitute
grandfatherly figure to me. The way he listened, his careful advice, his aura
of comfortable knowledge, all these traits were reminiscent of that long-lost
figurehead. And he was close to my grandfather’s age when I was young. Xavier
had salt-and-pepper hair, a distinguished look about him, a fit and strong
physique, all of which reminded me of my grandfather.
Paulina, however, was not a grandmotherly type. She was a
force of nature, a changeable hot and cold whirlwind. Yes, she could be kind.
But sometimes, she could be brutally honest in a way that wasn’t kind in the
least. None of which is to say that I didn’t like her. I did like her.
She looked ten years younger than her actual age,
early-fifties. A beautiful, refined woman, she had a regal bearing and a
penetrating eye. In no way did she physically remind me of my soft and gentle
grandmother. No, Paulina did not play grandmother to Xavier’s grandfather.
I slipped into my cottage and quickly changed into my
oldest, rattiest clothes. I say “cottage,” which implies it was small. It was
not small, in fact. It was the largest home I had lived in since I left my
parents’ house.
The cottage was a one-story structure, with four bedrooms,
four full baths, two half-baths, two living rooms, a study, a workroom/studio,
a huge kitchen, a dining room, a laundry room that would have made a
professional laundress proud, two screened porches and a large deck out the
back. Really, now. A cottage? Hardly my idea of one. If this was how the three
bears lived, no wonder Goldilocks wanted to hang out there.
I felt the least at ease on the estate when I rambled around
the cottage. After living for so long in the confines of small, one bedroom
apartments, this place was over-sized, and it seemed too much of the space went
unused.
It was a beautiful home, though, designed to complement the
rest of the buildings on the estate, all of which mimicked the look of an aged
Italian villa and grounds. There was even a small vineyard. No olive trees,
though. Maybe they wouldn’t grow in this part of the country. I had never
thought to ask Paulina about it and knew nothing about horticulture myself.
As I strolled down the lawn, taking a shortcut to the
lakeside, I heard Toy off in the distance, shouting something. It sounded like
grunts. I realized then what it was. He was counting. I grinned. I could
picture what was happening.
Toy would be on the ground, doing pushups as penance for his
sins, loudly counting out each completed one. Paulina would be sitting on his
back, her legs crossed off to one side. She’d be looking thoroughly bored and
would occasionally encourage the muscled hulk to go faster by tapping his bare
bottom with her ever-handy riding crop.
Yep, I’d seen that often enough to know exactly what was
happening over by the orchard. Everyone on the estate had seen it at one time
or another, and there were quite a few people who worked there. One had to have
an open mind to be employed at this place.
When I arrived at the lake, Xavier sat on the dock, his line
already in the water, the red bobber floating on the blue surface.
I sat down a few feet away and readied my own line. I didn’t
have a clue how to fish when I first moved in, but Xavier had taught me much in
a short time. With an ease that made me feel proud, I loaded up my hook with
Xavier’s special, super-smelly, home-made bait.
I flicked my wrist and sent the line sailing, noting with no
small satisfaction that the hook went where I wanted it to go. I held the pole
between my knees and opened the water bottle I’d brought with me, taking a few
swigs before settling down to the serious business of doing absolutely nothing.
“Toy’s doing push-ups,” I said.
Xavier gazed out over the calm surface of the lake. “She let
him off easy. Must be in a good mood.”
I smiled.
“It’s probably because Gibson’s coming home tonight.”
My heart thudded. Gibson. Home. Tonight. Oh my. “Oh,” I
said, feigning ease that I suspected Xavier wouldn’t buy. “I thought he wasn’t
due for a few more days.”
“Change of plans. He should be home in time for dinner.”
“Oh.”
We sat in silence, my heart skipping more than a few beats.
I hadn’t seen Gibson often since I’d been living on the estate, a handful of
times only, and those were brief and awkward. Mostly, he’d given me updates on
what was happening with his continuing efforts to rid the universe of any and
all copies of the pornographic videos Michael Weston had posted of me on the
Internet and sold as DVDs.
Gibson was relentless in his quest, and successful. I didn’t
think the universe would have the cojones to deny him. As of his latest update,
all known DVDs had been confiscated, and there had been no sign of my videos on
the Internet for days and days.
I always welcomed his news and took comfort from it. But
more than that, I welcomed conversation with him. I longed to know what, if
anything, was left between us. Was a future possible? Could he care for me, be
with me, as something more than a casual partner, after what happened? Those were
questions I longed to have answered.
“He called this morning to let me know,” Xavier said. “Told
me to invite you over for dinner at the big house.”
“Oh, huh.”
“Doubt he realized I’d have you catching your own supper,
though, eh?”