The Sun Also Rises (17 page)

Outside the Bar Milano
I found Bill and Mike and Edna. Edna was the girl's name.

“We've been thrown out,” Edna said.

“By the police,” said Mike. “There's some people in there that don't like me.”

“I've kept them out of four fights,” Edna said. “You've got to help me.”

Bill's face was red.

“Come back in, Edna,” he said. “Go on in there and dance with Mike.”

“It's silly,” Edna said. “There'll just be another row.”

“Damned Biarritz swine,” Bill said.

“Come on,” Mike said. “After all, it's a pub. They can't occupy a whole pub.”

“Good old Mike,” Bill said. “Damned English swine come here and insult Mike and try and spoil the fiesta.”

“They're so bloody,” Mike said. “I hate the English.”

“They can't insult Mike,” Bill said. “Mike is a swell fellow. They can't insult Mike. I won't stand it. Who cares if he is a damn bankrupt?” His voice broke.

“Who cares?” Mike said. “I don't care. Jake doesn't care. Do
you
care?”

“No,” Edna said. “Are you a bankrupt?”

“Of course I am. You don't care, do you, Bill?” Bill put his arm around Mike's shoulder.

“I wish to hell I was a bankrupt. I'd show those bastards.”

“They're just English,” Mike said. “It never makes any difference what the English say.”

“The dirty swine,” Bill said. “I'm going to clean them out.”

“Bill,” Edna looked at me. “Please don't go in again, Bill. They're so stupid.”

“That's it,” said Mike. “They're stupid. I knew that was what it was.”

“They can't say things like that about Mike,” Bill said.

“Do you know them?” I asked Mike.

“No. I never saw them. They say they know me.”

“I won't stand it,” Bill said.

“Come on. Let's go over to the Suizo,” I said.

“They're a bunch of Edna's friends from Biarritz,” Bill said.

“They're simply stupid,” Edna said.

“One of them's Charley Blackman, from Chicago,” Bill said.

“I was never in Chicago,” Mike said.

Edna started to laugh and could not stop.

“Take me away from here,” she said, “you bankrupts.”

“What kind of a row was it?” I asked Edna. We were walking across the square to the Suizo. Bill was gone.

“I don't know what happened, but someone had the police called to keep Mike out of the back room. There were some people that had known Mike at Cannes. What's the matter with Mike?”

“Probably he owes them money,” I said. “That's what people usually get bitter about.”

In front of the ticket-booths out in the square there were two lines of people waiting. They were sitting on chairs or crouched on the ground with blankets and newspapers around them. They were waiting for the wickets to open in the morning to buy tickets for the bullfight. The night was clearing and the moon was out. Some of the people in the line were sleeping.

At the Café Suizo we had just sat down and ordered Fundador when Robert Cohn came up.

‘‘Where's Brett?” he asked.

“I don't know.”

“She was with you.”

“She must have gone to bed.”

“She's not.”

“I don't know where she is.”

His face was sallow under the light. He was standing up.

“Tell me where she is.”

“Sit down,” I said. “I don't know where she is.”

“The hell you don't!”

“You can shut your face.”

“Tell me where Brett is.”

“I'll not tell you a damn thing.”

“You know where she is.”

“If I did I wouldn't tell you.”

“Oh, go to hell, Cohn,” Mike called from the table. “Brett's gone off with the bullfighter chap. They're on their honeymoon.”

“You shut up.”

“Oh, go to hell!” Mike said languidly.

“Is that where she is?” Cohn turned to me.

“Go to hell!”

“She was with you. Is that where she is?”

“Go to hell!”

“I'll make you tell me”—he stepped forward—“you damned pimp.”

I swung at him and he ducked. I saw his face duck sideways in the light. He hit me and I sat down on the pavement. As I started to get on my feet he hit me twice. I went down backward under a table. I tried to get up and felt I did not have any legs. I felt I must get on my feet and try and hit him. Mike helped me up. Someone poured a carafe of water on my head. Mike had an arm around me, and I found I was sitting on a chair. Mike was pulling at my ears.

“I say, you were cold,” Mike said. “Where the hell were you?”

“Oh, I was around.”

“You didn't want to mix in it?”

“He knocked Mike down, too,” Edna said.

“He didn't knock me out,” Mike said. “I just lay there.”

“Does this happen every night at your fiestas?” Edna asked.

“Wasn't that Mr. Cohn?”

“I'm all right,” I said. “My head's a little wobbly.”

There were several waiters and a crowd of people standing around.

“Vaya!” said Mike. “Get away. Go on.”

The waiters moved the people away.

“It was quite a thing to watch,” Edna said. “He must be a boxer.”

“He is.”

“I wish Bill had been here,” Edna said. “I'd like to have seen Bill knocked down, too. I've always wanted to see Bill knocked down. He's so big.”

“I was hoping he would knock down a waiter,” Mike said, “and get arrested. I'd like to see Mr. Robert Cohn in jail.”

“No,” I said.

“Oh, no,” said Edna. “You don't mean that.”

“I do, though,” Mike said. “I'm not one of these chaps likes being knocked about. I never play games, even.”

Mike took a drink.

“I never liked to hunt, you know. There was always the danger of having a horse fall on you. How do you feel, Jake?”

“All right.”

“You're nice,” Edna said to Mike. “Are you really a bankrupt?”

“I'm a tremendous bankrupt,” Mike said. “I owe money to everybody. Don't you owe any money?”

“Tons.”

“I owe everybody money,” Mike said. “I borrowed a hundred pesetas from Montoya tonight.”

“The hell you did,” I said.

“I'll pay it back,” Mike said. “I always pay everything back.”

“That's why you're a bankrupt, isn't it?” Edna said.

I stood up. I had heard them talking from a long way away. It all seemed like some bad play.

“I'm going over to the hotel,” I said. Then I heard them talking about me.

“Is he all right?” Edna asked. “We'd better walk with him.”

“I'm all right,” I said. “Don't come. I'll see you all later.”

I walked away from the café. They were sitting at the table. I looked back at them and at the empty tables. There was a waiter sitting at one of the tables with his head in his hands.

Walking across the square to the hotel everything looked new and changed. I had never seen the trees before. I had never seen the flagpoles before, nor the front of the theatre. It was all different. I felt as I felt once corning home from an out-of-town football game. I was carrying a suitcase with my football things in it, and I walked up the street from the station in the town I had lived in all my life and it was all new. They were raking the lawns and burning leaves in the road, and I stopped for a long time and watched. It was all strange. Then I went on, and my feet seemed to be a long way off, and everything seemed to come from a long way off, and I could hear my feet walking a great distance away. I had been kicked in the head early in the game. It was like that crossing the square. It was like that going up the stairs in the hotel. Going up the stairs took a long time, and I had the feeling that I was carrying my suitcase. There was a light in the room. Bill carne out and met me in the hall.

“Say,” he said, “go up and see Cohn. He's been in a jam, and he's asking for you.”

“The hell with him.”

“Go on. Go on up and see him.”

I did not want to climb another flight of stairs. “What are you looking at me that way for?”

“I'm not looking at you. Go on up and see Cohn. He's in bad shape.”

“You were drunk a little while ago,” I said.

‘‘I'm drunk now,” Bill said. “But you go up and see Cohn. He wants to see you.”

“All right,” I said. It was just a matter of climbing more stairs.

I went on up the stairs carrying my phantom suitcase. I walked down the hall to Cohn's room. The door was shut and I knocked.

“Who is it?”

“Barnes.”

“Come in, Jake.”

I opened the door and went in, and set down my suitcase. There was no light in the room. Cohn was lying, face down, on the bed in the dark.

“Hello, Jake.”

“Don't call me Jake.”

I stood by the door. It was just like this that I had come home. Now it was a hot bath that I needed. A deep, hot bath, to lie back in.

“Where's the bathroom?” I asked.

Cohn was crying. There he was, face down on the bed, crying. He had on a white polo shirt, the kind he'd worn at Princeton.

“I'm sorry, Jake. Please forgive me.”

“Forgive you, hell.”

“Please forgive me, Jake.”

I did not say anything. I stood there by the door.

“I was crazy. You must see how it was.”

“Oh, that's all right.”

“I couldn't stand it about Brett.”

“You called me a pimp.”

I did not care. I wanted a hot bath. I wanted a hot bath in deep water.

“I know. Please don't remember it. I was crazy.”

“That's all right.”

He was crying. His voice was funny. He lay there in his white shirt on the bed in the dark. His polo shirt.

“I'm going away in the morning.”

He was crying without making any noise.

“I just couldn't stand it about Brett. I've been through hell, Jake. It's been simply hell. When I met her down here Brett treated me as though I were a perfect stranger. I just couldn't stand it. We lived together at San Sebastian. I suppose you know it. I can't stand it anymore.”

He lay there on the bed.

“Well,” I said, “I'm going to take a bath.”

“You were the only friend I had, and I loved Brett so.”

“Well,” I said, “so long.”

“I guess it isn't any use,” he said. “I guess it isn't any damn use.”

“What?”

“Everything. Please say you forgive me, Jake.”

“Sure,” I said. “It's all right.”

“I felt so terribly. I've been through such hell, Jake. Now everything's gone. Everything.”

‘Well,” I said, “so long. I've got to go.”

He rolled over, sat on the edge of the bed, and then stood up.

“So long, Jake,” he said. “You'll shake hands, won't you?”

“Sure. Why not?”

We shook hands. In the dark I could not see his face very well.

“Well,” I said, “see you in the morning.”

“I'm going away in the morning.”

“Oh, yes,” I said.

I went out. Cohn was standing in the door of the room.

“Are you all right, Jake?” he asked.

“Oh, yes,” I said. “I'm all right.”

I could not find the bathroom. After a while I found it. There was a deep stone tub. I turned on the taps and the water would not run. I sat down on the edge of the bathtub. When I got up to go I found I had taken off my shoes. I hunted for them and found them and carried them downstairs. I found my room and went inside and undressed and got into bed.

I woke with a headache and the noise of the bands going by in the street. I remembered I had promised to take Bill's friend Edna to see the bulls go through the street and into the ring. I dressed and went downstairs and out into the cold early morning. People were crossing the square, hurrying toward the bullring. Across the square were the two lines of men in front of the ticket booths. They were still waiting for the tickets to go on sale at seven o'clock. I hurried across the street to the café. The waiter told me that my friends had been there and gone.

“How many were they?”

“Two gentlemen and a lady.”

That was all right. Bill and Mike were with Edna. She had been afraid last night they would pass out. That was why I was to be sure to take her. I drank the coffee and hurried with the other people toward the bullring. I was not groggy now. There was only a bad headache. Everything looked sharp and clear, and the town smelt of the early morning.

The stretch of ground from the edge of the town to the bullring was muddy. There was a crowd all along the fence that led to the ring, and the outside balconies and the top of the bullring were solid with people. I heard the rocket and I knew I could not get into the ring in time to see the bulls come in, so I shoved through the crowd to the fence. I was pushed close against the planks of the fence. Between the two fences of the runway the police were clearing the crowd along. They walked or trotted on into the bullring. Then people commenced to come running. A drunk slipped and fell. Two policemen grabbed him and rushed him over to the fence. The crowd was running fast now. There was a great shout from the crowd, and putting my head through between the boards I saw the bulls just coming out of the street into the long running pen. They were going fast and gaining on the crowd. Just then another drunk started out from the fence with a blouse in his hands. He wanted to do cape work with the bulls. The two policemen tore out, collared him, one hit him with a club, and they dragged him against the fence and stood flattened out against the fence as the last of the crowd and the bulls went by. There were so many people running ahead of the bulls that the mass thickened and slowed up going through the gate into the ring, and as the bulls passed, galloping together, heavy, muddy-sided, horns swinging, one shot ahead, caught a man in the running crowd in the back and lifted him in the air. Both the man's arms were by his sides, his head went back as the horn went in, and the bull lifted him and then dropped him. The bull picked another man running in front, but the man disappeared into the crowd, and the crowd was through the gate and into the ring with the bulls behind them. The red door of the ring went shut, the crowd on the outside balconies of the bullring was pressing through to the inside, there was a shout, then another shout.