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He lowered himself to sit at the table where Otah's food lay abandoned.

There was a carafe of water and a porcelain bowl. As Otah sat, his boy

wet one of his sleeves and set about wiping the blood from around his

grin. Otah's first violent impulses to protect his son and punish his

assailant were disarmed by that smile. Not conquered, but disarmed.

 

"He and Ana-cha were haunting the path between the palaces and the

poet's house, just before the pond," Danat said. "We had words. He took

some exception to our demand that Ana-cha apologize. He suggested that I

should feel honored to have breathed the same air as his darling

chipmunk. Seriously, Papa. `Darling chipmunk."'

 

"It might be a Galtic endearment," he said, trying to match his son's

light tone.

 

Danat waved the thought away. It would be no more dignified, Otah

admitted to himself, because a whole culture said it. Danat went on.

 

"I said that my business wasn't with him, but with Ana-cha. He began

declaiming something in rhymed verse about him and his love being one

flesh. Ana-cha told him to stop, but he only started bellowing it."

 

"How did Ana-cha react?"

 

Danat's grin widened. Blood had pinked his teeth.

 

"She seemed a bit embarrassed. I began speaking to her as if he weren't

there. And ..."

 

Danat shrugged.

 

"He hit you?"

 

"I may have goaded him," Danat said. "A little."

 

Otah sat back, stunned. Danat raised his hands to a pose appropriate to

the announcement of victory in a game. Otah let himself smile too, but

there was a touch of melancholy behind it. His son was no longer the

ill, fragile child he'd known. That boy was gone. In his place was a

young man with the same instinct to rough-and-tumble as any number of

young men. The same as Otah had suffered once himself. It was so easy to

forget.

 

"I had the palace armsmen throw him in a cell," Danat said. "I've set a

guard on him in case anyone decides to defend my abused dignity by

killing him."

 

"Yes, that would complicate things," Otah agreed.

 

"Ana followed the whole way shrieking, but she was as angry at

Hanchat-cha as at me. Once I get to looking a bit less like an

apprentice showfighter's first night, I'm sending an invitation to

Ana-cha for a formal dinner at which we can further discuss her poor

treatment of our hospitality. And then I'm going to meet my new lover."

 

"Your new lover?"

 

"Shija Radaani has offered to play the role. I think she was flattered

to be asked. Issandra-cha is adamant that nothing makes a man worth

having like another woman smiling at him."

 

"Issandra-cha is a dangerous woman," Otah said.

 

"She is," Danat agreed.

 

They laughed together for a moment. Otah was the first to sober.

 

"Will it work, do you think?" he asked. "Can it be done?"

 

"Can I win Ana's heart and make her want what she's professed before

everyone of power in two empires that she hates?" Danat said. Saying it

that way, he sounded like his mother. "I don't know. And I can't say

what I feel about the way it's happening. I'm plotting against her. Her

own mother is plotting against her. I feel that I ought to disapprove.

That it isn't honest. And yet ..."

 

Danat shook his head. Otah took a querying pose.

 

"I'm enjoying myself," Danat said. "Whatever it says of me, I've been

struck bloody by a Galt boy, and I feel I've scored a point in some game.

 

"It's an important game."

 

Danat rose. He took a pose that promised his best effort, appropriate to

a junior competitor to his teacher, and left.

 

There had to be some way that he could aid in Danat's task, but for the

moment, he couldn't think what it might be. Perhaps if there was a way

to arrange some sort of isolation for the two. A journey, perhaps, to

Yalakeht. Or, no, there was the conspiracy with Obar State there that

still hadn't been rooted out. Well, Cetani, then. Something long and

arduous and cold by the time they got there. And without the bastard

who'd struck his son ...

 

Otah finished his fish and rice, lingering over a last bowl of wine and

looking out at the small garden. It was, he thought, the size of the

walled yard at the wayhouse Kiyan had owned before she became his first

and only wife and he became the Khai Machi. That little space of green

and white, of finches in the branches and voles scuttling in the low

grass, might have been the size of his life.

 

Until the Galts came and slaughtered them all with the rest of Udun.

 

And instead, he had the world, or most of it. And a son. And, however

little she liked it, a daughter. And Kiyan's ashes and his memory of

her. But it had been a pretty little garden.

 

Otah returned to the waiting supplicants with his mind moving in ten

different directions at once. He did his best to focus on the work

before him, but everything seemed trivial. No matter that men's fortunes

lay in his decision. No matter that he was the final appeal for justice,

or if not that, at least peace. Or mercy. Justice and peace and mercy

all seemed insignificant when held next to duty. His duty to Chaburi-Tan

and all the other cities, to Danat and Eiah and the shape of the future.

By the time the sun sank in the western hills, he had almost forgotten

Idaan.

 

His sister waited for him in the apartments Sinja had found for her. She

looked out of place among the sweeping arches and intricately carved

stonework. Her hands were thick and calloused, her face roughened by

sun. Some servant had arranged a robe for her, well-cut silk of green

and cream. He considered her dark eyes and calm, weighing expression. He

could not forget that she had killed men coldly, with calculation. But

then so had he.

 

"Idaan-cha," he said as she rose. Her hands took a pose of greeting

formal as court, but made awkward by decades without practice. Otah

returned it.

 

"You've made a decision," she said.

 

"Actually, no. I haven't. I hope to by this time tomorrow. I'd like you

to stay until then."

 

Idaan's eyes narrowed, her lips pressed thin. Otah fought the urge to

step back.

 

"Forgive me if it isn't my place to ask, Most High. But is there

something more important going on than Maati bringing back the andat?"

 

"There are a hundred things that are more certain," Otah said. "He may

manage it, but the chances are that he won't. Meantime, I know for

certain of three ... four other things that are happening that could

unmake the cities of the Khaiem. I don't have time to play in might be."

 

He'd meant to turn at the end of his pronouncement and walk from the

rooms. Her voice was cutting.

 

"So instead, you'll wait until is?" Idaan said. "Or is it only that you

have too many apples in the air, and you're only a middling juggler?"

 

"I'm not in the mood to be-"

 

"Dressed down by a woman who's only breathing because you've chosen to

let her? Listen to yourself. You sound like the villain from some

children's bedtime story."

 

"Idaan-cha," he said, and then found that he had nothing to follow it.

 

"I've come to tell you that your old friend and enemy is harnessing

gods, and not for your benefit. It's the most threatening thing I can

imagine happening. And what's your response? You knew. You've known for

years. What's more, knowing now that he's redoubling his efforts, you

can't be bothered even to consider the question until you've cleared

your sheet of audiences? I've held a thousand opinions of you over the

years, brother, but I never thought you were stupid."

 

Otah felt rage bloom in his chest, rising like a fiery wave, only to die

with the woman's next words.

 

"It's the guilt, isn't it?" she said. When he didn't answer at once, she

nodded to herself. "You aren't the only one that's done this, you know."

 

"Been Emperor? Are there others?"

 

"Betrayed the people you loved," she said. "Come. Sit down. I still have

a little tea."

 

Almost to his surprise, Otah walked forward, sitting on a divan while

the former exile poured pale green tea into two carved bone bowls.

 

"After you set me free, I spent years without sleeping through a full

night. I'd dream of the people I'd ... the people I was responsible for.

Our father. Adrah. Danat. You never knew Danat, did you?"

 

"I named my son for him," Otah said. Idaan smiled, but there was a

sorrow in her eyes.

 

"He'd have liked that, I think. Here. Choose a bowl. I'll drink first if

you'd like. I don't mind."

 

Otah drank. It was overbrewed and sweetened with honey; sweet and

bitter. Idaan sipped at hers.

 

"After you sent me away, there was a time I went about the business of

living with what I'd done by working myself like a war slave," she said.

"Sunrise to dark, I did whatever it was I was doing until I could fall

down at the end half-dead and too tired to dream."

 

"It doesn't sound pleasant," Otah said.

 

"I did a lot of good," Idaan said. "You wouldn't guess it, but I

organized a constabulary through half of the low towns in the north. I

was actually a judge for a few years, if you'll picture that. I found

that meting out justice wasn't something I felt suited for, but I kept a

few murderers and rapists from making a habit of it. I made a few places

safer. I wasn't utterly ineffective, even though half the time I was too

tired to focus my eyes.

 

"And you think I'm doing the same thing?" Otah said. "You don't

understand what it is to be an emperor. All respect for whatever you did

after Machi, but I have hundreds of thousands of people relying upon me.

The politics of empire aren't like a few low towns organizing to keep

the local thugs in line."

 

"You also have a thousand servants," she said. "Dozens of high fami lies

who would do your bidding just for the status that comes from being

asked. Tell me, why did you go to Galt yourself? You have men and women

who'd have been ambassador for you."

 

"It needed me," Otah said. "If it had been someone lower, it wouldn't

have carried the weight."

 

"Ah, I see," she said. She sounded less than persuaded.

 

"Besides which, I don't have anything to feel guilt over."

 

"You broke the world," she said. "You ordered Maati and Cehmai to bind

that andat, and when it went feral on them and shredded every womb in

the cities, my own included, you threw your poets into the wind. Men who

trusted you and sacrificed for you. You became the heroic figure that

bound the cities together, and they became outcasts."

 

"Is that how you see it?"

 

Idaan put her bowl down softly on the stone table. Her black eyes held

his. She had a long face. Northern, like his own. He remembered that of

all the children of the old Khai Machi, he and Idaan had shared a mother.

 

"It doesn't matter how I see it," she said. "My opinion doesn't make the

world. Or unmake it. All that matters is what it actually is. So, tell

me, Most High, am I right?"

 

Otah shook his head and rose, leaving his tea bowl beside hers.

 

"You don't know me, Idaan-cha. We've spoken to each other fewer times

than I have fingers. I don't think you're in a position to judge my

motives."

 

"Yours, no," she said. "But I've made the mistakes you're making now.

And I know why I did."

 

"We aren't the same person."

 

She smiled now, her gaze cast down and her hands in a pose that accepted

correction and apologized for her transgression without making it clear

what transgression she meant.

 

"Of course not," she said. "I'll stay through tomorrow, Most High. In

case you come to a decision that I might be able to aid you with."

 

Otah left with the uncomfortable impression that his sister pitied him.

He made his way back to his apartments, ate half of the meal the

servants brought him, and refused the singers and musicians whose only

function in the world was to wait upon his whim. Instead, he took a

chair out to his balcony and sat in the starlight, looking south to the sea.

 

Thin clouds streaked the high air, and the ocean was a vast darkness.

The city that spilled down the hills before him glittered brighter than

the stars; torches and lanterns, candles and firekeepers' kilns. The

breeze smelled of smoke and salt and the lush flowers of early autumn.

He closed his eyes.

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