The Towers of Love

The Towers of Love

Stephen Birmingham

FOR

EDITHA GARDNER

BIRMINGHAM

One

They had been walking side by side along the old wood road behind the house and now, as they entered the broad field which the wood held at its centre, they moved apart. Edrita began carving a path for herself through the high grass, above him, to his right, and he took a leftward, lower course. Soon they were several hundred feet apart. The field was on a slope, surrounded by low hills of white pine and swampwood, and the road, when it entered the field, dissolved for a while in the grass. It reappeared, he remembered, somewhere on the other side of the field through a barely discernible opening in the trees, and continued down to the river. He wondered whether he could find that opening now. His father had christened this field, long ago, the Enchanted Valley, and he and Edrita had always called it that as children. It still possessed an air, he thought, of being somehow bewitched. Its location had an illogic that made it seem magical—hollowed, as it was, for no clear human reason out of the encircling miles of trees.

He stopped now and turned to watch Edrita. She was a slim brown figure moving steadily away from him across the dry field towards a solitary hemlock tree that stood at the field's uppermost corner. It was early spring, April, and the afternoon air was chilly. Edrita had put on, for their walk, her old beaver coat that was cut in a college-girl style with a big turn-up collar, deep cuffs, and slash pockets. He remembered this coat, or ones like it, from numberless football games. He was wearing an old Army field jacket that he had found in his closet and that he had forgotten ever owning, and doeskin trousers. He watched her for a moment, thinking she might turn, but when she did not turn he suddenly did not want her to turn and see him following her with his eyes like this, and so he turned quickly away, hands in his pockets, and continued in the direction he had been going. They walked on like this, in different directions, pretending to be oblivious of each other. Then he heard her calling him: “Hugh!”

He turned and waved to her.

“Come on up here!”

He stood hesitantly, then started trudging up the hill towards her. He was a little lame. “A little lame,” at least, was the way he always thought of it and, when it was necessary to, described it. He did not think of himself as having a limp, and, in the years since the polio, when he had been twelve, he had trained himself, through a trick of walking, a trick of throwing his weight a bit more to one side than to the other, to compensate for the fact that one leg was three-quarters of an inch shorter than the other, so that he did not feel that, technically, he did limp. It was a loping stride that bothered him mostly after long walks on city sidewalks, that fazed him only momentarily when he encountered such familiar obstacles as revolving doors, and that was hardly noticeable here, coming across the field whose contours he had known all his life. Still, when he reached her on her summit by the hemlock, he was a little out of breath, and to cover it he reached for a cigarette from the pack in his pocket.

“Remember this place?” she asked.

“Of course I do,” he said.

“We were going to build a house here.”

“Yes.”

“It looks different, though,” she said. “It looks smaller. It wouldn't hold much of a house.”

“It's not the world's greatest building lot,” he said. “Miles from everything.”

“Oh, but that was what we liked about it. That there wouldn't be anybody for miles and miles around.”

“Yes,” he said.

“You can see the river still,” she pointed.

“Yes.”

“But the trees are taller. Look at this little hemlock tree. Remember when we could jump over it? Now it's over our heads.”

He nodded.

“How many years has it been, Hugh?” she asked him.

“Ten or eleven, I guess,” he said.

“Oh, since we've been here together it's been more than that. Closer to fifteen I'd say.”

“Yes, I guess it has.”

She was smiling up at him and her breath, in the cold air, emerged in little smoky clouds. “Yes,” she said, and reaching up with her finger touched him just above the ear. “We're not getting any younger, Hugh. I see grey hairs.”

He laughed. “They're from worry, not old age,” he said.

“Never mind, I've got a few of those myself,” she said. “I simply have a very clever hairdresser.”

“Well, we're not exactly antiques,” he said.

“No, but—well, over thirty. We've passed that great barrier age. No use denying it, Hugh.”

“No,” he smiled, “no use denying it.”

“I wonder,” she said, looking around. “Did we ever find out who this land belonged to? Your family or mine?”

“I don't think we ever knew,” he said. “Nobody ever cared way back here where the property line went.”

“Well, if we'd married each other it wouldn't have mattered, would it?” she said.

“If we'd married each other, this would hardly have been the smartest place to live, would it? Right in both our families' back yards?”

“Oh, I don't know,” she said. “We didn't think about things like that then.”

“I guess not,” he said.

“Or if we did, we thought: How wonderful that none of them could see us, way back here. It would be like a hide-out. None of the Everetts or the Careys would be able to see what we were doing.”

“Yes,” he said.

They stood there silently for a moment, looking at the dark curve of the river between the bare tops of trees. Edrita laughed. “You
do
remember, I hope, that we were always going to marry each other,” she said.

“Oh, sure,” he said. “Sure, I remember.”

“Remember what the other kids in town used to say about our families?” she said. “Every time we went anywhere together, somebody would say, ‘The Everetts and the Careys, they think that they're the berries.'”

“Yes,” he said, “and I never knew why they said that.”

“Oh,
don't
you? I do.”

“Why?”

“Because the Everetts and the Careys
did
think they were the berries, of course. My family always thought they were the berries and so did yours.”

“Nonsense,” he said. “We never tried to lord it over anybody.”

“I'm not talking about lording it over anybody. What I mean is, well, you and Pansy and I went away to fancy boarding-schools and colleges and went to all the parties in New York. None of the other kids did things like that.”

“Well, that was just because—”

“It was just because we considered ourselves a little better than everybody else, that's all. Don't kid yourself about that, darling.”

He looked at her and wondered if she was laughing at him. Her “darling” was almost a mocking darling, the casual darling of a sophisticated young society woman who called everybody “darling.” “Well,” he said, “I don't see anything wrong with people wanting to give their children a proper education.”

“Now
that
,” she said, “sounds stuffy, darling.” Then she laughed. “But it only proves my point,” she said. “Anyway, it's a good thing the Everetts and the Careys never married each other.”

“Yes,” he said.

“Of course,” she said, “I sometimes think it's too bad my married name had to be Smith. Edrita Everett sounds better, don't you think? I always thought Edrita Everett was a more glamorous-sounding name. I used to think I'd keep that name if I ever became a movie star. I used to want to be a movie star. Either that or a spy. After I gave up wanting to be a nurse.”

“Edrita Everett would be a good name for either a spy or a movie star,” he said.

“Here I am now, just plain Mrs. Robert Smith, housewife. Even Edrita Carey would have had more style.”

“How is Bob?” he asked her, realising that she had not mentioned her husband since they had had their little reunion earlier this afternoon.

“Oh, Bob's fine. Working hard. Too busy with the pickle business to make this trip with me. It wouldn't be a picnic without pickles, you know. And we're coming fast into the picnic season. More and more pickles have to be potted for the picnics.”

“Of course,” he laughed. “Of course.”

“Isn't it dreadful? I mean what a dreadful business to be in. When I get back here I always find myself apologising for it. But in Chicago you don't need to apologise for being in pickles. Bob's in the biggest pickle-packing plant in Illinois. He's their original Peter Piper.”

“No need to apologise for being in pickles,” he said. “Everybody loves pickles.”

“It's a family business,” she said. “The brand they make is called ‘Ma Smith's Pickles.' I'm Ma Smith. Thank God they're not distributed here in the East. I'd never be able to live it down.” He laughed again and suddenly her tone became more defensive. “But seriously,” she said, “it's an excellent business, and Bob's been a wonderful husband. We've been very happy. We've bought a new house out in Lake Forest, and our little Patty's going to kindergarten there. Patty's five now. I have a wonderful nurse for her—everything I want.”

“I've never seen Patty,” he said.

“That's right, you haven't,” she said. “After all, we haven't seen each
other
for ten years. Well, I have some pictures of her back at the house, some snapshots I brought to show Mother. I'll show them to you if you'd like. Also some snapshots of our new house. We're very happy there.”

“I'm glad,” he said. He was beginning to feel easier with her now.

She tucked her hand in the crook of his elbow. “Let's go down and look at the brook,” she said.

They started down the hill towards the lower border of trees.

“How long will you be staying?” he asked her.

“Two weeks, I think. At least that's what I plan. How about you?”

“Well, my plans are still a little up in the air, as I told you.”

“Oh, yes. Well, isn't it fun we both turned up here, together? I suppose if I told Bob about it he'd think we planned it that way. An illicit reunion. Your wife would probably think so too.”

“Yes,” he said. “But we didn't.”

“No.” She laughed. “And that's too bad, isn't it? It's too bad we didn't plan it that way. That would have given them something to be jealous about, and that would have been good for them, wouldn't it?”

“Oh, I don't know,” he said.

“Hugh,” she said, “why did you come back?”

“Just for a visit,” he said.

“But you haven't come back for many visits like this, have you, in the last few years?”

“Oh, I've been back. For week-ends and things.”

“Yes, for week-ends and things. But not for an—an extended visit like this one. And all alone—without Anne. Have you?”

“No,” he said, not looking at her. “I suppose not.”

“Then why?” she asked.

“Well,” he said, “as I told you, I've sold my share in the agency, and I'm more or less between jobs. I thought that home would be as good a place as any to come to—to think things over, figure out exactly what my next step is going to be.”

“Oh,” she said, “I see.”

“So that's about it,” he said.

It wasn't quite true, he thought. But it would do, for now, for an explanation—for Edrita.

“How is Anne?” Edrita asked him.

“Anne is just fine.”

(“Please don't bring Anne with you,” his mother had said to him on the telephone. “Please—let's just make it an old-fashioned, homey little visit and talk. Just the two of us. Just the three of us—you, your father, and I. Just ourselves.”)

“And you and I,” Edrita said, “we'd never have been happy married to each other, would we? We'd have been a perfectly terrible married couple. It would have lasted—oh, I'd say it would have lasted three months at the most.” Her arm, in the soft beaver fur, was warm against his side.