The Vision (7 page)

“Nothing in the papers.”

“There will be this afternoon.”

A worried look crossed his face. He put a hand on her shoulder. “You’ve got to relax once in a while. You’ve got to let your head clear out now and then. Don’t run after this one, Mary. Forget about it. Please. For me?”

“I can’t forget,” she said unhappily. She wished desperately that she could.

 
 
Before leaving town, they stopped at an appliance store, chose and paid for an electric range and microwave oven for Dan Goldman.

Later they got off the freeway at Ventura to have lunch at a restaurant they knew. They ordered salads, manicotti, and a bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon by Robert Mondavi.

From their table they had a view of the ocean. The slate-gray water looked like a mirror reflecting the turbulent sky. The surf was high and fast. A few gulls swooped along the shoreline.

“It’ll be good to get home,” Max said. “We should be in Bel Air before two o’clock.”

“The way you drive, we’ll be there long before.”

“We can go over to Beverly Hills for a few hours of Christmas shopping.”

“Since we’re going to get home in time, I’d rather see my analyst. I’ve got a four-thirty appointment. I’ve been missing too many of them lately. I’ll do my shopping tomorrow. Besides, I haven’t given any thought to Christmas gifts. I don’t have any idea what to get you.”

“I can see your problem,” he said. “I
am
the man who has everything.”

“Oh, are you?”

“Naturally. I have you.”

“That’s corny.”

“But I mean it.”

“You make me blush.”

“That’s never been difficult.”

She put her right hand to her cheek. “I can feel it. I wish I could control it.”

“I’m glad you can’t,” he said. “It’s charming. It’s a sign of your innocence.”

“Me? Innocent?”

“As a baby,” he said.

“Remember me in bed last night?”

“How could I forget?”

“Was that innocence?”

“That was heaven.”

“So there.”

“But you’re still blushing.”

“Oh, drink your wine and shut up.”

“Still blushing,” he said.

“I’m flushed from the wine.”

“Still blushing.”

“Damn you,” she said affectionately.

“Still
blushing.”

She laughed.

Beyond the window thick curdled clouds continued to roll in from the ocean.

Over the spumoni and coffee Mary asked, “What do you think of adoption?”

He shook his head in mock despair. “We’re too old to find parents now. Who would want kids as big as us?”

“Be serious,” she said.

He stared at her for a long moment, then put down his spoon without eating the spumoni on it. “You really mean you and me ... adopting a child?”

She was encouraged by the wonder in his voice. “We’ve talked about having a family,” she said.

“And since I’ll never be able to have a baby of my own...”

“But maybe you will.”

“No, no,” she said. “The doctor made that very clear to me.”

“Doctors have been known to be mistaken.”

“Not this time,” she said, almost too softly to be heard.

“There’s too much wrong ... inside of me. I’ll never have a baby, Max. Never.”

“Adoption ...” Max thought about it while he sipped his coffee. Gradually he began to grin. “Yeah. It would be nice. A cute little baby girl.”

“I was thinking about a little boy.”

“Well, sure as hell this is one thing we can’t compromise on.”

“We can,” she said quickly. “We’ll adopt a girl
and
a boy.”

“You’ve thought of everything, haven’t you?”

“Oh, Max, you really do like the idea. I can tell. We could talk to an adoption agency this week. And if—”

“Hold on,” he said, his smile fading. “We’ve been married only four months. We should take our time, get to know each other and ourselves better than we do. Then we’ll be
ready
for children.”

She didn’t hide her disappointment. “How long will that take?”

“It’ll take as long as it takes. Six months ... a year.”

“Look, I know you. You know me. We love each other and we like each other. We’ve got intelligence, common sense, and loads of money. What else do we need to be good parents?”

“We need to be at peace with ourselves, in ourselves,” he said.

“You don’t fight anymore. You’re at peace with yourself.”

“I’m only halfway there,” he said. “And you’ve got things to face, too.”

Defiantly, although she knew the answer, she said, “Like what?”

“You’ve got to face up to what happened twenty-four years ago, remember what you’ve refused to remember ... every detail of the beating you took ... everything about what that man did to you when you were six years old. Until you come to terms with that, you’ll continue to have the nightmares. You’ll never know real peace of mind until those memories are confronted and exorcised.”

She tossed her head, throwing her long hair over her shoulders. “I don’t have to face what happened then to be a good parent now.”

“I think you do,” he said.

“But Max, there are so many kids without homes, without hope or a future. Right now we could give two of them—”

He squeezed her hand. “You’re playing Atlas again. Mary, I understand you. There’s more love in you than in anyone I’ve ever known. You want to share it
_;
that’s the meaning of you. And I promise you’ll have the opportunity. But adoption is a big step. We’ll take it only when we’re ready.”

She couldn’t get angry. She smiled and said, “I’ll wear you down. I promise.”

He sighed. “You probably will.”

 
 
Mary didn’t like to drive fast. When she was nine years old her father died in an accident. She’d been in the car when it happened. To her, the automobile was a treacherous machine.

As a passenger, she endured high speeds only when Max was at the wheel. With him in command, she was able to relax and even to feel exhilarated as the scenery whipped past her window. Max was her guardian. He watched over her and protected her. It was inconceivable that anything bad could happen to her when she was with him.

He took great pleasure in handling the Mercedes at speeds that tested his skills and his ability to avoid police detection. He enjoyed the car as much as he did his gun collection
_;
and when he drove, he was as single-minded as when he made love. On a long, uncrowded straight stretch of freeway, with all his attention riveted on the car beneath him and on the blurred pavement that succumbed to him, he rarely had patience for conversation. He looked like a bird of prey, flint-eyed, silent, hunched over the steering wheel.

When he drove like that, Mary could see the recklessness, the taste for excitement and violence that had gotten him into dozens of fights. Oddly, she wasn’t frightened by that aspect of him
_;
instead, she found him more attractive than ever.

They rocketed toward Los Angeles at ninety miles an hour.

 
 
The eighteen-room English Tudor house in Bel Air looked cool and elegant in the shade of thirty-foot trees. The two-acre estate had cost her virtually every dollar that she had earned from her first two best-sellers, but she had never regretted the cost.

When they parked in the circular drive, Emmet Churchill came out to greet them. He had gray hair and a neat mustache. He was sixty years old, but his face was unlined. A life in service had been remarkably agreeable to both Emmet and his wife. “Good trip, Mr. Bergen?”

“Fine,” Max said. “Had it up to one-twenty for a few miles, and Mary didn’t scream once.”

“I would have,” Emmet said.

Mary had expected to find another Mercedes in the driveway. “Isn’t Alan home?”

“He stopped by for fresh clothes,” Emmet said. “But he was anxious to be off on vacation.”

She was disappointed. She’d hoped for another chance to convince him that he and Max
could
get along if they tried. “How’s Anna?” she asked Emmet.

“Couldn’t be better. When you called this morning to say that you’d be home, she started planning dinner right away. She’s in the kitchen now.”

“As soon as Max freshens up, he’ll be going to Beverly Hills to do some shopping,” Mary told Emmet. “You’ll want to get our luggage out of the Mercedes before he leaves.”

“Right away.”

She started toward the front door. “And would you get my car out of the garage? I’ve got a four-thirty appointment with Dr. Cauvel. I want—”

 
 
She regained consciousness as Max put her down on the bed in the second-floor master suite. She clung to him. She couldn’t stop shaking.

“Are you all right?”

“Hold me,” she said.

He did. “Easy. Easy now.”

She could feel the strong, unhurried beat of his heart. After a while she said, “I’m thirsty.”

“Is that all? Aren’t you hurt? Should I call a doctor?”

“Just get me some water.”

“You passed out.”

“I’m fine now.”

When he came back from the bathroom with the water, he helped her sit up. He held the glass, tilted it as she drank, nursed her as if she were a sick child. When she was finished, he said, “What happened?”

Leaning against the headboard, she said, “Another vision that I didn’t ask for. Only ... it’s different from anything that’s come before.”

She must have gone pale, for he said, “Calm down. It’s over.

He looked good. Marvelous. So big and reliable.

She did calm down somewhat, merely because he told her she should.

“I didn’t just
see
the damned thing, Max. I
felt
it. A knife. I felt a knife going into me, ripping me apart ... ”

She put one hand on her belly. There was no wound. No bruise. The flesh wasn’t even tender.

“Let me get this straight,” he said. “You saw yourself being stabbed to death?”

“No.”

“What
did
you see?”

She got up, waved him away as he moved to support her. She went to the window and looked out at the forty-foot pool behind the main house, at the lush grounds and at the Churchill’s little house at the far end of the property. Ordinarily she would have been calmed further by this evidence of prosperity
_;
but now it had no effect on her. “I saw another woman. Not me. But I felt her pain as if it were mine.”

“That’s never happened before.”

“It did this time.”

“Have you ever heard of another clairvoyant having the same experience? Hurkos? Croiset? Dykshoorn?”

“No.” She turned from the window. “What’s it mean? What’s going to happen to me?”

“Nothing will happen to you.” Convinced that she wasn’t ill, he began the gentle interrogation that could guide her through a vision in progress or through the memory of a vision that had passed. “Has this thing you just saw happened yet?”

“No.”

“This woman who will be stabbed ... was she one of those you saw in the nightmare last evening?”

“No. A new one.”

“Did you see her face clearly?”

“I did. But only briefly.”

Mary sat in a wing-back chair by the window. Her hands, against the brown crushed-velvet upholstery, were pale, almost translucent. She felt lighter than air, as if her existence were tenuous, as if she were fading away.

“What did this woman look like?” Max asked.

“Pretty.”

He paced before her. “Color of hair?”

“Brunette.”

“Eyes?”

“Green or blue.”

“Young?”

“Yes. About my age.”

“Did you sense her name?”

“No. But I think I’ve seen her before.”

“You thought the same of one of them last night.”

She nodded.

“What gives you the idea you know her?”

“I can’t say. It’s just an impression.”

“Was the scene of this crime the same as in last night’s vision?”

“No. This woman will be murdered ... in a beauty parlor.”

“At a hairdresser’s?”

“Yes. The beautician is a man.”

“What will happen to him?”

“He’ll be killed, too.”

“Any other victims?”

“A third. Another woman.”

She had sensed a great deal in the few seconds that the psychic images had coruscated through her mind. However, with each datum came the brutal recollection of that knife she had shared mystically with the dying woman.

“What’s the name of the beauty shop?” Max asked.

“I don’t know.”

“Where’s it located?”

“Not far from here.”

“In Orange County again?”

“Yes.”

“Which town?”

“I don’t know.”

He sighed, sat down in the armchair opposite hers. “Is the killer the same as the one you saw last night?”

“No doubt about it.”

“So he’s a repeater, a psychopath, a mass murderer. He’s going to kill four or five people in one place and three in another.”

“That may only be the start,” she said softly.

“What does he look like?”

“I still don’t know.”

“Is he a big man or small?”

“I don’t know.”

“What’s his name?”

“I wish I knew.”

“Is he young or old?”

“I don’t even know that.”

The room was stuffy. The air was stale, almost rank. She got up and opened the window.

“If you can’t get an image of him,” Max said, “how can you tell it’s the same killer in both visions?”

“I just
can,
that’s all.”