The Women (58 page)
They had. Of course they had. They made their living off of them, scoured the alleys and brothels and the dirtiest, lowliest dens to dig them up and show them in the light of day—for profit. For a good story. And here it was, as good a story as they were going to get: Frank was innocent of anything more than falling under the spell of a vamp, and she, Catherine, Kitty, his wife, stood behind him with all her heart.
For all that, though, she’d been abandoned, and she knew it. Frank didn’t write her. Didn’t cable or communicate in any way, though he must have known about the newspapers, must have known the position she’d been put in—but apparently she was a stranger to him now, worse than a stranger, because he wrote strangers all the time on one matter of business or another, bartering his precious prints or ordering so many custom-made suits or hats or board feet of cypress or a new saddle for the horse he couldn’t ride because he was away in Europe. What had she done to deserve such treatment? Such disdain? And this silence—above all, this maddening silence?
It was just after Christmas when he did finally write—to Lloyd, begging him to come over to Europe and help him work on the drawings for his portfolio—and Lloyd came directly to her because he was dutiful and loyal and took her side (all the children did, and Frank, when he returned to them, would just have to face the consequences of that). At first she was opposed to the idea. Outraged, in fact. Frank had run out on her and now he wanted to take her eldest son away from her too? What next, ship the whole family to Germany or Italy or wherever he was and install Mamah Cheney as their mother in her stead? No, she told him, absolutely not, and she spent a dismal afternoon in bed, alternately sobbing into the pillow and staring at the ceiling, feeling as lost and desolate as she ever had in her life. She might have stayed there the rest of the week if Llewellyn hadn’t come to the door dragging one of his battered toys behind him and asking her in one breath why she was so sad and informing her in the next that he was hungry. “Mama, will dinner be ready soon?” he asked her, and he was Frank entirely, not a trace of Tobin in him, Frank’s image exactly. “Because I’m hungry. I want a piece of cake. Can I have a piece of cake?”
After a while—dinner helped settle her, seeing the children gathered round the table chattering on about the events of their own lives, lives that had nothing to do with marital discord and the empty place at the head of the table—she began to see things in a different light. This was a positive sign, wasn’t it? At least Frank was reaching out—he must have been missing his family as much as they were missing him, their first Christmas apart, the house cheerless without him, every gift and song a sham, every ornament hung on the tree weighted with absence. Lloyd was nineteen, the age Frank was when he first apprenticed as an architect, and this would be his chance for employment, advancement, an association with his father and an opportunity to see the world—she couldn’t deny him that.
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And another thought occurred to her too, and if it was purely selfish, who could blame her? Lloyd would be her spy. He would bridge the silence, become her ears and eyes, shrink the gulf that lay between her and Frank, give her reason to hope again because Mamah was nothing, a fancy and nothing more, and he would be coming home, she knew he would. And Lloyd—how could he resist him, his own son?—would be the one to bring him back.
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And another thought occurred to her too, and if it was purely selfish, who could blame her? Lloyd would be her spy. He would bridge the silence, become her ears and eyes, shrink the gulf that lay between her and Frank, give her reason to hope again because Mamah was nothing, a fancy and nothing more, and he would be coming home, she knew he would. And Lloyd—how could he resist him, his own son?—would be the one to bring him back.
Lloyd left in mid-January, on a day so bleak and gray the sky might have been the lid of a coffin for all the light that shone through. How the newspapers found out about it she would never know, but there was a reporter waiting for them at the Oak Park station, insinuating himself between her and her son,
Just a few questions if you don’t mind.
Well, she did mind, of course she did, and so did the children, standing there on the platform looking stricken while she dabbed at her eyes and Lloyd sagged under the weight of his suitcases. She told him to wire her when he got to New York and then again when he reached Florence, because that was where Frank was apparently, basking under the Italian sun with his mistress while his family shivered through a thankless Chicago winter.
Just a few questions if you don’t mind.
Well, she did mind, of course she did, and so did the children, standing there on the platform looking stricken while she dabbed at her eyes and Lloyd sagged under the weight of his suitcases. She told him to wire her when he got to New York and then again when he reached Florence, because that was where Frank was apparently, basking under the Italian sun with his mistress while his family shivered through a thankless Chicago winter.
The article in the following day’s paper—FRANK LLOYD WRIGHT’S SON MAY REPAIR FAMILY BREACH;
Boy Sails for Italy Today at Request of Father, Who Eloped with Mrs. Edwin Cheney
—was one more intrusion, yet another humiliation in an ongoing series. She felt dirty. Felt as if she were the guilty one. And what would that be like, to take another man, feel him between her legs, his lips at her throat, her breasts? She couldn’t imagine. As hard as she tried to picture it, she could imagine only Frank, her husband, the only man she’d ever known. But then she thought of him with Mamah, and the whole scene dissolved in shame. She couldn’t face her neighbors, couldn’t bear the thought of encountering them on the street or at church or the grocery, of seeing the way they fabricated their pitying faces or shifted their eyes away from her as if she were contaminated, and so she stopped going out.
Boy Sails for Italy Today at Request of Father, Who Eloped with Mrs. Edwin Cheney
—was one more intrusion, yet another humiliation in an ongoing series. She felt dirty. Felt as if she were the guilty one. And what would that be like, to take another man, feel him between her legs, his lips at her throat, her breasts? She couldn’t imagine. As hard as she tried to picture it, she could imagine only Frank, her husband, the only man she’d ever known. But then she thought of him with Mamah, and the whole scene dissolved in shame. She couldn’t face her neighbors, couldn’t bear the thought of encountering them on the street or at church or the grocery, of seeing the way they fabricated their pitying faces or shifted their eyes away from her as if she were contaminated, and so she stopped going out.
Very gradually, as the weeks and months began to accumulate, she found herself adjusting to his absence. Spring crept softly into the trees, the days warming and the sun painting stripes across the lawn, and she went out and turned over her flower garden like any other widow or spinster or deserted woman—and there must have been thousands of them out there somewhere, legions, a whole army, only not in Oak Park, not in Saints’ Rest where every woman had a man on her arm and every pew was filled with the upright and the true—and then it was June and the children matriculated and the long high-crowned days of summer settled in. She had regular letters from Lloyd, but even he seemed distant to her now, someone she’d known in a previous life. Like Frank. Who was living in Fiesole with his son and a hired draftsman, working steadily on converting his designs to the format required by the publisher, while Mamah had stayed on in Berlin, teaching English at a school there. Could it be that he’d tired of her already? She wouldn’t let herself hope because before she knew it, it was fall again, the children returned to school and her husband gone out of her life for nearly a year now. A year. A year entire. And how many years did anyone have, any couple, that they could be squandered like that?
She wouldn’t hope, wouldn’t believe, but here came the letter from her son to say that Frank was coming home, alone, first to New York and then to Chicago and the house he’d built in Oak Park for her and the children, his children, his and hers. He was coming home. He was already on his way. He’d be back before the leaves changed and the frost rimed the lawn. She had to catch her breath—the frost had already built up inside of her, ice, a rigid wall of it, and the letter, two thin sheets of paper, melted it in a rush that swept everything away before it, the sweetest abstersion.
Home. He was coming home.
And when he did arrive, finally, in the automobile of one of his clients who tried to hide his face for shame and wouldn’t get out of the car,
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he strode up the walk as if he’d never been away and the children rushed to him, Llewellyn clinging to his waist and Frances dancing in his arms as the reporters scribbled on their ragged sheets and she held her smile till it burned.
Home. He was coming home.
And when he did arrive, finally, in the automobile of one of his clients who tried to hide his face for shame and wouldn’t get out of the car,
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he strode up the walk as if he’d never been away and the children rushed to him, Llewellyn clinging to his waist and Frances dancing in his arms as the reporters scribbled on their ragged sheets and she held her smile till it burned.
If she had any illusions they were soon crushed, because once he was out of sight of the reporters he barely glanced at her, and after dinner—their first family dinner in a year—he set himself up to sleep in the studio. Not in her bed—not
their
bed—but the studio. She’d thought about that for a long while, about the sleeping arrangements, because she wasn’t just going to roll over and let him have his way with her after taking that slut to his bed—she was going to give him a good piece of her mind, a real verbal thrashing, and it would take time to heal the wounds, of course it would—but this was her husband, the man she loved, and in time there would be reconciliation, tenderness, forgiveness. She foresaw taking him to her, the old Frank, and he’d be contrite, needy—he’d beg her, beg for it. But she was delusional, wasn’t she? He wasn’t the old Frank and never would be. He was like an enemy combatant, cold as death in the winter, and if he stayed under her roof it was for show only. And while the newspapers crowed out their headlines—WRIGHT RETURNS TO OAK PARK WIFE,
Family Welcomes Architect Who Went to Europe with Neighbor’s Spouse
—it was all an imposture. He used the children as a buffer, wouldn’t look her in the eye. And every time she tried to dig deeper, assay the ground, look into his face to see where she stood, he’d jump up and leave the room.
their
bed—but the studio. She’d thought about that for a long while, about the sleeping arrangements, because she wasn’t just going to roll over and let him have his way with her after taking that slut to his bed—she was going to give him a good piece of her mind, a real verbal thrashing, and it would take time to heal the wounds, of course it would—but this was her husband, the man she loved, and in time there would be reconciliation, tenderness, forgiveness. She foresaw taking him to her, the old Frank, and he’d be contrite, needy—he’d beg her, beg for it. But she was delusional, wasn’t she? He wasn’t the old Frank and never would be. He was like an enemy combatant, cold as death in the winter, and if he stayed under her roof it was for show only. And while the newspapers crowed out their headlines—WRIGHT RETURNS TO OAK PARK WIFE,
Family Welcomes Architect Who Went to Europe with Neighbor’s Spouse
—it was all an imposture. He used the children as a buffer, wouldn’t look her in the eye. And every time she tried to dig deeper, assay the ground, look into his face to see where she stood, he’d jump up and leave the room.
There came a night a week into it when the first cold spell blew down out of Canada and they all sat round the hearth after dinner to listen to his fine voice as he spun out one story after another, now rhapsodizing the play of the morning light on the olive trees at Fiesole or describing the way the fishermen flung their nets into the waves for sardines at Piombino, now breaking into song and making up a nursery rhyme on the spot for Llewellyn. She never took her eyes from him. She smiled a false smile, laughed for the sake of the children, but the look of him—the mobile face, the easy grin, the posturing of a confidence man, utterly at his ease, unrepentant, murderous in his intent—infuriated her. She would have it out with him. She was determined. And she wasn’t going to leave the room, not even to put Llewellyn to bed, until she caught him alone.
Eventually, the party began to break up, the children drifting off to their rooms, to their books and lessons, till only Llewellyn remained. Her youngest seemed both puzzled and fascinated by his father, this apparition he’d heard so much about over the course of the past year, six years old and trying his best to reconcile the shadowy figment of his memory with the real presence of this self-consciously zany figure in the inglenook, and why wouldn’t he be confused? He insisted on sitting in Frank’s lap the whole time, demanding his attention, touching his face and hands and pressing his head to his chest again and again as if to make sure of him—she could see that Frank was finding it a strain, and under other circumstances she might have spoken out. “Stop fussing,” she would have said. Or: “Isn’t it time for bed?” But she said nothing. Just watched. Until Frank, exasperated, gave her a look. “Shouldn’t he be in bed by now?”
“Yes, he should be,” she said, but she didn’t get up to lift the child in her arms like the dutiful wife and mother, didn’t coo or cajole or even crack a smile.
“I don’t want to go to bed,” Llewellyn put in. “I want to stay here with Papa.”
Frank let out a sigh. “Well, why don’t you take him, then?”
“Why don’t you? You’re his father, aren’t you?”
“Don’t start in,” he said, and she wanted to laugh in his face. Who was he to tell her what to do? She was the one stuck with the bills, stuck with the house, the children, his mother.
“Llewellyn,” she snapped, “get to bed. Now!”
The child looked startled—sleepy, cranky—but startled too. He wanted to raise a fuss, she could see that, but the tone of her voice warned him off. Very slowly, as if he were climbing down from an impossibly high and treacherous place, feeling for footholds all the way, he left his father’s lap and started across the room, head down and shoulders slumped in defeat. “I’ll be up shortly,” she said, softening. And she looked at Frank. “I must speak with your father a minute.”
But Frank was already on his feet, shying away from her, and she had to come up out of the chair and take hold of his arm to keep him there in the room with her. “You tell me,” she said, trying to keep her voice under control, “just what’s going on here. And you tell me now.”
The look he gave her was absolutely empty. He wasn’t annoyed or angry, only indifferent. “As soon as I can make the arrangements, I’m leaving,” he said.
“Leaving? What do you mean? You just got here—”
She thought she heard footsteps in the hallway. There was a thump from the floor above. The house ticked and hummed around her like some alien space, a place she’d never inhabited, never been happy in.
He jerked his arm away from her. “I want a divorce,” he said.
She ignored him. She wouldn’t listen. Wouldn’t hear him. “But where will you go?” she heard herself say. “Where will you live?”
His face went secret. She saw that he’d been planning this a long time—the break, the final break, all the fanfare of his homecoming just a pretense so he could appear properly contrite for the public so the public would give him commissions and go on lionizing him rather than suffer him like the pariah he was. “My mother,” he said.
“Your mother? You’re going to move in with your mother? Are you mad? Have you lost your mind?”
“She’s selling her house. She doesn’t want to be here anymore. She”—and he hesitated over the lie—“she wants to go back to the country, to Wisconsin. To be close to her people, her sisters and brothers.”
She was silent a moment, trying to take it all in. There was a calculation here, an algebra of the emotions as abstruse as anything in any of the textbooks on her children’s desks. Stupidly, she said, “You’re not serious. You’re joking. Tell me this is some kind of cruel joke.”
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