The Women of Brewster Place (3 page)

“Quit lying, Mattie. Don’t you think I know what them sanctimonious folks like your daddy say about me?”

Mattie rose to her father’s defense. “Well, you do got a bad reputation.”

“Why? ’Cause I live my life and ’low other folks to live theirs? ’Cause if I had a pretty black gal like you for a daughter, I wouldn’t have her nigh on twenty-one years old and not keeping company so she’s so dumb she don’t know her ass from her elbow? What he savin’ you up for—his self?”

Mattie stopped abruptly. “Papa was right after all. You is nothin’ but a filthy, low-down ditch dog! And I musta been crazy to think I could spend a civil afternoon with you.” And she turned back toward home.

Butch grabbed her arm. “Lord have mercy, I must be improving in his sight! He forgot to add no-’count. You think that’s sufficient encouragement for me to come callin’ Sunday evening?” He said this with a mock innocence that was masterly devoid of any sarcasm.

In spite of herself, Mattie had to bite on her bottom lip to hold back a smile. “For your information, Mr. Fuller, I already keep company on Sunday afternoons.”

“With who?”

“Fred Watson.”

“Gal, that ain’t keeping company. That’s sitting up at a wake.”

The stifled smile broke through her compressed lips as she thought of those boring evenings with the deadpan Fred Watson, but he was the only man in the church that her
father thought good enough for her.

“And here I was all set to get jealous or something, and you come talkin’ about old dead Fred. Why, I could come in there and steal you away with two full suitcases ’fore Fred would be able to blink an eye. You notice it takes him twice as long to blink than most folks?”

“I ain’t noticed no such thing,” Mattie lied.

Butch looked at her out of the corner of his eye. “Well, the next time you and Fred are sittin’ on your daddy’s front porch in one of them hot, passionate courtin’ sessions—’fore you nod off to sleep—notice how he blinks.”

I will not laugh, Mattie kept repeating to herself; I will not laugh even if I have to burst open and die.

They soon came to the edge of the cane field, and Butch took the machete from her and went through the tall grass, picking out the best stalks. She felt disquieting stirrings at the base of her stomach and in her fingertips as she watched his strong lean body bend and swing the wide-bladed knife against the green and brownish stalks.

Whenever he came upon one that was especially ripe, he would hold it over his head, his two muscled arms glistening with sweat, and call out, “This one’s like you, Mattie—plump and sweet,” or, “Lord, see how that beautiful gal is makin’ me work.”

She knew it was all in fun. Everything about Butch was like puffed air and cotton candy, but it thrilled her anyway whenever he straightened up to call to her through the tall grass.

When he had cut about a dozen canes, he gathered them up and brought them out to the edge of the field. He kneeled down, took some cord from his pocket, and bound the stalks into two bundles. When he got off his knees, he smelled like a mixture of clean sweat, raw syrup, and topsoil. He took a bundle of cane under each arm.

“Mattie, reach into my overall top and pull my kerchief. This sweat is blindin’ me.”

She was conscious of the hardness of his chest under her
probing fingers as she sought the handkerchief, and when she stood on her toes to wipe his wet brow, her nipples brushed the coarse denim of his overalls and began to strain against the thin dress. These new feelings confused Mattie, and she felt that she had somehow drifted too far into strange waters and if she didn’t turn around soon, she would completely forget in which direction the shore lay—or worse, not even care.

“Well, we got our cane. Let’s get home,” she said abruptly.

“Now, ain’t that just like a woman?” Butch shifted the heavy stalks. “Bring a man clear out of his way to cut three times as much cane as he needed for hisself and then want to double-time him back home before he gets a minute’s rest or them wild herbs he really came all this way fo’.”

“Aw right.” Mattie sucked her teeth impatiently and picked up the machete. “Where’s the herb patch?”

“Just by the clearing of them woods.”

The temperature dropped at least ten degrees on the edge of the thick, tangled dogwood, and the deep green basil and wild thyme formed a fragrant blanket on the mossy earth. Butch dropped the cane and sank down on the ground with a sigh.

“Jesus, this is nice,” he said, looking around and inhaling the cool air. He seemed puzzled that Mattie was still standing. “Lord, gal, ain’t your feet tired after all that walking?”

Mattie cautiously sat down on the ground and put her father’s machete between them. The refreshing dampness of the forest air did little to relieve the prickling heat beneath her skin.

“You blaspheme too much,” she said irritably. “You ain’t supposed to use the Lord’s name in vain.”

Butch shook his head. “You folks and your ain’ts. You ain’t supposed to do this and you ain’t supposed to do that. That’s why I never been no Christian—to me it means you can’t enjoy life and since we only here once, that seems a shame.”

“Nobody said nothin’ about not enjoying life, but I suppose runnin’ after every woman that moves is your idea of
enjoyment?” Mattie was trying desperately to work up a righteous anger against Butch. She needed something to neutralize the lingering effect of his touch and smell.

“Mattie, I don’t run after a lot of women, I just don’t stay long enough to let the good times turn sour. Ya know, befo’ the two of us get into a rut and we’re cussing and fighting and just holding on because we done forgot how to let go. Ya see, all the women I’ve known can never remember no bad days with me. So when they stuck with them men who are ignorin’ ’em or beatin’ and cheatin’ on ’em, they sit up on their back porches shelling peas and they thinks about old Butch, and they say, Yeah, that was one sweet, red nigger—all our days were sunlight; maybe it was a short time, but it sure felt good.”

What he said made sense to Mattie, but there was something remiss in his reasoning and she couldn’t quite figure out what it was.

“Now you think about it,” he said, “how many women I ever went with ever had anything ornery to say about me? Maybe their mamas or papas had something to say,” and he smiled slyly across the grass, “or their husbands—but never them. Think about it.”

She searched her mind and, surprisingly, couldn’t come up with one name.

Butch grinned triumphantly as he watched her face and could almost see the mental checklist she was running through.

“Well,” Mattie threw at him, “there’s probably a couple I just ain’t met.”

Butch laid his head back and his laughter lit up the dark trees.

“Lord, that’s what I like about you Michael women—you hardly ever at a loss for words. Mattie, Mattie Michael,” he chanted softly under his breath, his eyes caressing her face. “Where’d you get a sir name like Michael? Shouldn’t it be Michaels?”

“Naw, Papa said that when the emancipation came, his daddy was just a little boy, and he had been hard of hearing so his master and everyone on the plantation had to call him twice to get his attention. So his name being Michael, they always called him Michael-Michael. And when the Union census taker came and was registering black folks, they asked what my granddaddy’s name was, and they said Michael-Michael was all they knew. So the dumb Yankee put that down and we been Michael ever since.”

Mattie’s father loved telling her that story, and she in turn enjoyed repeating it to anyone who questioned her strange last name. As she talked, Butch was careful not to let his eyes wander below her neck. He knew she was sitting over there like a timid starling, poised for flight. And the slightest movement on his part would frighten her away for good.

So he listened to her with his eyes intently on her face while his mind slipped down the ebony neck that was just plump enough for a man to bury his nose into and suck up tiny bits of flesh that were almost as smooth as the skin on the top of her full round breasts that held nipples that were high, tilted, and unbelievably even darker than the breasts, so that when they touched the tongue there was the sensation of drinking rich, double cocoa. A man could spend half a lifetime there alone, but the soft mound of her belly whispered to him, and his mind reached down and kneaded it ever so gently until it was supple and waiting. And then the tip of his tongue played round and round the small cavern in the center of her stomach, while the hands tried to memorize every curve and texture of the inner thighs and lightly pressed outward to widen the legs so they could move through them and get lost in the eternity of softness on her behind. And she would wait and wait, getting fuller and fuller until finally pleading with him to do something—anything—to stop the expansion before she burst open her skin and lay in a million pieces among the roots of the trees and the leaves of the tiny basil.

When Mattie finished her story, Butch was looking down at the sugar cane and tracing the handle of his jackknife along the thick segmented ridges.

“You know how to eat sugar cane, Mattie?” he asked, still tracing the ridges. He avoided looking at her, afraid of what she would read in his eyes.

“You a crazy nigger, Butch Fuller. First you ask me ’bout my name and then come up with some out-the-way question like that. I been eating sugar cane all my life, fool!”

“Naw,” Butch said, “some folks die and never learn how to eat cane the right way.” He got on his knees, broke off one of the stalks, and began to peel it with his knife. He was speaking so softly Mattie had to lean closer to hear him.

“You see,” he said, “eating cane is like living life. You gotta know when to stop chewing—when to stop trying to wrench every last bit of sweetness out of a wedge—or you find yourself with a jawful of coarse straw that irritates your gums and the roof of your mouth.”

The thick blade of the knife slid under the heavy green covering on the stalk, and clear, beady juices sprang to the edges and glistened in the dying afternoon sun.

“The trick,” he said, cutting off a slice of the stiff, yellow fiber, “is to spit it out while the wedge is still firm and that last bit of juice—the one that promises to be the sweetest of the whole mouthful—just escapes the tongue. It’s hard, but you gotta spit it out right then, or you gonna find yourself chewing on nothin’ but straw in that last round. Ya know what I mean, Mattie?”

He finally looked her straight in the face, and Mattie found herself floating far away in the brown sea of his irises, where the words, shoreline and anchor, became like gibberish in some foreign tongue.

“Here,” he said, holding out a piece of the cane wedge to her, “try it the way I told you.”

And she did.

Mattie’s father had not spoken a word to either her or his wife in two days. The torturing silence in the house was far worse than the storm that Mattie had prepared herself to take when her mother had told him about her pregnancy. Samuel Michael had never been a talkative man, but his calm, steady habits had brought a sense of security and consistency to their home. Mattie had been the only child of his autumn years, and so for as long as she could remember, he had been an old man with set and exacting ways. Unlike her mother he never raised his voice, and when the two had a difference of opinion, her mother would charge around the house, mumbling and banging pans, while he would just sit on the porch rocker and read his Bible.

Once Mattie had wanted a pair of patent-leather pumps like the girls in town, and her mother had said they were too expensive and impractical for their dusty country roads. Sam refused to take sides in the battle over the shoes, which lasted for weeks, but he went and hired himself out in the sweet potato fields for a month of Saturdays, brought home the shoes, and dropped them in her lap—wear ’em only on Sundays were his first and last words on the matter.

His had been the first face Mattie had seen when she opened her eyes after a week of blinding scarlet fever. He had simply touched her forehead and went to call her mother to come and change her nightgown. It was her mother, and not him, who later told her that he had neglected his farm and insisted on sitting by her bed every day—all day—while the life was burning and sweating out of her pores. It became a legend in those parts, and even her mother never knew how he had gotten the white doctor from town to make that long trip to the house for her. Sam never mentioned it, and no one dared ask.

But this silence was different. It was compressed tightly
in a vacuum that was so vast that her spirit grew weary attempting to cross it, and so it would return to her to rest feverishly against her sorrowing heart.

“Mama, I can’t stand much more of this,” she whispered miserably to her mother, as they were washing the dinner dishes.

Her father had stonily finished his meal and gone out to his rocker, where he would sit reading his Bible until late in the night.

“Don’t worry, baby,” Fannie sighed, “he’ll come round. This here thing done hurt him, that’s all.”

“Oh, Mama, I’m so ashamed.”

“Ain’t nothing to be shamed of. Havin’ a baby is the most natural thing there is. The Good Book call children a gift from the Lord. And there ain’t no place in that Bible of His that say babies is sinful. The sin is the fornicatin’, and that’s over and done with. God done forgave you of that a long time ago, and what’s going on in your belly now ain’t nothin’ to hang your head about—you remember that.”

“You didn’t tell him it was Butch, did you?”

“Gal, you think I want to see my man in jail for killin’ the likes of Butch Fuller? And besides, it ain’t for me to tell.”

They heard the screen door slam shut.

“Butt, come here,” Sam called.

Mattie jumped at the unaccustomed sound of his voice. She was finally being summoned across that vacuum, and her spirit rose instinctively to obey, but she held it back in fear of what it might meet there. She looked pleadingly at her mother for help in this dilemma, and the older woman patted her shoulder and whispered in her ear, “Go on now. I told you he’d come round. That man lives and breathes for you.”