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Table of Contents

Title Page

Table of Contents

Copyright

Dedication

Epigraph

I

Iris

Jonah

Iris

II

Jonah

Iris

Lily

Iris

Jonah

Iris

Lily

Jonah

Iris

Jonah

Lily

Iris

III

Lily

Jonah

Lily

Jonah

Iris

Jonah

Lily

Jonah

Iris

IV

Lily

Iris

Jonah

Iris

Lily

Jonah

Iris

Jonah

Lily

Iris

V

Jonah

Iris

Lily

Iris

Lily

Jonah

Iris

Jonah

Iris

Jonah

Iris

VI

Iris

Iris

Lily

Jonah

Iris

Iris

Acknowledgments

Copyright © 2012 by Jennifer Miller

All rights reserved

For information about permission to reproduce selections from this book, write to Permissions, Houghton Mifflin Harcourt Publishing Company, 215 Park Avenue South, New York, New York 10003.

www.hmhbooks.com

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

Miller, Jennifer, date.

The year of the gadfly: a novel / Jennifer Miller.

p. cm.

ISBN 978-0-547-54859-3

1. Upper class families—Fiction. 2. Kidnapping—Fiction. 3. Murder—Investigation—Fiction. 4. Coming of age— Fiction. 5. Adolescence—Fiction. 6. Journalists—Fiction. 7. Hallucinations and illusions—Fiction. 8. Massachusetts—Fiction. I. Title.

PS3613.I5378Y43 2012

813'.6—dc23   2011042369

Printed in the United States of America

DOC 10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1

For Ben

You may feel irritated at being suddenly awakened when you are caught napping; and you may think that if you were to strike me dead as you easily might, then you would sleep on for the remainder of your lives, unless God in his care of you gives you another gadfly.

—Plato's Apology

I
Piezophiles

These pressure-loving microbes live in the ocean depths under extreme hydrostatic pressure. They exist not in spite of the ocean's crushing weight, but
because
of it. Without this pressure to fight against, they would perish.

—Marvelous Species: Investigating Earth's Mysterious Biology

Iris
August 2012

THE DAYS WERE
already growing shorter, prodding us toward summer's end, when my mother and I left Boston for the sequestered town of Nye. She hummed to the radio and I sat strapped into the passenger seat, like a convict being shuttled between prisons. In the last six months my Beacon Hill neighborhood had shrunk to the size of a single room: Dr. Patrick's office, with its greasy magazines and hieroglyphic water stains. The vast landscape that opened before us now wasn't any more comforting. The mountainous peaks resembled teeth. The road stretched between them like a black tongue. And here we were, in our small vehicle, speeding toward that awful mouth.

From the maps and photographs I had uncovered at the Boston Public Library, I knew that Nye would be a nest of gloomy woods sunk into one of these mountains. The mountain had no name, which troubled me. Even the word “Nye” sounded like a negation, an absence, a place conflicted about its own existence.

My mother (Ivy League MRS recipient and full-time philanthropy board member) was unimpressed by this detail. In fact, she was chipper as a
Today Show
host. “Isn't it exciting, Iris! Starting high school on a new foot?”

“You want to replace my biological foot with a prosthetic one?”

“Don't give me that cliché nonsense.”

You mean anti-cliché nonsense,
I thought, and switched the station to NPR. I tried to let the familiar voices soothe me, but every mile brought us closer to the hunching mountains, those hills overlapping like the folds of a thick curtain, hiding Nye from sight.

The official reason for my family's move was professional. My father (savvy businessman, befuddled parent) was opening a second Berkshires resort for tourists who liked to experience nature while they had their leg hair singed off with lasers and their eyelashes dyed. The unofficial reason we were leaving Boston, however, was Dr. Patrick. I'd started seeing him six months before, after my mother found me arguing emphatically with the wall. Well, all
she
saw was the wall, but I was having a conference with my spiritual mentor, Edward R. Murrow. (And, yes, I knew he'd been dead for forty-seven years, but why should a person limit her interlocutors to the living?) And because there was no “What to Do When Your Daughter Talks to Dead Journalists” chapter in the myriad self-help books my mom had been reading, she shipped me straight off to the good doctor.

After rooting around inside my head for a while, Dr. Patrick decided I was in the “gray area for developing depression and anxiety.” (“Gray area” was a cliché, I complained to Murrow. If Patrick was going to worry his patients with ominous diagnoses, he could at least do so with less tired nouns and verbs.) Of course, the announcement of my encroaching mental collapse sent my parents into nuclear-winter mode. It wasn't healthy, they fretted, for a fourteen-year-old to spend her time writing rough drafts of her Pulitzer Prize acceptance speech, or to show a greater interest in nationally renowned media personalities than in boys, or to make imaginary friends instead of real ones. I'd had a “very difficult year” (hardly breaking news to this reporter), and I needed a chance to heal. So off we went to my very own Magic Mountain.

 

I'd been watching the trees flash by for hours now, hypnotized by the endless thicket of forest, when our car rounded a bend and hurled us toward a wall of rock. I gripped the seat, bracing for the crash, but the road skirted the rock face by inches and swept us into the mountains. Their shadows engulfed our car like nets and hauled us in. Soon we were ascending a series of slopes, each steeper and more densely wooded than the one before it. Whoever built these roads had confused a highway with a roller coaster, and my stomach twisted with the wrenching turns and precipitous climbs. The leaves shivered, reminding me of my best friend, Dalia, bare-armed and shaking in the late-fall wind. I don't remember why she'd run outside on that particular occasion, only that her father was forced to carry her back into the house.

“Roll up the window, sweetie,” my mother said, and the picture of Dalia dissolved in a blur. I stared in the side mirror, watching as the trees swallowed the road. The seat belt held me like a straitjacket.

In the late afternoon we turned onto Church Street. After our long ascent toward Nye, we were suddenly plunging downward as though into the pit of a canyon. Tall, turreted Victorians rose to the left and right, narrow and sharp as spikes. They reminded me of oversize dollhouses in various stages of decay and abandonment. My mother kept her foot on the brake, the car sliding around each turn. And just when I swore we were going to fall into some sinkhole and never be heard from again, we stopped. There before us were three stories of creamy, upper-middle-class, Colonial largesse, complete with wraparound porch and swing. This home belonged to my father's friend Elliott Morgan, and we'd be living here while the house my parents had bought underwent renovations. Mr. Morgan was in my father's final club at Harvard (i.e., mated to him for life), and as he was currently in London researching a book on long-winded British writers, he'd offered us his family manse. A small team of movers who'd come ahead with my father scurried back and forth through the open front door.

I unfastened myself and went to inspect an enormous oak tree standing sentry at the yard's edge. The tree was gnarled with branches that rose above my head in endless chutes and ladders. I felt an urge to shimmy up the trunk and burrow into the leaves. Instead, I went looking for my bedroom. I was to live in the space previously occupied by the Morgans' only child, Lily, now grown and departed from the Commonwealth. “It makes perfect sense,” my mother said when she first announced the decision. Perfect sense to sleep in another girl's bed, study at her desk, pee in her toilet? Or maybe we were doppelgangers, since I was a flower (Iris) and she was a flower (Lily). Of course, Lilies were no competition for Irises. Iris was the goddess of dawn and helped the Dionysian masses wake up hangover free. Lilies, on the other hand, reeked of death. Even in new bloom, their sweetness smelled rotten.

I'd never met Lily, but I knew (excellent eavesdropper being part of my growing reporter's skill set) that she had suffered some awful tragedy as a teenager. The parents Dupont refused to provide specifics when I questioned them, worried as they were about my fragile emotional state. “It's in the past,” my mother said.

Anyway, I knew Lily's room when I found it. From the carpet to the flowered wallpaper to the matching bedspread, it was colored like a powder puff. I eyed the pink dust ruffle that skipped across the bed frame and the lacy pink pillows. Not only did Lily appear to have a princess complex, but her room looked like it hadn't been touched in years. Most parents turned childhood bedrooms into home offices when their kids left for college, unless a child died young. But Lily was alive and well, my parents said—a health worker in Africa.

I walked by the boxes the movers had left on the carpet and checked out the view. Church Street rose slick and black uphill, sweet for sledding as long as I minded the oak tree at the bottom. Beside the window sat a desk with a monstrous computer and a corded telephone. They seemed like relics from a distant past.

“Iris!” my father's voice boomed from the first floor. “Iris, are you in the house?”

I opened Lily's closet. Had the movers already unpacked the navy blue and maroon uniforms from my new school? No—these were Lily's old clothes, still on their hangers after a decade. Bizarre people, these Morgans. I pushed her uniforms back to make room for mine.

Nye has two school choices for families concerned with academic rigor and social prestige: Mariana Academy and Blessed Sacrament. And because Mariana has been scandal central in recent years (the New England parental grapevine travels at broadband speed), I was sure I'd be packed off to Blessed Sacrament faster than you can say Jesus Christ Superstar. Luckily, Mr. Morgan stepped in from across the pond to make a pitch for Mariana's academic superiority. As the school's former headmaster, he refused to hear of me going anywhere else.

The absence of dictatorial nuns was a bonus, but Mariana's uniform wasn't much better than the one at BS. Sartorial brainwashing, I told my mother, and she countered by producing a
New York Times
Sunday Styles article about the “hot private school trend” of accessorizing. I explained that a so-called trend in a major national newspaper these days consisted of no more than three people (usually the reporter's friends) doing the same thing at the same time. And in any case I had my own kind of accessories: a smartphone with digital recorder, a reporter's notebook, and ballpoints.

“Iris! Sweetie, are you all right?” My mother had joined my father in the search effort.

I started opening boxes. I found a picture of my junior high newspaper staff and then a photograph of Dalia. She stood in the snow, her lips red as though stained with cherry juice.

“We were calling you, Iris!” I turned to see my parents in the doorway. My mother looked at me with concern. My father looked at my mother with concern. And I wished the door were closed so I wouldn't have to look at either of them.

“I heard you
loud and clear,
” I said, infusing the cliché with ample sarcasm. My mother didn't notice, though, because she was looking at the picture of Dalia in my hands. I put the picture down, and my mother glanced up, her eyes damp. My father put his hand on her back and led her away. When they left, I found my Edward R. Murrow poster and hung it on Lily's wall. The poster showed Murrow beside a British taxi, the suave tilt of his fedora casting a shadow over his left eye, an unlit cigarette propped between two gloved fingers. Moments after the photo was taken, he would have zoomed off to report the action of the day. But for this one moment he stood frozen, his shrewd face ready to greet me whenever I walked into the room.

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